Ya a new entry....wow that sounded a little too preppy...

Anyways, an update. I didn't die. I was drowning in a sea of portfolios. I made it through the waves, but now I hate them with a burning passion.

So onward...

For Ash, since you wanted to know my twenty things her they are.

20 things I want to do before I am 20.

1. Pierce my ears again.
2. Draw a manga.
3. Finish getting my driver's licence.
4. Complete a story that I started to write.
5. [Have my first kiss.]*Lost mine in grade three..uh huh..*
6. [Learn to swing dance.]
7. [Win a raffle.]
8. [Have my room remain clean for more than three days.]
9. Go to Anime North at least once... in costume.
10. [Have a conversation in French.]
11. Go hiking with no determined finish.
12. Play tennis on a tennis court...Streets down't count.
13. Go to a ball of some sort.
14. [Take a risk in life.]*Ash you know what I am talking about* *Plus I almost drowned once soo I've done it twice.*
15. [Catch a snowflake on my tongue]*I finally did that yesterday!*
16. Sing Home Sweet Alabama in the shower.
17. Kiss in the rain....I mean come on, who doesn't...
18. Clean out under my bed.
19. [Learn to make my own clothes.]
20. To be afraid.


I learned to waltz today....now to take those steps and make them go into a circle instead of a box shape.


The song playing right now...Hmm strange, it suits the moment...scary...

"Suicide Blonde" by INXS

Suicide blonde, suicide blonde
Suicide blonde, suicide blonde
Suicide blonde was the colour of her hair
Like a cheap distraction
For a new affair
She knew it would finish
Before it began
Something tells me you lost the plan

You want to make her
Suicide Blonde
Love devastation
Suicide Blonde

You want to make her
Suicide Blonde
Love devastation
Suicide Blonde

She stripped to the beat
But her clothes stay on
White light everywhere
But you can't see a thing
Such a squeeze
A mad, sad moment
Glory to you, glory to you, take me there

Got some revelation put into your hands
Save you from your misery
Like rain across the land
Don't you see
The colour of deception
Turning your world around again

You want to make her
Suicide Blonde
Love devastation
Suicide Blonde

You want to make her
Suicide Blonde
Love devastation
Suicide Blonde

[repeat till fade]

Reposting some stuff ....


["I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian.]
I am the prostitute working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual woman.
[I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights. ]
We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time.
[I am the man who died alone in the hospital because they would not let my partner of twenty-seven years into the room.]
I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had. I
wish they could adopt me.
[I am one of the lucky ones, I guess. I survived the attack that left me in a coma for three weeks, and in another year I will probably be able to walk again. ]
I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks before graduating high school. It was simply too much to bear.
[We are the couple who had the realtor hang up on us when she found out we wanted to rent a one-bedroom for two men. ]
I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to avoid getting the management called on me.
[I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised. The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another woman. ]
I am the domestic-violence survivor who found the support system grow suddenly cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner is also a woman.
[I am the domestic-violence survivor who has no support system to turn to because I am male. ]
I am the father who has never hugged his son because I grew up afraid to show affection to other men.
[I am the home-economics teacher who always wanted to teach gym until someone told me that only lesbians do that. ]
I am the man who died when the paramedics stopped treating me as soon as they realized I was transsexual.
[I am the person who feels guilty because I think I could be a much better person if I didn’t have to always deal with society hating me. ]
I am the man who stopped attending church, not because I don't believe, but because they closed their doors to my kind.
[I am the person who has to hide what this world needs most, love. ]
[repost this if you believe homophobia is wrong"]


READ THIS
"difference between FAKE ASS friends and REAL friends]


FAKE ASS FRIENDS: Never ask for food.


REAL FRIENDS: are the reason you have no food.


FAKE ASS FRIENDS: Call your parents Mr/Mrs


REAL FRIENDS: Call your parents DAD/MOM


FAKE ASS FRIENDS: bail you out of jail and tell you what you did was wrong.


REAL FRIENDS: Would sit next to you sayin "Damn ... we fucked up ... but that shit was fun!"


FAKE ASS FRIENDS: never seen you cry.


REAL FRIENDS: cry with you


FAKE ASS FRIENDS: Borrow your stuff for a few days then give it back.


REAL FRIENDS: keep your shit so long they forget its yours.


FAKE ASS FRIENDS: know a few things about you.


REAL FRIENDS: Could write a book about you with direct quotes from you.


FAKE ASS FRIENDS: Will leave you behind if that is what the crowd is doing.


REAL FRIENDS: Will kick the whole crowds ass that left you.


FAKE ASS FRIENDS: Would knock on your front door.


REAL FRIENDS: Walk right in and say "I'M HOME!"


FAKE ASS FRIENDS: Are for awhile.


REAL FRIENDS: Are for life.


FAKE ASS FRIENDS: Will take your drink away when they think you've had enough.


REAL FRIENDS: Will look at you stumbling all over the place and say "Bitch drink the rest of that you know we don't waste."


FAKE ASS FRIENDS: will talk shit to the person who talks shit about you.


REAL FRIENDS: Will knock them the fuck out


FAKE ASS FRIENDS: Would ignore this

[REAL FRIENDS: Will repost it]

'Poor Midori's gone and gotten herself sick, princess we love you, get better. And I have one last exam. And on top of that my dvd burner doesnt work! Damn it!' Raven

Umm... quetsion *cough* Since when am I a princess? I thought I was a pain in the ass...*cough*

sooooo sick...kill me now...

Today I was talking to Ash and well the conversation took a turn for the worst...or so it seems.

I was working on a project and I was yelling the table.

AND...

Now at this point I can't remember what I said...that was 10 minutes ago...

Plus Ash wouldn't tell me what I said...All she kept going on about was a bison...

Ash, my friend, go back about a 100 years and go to Western Canada, you'll find lots there. Good luck.

AND ASH, I AM NOT A JERK! Just clairifying. But you love me anyways. ^.^

NIGHTSHADE, I would like the new shojobeat. PLEASE!!!!

MIDORI

Okay, the holidays....

ACK! They were enough to drive anyone insane... or make the insane become sane.

Well ac ouple days ago, I went to Ash's house, thus being my first trip out of the house for the holiday season, and the new year.

We spent a lot of time up that night. Barely got enough sleep between the both of us.

Oh ya qoutes from that night...

"I am so telling Sarah!!!"
-Ash at 1:46 am

"So what are you going to do? Throw me up against a wall, pin my hands above my head and rape me?...What are you giving me that look for? It was saracasm!"
-At 1:56 am, said by me to Ash after she theatened to do something to me if I reveal one of her secrets...

"It's 2:10 and the British are coming but all is well!"
-Ash and I...In Memory of Sarah's grade 10 party!

Anyways, after a COUPLE of hours of sleep, we end up going to the mall. Then coming back to play "I never..."

If you don't know what that is go find out...

We ended up playing with vingear...and I won. Vingear was used for certain reasons...Plus Josh hated the stuff so it all worked out.

Anyways, happy holidays and a happy new year!

Okay...

Quotes

"I swear to drunk, I'm not God."
-Ash

NIGHTSHADE! I WANT SHOJOBEAT!

It's December...and I am not done shopping or anything so damn my friends who are...

NIGHTSHADE, I WANT SHOJOBEAT!

Most random thing that happended today was that Night-chan was wearing a shirt that wasn't black.

I hate scluptures!

And yes, I know I spelt it wrong.

And song of my moment....Kryptonite by 3 Doors Down

I took a walk around the world to
Ease my troubled mind
I left my body laying somewhere
In the sands of time
I watched the world float to the dark
Side of the moon
I feel there is nothing I can do, yeah

I watched the world float to the
Dark side of the moon
After all I knew it had to be something
To do with you
I really don't mind what happens now and then
As long as you'll be my friend at the end

If I go crazy then will you still
Call me Superman
If I'm alive and well, will you be
There holding my hand
I'll keep you by my side with
My superhuman might
Kryptonite

You called me strong, you called me weak
But your secrets I will keep
You took for granted all the times I
Never let you down
You stumbled in and bumped your head, if
Not for me then you would be dead
I picked you up and put you back
On solid ground

If I go crazy then will you still
Call me Superman
If I'm alive and well will you be
There holding my hand
I'll keep you by my side with my
Superhuman might
Kryptonite

//Oh whoa whoa//
3x

Okay for my friends who bug me...

Here is my first diary entry...

BLAH!

Happy now?
*Cough Nightshade Cough*