[NukleaЯ EveЯgloW™]'s diary

942392  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2007-05-25
Written: (6395 days ago)
Next in thread: 942560

Ok, I don't know why I'm even like this.
I'm tired of it but I don't know what to do.
I like it dark with no lights on. That's what I crave
But school messes that up. Summers here and now I can enjoy the darkness. But there's one problem with me...
Some reason, when I'm alone at the computer.
and all the lights are off except for the monitor...
I get all sad and crap. For no apparent reason at that.
It's been this way since...at least last summer.
I don't know what to make of it.
It's so stupid and I just don't know what to do.
It's like just cause It's dark with only the computer giving me light makes me sad or something...like the monitor drains away my happiness and the light isn't there to replinish it. Sounds stupid I know but it's just a theory I came up with.

I don't know why I feel so sad and down.
Maybe it's cause I'm alone.
I don't know.
But it's stupid.
Cause I know I should be happy.
But I'm not.
I'm at that point where you wanna cry
but they just won't come out.
On the verge, but the verge won't break.
It's pointless but I don't know what to do about it.
I AM NOT GOING TO SEE A COUNCELOR/THERAPIST/PSYCHOLOGIST/PSYCHIATRIST!!
Don't even suggest it. I've already got my mind set about that part. I am not going to go PAY for someone to listen to my problems and HELP me with it. Neither am I going to let my parents know. They do not need to know, they'll only make it worse.

Once morning comes around I'm fine and dandy.
Like nights like these don't affect how I am tomorrow.
I just live moment to moment. Or so I try to.
But yeah. I'm just really at a loss here and tired of feeling this way. NO I AM NOT GOING TO TAKE MEDICATION EITHER! They just want to get you into the system and keep you in it so you end up wasting money on their products.

942379  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2007-05-25
Written: (6395 days ago)

Run Away lyrics by me. [NukleaЯ EveЯgloW™]

V1
You just can't stand it.
So you run away from it all.
All of your troubles
All of your disturbances
Can't stand to bear it all.
So you take flight.
Running away from everything.
CH
Run away from your shame.
Run away from your mistakes.
Run away from all your fears.
Run away from the love you've left behind.
Run away. So far away. Away from here.
So far away from me. From my presence.

V2
What have you done?
Hiding behind your lies
Complain as many times as you want.
Twist all the words you need.
Can't you see your ignorance?
It is you that grows that demon seed.


V3
The things you have done.
The lies that you tell.
Hate built up inside you.
It drives people away.
You're left with reserves.
Secondaries became primaries.
We see the truth, but not you.
No not you.

PRE-CH
Instilled inside you is hate.
Away from you courage flees.
Avoiding the evident truth.
You've made it time for you to run.

DROP
Run run as fast as you can!

CH
Run away from your shame.
Run away from your mistakes.
Run away from all your fears.
Run away from the love you've left behind.
Run away. So far away. Away from here.

END
Run run as fast as you can!
Courage flees you as you flee.
Flee away into your hiding place.
Flee...away...

941861  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2007-05-23
Written: (6397 days ago)
Next in thread: 942038

"Nice guys finish last." [imma x mine]

To every guy that regrets hurting or losing her.-regret nothing in life. everything happens the way it is supposed to.

[x]To every guy who knows which girl he wants.

[x]To every guy that's said, "Sex can wait."

[x]To every guy that's said, "You're beautiful." (instead of Damn ur hot!)

[x-haven't had this happen, but I would do this] To every guy that was never too busy to drive across town (or across the state) to see her.

[x] To every guy that gives flowers and a card when she is sick.

[x-would do that] To every guy who has given her flowers just because.

[x]To every guy that said he would die for her.

[X] To every guy that really would.

[x]To every guy that did what she wanted to do.

To every guy that cried in front of her. -i cry alone.

[x]To every guy that she cried in front of.

[x]To every guy that holds hands with her.

[x]To every guy that kisses her with meaning.

[x]To every guy that hugs her when she's sad.

[x]To every guy that hugs her for no reason at all.

[x]To every guy who would give their jacket up for her.

[x]To every guy that calls to make sure she got home safe.

[x]To every guy that would sit and wait for her for hours just to see her for ten minutes.

[x]To every guy that would give his seat up.

[xx]To every guy that just wants to cuddle.

[x]To every guy that reassured her that she was beautiful no matter what.

[x]To every guy who told his secrets to her.

[x]To every guy that tried to show how much he cared through every word and every breath.

[x]To every guy that thought maybe this could be the one.

[x]To every guy that believed in her dreams.

[x]To every guy that would have done anything so she could achieve them.

[x]To every guy that never laughed at her when she told him her dreams.

[x]To every guy that walked her to her car.

[xx]To every guy that wasn't just trying to get laid.

[xx]To every guy that gave his heart.

[x]To every guy who prays that she is happy even if you are not with her.

Not many girls appreciate nice guys anymore... And because of this, there are not many left out there...

[x]If you are a nice guy repost this with "Nice guys finish last."

If you are a girl that thinks every guy should try to acomplish even a few of these repost this with: "To the nice guys left"

941858  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2007-05-23
Written: (6397 days ago)

Marilyn Manson - Man That You Fear

The ants are in the sugar
The muscles atrophied
Were on the other side, the screen is us and were t.v.
Spread me open,
Sticking to my pointy ribs
Are all your infants in abortion cribs
I was born into this
Everything turns to shit
The boy that you loved is the man that you fear
Pray until your number,
Asleep from all your pain,
Your apple has been rotting
Tomorrows turned up dead
I have it all and I have no choice but to
Ill make everyone pay and you will see
You can kill yourself now
Because youre dead
In my mind
The boy that you loved is the monster you fear
Peel off all those eyes and crawl into the dark,
Youve poisoned all of your children to camouflage your scars
Pray unto the splinters, pray unto your fear
Pray your life was just a dream
The cut that never heals
Pray now baby, pray your life was just a dream
(I am so tangled in my sins that I cannot escape)
Pinch the head off, collapse me like a weed
Someone had to go this far
I was born into this
Everything turns to shit
The boy that you loved is the man that you fear
Peel off all those eyes and crawl into the dark,
Youve poisoned all of your children to camouflage your scars
Pray unto the splinters, pray unto your fear
Pray your life was just a dream
The cut that never heals
Pray now baby, pray your life was just a dream
The world in my hands, theres no one left to hear you scream
Theres no one left for you

Marilyn Manson - Filth

You bite the tin foil they give you
Your P.N.O.Y. mind is entombed
You are amused by your confusion
Staple your face to mine if you're afraid to be alone
I'll mail you razor blades for Christmas
If you're so disgusted then leave the wicked way
You are confused by your amusement
The hypocrite will be the first to see the filth
You want to look like me
(You want to look like)
You want to live like me
(You want to live like)
You want to live like me
(You want to live like)
You want to look like me
(You want to look like)
It's not the same, you don't mean a thing, you're just another stain
It's not the same, you don't mean a thing, you're just another stain
This won't hurt...
You should eat the shit you speak
You know you are what you think
You should eat the shit you speak
You know you are what you think
Don't you try to touch me
You're no different from what you see
Don't you try to touch me
You're just as filthy as filth can be
Like a pinata you crack open
Your candy guts cascade in rainbow
You decay in your own containment
the sweetest insides are all coated with their filth
It's not the same, you don't mean a thing, you're just another stain
It's not the same, you don't mean a thing, you're just another stain
You should eat the shit you speak
You know you are what you think
You should eat the shit you speak
You know you are what you think
Don't you try to touch me
You're no different from what you see
Don't you try to touch me
You're just as filthy as filth can be
Transcrita por Sorrento

Marilyn Manson - Count to 6 & Die

Shes got her eyes open wide
Shes got the dirt and spit of the world
Her mouth on the metal
The lips of a scared little girl

Ive got an angel in the lobby
Hes waiting to put me in line
I wont ask forgiveness
My faith has gone dry

Shes got her christian prescriptures
And death has crawled in her ear
Like elevator music of songs
That she shouldnt hear

And it spins around 1...2...3
And we all lay down 4...5...6
Some do it fast
Some do it better in smaller amounts

And it spins around 1...2...3
And we all lay down 4...5...6
Some do it fast
Some do it better in smaller amounts

Marilyn Manson - Tourniquet

Shes made of hair and bone and little teeth
And things I cannot speak
She comes on like a crippled plaything
Spine is just a string
I wrapped our love in all this foil
Silver-tight like spider legs
I never wanted it to ever spoil
But flies will always lay their eggs
Take your hatred out on me
Make your victim my head
You never ever believed in me
I am your tourniquet
Prosthetic synthesis with butterfly
Sealed up with virgin stitch
If it hurts, just tell me
Preserve the innocence
I never wanted it to end this way
But flies will lay their eggs

941781  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2007-05-22
Written: (6397 days ago)

You Will Be Alone.

V1
You will be alone.
Alone in your lies.
Lies that hide.
Hide your secrets & regrets.
Regrets that haunt.
Haunt you in your days.
Days that you hate.

V2
I laugh at your feeble attempts.
Feeble attempts to destroy my emotions.
My emotions are not that easy.
Not that easy to break.
Break away from your hate.
Your hate causes you pain.
Pain I care less for.

CH
Alone. Alone. Alone.
You will be alone.
Hiding in your lies your lies your lies.
Don't deny it.
You can't hide it.
We don't buy it anymore.

V3
I see the affects of this.
This is hurting someone.
Someone who is undeserving.
Undeserving of your hate.
Your hate drives everyone.
Everyone away from you.
You will be alone.

CH

941561  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2007-05-22
Written: (6398 days ago)

Symphony X - Absinthe and Rue

In your time of dying don't call my name
so you see me as evil it's just the same

Through the windows in my mind
now you're cast in flames

Absinthe and Rue
twisted wings of paranoia
twilight runs through eyes of ignorance

Afflicted, addicted, and wicked
you'll loom in fear
severed, endeavored in trial
time closes near

Obsessing, possessing, confessing consumed by sin
injected, infected by venom that's searing your skin

Through the windows in my mind
now you're cast in flames

Absinthe and Rue
twisted wings of paranoia
twilight runs through eyes of ignorance

Absinthe and Rue
twisted wings of paranoia
twilight runs through eyes of ignorance

[solo]

Absinthe and Rue
twisted wings of paranoia
twilight runs through eyes of ignorance

Absinthe and Rue
twisted wings of paranoia
twilight runs through eyes of ignorance

941217  Link to this entry 
Written about Monday 2007-05-21
Written: (6399 days ago)

Linkin Park - In Pieces lyrics

Telling me to go,
But hands beg me to stay.
Your lips say that you love,
Your eyes say that you hate.

There's truth in your lies,
Doubt in your faith.
What you build you lay to waste.
There's truth in your lies,
Doubt in your faith.
All I've got's what you didn't take.

So I, I won't be the one,
Be the one to leave this,
In pieces.
And you, you will be alone,
Alone with all your secrets,
And regrets.
Don't lie.

You promise me the sky,
Then toss me like a stone.
You wrap me in your arms,
And chill me to the bone.

There's truth in your lies,
Doubt in your faith.
All I've got's what you didn't take.

So I, I won't be the one,
Be the one to leave this,
In pieces.
And you, you will be alone,
Alone with all your secrets,
And regrets.
Don't lie.

[Guitar solo]

So I, I won't be the one,
Be the one to leave this,
In pieces.
And you, you will be alone,
Alone with all your secrets,
And regrets.
Don't lie.

941111  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2007-05-20
Written: (6399 days ago)

Pale Child

Hypocrite.
Act opposite what you proclaim.
Closer to God? 'Fraid not.
Speaking profanities.
Hating thy neighbor.
Insulting persons.
Today it begins.
Karma.
Biting you back.
Inane adolescent.
Instigator.
Never learn.
Hate breeds corruption.
Love instills kindness.
Simple-minded fool.
Intelligence without wisdom,
means nothing.
Pray for wisdom.
Ye shall receive.
Hypocrite myself I am.
Writing this.
Yet I never claimed
Trying to get closer to God.
Am I really hypocritical?
Once agnostic.
Am I still?
Who knows?
No one but me.
So hypocrite I'm not.
You can't win.
Stop struggling.
I'm already inside you.
Underneath your skin.
Let go of your hate.
Be free and happy.
Unnerved by my presence.
Let me hinder you not.
Insolent child,
Off your high horse.
Speak not contempt.
Think not contempt.
Simmering anger
beneath your pale skin.
You at fault for this.
For these circumstances.
You've brought them upon yourself.
You need not anger,
nor need you be insolent.
Be not disdainful or haughty.
Lose your pride.
It is all for not.

940512  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2007-05-18
Written: (6402 days ago)

Withstand It

I look inside of myself to try and see
But all I see are hopeless dreams staring back at me.
I look inside you to try and see
But all I see is hatred eminating at me.
There's these things that no one seems to get.
Everything seems to be built to fail
But there is a far greater plan
One that makes all the others pale.

There is something much greater to live for.
Oh something you just don't understand.
Something great for you is in store.
But first you must suffer for it.
You must be pushed to the limit.
Only through temporary suffering can it be attained.
All the suffering will not be in vain.
You must withstand it all to get the prize.
Don't crumble underneath the pressure.
When you think you're falling down, surprise.
Open up your eyes.
Do what you have to do to make sure.
Make sure that this is real.

All your pain is gone.
All the suffering has past away.
Look around and tell me what you see.
The anguish and the strife has deceased
There are no more of those that die.
Believe me in what I am telling you.
Things will be better once you have suffered.
It is only a temporary situation.
Eternal happiness awaits you in the end.

938848  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2007-05-11
Written: (6408 days ago)
938509  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2007-05-10
Written: (6409 days ago)

1 John 3
(1)How great is the love the Father has lavished on us, that we should be called children of God! And that is what we are! The reason the world does not know us is that it did not know him. (2)Dear friends, now we are children of God, and what we will be has not yet been made known. But we know that when he appears,[a]we shall be like him, for we shall see him as he is. (3)Everyone who has this hope in him purifies himself, just as he is pure.

(4)Everyone who sins breaks the law; in fact, sin is lawlessness. (5)But you know that he appeared so that he might take away our sins. And in him is no sin. (6)No one who lives in him keeps on sinning. No one who continues to sin has either seen him or known him.

(7)Dear children, do not let anyone lead you astray. He who does what is right is righteous, just as he is righteous. (8)He who does what is sinful is of the devil, because the devil has been sinning from the beginning. The reason the Son of God appeared was to destroy the devil's work. (9)No one who is born of God will continue to sin, because God's seed remains in him; he cannot go on sinning, because he has been born of God. (10)This is how we know who the children of God are and who the children of the devil are: Anyone who does not do what is right is not a child of God; nor is anyone who does not love his brother.

Love one another
(11)This is the message you heard from the beginning: We should love one another. (12)Do not be like Cain, who belonged to the evil one and murdered his brother. And why did he murder him? Because his own actions were evil and his brother's were righteous. (13)Do not be surprised, my brothers, if the world hates you. (14)We know that we have passed from death to life, because we love our brothers. Anyone who does not love remains in death. (15)Anyone who hates his brother is a murderer, and you know that no murderer has eternal life in him.
(16)This is how we know what love is: Jesus Christ laid down his life for us. And we ought to lay down our lives for our brothers. (17)If anyone has material possessions and sees his brother in need but has no pity on him, how can the love of God be in him? (18)Dear children, let us not love with words or tongue but with actions and in truth. (19)This then is how we know that we belong to the truth, and how we set our hearts at rest in his presence (20)whenever our hearts condemn us. For God is greater than our hearts, and he knows everything.

(21)Dear friends, if our hearts do not condemn us, we have confidence before God (22)and receive from him anything we ask, because we obey his commands and do what pleases him. (23)And this is his command: to believe in the name of his Son, Jesus Christ, and to love one another as he commanded us. (24)Those who obey his commands live in him, and he in them. And this is how we know that he lives in us: We know it by the Spirit he gave us.

Footnotes:

a. 1 John 3:2 Or when it is made known

936586  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2007-05-04
Written: (6415 days ago)
Next in thread: 936743, 937618

Love To Hate lyrics by me [NukleaЯ EveЯgloW™]

Who is it that you see
when I go walking by?
The hate that rages inside of you
like a whirlwind in your head.

I am (x3) that guy you love to hate.
Love to hate (hate!)(x2)
love to hate!

I know you don't want me around.
Yet I still come near.
You can't wait 'til you leave town,
then I'll be out of your life. (your life)

I haven't wronged you.
Nothing to make you hate me.
I see what you're doing.
Trying to make me hate you,
but I see throguh your plan.
The fact remains the same.
I am that guy you love to hate (hate!)
love to(2x)
hate!

Time and time again
I hear what you say,
but it doesn't change
what I think of you.
But I remain hated
by you.

I am (x3) that guy you love to hate.
Love to hate (hate!)(x2)
love to hate!

936553  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2007-05-04
Written: (6416 days ago)

Buckcherry - Everything Lyrics

Buried way beneath the sheets I think she's having a melt down
Finding it hard to fall asleep she won't let anyone help her
The look on her face, A waste of time
She won't let go, Gonna roll the dice
Losing her grace, she Starts to cry
I feel her pain when I look in her eyes.

I wanna be, I want everything
I want everything

Somewhere she is on the streets trying to make things better
Praying to God and breathing deep
Gotta break this long obsession
The look on her face a waste of time
She won't let go gonna roll the dice
Losing her grace, she Starts to cry
I feel her pain when I look in her eyes.

I wanna be, I want everything
I want everything
I wanna be, I want everything
I want everything.


If I had everything would I Still wanna be alive?
Or wanna be high
If I had everything would I Still wanna be alive?
Or wanna be high.

Now and then she talks to me
And sometimes writes me letters
The look on her face a waste of time
She won't let go gonna roll the dice
Losing her grace, she Starts to cry
I feel her pain when I look in her eyes.

I wanna be, I want everything
I want everything
You know I wanna be, Yeah I want everything
I wanted everything everything

Your eyes, never close your eyes
And open up your mind
Oh and baby you can have everything, everything
Your eyes, never close your eyes
And open up your mind
Oh and baby you can have everything

934406  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2007-04-27
Written: (6423 days ago)

"Holding on to anger is like grasping a hot coal with the intent of throwing it at someone else; you are the one getting burned." - Buddha

"In confrontation, the moment we begin to feel anger we cease striving for truth and start striving for ourselves." - Buddha

"It is a person's own mind, not his enemy or foe, that lures him to evil ways." - Buddha

"Peace comes from within. Do not seek it without." - Buddha

"Anger makes you smaller, while forgiveness forces you to grow beyond what you were." - Cherie Carter-Scott

"The weak can never forgive. Forgiveness is the attribute of the strong." - Mahatma Ghandi

"When you hold resentment toward another, you are bound to that person or condition by an emotional link that is stronger than steel. Forgiveness is the only way to dissolve that link and get free." - Catherine Ponder

"To err is human, to forgive, divine." - Alexander Pope

"To forgive is to set a prisoner free and discover that the prisoner was you." - Lewis B. Smedes

"Forgiveness is freeing up and putting to better use the energy once consumed by holding grudges, harboring resentments, and nursing unhealed wounds." - Sidney and Suzanne Simon

"It's so easy to laugh. It's so easy to hate. It takes strength to be gentle and kind." - Stephen Morrissey

"The way people treat you is a reflection of the way you treat people." - Remez Sasson

"Your living is determined not so much by what life brings to you as by the attitude you bring to life; not so much by what happens to you as by the way your mind looks at what happens." - Kahlil Gibran

932105  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2007-04-25
Written: (6429 days ago)

Caged Man: a short story series Part One

This guy is sitting, and wondering how he got there. He's on display for all to see. Bounded by a cage; one he cannot escape from. He goes about daily life as best as he knows how. Everyday people pass by and watch; looking at what he has to show. Each day he dreams about how he used to be, wishing to be once again. This guy is in a cage. Day in and day out he thinks, wishing nothing but a fantasy.

Nearing the edge of his world, he is pulled back towards the center, yet not quite. One day a beautiful woman starts talking to him. Each day he wonders why she does so.

'Why a caged man? I am of no use to her.' He thinks, 'someone's been praying for me I suppose.'


Others take notice, start calling him pathetic and unworthy, yet they know not that he hears.

Days go by, they become friends. He awaits each new day for he knows that he shall see her once more, except on weekends. That's when his exhibit is closed for cleaning and he is examined. On those days he thinks too much and becomes saddened. But he knows that Monday will come and she will come to see him again.

The man in the cage loves this woman. She helps him forget his past; yet the cage reminds him how he got there. He wishes she could set him free, but she has to find the key...

TO BE CONTINUED

933328  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2007-04-24
Written: (6426 days ago)

Hybrid Theory [before they were known as Linkin Park] - Carousel lyrics


She can't hide no matter how hard she tries
Her secret disguised behind the lies
And at night she cries away her pride
With eyes shut tight staring at her inside
All her friends know why she can't sleep at night
All her family asking is she alright
All she wants to do is get rid of this hell
Well all she's got to do is stop kiddin herself
She can only fool herself for so long
She can only fool herself for so long
She can only fool herself for so long
I'm too weak to face me
(She can only fool herself)

I never know just why you run so far away far away from me
I never know just why you run so far away far away from me

When it comes to how to live his life he can't be told
Says he got everything under control
Thinks he knows he's not a problem he's stuck with
But in reality it would be a problem to just quit
An addict and he can't hold the reigns
The pain is worse cause his friends have it the same
Tries to slow down the problem he's got
But can't get off the carousel until he makes it stop
He can only fool himself for so long
He can only fool himself for so long
He can only fool himself for so long
I'm too weak to face me
(He can only fool himself)

I never know just why you run so far away far away from me
I never know just why you run so far away far away from me

[Background stuff]

I never know just why you run so far away far away from me
I never know just why you run so far away far away from me
I never know just why you run so far away far away from me
I never know just why you run so far away far away from me



Simple Plan - Shut Up Lyrics


There you go
You're always so right
It's all a big show
It's all about you
You think you know
What everyone needs
You always take time to criticize me
It seems like everyday
I make mistakes
I just can't get it right
It's like I'm the one you love to hate
But not today

[Chorus:]
So shut up, shut up, shut up
Don't wanna hear it
Get out, get out, get out
Get out of my way
Step up, step up, step up
You'll never stop me
Nothing you say today
Is gonna bring me down

There you go
You never ask why
It's all a big lie
Whatever you do
You think you're special
But I know and I know and I know
And we know that you're not
You're always there to point
Out my mistakes
And shove them in my face
It's like I'm the one you love to hate
But not today

So shut up, shut up, shut up
Don't wanna hear it
Get out, get out, get out
Get out of my way
Step up, step up, step up
You'll never stop me
Nothing you say today
Is gonna bring me down
(Shut up, shut up, shut up)
Is gonna bring me down
(Shut up, shut up, shut up)
You'll never bring me down

Don't tell me who I should be
(Don't tell me who I should be)
And don't try to tell me what's right for me
Don't tell me what I should do
I don't wanna waste my time
I'll watch you fade away

So shut up, shut up, shut up
Don't wanna hear it
Get out, get out, get out
Get out of my way
Step up, step up, step up
You'll never stop me
Nothing you say today
Is gonna bring me down

Shut up, shut up, shut up
Don't wanna hear it
Get out, get out, get out
Get out of my way
Step up, step up, step up
You'll never stop me
Nothing you say is gonna bring me down,
Bring me down
(Shut up, shut up, shut up)
You won't bring me down,
Bring me down
(Shut up, shut up, shut up)
Won't bring me
SHUT UP, SHUT UP, SHUT UP!
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Written about Tuesday 2007-04-17
Written: (6433 days ago)

Figure.09 Lyrics
Artist(Band):Linkin Park



Nothing ever stops all these thoughts
and the pain attached to them
Sometimes I wonder why this is happenin'
It's like nothing I could do would distract me when
I think of how I shot myself in the back again
'Cause from the infinite words I could say I
Put all the pain you gave to me on display
But didn't realize
Instead of setting it free I
took what I hated and made it apart of me

[It Never Goes Away...] x2



And now
You've become a part of me
You'll always be right here
You've become a part of me
You'll always be my fear
I can't separate
Myself from what I've done
Giving up a part of me
I've let myself become you
You...
You...
You...


Hearing your name
the memories come back again
I remember when it started happenin'
I'd see you in every thought I had
and then
my thoughts slowly found words attached to them.
And I knew as they escaped away I was
committing myself to 'em
And every day
I regret saying those things
cause now I see
that I
took what I hated and made it apart of me.

[It Never Goes Away] x2

And now
You've become a part of me
You'll always be right here
You've become a part of me
You'll always be my fear
I can't separate
Myself from what I've done
Giving up a part of me
I've let myself become you

[It Never Goes Away] x4


(get away from ME!)
Give me my space back
You’ve gotta just
(GO!)
Everything just comes down to memories of
(YOU!)
I've kept it in but now I’m letting you
(KNOW!)
I've let you go!
So
(get away from ME!)
Give me my space back
You've gotta just
(GO!)
Everything just comes down to memories of
(YOU!)
I've kept it in but now I’m letting you
(KNOW!)
I've let you go!

And now
You've become a part of me
You'll always be right here
You've become a part of me
You'll always be my fear
I can't separate
Myself from what I've done
Giving up a part of me
I've let myself become you
I've let myself become you
I've let myself become lost inside these thoughts of you
Giving up a part of me
I've let myself become you




Title: Linkin Park - Nobody's Listening lyrics
Artist: Linkin Park


Peep the style and the kids checking for it
The number one question is
How could you ignore it
We drop right back in the cut
Over basement tracks
With raps that got you backing this up like
(rewind that)
We’re just rolling with the rhythm
Rise from the ashes of the stylistic division
With these non-stop lyrics of life living
Not to be forgotten
But still unforgiven
But in the meantime there are those who wanna
Talk this and that
So I suppose it gets to a point
Feelings gotta get hurt
And get dirty with the people spreading the dirt
(It goes)

Try to give you warning
But everyone ignores me
(Told you everything loud and clear)
But nobody’s listening
Call to you so clearly
But you don’t want to hear me
(Told you everything loudu and clear)
But nobody’s listening

I got a
Heart full of pain
Head full of stress
Handfull of anger
Held in my chest
And everything left is aw aste of time
I hate my rhymes
(But I hate everyone else’s more)
I’m riding on the back of this pressure
Guessing that it’s better
I cant keep myself together
Because all of this stress
Gave me something to write on
The pain gave me something
I could set my sights on
You never forget the blood sweat and tears
The uphill struggle over years
The fear and the trash talking
And the people it was to
And the people that started it
Just like you

I got a
Heart full of pain
Head full of stress
Handful of anger
Held in my chest
Uphill struggle
Blood, sweat and tears
Nothing to gain
Everything to fear
(Coming at you)




Lying From You Lyrics
Artist(Band):Linkin Park


When I pretend,
Everything is what I want it to be,
I looked exactly like what you had always wanted to see,
When I pretend,
I can’t forget about the criminal I am,
Stealing second after second just cause I know I can,
But I can’t pretend that this is the way, it'll stay, I’m just,
(Trying to bend the truth)
I can’t pretend I'm who you want me to be so I'm,
(Lying my way from)

You!!!!!!!!
(No, no turning back now)
I wanna be pushed aside, so let me go!!
(No, no turning back now)
Let me take back my life
I’d rather be, all alone!!
(No turning back now)
Anywhere on my own, cause I can see!!!
(No, no turning back now)
The very worst part of you…
IS ME

I remember what they taught to me,
Remember condescending talk,
Of who I ought to be,
Remember listening to all of that,
And this again,
So I pretended up a person who was fitting in,
And now you think this person,
Really is me and I'm,
(Trying to bend the truth )
The more I push,
The more I’m pulling away,
Cause I’m,
(Lying my way from)

You!!!!!!!!
(No, no turning back now)
I wanna be pushed aside, so let me go!!!
(No, no turning back now)
Let me take back my life,
I’d rather be, all alone!!
(No turning back now)
Anywhere on my own, cause I can see!!!
(No, no turning back now)
The very worst part of you….
The very worst part of you….
IS ME!!!!!

This isn’t what I wanted to be,
I never thought that what I said,
Would have you running from me,
LIKE THIS!
This isn’t what I wanted to be,
I never thought that what I said,
Would have you running from me,
LIKE THIS!
This isn’t what I wanted to be,
I never thought that what I said,
Would have you running from me,
LIKE THIS!
This isn’t what I wanted to be,
I never thought that what I said,
Would have you running from me,
LIKE THIS!!

YOU!!!!!!!!
(no turning back now)
I wanna be pushed aside, so let me go!!!
(No, no turning back now)
Let me take back my life,
I’d rather be all alone!!!
(No turning back now)
Anywhere on my own, cause I can see!!!
(No, no turning back now)
The very worst part of you…
The very worst part of you…
IS ME!
930868  Link to this entry 
Written about Monday 2007-04-16
Written: (6433 days ago)

I am lost right now. There's nothing in life to live for. I know I probably should get more Jesus in my life, but I'd probably still be sad, because, how can someone you never met or seen or talked to make you happy? How can something you cannot touch or feel or hear or see give you joy? It doesn't make sense. But I guess I'll give him a chance...well, more than I already have. Just wish there was more to life than what there is for me...basically right now I have no social life outside of school or the internet...I'm ok with it but a bit discontent with my life too...I need a change in my life...religion...a girlfriend...friends to hang out with after school...an after school activity...something...or maybe all 4 =)...who knows...

but yeah, that's basically what I've come to realize while I was thinking...but I have learned other things...but that's for another time...for now...

-Peace Out

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Written about Sunday 2007-04-15
Written: (6435 days ago)

Warning: Sad when I wrote this

I've been thinking...
We all die in the end.
Why exercise?
Why go to college?
Why even finish high school?
Why bother with love?
Why bother caring?
.........
What's the use?
Not like we're going to be remembered out of the 6billion+ people in the world 3 or 4 generations down the road...
There's no point to all this mess.
And before you start preaching to me about 'how I need God' this and 'the point is to worship God' that, just shutup. I already know that. I am much more intelligent than all you guys think. I am also lazy. If I wasn't lazy, I'd have less of a life than I don't have now, so I thank my laziness for the life that I do have.
..........
Why is it that everytime you think you've found something, you think you have it in your grasp, it slips away?
Why is it that God changes people to ways that make me unhappy. No I'm not refering just to izzy. But my dad too. I liked him better when he did drink and smoke, and didn't go to church. I miss those days.
............
Why the hell can't people do things for themselves anymore? For example, they don't play around with settings on things. They don't figure it out on their own. They want someone to show them. They don't want the joy of figuring it out on their own. They want something done and they want it done right then. All my knowledge of computers, all my knowledge of games, all my knowledge of how to do things, I've read how to do. I've experimented to see what things work and what things don't, and how they work. And what little was taught to me, I hardly use. People have become so...so...less explorative in figuring out how to do things that they rely on someone who already knows how to do it for them...especially one who at one point, didn't know how to do it themselves, and figured it out themselves...that annoys me...but don't be afraid to ask questions. just make sure you learn and retain the knowledge you are given. even I ask questions.
.......................
Why is it that words offend people?
It's just a damned word.
Forget about the history behind the word
Is the history happening to you now?
Are you still enslaved?
Are you still being killed?
Are you really a pregnant dog?
Are you really a child born to unwed parents?
Are you really feces?
Are you really homosexual?
Are you really happy?
Are you a bundle of sticks?
Are you a cigarette?
Are you really that damned stupid?
Does it matter if they call you a racial slur?
Does it physically harm you?
Are you going to die just because of words?
And what are words? Vibrations in the air that are picked up by your ears andd decoded by your brain that allow you to use language?
So you're going to let vibrations of air offend you?
Are you going to let light frequencies that make up color of words offend you?
I tell you one thing, I'm fucking not...
FREE SPEECH FOR ALL!! SAY WHATEVER YOU WANT WITHOUT FEAR!!
..............................
*cough*...yes welll...I went off on a few rants there...
but yeah...I'm just tired of life...but I must move forward because that's what's expected of me...<img:44166_1164145262.gif><img:44166_1164218141.gif><img:stuff/an.gif><img:stuff/mood18-gif.gif><img:stuff/Br23-gif.gif>

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