[NukleaЯ EveЯgloW™]'s diary

962525  Link to this entry 
Written about Monday 2007-07-30
Written: (6328 days ago)

A song I wrote
Calling All Cars, Part One

Calling all cars
We've got another victim
He carries the scars
Of all who once loved him
Destroyed by love
He turned away
Just one more shove
And he'll end the day
Days of his life
He'll Draw his final breath
He will fall to his death.

Calling all cars
We've got another victim
He's going to fast
He's gonna crash
Haunting is his past
His thinking is rash
No one there to love him
Cheated by the cruel society
No one will see him again
Now death is his priority

Calling all cars
We've lost control
He's gone for good
The car took its toll
It rolled onto the hood
Flipped and gone for good
Lost at the bottom of the river
Last evidence is a flash of silver

Calling all cars
We need an ambulance
And the rescue team
It looks bad at a glance
It's worse than it may seem
They're drownin in his car
The parents don't know where they are

Calling all cars
We've got yet another victim
Looks like former love by him
The tragedy of it all
Making the horrible call
Telling the parents they won't be home
All because of he was left alone

Calling all cars
Calling all cars
We've got we've got
We've got another victim
We've got another victim
Calling all cars
We've found the victim
Calling all cars
Somebody loved them
Calling all cars
If only they had listened
Calling all cars
This is how it ends
Calling all cars.

960365  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2007-07-24
Written: (6335 days ago)
Next in thread: 960391

Stormy Times

The sky turns pitch black
Lightning streaks across it.
There is no turning back.
Maybe I will get hit.

Winds pick up dust
That's all we'll be
Dust in the wind
Forever set free

Pitter-patter of raindrops heard
I walk outside in the storm
Cryin? Who me? That's obsurd
But really the rain hides my form

Ashes to ashes
Dust to dust
Energy crashes
Heal, I must

Screamin out my lungs
Never return to me
I've climbed the rungs
I'll be set free

959886  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2007-07-22
Written: (6337 days ago)

My October

I lock myself in my room
I plead for you to go away
Cause in all of this doom
Loneliness is the only way

I look outside the window.
The leaves are fallin down
It feels so bad cause you're not around
Time is slipping by so slow
Ohuhoooohooooh.

It is My October
It is my fall.
I must stay sober
Before I lose it all
Aaall-eh-aaaallll.

I open up the scars again.
I thought I forgot and then
Your name fills my head
The one wishing I were dead

This is My October.
This is my Fall.
I thought it was over.
I thought I lost it all.
Aaall-eh-aaaallll.

It is My October
It is my Fall.
I must stay sober
Before I lose it all
Aaall-eh-aaaallll.

943066  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2007-06-22
Written: (6392 days ago)

I may expand on this later.
Develop a story around it.
Depends on if I feel up to it or not.

but now I present to you...
Lonely Boy




What do you do when you're sick of being alone?|- Boy
What do you do when it seems like nothing matters?|- Boy
What do you do when nothing feels like it should?|- Boy
What do you do when tears fall from your eyes?|- Boy
What do you do when no one's there to be around?|- Boy

I tell you what you do.|= Girl
You go out into the world|- Boy
Stare it in the face|= Girl
Tell it you're not afraid|= Girl
Not afraid to walk it alone.|= Girl

I tell you what you do.|= Girl
You tell yourself you're not afraid.|= Girl
Not afraid to keep on living.|= Girl
Carrying on no matter the pain|= Girl
Or how much it hurts to go.|= Girl

But I don't want to try.|- Boy
It is such a waste.|- Boy
It doesn't deserve a chance|- Boy
I'll deny that it exists.|- Boy
That'll make it go away.|- Boy

Listen to what I say.|= Girl
Take heed unto my words|= Girl
And go forth unto the world.|= Girl
Go forth anew, not the same person.|= Girl
Not like you were before.|= Girl

But I don't want to try!|- Boy
Do what I say for your sake.|= Girl
It's not worth my time!|- Boy
Please just give it a try.|= Girl
But I'll end up dead anyways!|- Boy

It's not the end result that-|= Girl
I don't care! I just want it to end.|- Boy
You're not even trying.|= Girl
I shouldn't have to try!|- Boy
But you must!|= Girl

Why...*sobs* Why is it like this...|- Boy
Why are bad things happening to me...|- Boy
Nobody cares anymore...no one...|- Boy
Except for maybe you...but why?|- Boy
Why? Because you're such a great person.|= Girl

*tears*...Really? You mean that?|- Boy
Of course I do, who wouldn't think that?|= Girl
Everybody else...they don't care.|- Boy
Oh but I'm sure that they do|= Girl
No, they don't. Don't you see?|- Boy

It's not me that's got a problem with everybody|- Boy
It's everybody that's got a problem with me|- Boy
I just don't understand this life I lead.|- Boy
It's just so confusing. Thanks for being here.|- Boy
You know...I...I love you. Just think you should know that.|- Boy

945590  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2007-06-05
Written: (6384 days ago)
Next in thread: 952441


Mad World
Gary Jules (cover of Tears for Fears)

All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places, worn out faces
Bright and early for their daily races
Going nowhere, going nowhere
Their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression, no expression
Hide my head I want to drown my sorrow
No tomorrow, no tomorrow
And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very
Mad World
Mad world
Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday
And I feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen, sit and listen
Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me, no one knew me
Hello teacher tell me what's my lesson
Look right through me, look right through me
And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very
Mad World
Mad World
Enlarging your world
Mad World.
945475  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2007-06-05
Written: (6384 days ago)
943637  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2007-05-30
Written: (6390 days ago)

Secret from Birdy
Lyrics by me [NukleaЯ EveЯgloW™]

V1
What is this that I have heard?
A pretty little birdy told me,
Cardinal is the type of the bird.
Red are the feathers that you see.


V2
The truth of the matter I'm told.
Something I didn't see coming.
Oh ever, ever is the birdy bold.
Telling me what you'd hide from me.

CH
Birdy birdy birdy birdy birdy!
Little pretty cardinal birdy!
Birdy!(birdy!)x2
Telling me secrets!(Secrets!)
Secrets! (secrets!) x2

V3
Birdy! Voices! Little birdy voices!
Secrets! Secrets! I've heard truth!
I laugh at out of all of the choices,
that's the one you made. Birdy sleuth!

DROP
Hahahahahahaaaaaa!
I laugh at your poor decision!
Once more for a little derision!
Hahahahahahaaaaaa!


CH
Birdy birdy birdy birdy birdy!
Little pretty cardinal birdy!
Birdy!(birdy!)x2
Telling me secrets!(Secrets!)
Secrets! (secrets!) x2

DROP
Hahahahahahaaaaaa!
I laugh at your poor decision!
Once more for a little derision!
Hahahahahahaaaaaa!

END
Birdy secrets telling me HAHAAA!

943452  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2007-05-29
Written: (6390 days ago)

http://battles.myyearbook.com/?battleid=1204717
please vote for me =) [Clayton!!!]

942725  Link to this entry 
Written about Saturday 2007-05-26
Written: (6394 days ago)

RULES:
1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
Justin Timberlake - Sexy Back

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Kittie - What I Always Wanted

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Creed - Higher

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Linkin Park - What I've Done

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Stuckmojo - Declaration Hatebreed


WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Kittie - Looks So Pretty

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
Saliva - Fuck All Y'all

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Papa Roach - Last Resort

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Third Day - You Are So Good To Me

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Saliva - Weight of the World

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Saliva - Your Disease

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
System of a Down - Waiting for You (Version 2)

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Slipknot - Disasterpiece

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Hellogoodbye - Here In Your Arms

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Saliva - My Goodbyes

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Linkin Park - Shadow of the Day

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
The All-American Rejects - My Paper Heart

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Otep - House of Secrets

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Marilyn Manson - Disposible Teens

WHAT WILL BE THE SUBJECT WHEN YOU REPOST?
Three Days Grace - Riot

942489  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2007-05-25
Written: (6394 days ago)
Next in thread: 942508

Update:
Mmmk.
Just as I said.
I'm feeling alright now as of this morning.
It don't see why I get like that when I shouldn't be.

942392  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2007-05-25
Written: (6395 days ago)
Next in thread: 942560

Ok, I don't know why I'm even like this.
I'm tired of it but I don't know what to do.
I like it dark with no lights on. That's what I crave
But school messes that up. Summers here and now I can enjoy the darkness. But there's one problem with me...
Some reason, when I'm alone at the computer.
and all the lights are off except for the monitor...
I get all sad and crap. For no apparent reason at that.
It's been this way since...at least last summer.
I don't know what to make of it.
It's so stupid and I just don't know what to do.
It's like just cause It's dark with only the computer giving me light makes me sad or something...like the monitor drains away my happiness and the light isn't there to replinish it. Sounds stupid I know but it's just a theory I came up with.

I don't know why I feel so sad and down.
Maybe it's cause I'm alone.
I don't know.
But it's stupid.
Cause I know I should be happy.
But I'm not.
I'm at that point where you wanna cry
but they just won't come out.
On the verge, but the verge won't break.
It's pointless but I don't know what to do about it.
I AM NOT GOING TO SEE A COUNCELOR/THERAPIST/PSYCHOLOGIST/PSYCHIATRIST!!
Don't even suggest it. I've already got my mind set about that part. I am not going to go PAY for someone to listen to my problems and HELP me with it. Neither am I going to let my parents know. They do not need to know, they'll only make it worse.

Once morning comes around I'm fine and dandy.
Like nights like these don't affect how I am tomorrow.
I just live moment to moment. Or so I try to.
But yeah. I'm just really at a loss here and tired of feeling this way. NO I AM NOT GOING TO TAKE MEDICATION EITHER! They just want to get you into the system and keep you in it so you end up wasting money on their products.

942379  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2007-05-25
Written: (6395 days ago)

Run Away lyrics by me. [NukleaЯ EveЯgloW™]

V1
You just can't stand it.
So you run away from it all.
All of your troubles
All of your disturbances
Can't stand to bear it all.
So you take flight.
Running away from everything.
CH
Run away from your shame.
Run away from your mistakes.
Run away from all your fears.
Run away from the love you've left behind.
Run away. So far away. Away from here.
So far away from me. From my presence.

V2
What have you done?
Hiding behind your lies
Complain as many times as you want.
Twist all the words you need.
Can't you see your ignorance?
It is you that grows that demon seed.


V3
The things you have done.
The lies that you tell.
Hate built up inside you.
It drives people away.
You're left with reserves.
Secondaries became primaries.
We see the truth, but not you.
No not you.

PRE-CH
Instilled inside you is hate.
Away from you courage flees.
Avoiding the evident truth.
You've made it time for you to run.

DROP
Run run as fast as you can!

CH
Run away from your shame.
Run away from your mistakes.
Run away from all your fears.
Run away from the love you've left behind.
Run away. So far away. Away from here.

END
Run run as fast as you can!
Courage flees you as you flee.
Flee away into your hiding place.
Flee...away...

941861  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2007-05-23
Written: (6397 days ago)
Next in thread: 942038

"Nice guys finish last." [imma x mine]

To every guy that regrets hurting or losing her.-regret nothing in life. everything happens the way it is supposed to.

[x]To every guy who knows which girl he wants.

[x]To every guy that's said, "Sex can wait."

[x]To every guy that's said, "You're beautiful." (instead of Damn ur hot!)

[x-haven't had this happen, but I would do this] To every guy that was never too busy to drive across town (or across the state) to see her.

[x] To every guy that gives flowers and a card when she is sick.

[x-would do that] To every guy who has given her flowers just because.

[x]To every guy that said he would die for her.

[X] To every guy that really would.

[x]To every guy that did what she wanted to do.

To every guy that cried in front of her. -i cry alone.

[x]To every guy that she cried in front of.

[x]To every guy that holds hands with her.

[x]To every guy that kisses her with meaning.

[x]To every guy that hugs her when she's sad.

[x]To every guy that hugs her for no reason at all.

[x]To every guy who would give their jacket up for her.

[x]To every guy that calls to make sure she got home safe.

[x]To every guy that would sit and wait for her for hours just to see her for ten minutes.

[x]To every guy that would give his seat up.

[xx]To every guy that just wants to cuddle.

[x]To every guy that reassured her that she was beautiful no matter what.

[x]To every guy who told his secrets to her.

[x]To every guy that tried to show how much he cared through every word and every breath.

[x]To every guy that thought maybe this could be the one.

[x]To every guy that believed in her dreams.

[x]To every guy that would have done anything so she could achieve them.

[x]To every guy that never laughed at her when she told him her dreams.

[x]To every guy that walked her to her car.

[xx]To every guy that wasn't just trying to get laid.

[xx]To every guy that gave his heart.

[x]To every guy who prays that she is happy even if you are not with her.

Not many girls appreciate nice guys anymore... And because of this, there are not many left out there...

[x]If you are a nice guy repost this with "Nice guys finish last."

If you are a girl that thinks every guy should try to acomplish even a few of these repost this with: "To the nice guys left"

941858  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2007-05-23
Written: (6397 days ago)

Marilyn Manson - Man That You Fear

The ants are in the sugar
The muscles atrophied
Were on the other side, the screen is us and were t.v.
Spread me open,
Sticking to my pointy ribs
Are all your infants in abortion cribs
I was born into this
Everything turns to shit
The boy that you loved is the man that you fear
Pray until your number,
Asleep from all your pain,
Your apple has been rotting
Tomorrows turned up dead
I have it all and I have no choice but to
Ill make everyone pay and you will see
You can kill yourself now
Because youre dead
In my mind
The boy that you loved is the monster you fear
Peel off all those eyes and crawl into the dark,
Youve poisoned all of your children to camouflage your scars
Pray unto the splinters, pray unto your fear
Pray your life was just a dream
The cut that never heals
Pray now baby, pray your life was just a dream
(I am so tangled in my sins that I cannot escape)
Pinch the head off, collapse me like a weed
Someone had to go this far
I was born into this
Everything turns to shit
The boy that you loved is the man that you fear
Peel off all those eyes and crawl into the dark,
Youve poisoned all of your children to camouflage your scars
Pray unto the splinters, pray unto your fear
Pray your life was just a dream
The cut that never heals
Pray now baby, pray your life was just a dream
The world in my hands, theres no one left to hear you scream
Theres no one left for you

Marilyn Manson - Filth

You bite the tin foil they give you
Your P.N.O.Y. mind is entombed
You are amused by your confusion
Staple your face to mine if you're afraid to be alone
I'll mail you razor blades for Christmas
If you're so disgusted then leave the wicked way
You are confused by your amusement
The hypocrite will be the first to see the filth
You want to look like me
(You want to look like)
You want to live like me
(You want to live like)
You want to live like me
(You want to live like)
You want to look like me
(You want to look like)
It's not the same, you don't mean a thing, you're just another stain
It's not the same, you don't mean a thing, you're just another stain
This won't hurt...
You should eat the shit you speak
You know you are what you think
You should eat the shit you speak
You know you are what you think
Don't you try to touch me
You're no different from what you see
Don't you try to touch me
You're just as filthy as filth can be
Like a pinata you crack open
Your candy guts cascade in rainbow
You decay in your own containment
the sweetest insides are all coated with their filth
It's not the same, you don't mean a thing, you're just another stain
It's not the same, you don't mean a thing, you're just another stain
You should eat the shit you speak
You know you are what you think
You should eat the shit you speak
You know you are what you think
Don't you try to touch me
You're no different from what you see
Don't you try to touch me
You're just as filthy as filth can be
Transcrita por Sorrento

Marilyn Manson - Count to 6 & Die

Shes got her eyes open wide
Shes got the dirt and spit of the world
Her mouth on the metal
The lips of a scared little girl

Ive got an angel in the lobby
Hes waiting to put me in line
I wont ask forgiveness
My faith has gone dry

Shes got her christian prescriptures
And death has crawled in her ear
Like elevator music of songs
That she shouldnt hear

And it spins around 1...2...3
And we all lay down 4...5...6
Some do it fast
Some do it better in smaller amounts

And it spins around 1...2...3
And we all lay down 4...5...6
Some do it fast
Some do it better in smaller amounts

Marilyn Manson - Tourniquet

Shes made of hair and bone and little teeth
And things I cannot speak
She comes on like a crippled plaything
Spine is just a string
I wrapped our love in all this foil
Silver-tight like spider legs
I never wanted it to ever spoil
But flies will always lay their eggs
Take your hatred out on me
Make your victim my head
You never ever believed in me
I am your tourniquet
Prosthetic synthesis with butterfly
Sealed up with virgin stitch
If it hurts, just tell me
Preserve the innocence
I never wanted it to end this way
But flies will lay their eggs

941781  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2007-05-22
Written: (6397 days ago)

You Will Be Alone.

V1
You will be alone.
Alone in your lies.
Lies that hide.
Hide your secrets & regrets.
Regrets that haunt.
Haunt you in your days.
Days that you hate.

V2
I laugh at your feeble attempts.
Feeble attempts to destroy my emotions.
My emotions are not that easy.
Not that easy to break.
Break away from your hate.
Your hate causes you pain.
Pain I care less for.

CH
Alone. Alone. Alone.
You will be alone.
Hiding in your lies your lies your lies.
Don't deny it.
You can't hide it.
We don't buy it anymore.

V3
I see the affects of this.
This is hurting someone.
Someone who is undeserving.
Undeserving of your hate.
Your hate drives everyone.
Everyone away from you.
You will be alone.

CH

941561  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2007-05-22
Written: (6398 days ago)

Symphony X - Absinthe and Rue

In your time of dying don't call my name
so you see me as evil it's just the same

Through the windows in my mind
now you're cast in flames

Absinthe and Rue
twisted wings of paranoia
twilight runs through eyes of ignorance

Afflicted, addicted, and wicked
you'll loom in fear
severed, endeavored in trial
time closes near

Obsessing, possessing, confessing consumed by sin
injected, infected by venom that's searing your skin

Through the windows in my mind
now you're cast in flames

Absinthe and Rue
twisted wings of paranoia
twilight runs through eyes of ignorance

Absinthe and Rue
twisted wings of paranoia
twilight runs through eyes of ignorance

[solo]

Absinthe and Rue
twisted wings of paranoia
twilight runs through eyes of ignorance

Absinthe and Rue
twisted wings of paranoia
twilight runs through eyes of ignorance

941217  Link to this entry 
Written about Monday 2007-05-21
Written: (6399 days ago)

Linkin Park - In Pieces lyrics

Telling me to go,
But hands beg me to stay.
Your lips say that you love,
Your eyes say that you hate.

There's truth in your lies,
Doubt in your faith.
What you build you lay to waste.
There's truth in your lies,
Doubt in your faith.
All I've got's what you didn't take.

So I, I won't be the one,
Be the one to leave this,
In pieces.
And you, you will be alone,
Alone with all your secrets,
And regrets.
Don't lie.

You promise me the sky,
Then toss me like a stone.
You wrap me in your arms,
And chill me to the bone.

There's truth in your lies,
Doubt in your faith.
All I've got's what you didn't take.

So I, I won't be the one,
Be the one to leave this,
In pieces.
And you, you will be alone,
Alone with all your secrets,
And regrets.
Don't lie.

[Guitar solo]

So I, I won't be the one,
Be the one to leave this,
In pieces.
And you, you will be alone,
Alone with all your secrets,
And regrets.
Don't lie.

941111  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2007-05-20
Written: (6399 days ago)

Pale Child

Hypocrite.
Act opposite what you proclaim.
Closer to God? 'Fraid not.
Speaking profanities.
Hating thy neighbor.
Insulting persons.
Today it begins.
Karma.
Biting you back.
Inane adolescent.
Instigator.
Never learn.
Hate breeds corruption.
Love instills kindness.
Simple-minded fool.
Intelligence without wisdom,
means nothing.
Pray for wisdom.
Ye shall receive.
Hypocrite myself I am.
Writing this.
Yet I never claimed
Trying to get closer to God.
Am I really hypocritical?
Once agnostic.
Am I still?
Who knows?
No one but me.
So hypocrite I'm not.
You can't win.
Stop struggling.
I'm already inside you.
Underneath your skin.
Let go of your hate.
Be free and happy.
Unnerved by my presence.
Let me hinder you not.
Insolent child,
Off your high horse.
Speak not contempt.
Think not contempt.
Simmering anger
beneath your pale skin.
You at fault for this.
For these circumstances.
You've brought them upon yourself.
You need not anger,
nor need you be insolent.
Be not disdainful or haughty.
Lose your pride.
It is all for not.

940512  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2007-05-18
Written: (6402 days ago)

Withstand It

I look inside of myself to try and see
But all I see are hopeless dreams staring back at me.
I look inside you to try and see
But all I see is hatred eminating at me.
There's these things that no one seems to get.
Everything seems to be built to fail
But there is a far greater plan
One that makes all the others pale.

There is something much greater to live for.
Oh something you just don't understand.
Something great for you is in store.
But first you must suffer for it.
You must be pushed to the limit.
Only through temporary suffering can it be attained.
All the suffering will not be in vain.
You must withstand it all to get the prize.
Don't crumble underneath the pressure.
When you think you're falling down, surprise.
Open up your eyes.
Do what you have to do to make sure.
Make sure that this is real.

All your pain is gone.
All the suffering has past away.
Look around and tell me what you see.
The anguish and the strife has deceased
There are no more of those that die.
Believe me in what I am telling you.
Things will be better once you have suffered.
It is only a temporary situation.
Eternal happiness awaits you in the end.

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