[something from Sept 7th]

Can't believe I just found this song, lol.
From ex to ex:

Slipknot - Everything Ends
You are wrong, fucked, and overrated
I think Im gonna be sick and its your fault
This is the end of everything
You are the end of everything
I havent slept since I woke up

And found my whole life was a lie, motherfucker
This is the end of everything
You are the end of everything

Shallow skin, I can paint with pain
I mark the trails on my arms with your disdain
Everyday its the same - I love, you hate
But I guess I dont care any more...
Fix my problems with the blade
While my eyes turn from blue to gray
God, the worst thing happened to me today
But I guess I dont care anymore...

You are wrong, fucked, and overrated
I think Im gonna be sick and its your fault
This is the end of everything
You are the end of everything
I havent slept since I woke up
And found my whole life was a lie, motherfucker
This is the end of everything
You are the end of everything

My flaws are the only thing left thats pure
Cant really live, cant really endure
Everything I see reminds me of her
God I wish I didnt care anymore
The more I touch, the less I feel
Im lying to myself that its not real
Why is everybody making such a big fucking deal?
Im never gonna care anymore

What the hell am I doing?
Is there anyone left in my life?
What the fuck was I thinking?
Anybody want to tell me Im fine?
Where the hell am I going?
Do I even need a reason to hide?
I am only betrayed
I am only conditioned to die

Forgive
Can you hear it?
Thump thump
Can you feel it?
Thump thump
Can you taste it?
Thump thump
It's getting closer
Thump thump
Behind you
Thump thump
Run away
Thump-thump
Before it gets you
Thump thump
Don't-*trips*
Thump thump
It has you now
Thump thump
There's no escape
Thump thump
Hatred has consumed you
Thump-thump
thump-thump
Bleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet
No way out
Except to forgive,
And then forget.
Remember not why you hated

Forevermore

Riding on the dead train
Dead inside from the pain
The hurt of old memories
My heart has lost its keys

Locked up with someone inside
Whom over I have cried
Someone I'd give my life for
To be with forevermore

System of a Down - Johnny

Hello, my name is Johnny
Well hello my name is Johnny
I would like to explain myself
And I would like to complain in vein

Sweet little boy
JOHNNY!
Sweet Little Boy
JOHNNY!
Let me show you the way to my
Let me show you the way to my
Let me help you explain your mind
When I help you explain your mind

'ello my name is Roger
Well hello my name is roger
I would like to proclaim myself
A god
And likely ordain myself

Sweet little boy
ROGER!
Sweet little boy
ROGER!

Let me show you the way to my
Let me show you the way to my
Let me help you explain your mind
When I help you explain your mind

Let me show you the way to my
Let me show you the way to my
let me help you explain your mind
When I help you explain your mind

Sweet little boy
Johnny
Sweet little boy
Know as roger

Let me show you the way to my
Let me show you the way to my
Let me help you explain your mind
When I help you explain your mind
Let me show you the way to my
Let me show you the way to my
Let me help you explain your mind
When I help you explain your mind

Rest you, my enemy,
Slain without fault,
Life smacks but tastelessly
Lacking your salt!
Stuck in a bog whence naught
May catapult me,
Come from the grave, long-sought,
Come and insult me!
--(Steven Vincent Benet, Elegy for an Enemy)

Migrant Slave

Foreign smells abound
Looking to be found
A nose to deliver the fragrance
Those of early day migrants.

Searching for a place to call home
Not for one to be left alone
New oppurtunities left undiscovered
But later found after memories recovered

Newcomers shunned and sent to camps
Not neven allowed to carry lamps
Working day in and day out
Servicing diligently and never pout

Freedom is tasted over time
Finally worth more than a dime
No longer in a slave labor
But now give life a new flavor

Fall/Gift

Eruption of crimson blood
Destruction from the flood
The Blood covering everything
Making all things clean

Corruption from the fall
Death among us all
Everlasting life, a gift
I ask you, make the shift

Untitled Work

One chapter ends
Another one unfolds
Once again amongst friends
Wait to see what the future holds

Empty Relaxation

High-pitched pinging, ringing.
The emptiness in the air.
Neverending, without a care.
Singing its sound in my ear.
Reminding me something's near.
The pinging, ringing, oh so clear.

Emptiness for my relaxtation
Void of hateful sensation
Pinging for concentration
Poetry for contemplation
Read inside for information
You control your destination.

might not be on much until the internet bill gets payed
I'll be on a bit when school starts though
so message me and whatnot, i'll get back to you later 

My Love True

Messenger sent me a letter today
The feeling that I felt inside
Leave me feeling sad this way
My love for you has never died

I see that you want me to be happy
All I want is for you to feel the same
But without you all I feel is crappy
I don't want to be played like a game

I only know one thing inside of me
That is only you can make me so glad
You cannot be replaced, can't you see
And babe just so you know, I'm not mad

Cause all I know is that I love you
I don't think my joy will come back
No matter who I see or what I do
My unhappiness is cause you I lack

It is only a matter of time
Before we can see each other
I express my love in this rhyme
We were just made for one another

Don't know what else to do
So baby I'll just wait for you.

Little Mary was not the best student in Sunday School. Usually she slept through the class. One day the teacher called on her while she was napping, ''Tell me, Mary, who created the universe?''


When Mary didn't stir, little Johnny, an altruistic boy seated in the chair behind her, took a pin and jabbed her in the rear. ''God Almighty !'' shouted Mary and the teacher said, ''Very good'' and Mary fell back to sleep.


A while later the teacher asked Mary, ''Who is our Lord and Savior?'' But Mary didn't even stir from her slumber. Once again, Johnny came to the rescue and stuck her again. ''Jesus Christ!'' shouted Mary and the teacher said, ''Very good,'' and Mary fell back to sleep.


Then the teacher asked Mary a third question, ''What did Eve say to Adam after she had her twenty-third child?'' And again, Johnny jabbed her with the pin. This time Mary jumped up and shouted, ''If you stick that damn thing in me one more time, I'll break it in half!''


The Teacher fainted.

75 Ways To Order Pizza
1. Belch directly into the mouthpiece; then tell your dog it should be ashamed.
2. Make up a charge-card name. Ask if they accept it.
3. When they repeat your order, say "Again, with a little more OOMPH this time."
4. Order a Big Mac Extra Value Meal.
5. Terminate the call with, "Remember, we never had this conversation."
6. Tell the order taker a rival pizza place is on the other line and you're going with the lowest bidder.
7. When they ask for your phone # give them theirs and see if they notice.
8. Answer their questions with questions.
9. Tell them to put the crust on top this time.
10. Sing the order to the tune of your favorite song from Metallica's "Master of Puppets" CD.
11. Do not name the toppings you want. Rather, spell them out.
12. Stutter on the letter "p."
13. Make a list of exotic cuisines. Order them as toppings.
14. Put an extra edge in your voice when you say "crazy bread."
15. Change your accent every three seconds.
16. Ask if you get to keep the pizza box. When they say yes, heave a sigh of relief.
17. Ask what the order taker is wearing.
18. Move the mouthpiece farther and farther from your lips as you speak. When the call ends, jerk the mouthpiece back into place and scream goodbye at the top of your lungs.
19. Say hello, act stunned for five seconds, then behave as if they called you.
20. Say "Are you sure this is (Pizza Place)? When they say yes, say "Well, so is this! You've got some explaining to do!" See how they respond.
21. Tell the order taker you're depressed. Get him/her to cheer you up.
22. Imitate the order taker's voice.
23. Tell them to double-check to make sure your pizza is, in fact, dead.
24. Order 52 pepperoni slices prepared in a fractal pattern as follows from an equation you are about to dictate. Ask if they need paper.
25. Act like you know the order taker from somewhere. Say "Bed-Wetters' Camp, right?"
26. Put the accent on the last syllable of "pepperoni." Use the long "i" sound.
27. If they repeat the order to make sure they have it right, say "OK. That'll be $10.99; please pull up to the first window."
28. Eliminate verbs from your speech.
29. Say it's your anniversary and you'd appreciate if the deliverer hid behind some furniture waiting for your spouse to arrive so you can surprise him/her.
30. Amuse the order taker with little-known facts about country music.
31. Ask to see a menu.
32. Have your pizza "shaken, not stirred."
33. Ask if they have any idea what is at stake with this pizza.
34. Ask what topping goes best with well-aged Chardonnay.
35. If using a touch-tone, press random numbers while ordering. Ask person taking the order to stop doing that.
36. Order a slice, not a whole pizza.
37. Doze off in the middle of the order, catch yourself, and say "Where was I? Who are you?"
38. Psychoanalyze the order taker.
39. Ask what their phone number is. Hang up, call them, and ask again.
40. Order two toppings, then say, "No, they'll start fighting."
41. Call to complain about service. Later, call to say you were drunk and didn't mean it.
42. If he/she suggests anything, adamantly declare, "I shall not be swayed by your sweet words."
43. Wonder aloud if you should trim those nose hairs.
44. Try to talk while drinking something.
45. Start the conversation with "My Call to (Pizza Place), Take 1, and. . . action!"
46. Ask if the pizza is organically grown.
47. Ask about pizza maintenance and repair.
48. Be vague in your order.
49. Use CB lingo where applicable.
50. If using a touch-tone press 9-1-1 every
5 seconds throughout the order.
51. After ordering, say "I wonder what THIS button on the phone does." Simulate a cutoff.
52. Start the conversation by reciting today's date and saying, "This may be my last entry."
53. State your order and say that's as far as this relationship is going to get.
54. Learn to properly pronounce the ingredients of a Twinkie. Ask that these be included in the pizza.
55. Ask if they're familiar with the term "spanking a pizza." Make up a description to go with the term. Ask that this be done to your pizza.
56. Say "Kssssssssssssssht" rather loudly into the phone. Ask if they felt that.
57. When listing toppings you want on your pizza, include another pizza.
58. Ask if they would like to sample your pizza. Suggest an even trade.
59. Put them on hold.
60. Teach the order taker a secret code. Use the code on all subsequent orders.
61. Mumble, "There's a bomb under your seat." When asked to repeat that, say "I said 'sauce smothered with meat'."
62. Make the first topping you order mushrooms. Make the last thing you say "No mushrooms, please." Hang up before they have a chance to respond.
63. When the order is repeated, change it slightly. When it is repeated again, change it again. On the third time, say "You just don't get it, do you?"
64. When you've given the price, say "Ooooooo, that sounds complicated. I hate math."
65. Haggle.
66. Order a one-inch pizza.
67. Order term life insurance.
68. When they say "Will that be all?", snicker and say "We'll find out, won't we?"
69. Ask how many dolphins were killed to make that pizza.
70. While on the phone, fake entering puberty. Fluctuate pitch often; act embarrassed.
71. Dance all around the word "pizza." Avoid saying it at all costs. If he/she says it, say "Please don't mention that word."
72. Have a movie with a good car chase scene playing loudly in the background. Yell "OW!" when a bullet is fired.
73. If he/she suggests a side order, ask why he/she is punishing you.
74. Ask if the pizza has had its shots.
75. Order a steamed pizza.

Everything that is going wrong in your life today shall be well with you this year. No matter how much your enemies try this year, "they will not" succeed. You have been destined to make it and you shall surely achieve all your goals this year. For the remaining months of this year (2007), all your agonies will be diverted and victory and prosperity will be incoming in abundance. Today God has confirmed the end of your sufferings, sorrows, and Pains because HE that sits on the throne has remembered you. I knocked at heaven's door this morning, God asked me...My child, what can I do for you? And I said, "Father, please protect and bless the person reading this message"...God smiled and answered...Request granted. If you believe this message, put it in your diary, or somewhere where your friends will read it.
By doing this you have succeeded in praying for your friends today

There's so much brainwashing going on.It's coming from TV.
They take things that you accept and add one thing different
you may not agree with it but you take it anyways cause mostly you agree.
then eventually they get you to the point where you're on their side
it's a slow but successful process.
The TV is brainwashing America.
I've noticed a trend happening over the past few years.
They're starting to drop the 'A' in USA.
They started calling it the US
and the United States
What does that matter?
I'll tell you.
America is slowly becoming no more.
They want America gone.
Now, who are they?
The ones who never use America when talking about the USA.
It's a delicate process, but I see what's going on.
I'm not blind to this brainwashing of american society.
I see it happening each and every day.
The main source is the television.
Why?
Because most homes have AT LEAST one television in it.
And what's becoming of today's youth?
I go to school and see at least 5 people not able to do the schoolwork.
It's not that they can't learn it, it's that they won't learn it.
Today's youth has become so lazy and pampered with current technology, it's sad to see. People not able to spell because of the internet.
People not able to do simple algebra. It's frightening what we've become as a nation.
Back to brainwashing.
It's a subtle process that is being put in place and further progressed every day. They try to make you believe things. You never see both sides of one story. Why? Profit. It's all about profit. Maybe it's about time someone did something. Stop the brainwashing of AMERICA.
We are all AMERICANS. Stop dividing the nation into races!
Facist pigs. Who cares if you're black, white, oriental, latin, european, islander, mixed, albino?! We're all human beings living on this earth.
But I still have one problem...
ILLEGAL IMMIGRANTS ARE ILLEGAL FOR ONE REASON
THEY CAME OVER ILLEGALLY!!
STOP GIVING THEM JOBS.
STOP GIVING THEM FREE MEDICAL
OTHER IMMIGRANTS DID IT LEGALLY
WHY CAN'T THEY?
DEPORT THEM ALL!!
BUILD 100 YARD TALL BORDERS!
MAKE THEM GO INTO THE GROUND 300 YARDS!!
ONLY LEGAL WAY IN OR OUT IS THROUGH CHECKPOINTS OR AN OFFICIAL AIRFLIGHT OR SHIP RIDE!
There. Enough said.

America Awaken

Demolition of the human mind
Genocide of all human kind
Death bombs dropped on us all
What rises to power must fall

America slowly becoming no more
While the middle east is war torn
Nations self-destructing at the core
Rugged land that has been battle worn

Freedom our fathers died for
Slowly turning into a monarchy
That which we closed the door
Before all turned into anarchy

The wheel turns once more
Stand for what you believe in
Destiny will soon settle the score
One day everything will end

Nation warring against nation
Bringing death and devastation
Waning the belief of a population
Revitalize the pride of the nation

Bring the nation together as one
United we stood as we won
Maybe losing battles here and there
But winning the peace of nations everywhere

Ok, here's the second part. Enjoy
Calling All Cars, Part Two

Calling all cars
We've got another victim
He's mad with love
And somebody else loves him
He's walkin down the highway
Following the stars above
He begun his walk today
Doesn't know how long it'll take
But he'll be there one day
He'll be there one day

Calling all cars
We've got another victim
He's cruisin down the highway
Dangerous on a motorcycle
Nobody can get near him
There's nothing we can do
Better just let him through
Follow him in the helicopter
While he blazes on his chopper

Calling all cars
The victim is on the loose
We can't get too close
Or he'll hang his noose
And make his life dispose
But then again I suppose
That's why I'm...

Calling all cars
Calling all cars
We've found the victim
He's in the town where his love lives
It took him about a week
But it's alright now
Because he's found his love

Calling all cars
Calling all cars
We've found the victim
He's mad with love
And somebody else loves him
They've found each other
They have one another
[repeat this last part over and over until fade out]

A song I wrote
Calling All Cars, Part One

Calling all cars
We've got another victim
He carries the scars
Of all who once loved him
Destroyed by love
He turned away
Just one more shove
And he'll end the day
Days of his life
He'll Draw his final breath
He will fall to his death.

Calling all cars
We've got another victim
He's going to fast
He's gonna crash
Haunting is his past
His thinking is rash
No one there to love him
Cheated by the cruel society
No one will see him again
Now death is his priority

Calling all cars
We've lost control
He's gone for good
The car took its toll
It rolled onto the hood
Flipped and gone for good
Lost at the bottom of the river
Last evidence is a flash of silver

Calling all cars
We need an ambulance
And the rescue team
It looks bad at a glance
It's worse than it may seem
They're drownin in his car
The parents don't know where they are

Calling all cars
We've got yet another victim
Looks like former love by him
The tragedy of it all
Making the horrible call
Telling the parents they won't be home
All because of he was left alone

Calling all cars
Calling all cars
We've got we've got
We've got another victim
We've got another victim
Calling all cars
We've found the victim
Calling all cars
Somebody loved them
Calling all cars
If only they had listened
Calling all cars
This is how it ends
Calling all cars.

Stormy Times

The sky turns pitch black
Lightning streaks across it.
There is no turning back.
Maybe I will get hit.

Winds pick up dust
That's all we'll be
Dust in the wind
Forever set free

Pitter-patter of raindrops heard
I walk outside in the storm
Cryin? Who me? That's obsurd
But really the rain hides my form

Ashes to ashes
Dust to dust
Energy crashes
Heal, I must

Screamin out my lungs
Never return to me
I've climbed the rungs
I'll be set free