Dear all who really care about what I have to say in an online journal.
Today was rather odd with several tests and a break up between two friends(who were also going out). The male seems rather uneffected, but all of us males generally act in this fashion. Unknown to the rest of society (especially the female part of it), men are hurt (generally) when they break up. I certainly was...But sometimes it takes a while before the depression and loss hits them(which generally takes place only when they're alone). Most men will desprately deny that they had these feelings and are in fact, rather fragile creatures. I am not one of them. If talking to the right person, I sometimes tell my true emotions during the present ordeal.

But most times I bottle up my emotions until I'm ready to explode/implode emotionally or feeling rather suicidal. At which times, I don't really know how I pull through...I just do. Magically...Until it builds up again.



sorry about the fancy words and shit. I had an english test and I was unhappy with the amount I wrote and how well it came out. It sucked. So now I am taking my writing wrath out upon you all! Read...and tremble at my specialness!!!

Normally I can only express how I feel by writing/typing. You just saw above(up top) a side of me that almost NO ONE sees.

I don't even understand myself...so don't bother trying to connect with my chaotic mind. It usually doesn't work. Unless you have a rare mind...like hers...

does anyone really even bother to read people's diaries? I mean, do really fuckin care what I have to say for today? Are you even fuckin reading this???


arrrgh! So frustrated all the sudden for no reason...

Dear people. To all people who know me...or not.  

IF YOU WANT TO TALK, AND I'M NOT HERE: MESSAGE ME ANYWAYS. I'M PROBABLY PLAYING A GAME, AND I'LL BE BACK SOON...(or in a few days)(few days at most)

Good bye fellow elf people! I'll be back some day! But now, I venture into the world of...F.E.A.R...a game I've never played...good bye...

Sorry I haven't sketched anyone yet...It might not be done for a while...sorry. It's just, I haven't been in the mood recently from all the christmas excitement. It WILL be done one day...If I can remember everyone who I got permission from to draw...

Grrrrr!!! So frickin mad!!! I need to kill someone!

EVERY ONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

COME TO MY HOUSE AND FOLLOW THE INSTRUCTIONS. AS IN, THE ONES ON THE MAGIC QUESTIONS!!! WEITHER I'M ON OR NOT! ASK A QUESTION!!! PLEASE!!! I'M BORED!!!

Ohmygod. Why is it that no one is on when I'm on? There's no one to talk to! And no one comments on my page if I'm not there!?! grrrrrrr!!!

you know, it's hard being me. And not for the reasons I have above. It's just hard. And right now I'm bored. It's funny to me that I type better than a lot of people here. There's no spelling errors, there's capital letters after periods, there's commas and periods...wow. Never really thought about it until now...I'm fucking bored out of my ever fucking living skull!!! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!! I will eat your heart and poop out your soul!!! Snappercrackles!

I'm bored again!Been sick for 5 days and I'm still feeling a bit crappy...is'nt this fun!?! ha ha ha!!!


oops...I think I'm going crazy...oh well!!!!! ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha!!!!!!!!!!! *pant pant* ha ha h- ack! heart attack!!! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!! ha ha h- *keels over dead*



That would make you all very happy wouldn't it? ha! I laugh in your face! I am invincible!!! ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha!!!!!

Hmmmmm...Visit Asrun...is good idea...yes...very good...
Inspiring...it's so good...go Asrun!

I'm bored...wheeeeeee!!!


I'm gonna go draw cause I was inspired by Asrun's uber art... I need Photoshop now... & Asrun can tell me how to use it through a tutorial...


Or maybe I'll stay on my computer & play UT (Unreal Tournament)...




IT'S UT TIME!!!!!


yay...

Yo! I'm new and bored!!! Talk to me people!!!!! blah blah blah!!!