[Sideways]'s diary

1156353  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2013-01-01
Written: (4344 days ago)

Also, Christmas miracle. Tried to fly American Airlines to Fort Lauderdale to get home. Got cancel pwnt. No surprise, AA is a notoriously miserable airline to fly with. Yet, with an entire plane-ful of people getting screwed, an hour in line nets two tickets to miami, which puts me roughly a train and a bus away from Fort Lauderdale. So, that's awesome. Thank you baby Jesus, thank you for saving me from the Hell of spending a day in Dallas. Hallelujah!

1156350  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2013-01-01
Written: (4344 days ago)

F.O.D. is an acronym for "Fuck Off and Die." not really directed at anyone in particular. If anything, it's kinda how I think the last two years has told me.

1156217  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2012-12-26
Written: (4350 days ago)

3. (complete.)

These are the days, the End Complete
A World still turning on path towards the Suffering
You are our Jury, we are as saints

Our minds divide, the past repeats
A hurt still brewing in the hearts of those we once bled
I am the Crowing, the living dead...

--Dig deeper! Remember
All that you've been, and all you've left behind
Wave goodbye, my dear
Dig Deeper! Remember
All that you've been, and all you've left behind!
It's your home, my dear.

No room to save- the Worst displayed
What once was courage is now cursed in the harm we've made
We are the sinners- before our ways, our graves

Now leave in peace- Undead unsaved,
With World still turning on a path towards the End Complete?
I spite thee Jury! I've come for change!

--Dig deeper! Remember
All that you've been, and all you've left behind
Wave goodbye, my dear
Dig deeper! Remember
All that you've been, and all you've left behind!
Welcome home, my dear--


"Mama-- I'm living proof that Never
Is just around the corner...
A Ghost, to walk the path
Designed for you and I... But

No one will ever know.
*sigh*
No one will ever know."


--TRANSFORMATION--

We are the Fate of Heaven
The call of justice!
We are now waiting
While you wish away with your plans, Pray deliverance!
Well, this is no safe haven!

GOD He will not save you
    IS NOT He will not save you
          HERE! He will not save you from this

You've been stealing my lines,
NOW go on living your lies
For on your knees you will find
You'll face a jury in Hell

We are the Fate of killers
The call of justice!
We are now waiting
While you wish us away with all plans of deliverance
Won't save your soul from Satan

GOD He will not save you
    IS NOT He will not save you
          HERE! He will not save you from this

You've been stealing my lines
NOW going living your lies
For on your knees you will find
You'll face a Jury in Hell

--TRANSCENDANCE--

These are the days, the End Complete
A World still turning to the sound of the Suffering
You are our Jury, we are the saints--

--Dig Deeper! Remember
All that you've been, and all you've left behind
Wave goodbye, my dear
Dig deeper! Remember
All that you've been, and all you've left behind!
It's your home, my dear--


You were the magic
That left a curse in time
You were the Beauty
We had to leave behind

No, no,
I don't want to go, oh no
Woah, But goodbye....
No, but,
Wave bye-bye...

"But I'm coming to get
You my love....
Oh, girl
Let the rabbit go run
It's over soon,
Let the rabbit go run
I'm coming to get
You, my love..."







1156216  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2012-12-26
Written: (4350 days ago)


2.

Identity without a hope
I repeat, and I boast--
This one lacks a home, mmm

It scurries with it's doubt
Behind the doors we always shout
It hides it far below...

Oooh, This is all:
--You and me--
In all
Our dreams
All nightmare long... Ha

Who will be your Pretty Little Enemy?
When I'm gone Your world will prove empty
I promise, you will always remember Me
The yoke's on you, Endlessly
While you eke out your existance
Your deepest scars continue to sink

We're down-- to this Fate:
Deranged.

And we were our own souls to decide
I promised you, but you always knew
What came into the night!
Hahaha

Who will be your Pretty Little Enemy?
When I'm gone Your world will prove empty
I promise, you will always remember Me
The yoke's on you, Endlessly
While you eke out your exististance
The deepest scars continue to sink

You'll end-- just like this:
Deranged.

--There is no me--Without you!
I will behave as--I will be--
An afterthought--Your make-believe
Your darkest day-- Your friend in need

Oooh... Oooh, hahaha!

Who will be your Pretty Little Enemy?
When I'm gone Your world will prove empty
I promise, you will always remember Me
The yoke's on you, Endlessly
While you eke out your exististance
The deepest scars continue to sink

We're one-- And the same:
Deranged.</i>







1156181  Link to this entry 
Written about Monday 2012-12-24
Written: (4352 days ago)




I know
This burden, grows heavier with every step
Out of balance, I can't see how it's happenstance
Seems it could be, Maybe it's a coincidence

"Hunt for- What you're told, Lion Slicer!
RUN
     I run...
RUN WITH         with
DEATH"

I say
Gone--Away
My Heart's
Gone--Away
Take my
Ever-ything
My Heart's
Gone--Away

I see
Light fading, curses closer with every step
Seems however, I'm a victim of circumstance
Growing darker, there's no such thing as coincidence...

"Lion Slicer, Ridden of your Love!
RUN,
            I run...
RUN WITH        with...
DEATH"

I say
Gone--Away
My Heart's
Gone---Away
Take my
Ever-ything
My Heart's
Gone--Away
Taken down...

RUN,             I run...
RUN WITH        with...
DEATH"

--
...I Tried To Burrow A Hole 
Into The Ground
Breaking All The Fingers And 
Nails From My Hand
The Eyes Of A Child See No Wrong
Ignorant Bliss,
Impending Doom

Lost Love
Bright Eyes Fading
Faster Than Stars Falling
How Can I Tell You That I've Failed?
Tell You I Failed...
--

Gone--Away
My Heart's
Gone---Away
Take my
Ever-ything
My Heart's
Gone--Away
Take it NOW!


          

  

1156180  Link to this entry 
Written about Monday 2012-12-24
Written: (4352 days ago)



--Floating-- in red again
In deepened soil
--Nothing--Empty cup
Fate not known--

Showing promise of a perfect land!
No regrets for a fallen ground!
The omen passed, Woman possessed,
I Reflect on the duties held

Alone 

--Oceans-- morph to dust
Chasing the timeline
--Bolts of-- lightning flash
Forgotten storm god--...

Rise, Climb, Rise, Fly, Rise, Endeavor, Try

The atmosphere that floats above the earth is corrupt for man
This we know.
What has dwelt within the early dawn has gone away
That's okay.

Dig, Climb,
Ancient elm
Root, Ride
the vine of Father Ground 
Our calling.

The atmosphere that floats above the earth is corrupt for man,
This we know.



----
I see
Light fading, curses closer with every step
Seems however, I'm a victim of circumstance
Growing darker, there's no such thing as coincidence...


"Lion Slicer, Ridden of your Love!
RUN,             I run...
RUN WITH        with...
DEATH"

I say

Gone--Away
My Heart's
Gone---Away
Take my
Ever-ything
My Heart's
Gone--Away
Take it now!

---



--Circle--Made of ash
Betray her presence.
--Huntress-- with Gentle breath
Listen, the poison rose up.



1156160  Link to this entry 
Written about Saturday 2012-12-22
Written: (4354 days ago)

 

The demon skin 
is covered 
in fine mist...
Opened his Hand in my hand,
Holding my eyes to the future...

Hovering above myself
Letting loose: the guided
Punching these holes in my head:
The space-time Paradigm

Omni---pres---ence
Prim---al in--stinct---s

I'm letting go
Letting Go
Letting
Go Now

I'm Calling reason
And Finding you,
These Wild Hearts Run
Even deeper,
Burning Through,
These Wild Hearts Run

Let it go,
Letting Go
I'm Letting Go
Letting 
Go Now, 

Letting me free the
Quintessence 
In fine mist...
Opened his Hand in Center
Holding my eyes to the future...

Cupping the blood, myself
Letting loose: the guided
Punching these holes in my head,
Losing my skin to the Landslide

Om---ni--pres---ence
Prim--al in---stinct-

Let it go!

Calling reason,
Then Finding you,
These Wild Hearts Run
Even deeper,
Burning Through,
These Wild Hearts Run

Letting go!
I'm Letting Go!
Letting
Go Now.....

SHIELD FAILURE
...
"SPEED FAREWELL."
---

"The atmosphere that floats above the earth is corrupt for man.
This we know:
What has dwelt within the early dawn has gone away,
That's okay.
Dig, Climb, Ancient Elm.
Root, Ride the Vine of Father Ground.

The atmosphere that floats above the earth is corrupt for man.
This we know."
   
1156093  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2012-12-20
Written: (4356 days ago)

  

I Flew Beyond The Sun Before 
It Was Time
Burning All The Gold That 
Held Me Inside My Shell
Waiting For You To Pull Me Back In
I Almost Had The World In My Sight

Lost Love
Bright Eyes Fading
Faster Than Stars Falling
How Can I Tell You That I've Failed?
Tell You I Failed...

Falling From Grace Cause I've 
Been Away Too Long
Leaving You Behind With 
My Lonesome Song
Now I'm Lost In 
Oblivion

I Tried To Burrow A Hole 
Into The Ground
Breaking All The Fingers And 
Nails From My Hand
The Eyes Of A Child See No Wrong
Ignorant Bliss,
 Impending Doom

Lost Love
Bright Eyes Fading
Faster Than Stars Falling
How Can I Tell You That I've Failed?
Tell You I Failed...

Falling From Grace Cause I've 
Been Away Too Long
Leaving You Behind With 
My Lonesome Song
Now I'm Lost In

Falling From 

Grace Cause I've Been Away Too Long
Leaving You
Behind With My Lonesome Song
Now I'm Lost 
In Oblivion...
In 
Oblivion...
1156092  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2012-12-20
Written: (4356 days ago)

Welcome to our fortress tall,
I'll take some time to show you around
Impossible to break these walls
For you see, the steel is much too strong
Computer banks to rule the world,
Instruments to sight the stars,

Possibly- I've seen too much
Hangar 18- I know too much

Foreign life forms inventory
Suspended state of cryogenics
Selective amnesia's the story
Believed, foretold, but who'd suspect?
The Military Intelligence:
The two words combined can't make sense

Possibly- I've seen too much
Hangar 18- I know too much
 

1155837  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2012-12-09
Written: (4367 days ago)

Run, desire, run
Sexual being
Run him like a blade
To and through the heart-
No conscience,
One motive:
Cater to the hollow

Screaming
Feed me here!
Fill me up, again
Temporarily-- pacify this hungering

So grow--Libido throw
Dominoes of indiscretions down
Falling all around
In cycles
In circles
Constantly consuming
Conquer and devour...

'Cause it's time to bring the fire down!
Bridle all this indiscretion!
Long enough to edify
And permanently fill this hollow...

Screaming
Feed me here!
Fill me up, again
Temporarily-- pacifying

Feed me here
Fill me up, again
Temporarily-- pacifying
Missing: </b>Missing: </i>

1155768  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2012-12-06
Written: (4370 days ago)

Metaphor-- For a missing moment
Pull me in--to your perfect circle
One wound-- One chain-- One resolve:
Liberate this will-- to release a soul

Gotta cut away, clear away-
Snip away, and sever this
Umbilical residue
That's keeping me from killing you


And from pulling you out of me, here...
I can almost hear the scream...

Wooooh.....

Give me one more medicated peaceful moment
Give me one more calm, sedated peaceful moment--
Yeah, I don't wanna feel this
Overwhelming hostility!
Don't want to feel this
Cold, surrounding hostility!

Gotta cut away, clear away
Snip away and sever this
Necrotic tissue...
Gotta cut away, clear away
Get away, in spite of this
Umbilical residue
That's keeping me from killing you!

In spite of it and everything.....
Keeping me from killing you....



1155731  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2012-12-05
Written: (4371 days ago)

*Holds up phone with Skype app.*

I have teh POWWWWWAAaaaaaa!

You may add me. Due to the retarded amount of Skype usernames, probably 90% of which are bot accounts.... If you want to add me, my username is the first thing I found that wasn't taken:

isthistakenjerkface


Add me, so that I may return to the IM world! Death to Apple!

You too, Dani. I see you. Add me I mean....

1155723  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2012-12-05
Written: (4371 days ago)
Next in thread:

 
She seems dressed in all the rings
Of past fatalities
So fragile, yet so devious
She continues to see

Climatic hands that press-
Her temples and my chest-
Enter the night that she came home
-forever...

Ohhh,
She's the only one that makes me Sad.

She is everything and more--
The solemn hypnotic
My Dahlia bathed in possession,
She is home to me.

I get nervous, perverse, when I see her it's worse
And the stress is astounding.
It's now or never she's coming home
-forever-

Oh 
She's the only one that makes me Sad


Hard to say what- caught my attention
Fixed and crazy, aphid attraction
Carve my name in my face
to recognize
Such a pheromone cult 
That terrorized

I won't let this build up inside of me
I won't let this build up inside of me

Yes,
I'm a slave--and I am a master!
No restraints- or -unchecked collectors
I exist through my need
To self oblige!
She makes something of me
That I despise!

I won't let this build up inside of me
I won't let this build up inside of me
You--you steal of me
I won't let this build up inside of me
You shouldn't be scared of me
I won't let this build up inside of me
You--you emptied me

She isn't real!
I can't make her real!
She isn't real!
Can't make her real!

Can't make her real...

1155564  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2012-11-29
Written: (4377 days ago)

The man on the left is 6'4" and weighs roughly 290 pounds.

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Like a point-perspective BOSS.

1155563  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2012-11-29
Written: (4377 days ago)

In conjunction with this weeks pseudo-philosophical bull-shit rant,

watch this.

http://m.youtube.com/index?&amp;desktop_uri=%2F#/watch?v=oOlDewpCfZQ

I am not kidding. You freaking watch that right now. Do it. Don't get pissed at me, you will not regret it. I guarantee you will watch the whole thing and love it. So do it. Don't you dare not click that link.

1155540  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2012-11-28
Written: (4378 days ago)


Just a thought-
-To add suspense
To all of the games-
-Of discontent

Fear is real-
-But not self-taught
You let others-
-Be the cause--

There we go racing, towards the suns
Ignoring all the noise,
Striving for the grace of man!
People play this great charade
And always miss the point:
Never fall for prophecies.

You say it draws near,
That it will be clear,
You act so convinced,
A fortress you've built.

Remember the doubt
By which I now stand,
You wrote the book
On the way it all ends!

Tear down
Those mighty walls,
Reinvent
The way you talk!

Look ahead,
Not down below,
Or high above
Where angels flow

There we go, racing towards the suns,
Ignoring all the noise,
Striving for the grace of man!
People play this great charade,
And always miss the point:
Never fall for prophecies.

Waiting to see
Our kind disagree,
You draw the line
And stick to your point.

Remember the doubt
By which I now stand,
You wrote the book
On the way...

It Ends.


((life on earth - the atoms that make up the human body, 
are traceable to the crucibles that cooked light elements into heavy elements in their core.
 These stars went unstable
- they collapsed and then exploded- scattering their enriched guts across 
the galaxy- guts made of carbon, nitrogen, oxygen, and all the fundamental ingredients of life itself. 

These ingredients become part of gas clouds that collapsed, formed 
the next generation of solar systems- 
stars with orbiting planets. And those planets now have the ingredients for life itself. So know that, yes, we are part of this universe, 
we are in this universe, 
but perhaps more important than both of those facts
 is that the universe is in us.))


You say it draws near?
That it will be clear?
You act so convinced
Of your trash you've shilled

Remember the doubt
By which I will stand,
You wrote the book
On the way it all ends!

It Ends.

1155417  Link to this entry 
Written about Saturday 2012-11-24
Written: (4382 days ago)

Saw the gap again today, I fear
While you were begging me to stay in here
Better take care not to make me enter
'Cause if I do we both may disappear

Know that I will choke until I swallow
Choke this infant here before me
What is this but my reflection?
Who am I to judge or strike you down?

But you're pushing me and shoving me
You're pushing me and shoving me
Pushing and shoving me
Pushing and Shoving me!

You still love me? You still love me?
You didn't mean it
Pushit on me

Rest your trigger on my finger
Bang my head upon the faultline
But take care not to make me enter
'Cause if I do we both may disappear

'Cause you're pushing and shoving me
You're pushing and shoving me
Pushing and shoving me
Pushing and Shoving me!

You still love me? You spit on me!
Did you mean either?
Pushit on me!

Slipping back into the gap again...
I'm alive when you're touching me
Alive when you're shoving me down.... And down...
But I'd trade it all for just a little
Peace of mind!

You're pushing! Shoving!
I'm scrambling
To keep my feet flat on the ground!

...Put me somewhere I don't wanna be...
Seeing something I don't wanna see...
Never want to see that place again...

Saw the gap again today
While you were begging me to stay
Managed to push my self away
And you as well, my dear

So if I show I might fade like a sigh if I stay--
You minimize any movement I state--
I must persuade you another way!

Pushing me and shoving me
Pushing me and shoving
Pushing and shoving--
There's no love in fear!!!

Staring down the hole again!
Survival is my only friend!
Hands are on my back again!
Terrified of what may come!

Remember! I will always love you!
Even if I have to claw your fucking throat to stay!
If there is no other way
It will end no other way!!!

1155315  Link to this entry 
Written about Monday 2012-11-19
Written: (4387 days ago)

See the sound
It crashes in,
all around
It get's in

Now take your hands
and raise them up
Into the air
that's all around ya
Now bring 'em down
Like a clock at two!
Shake your hair!
You know what to do!

They wanna put guns in the sky
Someone out there--ain't gonna like it
But it could be good? Make us love each other
Have to realize--Our only future

Guns in the sky. Guns in the sky. Guns in the sky. Guns in the sky.

Guns in the sky
Child grows up to see
Guns in the sky that
Used to be on T.V
Wanna change, but forgot the joke
It's great to see you, but I'm running late

da da da
Love your hair!
da da da
Lend me a ten?
da da da
Love your big house!
da da da
Could you spare a dime?
Well I'm sick of it!

It's a load of shit!

We could stop the world and let off all the fools,
And let them go live with their guns in the sky!

Guns in the sky. Guns in the sky. Guns in the sky. Guns in the sky.


1155198  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2012-11-16
Written: (4390 days ago)

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Like a HAXX0RZ BOSS!

My pet has two supersoakers and a bomber jet. What's yours got?

1155146  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2012-11-14
Written: (4392 days ago)

The space where nothing seems to right--
Our voice heard and disqualified--
The march we breed will lead us on--
To the end- Nothing, to them, we pause--
Just relay to feel like we belong.

Now as we take a picture on the street--
Remember, I depend on you as much ad you on me--
Don't try to think and let's not pretend
We made the mothers, we made the men
We made you mothers, we made you men

Oh, It's no surprise! 
Nobody listens anymore--To what we're saying
To what was said!
And in your abscence, we promised you
Oh, we'll behave! Oh, we'll behave!

So Just keep running
Everything will look better once you look away
Oh, I agree, 'cause what's the difference?
Oh, is there a difference we make?

Your day will come

The rooms start dancing across our backs--
These are the worlds in mid-heart attack--
Belief still strong we can make this change
The stage is set, the stage is
We made this! We made this, we made this!

Oh, It's no surprise! 
Nobody listens anymore--To what we're saying
To what was said!
And in your abscence, we promised you
Oh, we'll behave! Oh, we'll behave!

So Just keep running
Everything will look better once you look away
Oh, I agree, 'cause what's the difference?
Oh, is there a difference we make?

Between the dapper villain in a Sunday serial, at the podium, 
or
Just another cog in the wheel? Just another cog in the wheel? Just another cog in the wheel?

They're both capable--of making life hard
No bandage--can mend all these parts
So why--Do I--Give???

Between the dream between
Between, between, between
Between the dream between-

Oh, It's no surprise! 
Nobody listens anymore--To what we're saying
To what was said!
And in your abscence, we promised you
Oh, we'll behave! Oh, we'll behave!

So Just keep running
Everything will look better once you look away
Oh, I agree, 'cause what's the difference?
Oh, is there a difference we make?

--You're breaking my heart
No bandage--can mend all these parts
So why--Do I--Live with this? Makes 
No difference
  

1155063  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2012-11-11
Written: (4395 days ago)

<img:http://www.mcs.csueastbay.edu/~malek/Surrealism/dali1.jpg>

Like a Fourth Dimensional BOSS!

 The logged in version 

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