[Sideways]'s diary

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Written about Sunday 2013-06-09
Written: (4185 days ago)


This is for my dear friend [Ravenclaw]


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These are the days,
The End Complete
The world is turning to the sound
Of the suffering
You are the jury, we are the saints.

Our minds divide,
The past repeats
A war still brewing in the hearts
Of those we once bled.
I am the Knowing, the living dead.

Dig deeper! Remember:
All that you've been
And all you've left behind!
Wave goodbye, my dear.
Dig deeper! Remember:
All that you've been
And all you've left behind!
Welcome home, my dear.


No words to say,
The worst displayed
What once was courage is now
Cursed in the world we've made.
We are the sinners, before our fate.

Now leave in peace,
The dead unsaved
A world still turning down the path
Toward The End Complete!
Now spite me, jury.
We've come for change!

Dig deeper! Remember:
All that you've been
And all you've left behind!
Wave goodbye, my dear.
Dig deeper! Remember:
All that you've been
And all you've left behind!
Welcome home, my dear.


...
"Momma,
I'm living proof that
Never,
Is just around the
Corner:
A Ghost!!
To walk the end
Designed for you and I..."

No one will ever know...
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*sigh*
No one will ever know.


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"SCREAM!!! Ah-Ha-HAAA!"

We are the fate of Killers!
The call of justice!
We are now waiting while you
Wish us away with your plans
And pray for deliverance!
Well, this is no safe haven!

GOD He will not save you
    IS NOT He will not save you
       HERE!!! He will not save you from this!


You've been stealing my lines?
NOW! Go on living your lies,
For on your knees you will find,
You'll face a jury in Hell-

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We are the fate of Sinners!
The call of justice!
We are now waiting while you
Wish us away with your prayer
And hope for a savior!
Wont save your soul from Satan!

GOD He will not save you
    IS NOT He will not save you
       HERE!!! He will not save you from this!


You've been stealing my lines?
NOW! Go on living your lies,
For on your knees you will find,
You'll face a jury in Hell!



Those were the days,
The End Complete
The world is burning to the howls
Of the suffering.
You are the jury, we are the saints....

Dig deeper! Remember:
All that you've been
And all you've left behind!
Wave goodbye, my dear.
Dig deeper! Remember:
All that you've been
And all you've left behind!
Welcome home, my dear.


You were the magic
That turned a curse in time!
And You were the beauty
That we had to leave behind.
Oh, oh...
"Bye-bye."







Draw a card, RC.

"The Wrong Path."

Draw another.

"Twenty."

And one more?

"Found."



Good. Hehehehe ;)




1160545  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2013-06-04
Written: (4190 days ago)

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This sinking warmth through obscurity
Beyond the sweet in between Where and what you're doing.. There is a view of an uncharted place
Where you're the brunt of a joke
And everyone's laughing..

I am not: Who I seem
Who you thought: I could be
The support: You could lean
Up against: When you need
I'm the Dark: When you want
The lights out: At all costs,
This is mine: That is yours
I'm the bricks in your Wall.

Goodbye, Forever!
My Darling, Whether
I was everything you thought I'd be,
Or not...
I was a bad man, so bad,
To stop you girl from loving me!

Goodbye, Forever!
My Darling, Whether
I was everything you thought I'd be,
Or not...
I was a bad man, oooh...
To stop you girl from loving me..
Oh, no!


A yearning loss--to silence me The struggle breaks the black and white,
Calling, transmitting,
The echo breaks: electric air.
Her pulse! It stretches from never
To everywhere...

And from the other side she'll save me!
Her courage, strength and heart:
Beyond!
I wish she'd stay mine..
But her place is in some other time,
Oh, oh!

Goodbye, Forever!
My Darling, Whether
I was everything you thought I'd be,
Or not...
I was a bad man, oooh...
To stop you girl from loving me..
Oh, no!


Sssss....
Oh, no...
Ssss....
No, no....

Body, separating,
Ascend and release...
This Tragedy's all MY--
Fault...
Reaching, desperately
To salvage any piece!
This Tragedy's all MY--
Fault....
and...

This hurt won't- Won't go away
This hurt won't- Won't go away
This hurt won't- Won't go away This hurt won't- Won't go away
Won't go away
Won't go away..

And from the other side she'll save me!
Her courage, strength and heart:
Beyond!
I wish she'd stay mine..
But her place is in some other time,
Oh, oh!

Goodbye, Forever!
My Darling, Whether
I was everything you thought I'd be,
Or not...
I was a bad man, oooh...
To stop you girl from loving me..
Oh, no!


Goodbye, Forever-- Forever!
You won't be forgotten!
Goodbye, Forever,
ForEVER...
You won't be forgotten....


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1160469  Link to this entry 
Written about Saturday 2013-06-01
Written: (4193 days ago)

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Set.ting sun.can't--shine
Now you're gone
In.side sleep.ing
My.heart beat.ing
You know
That you tried
To.hide.it
Could.n't you--have
Said.what you meant?

Oh...............


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Time.heals, Time Con--geals
Around us
End.less hours.of
Wast.ed mom.ents
Under
-standing,
Not
De.mand.ing
Your.eyes.tell--what
You.feel inside.

No.........................


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Set.ting sun.can't--shine
Now you're gone
In.side sleep.ing
My.heart beat.ing
You know
That you tried
To.hide.it
Could.n't you--have
Said.what you meant?


.............................


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YOU LIED.

1160273  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2013-05-23
Written: (4202 days ago)

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(This song used to keep me up at night. A lot. For years.)

Time- has passed,
Far too long,
To lament that we were once
Deeply in love-

The wind- blows softly
While- my heart
Cannot heal all the tears
That are in it...

Would someone cry
Just for me
With the driest of eyes?!

THE REAL FOLK- BLUES!
I only- want
To understand
What true sadness is

Reclining amongst
The muddy water
Really isn't-
Such a bad life

Only if it ends...
After--The first time...

1160154  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2013-05-16
Written: (4208 days ago)

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Well I don't want to see you waiting,
I've already gone too far away
I still can't keep the day from ending,
With no more messed up reasons for me to stay!

Well this is
Not for real!
Afraid to feel!
I just
Hit the floor!
Don't ask for more!

I'm Wasting my time!
I'm Wasting my time!

You can't stop to feel!
And there's no reason
Just make the call!
And take it all again!

Woah, all again....

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Written about Friday 2013-05-03
Written: (4221 days ago)

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Blessed visionary!
Cut me with your sun!
The rivers ran in blood,
Spark fueled to fire ON!


Deep--with--in the--soul--less Void--and
Search--ing--for
a Sign!


This vessel, forged inside me!
Watches over
Like Death
In rays of the MOON!


Strike--the--shepherd--Sheep--will--scatter
Moun--tains--of
Despair!

I can see the Pain!
It's written--all over your face


The screaming arrows shorn,
Tear through my soul
In the dawn your face is haunting!
White ghostly dreams of OLD!


Weight--of--worlds is--on--your--shoul--ders
Hear--the--voice
Of Gold!

I can see the pain!
It's written--all over your face


"Bind your weapons and shield
Call your wolves to your heel

Don your mantle and cowl
Send your prayers to the Owl

Call your wolves to your heel
Bind your weapons and shield."

Des--perate--heat--hens flock--to--si--rens
Guard--your--Heart
ache well!


Momma don't let them take her!
Don't let them Take her down!

(Please) (tell) (Lucifer)
He (can't) (have) (this) (one)
(Her spirit's too strong!)


I can see the pain!
It's written--all over your face
I can see the pain!
You can make it all go away!

1159642  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2013-04-25
Written: (4230 days ago)

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I hate-- everything I am becoming!
This change is torture
There is never enough to give
Only plenty to take--and this I wage

When the ground parts from below,
Will it feel so?
How can I gain from another
when the other goes?

This hand,
This hurt,
My heart

I'll flirt with Disaster
Just know now, man,
The deal is off!!

I'll be no good!
This time defines:
I'll put my Touch around the grip of this knife
These dirty hands
Just won't come Clean!

I'm a "Murderer,"
The worst these Worlds will see

Mercy!--Please leave her just a little bit longer
She's All my world!
My love, I apologize!
With that you'll see the end of days,
Just rest assured!

'Cause they won't let her go,
And I remain so-- Alone
To work out a clever way to get her home!

I will
Do what
I must

I'll flirt with Disaster
Just know now, boy,
You're out of luck!!

I'll be no good,
This time defines:
I'll put my Touch around the grip of this knife
These dirty hands
Just won't come Clean

I'm a"Murderer,"
The worst these worlds will see

Oh, save me from Defeat again!
This is war...
Murdered the one so close!
While she trusts!-- You curse
"Die, my darling!"

If only you'd know
How Lovely you glow!
In the flame of Error!

Oh, I ask too much..
Please turn back the clock! and
Take me instead!!!!

How have you
Come to lose? The only thing that mattered
The other "1" to your "2!"

I've become! The Wrong...
Everyone's Black Sheep

A witch, please burn me
For God...

I'll be no good
This time defines:
I'll put my Touch around the grip of this knife
These dirty hands
Just won't come Clean!

I'm a "Murderer,"
The worst these worlds will see

Oh, save me from Defeat again!
This is war....
Murder the one so close!
While she trusts!-- you curse
"Die, my darling!"

I'll be no good!
This time defines!

Oh, save me from defeat again!
Oh, save me from defeat again!
Again,
Once again...

1159640  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2013-04-25
Written: (4230 days ago)

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"FUCK YOU!

I can't say what I want to...
Even if I'm not serious.
I can't say what I want to...
Even if I'm not serious, things like

Fuck yourself..
Go Fuck yourself...
You Piece of SHIT, why don't you go, and
Just KILL YOURSELF!
For sayin'

I can't say what I want to!
Even if I'm not serious!
I can't say what I want to
Even IF
I'M JUST KIDDING!!!!

Yes...

People tell me what to say...
What to think, and what to play
I said,
People tell me what to say
What to think and what to PLAY!

I can't say what I want to!
Even if I'm not serious!
I can't say what I want to
Even IF
I'M JUST KIDDING!!!!

....Go fuck yourself....
---You piece of shit---
Just go get fucked...
WHY DON'T YOU GO FUCK
YOURSELF!!!!!!!!!!!


People tell me what to say...
What to think, and what to play
I said,
People tell me what to say
What to think and what to PLAY!

People tell me what to say...
What to think, and what to play
I said,
People tell me what to say
What to think and what to PLAY!

Just kidding.

Just kidding.

Just Kidding.



1159476  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2013-04-18
Written: (4236 days ago)
Next in thread: 1159477

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"We're about to have a feast!"

Of your childhood and imortal soul

1159403  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2013-04-16
Written: (4239 days ago)

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Two times now!!
I've been-- struck down
By a voice that Speaks
From deep-- beneath
The Endless water that's

Twice as clear as Heaven,
Twice as loud as reason...
Deep and rich, like silt on a riverbed
And just as never-ending

The current's mouth below me...
Opens up around me...
Suggests and beckons, all while swallowing...

Surrounds! and Drowns! and
Washes me away!!

...But I'm so comfortable?
Too comfortable...

Shut up!
Shut up!
Shut up!
Shut up,

You're saturating me!

How could I let THIS bring me
Back to my knees???

*sigh*
Third time now! 
I've been-- Baptized by a voice that
Screams-- from deep--
Beneath the cold and black water that's

Half as high as Heaven,
Half as clear as reason...
Clear and black like silt on a riverbed
And Just as never-ending

The current's mouth below me...
Opens up around me
Suggests and beckons, all while swallowing...

Surrounds! and Drowns! and
Washes me away!!

But I'm so comfortable?
Too comfortable...

Shut up!
Shut up!
Shut up!
Shut up,

You're saturating me!
How could I let this happen?

Why don't you kill me?
I am Weak and
Numb and
Insignificant!!


How could I let THIS bring me
Back to my knees???

You said, you lied
Eu--phor--i--a
You said, you lied
Eu--phor--i--a

Then I saw that, I was here,
Then I knew that,
Again, begun, the fear that

I'M BACK DOWN! IN
THE UNDERTOW
I'M HELPLESS AND AWAKE!
I'M IN
THE UNDERTOW
THERE DOESN'T SEEM TO BE ANY WAY!
OUT! OF
THE UNDERTOW


You! Swore! To! Me!
Eu--phor--i--a!!!
AHHHHHHHHH

Oh.

1159289  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2013-04-12
Written: (4243 days ago)
Next in thread: 1159315, 1159637

I feel the need to reach out for help.
I also dont want that help to come.
My remaining ET friends are strangers. Like neighbors from thenext street that I see everyday, but they have no fucking clue who I am. I dont know them either.

I dont want to say "I'm depressed."
I dont want you to answer "Whats wrong?"
Whats wrong? Whats WRONG?

I do not have the energy to explain 20 years of a broken home, domestic violence, poverty, inadequacy, mental illness, physical abuse, massive anxiety, schoolastic failure, drug abuse, insolvency, isolation, abandonment, betrayal, heartbreak, despair, identity crisis, and just plain hard luck to you fucking people.

You know what asking for help gets me? A knife inthe back.
Im not allowed to mention other Elftownians in a negative fashion in my diary. So Im just gonna think of everyone on here who expressed love or at least compassion towards me and donot talk to me anymore onhere. Then I'm just gonna list numbers.

1.
2.
3.
4.
5.
6.
7.

Thats just off the top of my head. I admit that two of em werent really my friends. But three of them I loved. Truly did.

And this is all just venting. If the thought has occurred to you that Im a basketcase and you should just move on with your day?
CONGRATULATIONS!!!
You are 100% correct! Every last one of those people I just listed blocked me on a day I was horribly depressed and begged them for help.

I know Im the common denominator in that equation. I know Im not a pleasant person. I know Im just a bad fucking egg. Im not kidding.


As an addict and alcoholic, let me enlighten you blessed normal people with manageable lives what exactly creates a drug addict. Its not what you think.

At some point, when we become adults, we grow a bit jaded about things we were told growing up.
No, not all of us can be president. Not all of us can be astronauts.
There ARE some things that stay out of reach. Sometimes "doing your best" isnt enough.
We learn lessons from that. We learn compromise, gratitude, and humility.

What drives a person to seek anesthetic at the cost of their entire lives? What pain causes a man to forsake his family? Forsake his future?

I know my story isnt everyone's. But I guarantee you this part occurs at least temporarily in every addict.

Its when you find out that your "best" doesnt even make you a good person. When you try so fucking hard to be good that the failure robs you of sleep. When the hatred and disgust of those around you persists even when you stay awake all night trying to discover what your mistakes were nd how to learn from them. When you find out the love of your life left you and didnt even have the courage to tell you why. When your best friend is comfortable with using you for money and leaving you fucked up and alone when you really need him.

When your heart wants to love, and be loved, more than anything in the world. When there isnt anyfucking thing you wouldnt sacrifice to have someone care, anyone, because you cant find one fucking single redeeming thing in your own character. When the last time you felt an emotion like pride, or contentment was more than a fucking decade ago. You know, barring the time you spent with that woman who was cheating on you for two weeks and broke up with you and blamed the whole fucking thing on you.

I should be dead. If suicide was in my nature, I would have killed myself and probably in my grief and rage taken others with me.

You wanna know why kids shoot up schools? Its because they have no control. They want to have friends. They want a dad and a mom who gives a shit their alive. They want a god that answers prayers and a girl that thinks their amazing and a talent that gives them identity.

And none of those things existed in their lives. Not one. They went insane because they had no effect on the world around them. No power, no choice, no respite, no sanctuary. And they snapped.

And by the end all they wanted was god to answer. Or mommy to hold them. Or their peers to respect them. They wanted to begood and the world would not allow it.

Guess what? Hitler was gay. Hitlers father beat him. His mother died when he was13. His WWI comrades made fun of him. He got a bravery medal, but they never respected him. They ostracized him. He wanted to be an artist, but he was rejected from half the art schools in europe. He wanted to be a poet, and nobody would publish him. He wrote Mein Kampf alone, familyless, friendless, and cold, in a closet sized cell in prison.

You wanna call him evil now? Do you wanna curse his soul? Or do you just want to curse the universe for being unfeeling and uncaring and fucking brutal?

I hate people. I hate me. Sometimes I dont even fucking care if you know it or not.

1159111  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2013-04-07
Written: (4248 days ago)
Next in thread: 1159114

Funny, I thought guards usually sent you a message when they edit your house or diary. Either that, or I need to write a new cellphone rant... -_-

1159093  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2013-04-05
Written: (4250 days ago)

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Something has to change.
Undeniable dilemma...
Boredom's not a burden
Anyone should bear.

Constant..over..stimulation numbs me
But I would not want you
Any other way

It's just NOT ENOUGH
I NEED MORE!
Nothing seems to SATISFY!
I don't WANT IT,
I JUST NEED IT:

To breathe, to feel, to know
I'm alive!


Finger deep within the borderline.
Show me that you love me and that we belong together.
Relax,
turn around and take my hand.


I can. help you change
Tired moments into pleasure
Say the word and we'll be
Well upon our way...

Blend and balance
Pain and comfort deep within you
'till You will not want me
Any other way

But it's NOT ENOUGH
I NEED MORE!
Nothing seems to SATISFY!
I don't WANT IT,
I just NEED IT:

To breathe, to feel, to know
I'm alive!


Knuckle deep inside the borderline
This may hurt a little but it's something you'll get used to.
Relax. Slip away.....

......
Chupa, minha, pica, pichu,
Abra, salabim, kadabra, kazam
Chupa, minha, pica, pichu
Say the magic words....
......

I'M ALIVE!


Something kinda sad about
The way that things turn out to be.
Desensitized to everything,
What became of subtlety??

And...
How can it mean anything to me?
If I really don't feel a thing at all? Yet...


I'll
   KEEP
        DIGGING!!
'Till
  I
   FEEL

SOMETHING!



Elbow deep inside the borderline.
Show me that you love me and that we belong together.
Shoulder deep within the borderline.
Relax,
Turn around and
take my hand....
1158930  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2013-03-31
Written: (4255 days ago)

Re-runs!
Because I can. Gravity's Union

I flew headfirst! Into the light
Weightless, Crisscrossing-precise
In a dream- Or was it life?

Inside this door! All answers wait
So saddle up, my steed
Where the lies live, way beneath

Oh my-- I think I've made a mess
This is all my fault
It's what I wished

And I was wrong
To let you go!
I accept my mistake!!
But you will never know

This is my love--Into a
TEN
TON
Truck!!!
Baby, please
Remember the better me?

No time to change my life
In mid-air before
Our maximum reach outpaced
Apart, pictureless, retreat

A terror meets the truth
No longer who-
We now know what we must do
Shadow dance across the roof

...Contact the life- you used to know
I'm Gravity, the world in tow

And I was wrong
To let you go!
I accept my mistake!!
But you will never know

This is my love--Into a
TEN
TON
Truck!!!
Baby, please
Remember the better me?

Driver, may I sleep with you, tonight?
Numbered uncertainty! past
City limits--Soul strewn diary
The roar of the Engine won't cease!!!

All of my Love and Heart- Spilled in this car
Picture me: the perfect enemy
Our lives- Once one, colided up, then beyond
In this fatal posibility

I am yours
I am your Prise.

.. ..
We waved "welcome aboard"
We waved "welcome aboard"
We waved welcome
Aboard-aboard-aboard-aboard and
In my eyes
I
Drowned you...


*beep*.....*beep*....*beep*.....*beep*...

Has he forgotten his place?
Baited the hook, and let it sink?
No cause for alarm!!
Enter the Master:
I am Dr. Straight

Scalpel! Keep that lung in place!
Nurse! IV needs refilling!
Now watch the brain!
Responding quite normal

This Life I Can Save!


*badass blues solo, angels whispering*

Every man has a point
Where he breaks or conjoins
Among pressures that flood
To complicate

Matters close to the heart
They define who we are
Do we love? Do we hate?
We are only our fate
The meat...
Meat... meat...
...

And We understood the unmistakeable
To romantics.. On holiday
And how...
They... Stole our
Love...love....


CAGED!!!!
Locked in Perpetual Motion!
Carving our Wounds wide open!
But you let the Wrong one in!!
HA-HA! HA-haa

CAGED!!!!
(HEY, BABY)
Locked in Perpetual Motion!
(WE UNDERSTOOD!)
Carving our Wounds wide open!
(WE UNDERSTOOD!)
But you let the Wrong one in!
(YOU FORGOT IT ALL!)
Ah-HA! HA-HA

AHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!

1158817  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2013-03-28
Written: (4258 days ago)
Next in thread: 1158841

My lols of the day.


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1158808  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2013-03-28
Written: (4258 days ago)

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Believer!
Your spotlight's on the subject so incorrect
and Suggestion!
Suggests that I'm someone you should
Not respect

And you wear your facade so well,
Covered up in your Plastic Shell!
You're a liar
To everyone around you so
Don't forget

Face the Honest Truth:
You were NEVER you!
Oooh, ooh,

and I'll be Defiant
The Lion
Give them a FIGHT that will open their eyes

Hangman hooded
Softly swingin'
Don't close the Coffin yet!
I'M ALIVE!!!

and it's homecoming...
and it's homecoming...

do You remember?
When there was no wrong deed that I could do?
So young!
Biting off way more than I could chew..

But One day I grew too Old!
And my cares became theirs to mold!
Please accept this
As my resignation,
It's nothing new


Face the Honest Truth:
You were NEVER you!
Oooh, ooh,

and I'll be Defiant
The Lion
Give them a FIGHT that will open their eyes

Hangman hooded
Softly swingin'
Don't close the Coffin yet!
I'M ALIVE!!!

NO,
I'm alive....

-------
*echoing far away*
"It's not as if I intended to face this fate, to sail off the end of the world in question. In hubris, I sought the ends of humanity, of reality, of existance.
There is no other just dessert than death for that action. But I dove in anyways. Within the quintessence of God's gate, I wrung you heart from His grasp, defied his demons, and... and you were there. You, only you mattered.
And that's all I lived for then, and now.
And for you, my favorite,
Death is an unthinkably small price to pay."
-------
And I will now Bleed
For what I
Believe!
No more mistakes
For them to make
For me!

So GOODBYE!
It's MY TIME!
To be....
To be....

this,
The Honest Truth!
You were NEVER you!
Oooh, ooh,

and I'll be Defiant
The Lion
Give them a FIGHT that will open their eyes

Hangman hooded
Softly swingin'
Don't close the Coffin yet!
I'M ALIVE!!!

NO NO NO
I'M ALIVE!
You heard me, you heard me damn you!
NO!
I'M ALIVE!

1158774  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2013-03-27
Written: (4259 days ago)

Oh, I forgot to mention!

The MAXIMUM volume this phone has is best described as analogous to an 85 year old women with stage 4 emphasema whispering facing away from you from fifty yards. This phone is fucking silent. Big expensive headphones, giant stereos, I cant even hear my music. There literally is a huge market on the Google play store for apps called "Volume Boosters."

No, they do not work.

1158773  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2013-03-27
Written: (4259 days ago)
Next in thread: 1158843

Ok, you people have heard my rants about how iphone 3s are defective, broken pieces of shit. You will probably never call Apple technology in general anything other than useless, offensively inferior bastard child products.

I recently got a google android phone. Now Im eating my words.

Is there anyway that we, collectively as a people, storm the offices of industry and fucking beat the shit out of the
M?

Oh, and the reason why that m is there and not where it belongs in that sentance is because this phone, like my iphone before it, is positively useless and enragingly broken as a writing tool. The cursor cannot be used. It doesnt go where youclick. There is no way to predict where the fucking cursor will go.it cant be moved either. I just sit here and try to click where I want it... aand try (And fail) to drag it there.

All these typoes are because the auto-correct feature on this droid should be charged with sex offense as it rapes everything I try to write, repeatedly correcting words that are actual words because it fucking thinks I mean something else. I'd call it a mother fucker, but you people would see " money trucker" instead. I literally had to reformat the keyboard program to turn it off. I had to, because turning auto-correct OFF has no bearing on that. It remains on whether I turn it off or not.

Despite this being a Google fucking phone, and google owns Youtube, its damn near imposdible to use youtube. I cant pause youtube or it will restart the video when I press play. It will be sure to replay the prevideo add, as well. Its impossibletowarch a video because, for example, it will take 30 seconds to start playing a five minute video, play four seconds, buffer for another fifteen seconds, play roughly 3/4 of a second, then buffer again, repeat ad nauseum.

Fuck this phone. Fuck cellular phone designers. Fuck AT&T, fuck google, fuck apple
I dont even use Google anymore. Specifically because of this phone, which is supposed to make google easy, i use bing. Fuck you, google.

Fuck androids. Fuck the information age, and fuck all these corporations and fuck their gullible, slack jawed, masochistic customer base. This is bullshit.,

1158649  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2013-03-24
Written: (4262 days ago)

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I think/Now I must/A reason
I see all.



She gave her heart
To a falling star-
The news filled her through with this tragedy
All the walls went up

Around the world she declines
As the tears-From her eyes-Fall
No one understands, and no one will
All she has lost

If he's not here, then where?
If he's not here, then where?
If he's not here, then where?
If he's not here, then where?

As she found It there
In the cold, blue glare
The words distressed and unfamiliar
Where the fear links here

And emptiness had hope
And in her chest she clenched
Reality settles as the memories waste
While on the screen he lived

She teared
"Your selfishness has robbed you
Of the man you could've been."
Yet I wouldn't change a thing-About you
I love you dearly,
My friend.

If he's not here, the when?
If he's not here, then when?
My love,
I've been searching for my Afterman
If he's not here, then when?
If he's not here, then when?
My love!
I've been searching for
Searching for my Afterman...

1158583  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2013-03-22
Written: (4264 days ago)

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There's a shadow just behind me
Shrouding every step I take
Making every promise empty
Pointing every finger at me

Waiting like a stalking butler
Who upon the finger rests
Murder now, the pattern must we?
Just because the Son has come?

Jesus, wont you fucking whistle ?
Something but to pass the time?
Jesus, wont you fucking whistle
Something but to pass the time?

Why can't we not be sober?
I just want to start this over, and
Why can't we drink forever?
I just want to start this over...

I am just a worthless liar
I am just an imbecile
I will only complicate you
Trust in me, and fall as well
I will find a center in you
I will chew it up and leave
I will work to elevate you
Just enough to bring you down

Mother Mary, won't you whisper
Something but the past and done?
Mother Mary, won't you whisper
Something but the past and done

Why can't we not be sober?
I just want to start this over!
And why can't we sleep forever?
I just want to start this over
And I....

I am just a worthless liar
I am just an imbecile
I will only complicate you
Trust in me, and fall as well
I will find a center in you
I will chew it up and leave

Trust me,
Trust me,
Trust me,

Trust me.

Trust me.

Why can't we not be sober?
I just want to start things over!
And why can't we sleep forever?
I just want to start this over
And I...

I want
What I want.
I want
What I want.
I want
What I want.
I want!
What I want.

1158500  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2013-03-21
Written: (4265 days ago)
Next in thread: 1158505

I try not to be a douche with my opinions on sensitive topics. I'llmock your taste in music, clothes, philosophy, and your current stats on the Douchebagocity Spectrum, but I try not to poke at politics or religion or sexuality or ethnic heritage, etc.

That being said, I also do not frequent social networking sites, or watch tv, or do a lot of other things 99% of the world population enjoys.
But you guys/gals do.

So I wanted to tell you, especially those of you in America, about something important I've been learning about.

It's common knowledge that the American political system is corrupt. It is so brutally corrupt that many people I know are revolted by the mere mention of "politics" as a topic. Nobody wants to acknoledge the elephant in the room, or beat the rotting dead horse. The American political system is intensely polarized, religously charged, and full of zealous supporters on both sides.

I have discovered the true source of my country's illness. It is not liberal or conservative concept.
It is not a religious concept.
It actually has nothing to do with the American people.

It does, however, have something to do with something called "Personage."
CORPORATE PERSONAGE to be exact.

It costs an average of 10.7 MILLION dollars to run a successful campaign to be elected into the US Senate. Virtually none of that money comes from middle class citizens (or lower middle class. Or upper. Or anyone anywhere ner the poverty line.(
Probably less than one percent of that money comes from small businesses, or individual donars.

That money comes from gigantic corporations.
Fucking colossal corporations.

"Corporate Personage" simply means that Corporations are allowed to donate to political campaigns in the same way as any individual US citizen is allowed to. That way is "However the fuck they wany to."

It's bribary, plain and simple.

If youre a bigtime facebook user, or you like tumblr, or any of that crap, I request you look at www.wolf-pac.com

If you like what you see, share it onthose sites. Share it like fucking mad. Spread the word. Please.

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