I am clearly broken
And no one knows what to do
Pieces of the puzzles don't fit so I'm coming into you
Itching is a pulse inside
Screaming out to come alive
It's just you and I
It's time to
Times are looking grim these days
Holding on to everything
It's hard to draw the line
Shut the fuck up, get up [x3ntaro]
I can't wait to rip my eyes out and look at you
Peace through pain is trash
Especially when it's done by you
Itching is a pulse inside
Screaming out to come alive
It's just you and I
It's time to
Times are looking grim these days
Holding on to everything
It's hard to draw the line
And I, I'm hiding in this empty space
Torture all my memories
Of what I left behind
Shut the fuck up, get up [x3ntaro]
Shut
Up
Times are looking grim these days
Holding on to everything
It's hard to draw the line
And I, I'm hiding in this empty space
Torture all my memories
Of what I left behind
Shut the fuck up, get up [x3
When I woke up this morning
Wiped the sleep from my eyes
Found a new day dawning
And suddenly I realize
You're gone
Tell me I was dreaming
That you didn't leave me here to cry
You didn't say you don't love me anymore
And it was just my imagination telling lies
Tell me that you didn't say goodbye
I'm in a state of confusion
I hope things aren't what they seem
If this is really happening
Just let me go back to dream
You're home
Tell me I was dreaming
That you didn't leave me here to cry
You didn't say you don't love me anymore
And it was just my imagination telling lies
Tell me that you didn't say goodbye
Tell me I was dreaming
That you didn't leave me here to cry
You didn't say you don't love me anymore
And it was just my imagination telling lies
Tell me that you didn't say goodbye
It's another back-door sneakin' in
Where you been? midnight
Quiet as a mack truck-lotsa luck
Thinkin' up an alibi
But every light in the house is on
Everything is gone
She left me no chance at redemption
No further exemption
Just a big red "goodbye" is lipstick on the wall
Goodbye says it all
No long explanation
No reconciliation
No let's-talk-it-
Goodbye says it all
Goodbye...
She could have thrown a knock-down scream-and-sho
Have-it-out tirade
She could have made it real tough bringing up
All the hell that I raised
But no more wasted words on me
No, she kept short and sweet
She left me no chance at redemption
No further exemption
Just a big red "goodbye" is lipstick on the wall
Goodbye says it all
No long explanation
No reconciliation
No let's-talk-it-
Goodbye says it all
Goodbye...
No more wasted words on me
No, she kept short and sweet
She left me no chance at redemption
No further exemption
Just a big red "goodbye" is lipstick on the wall
Goodbye says it all
No long explanation
No reconciliation
No let's-talk-it-
Goodbye says it all
Goodbye...
Well momma told me, when I was young
Said sit beside me, my only son
And listen closely to what I say
And if you do this, it'll help you some sunny day
Oh take your time, don't live too fast
Troubles will come and they will pass
You'll find a woman and you'll find love
And don't forget that there is a someone up above
[chorus]
And be a simple kind of man
And be a something you love and understand
Baby be a simple kind of man
Oh won't you do this for me son if you can
Get your lust from the rich man's gold
All that you need now is in your soul
And you can do this, oh baby if you try
All that I want from you my son is to be satisfied
[chorus]
And be a simple kind of man
Be a something you love and understand
Baby be a simple kind of man
Won't you do this for me son if you can
Oh don't you worry
You'll find yourself
Follow your heart
And nothing else
And you can do this, oh baby if you try
All that I want from you my son is to be satisfied
[chorus]
And be a simple kind of man
Oh won't you do this for me son if you can
So baby be a simple, be a simple man
Oh won't you do this for me son if you can
Well, I was thumbin' from Montgomery
I had my guitar on my back
When a stranger stopped beside me in an antique Cadillac
Well he was dressed like 1950
Half drunk and hollow-eyed
He said "Its a long walk to Nashville
Would you like a ride, son?"
And well I sat down in the front seat, he turned on the radio
Them sad old songs comin' out of them speakers was solid country gold
And I noticed the stranger was ghost-white pale
When he asked me for a light
And I knew there was something strange about this ride
(Chorus)
He said "Drifter can ya make folks cry when you play and sing?
Have you paid your dues, can you moan the blues?
Can you bend them guitar strings?"
He said "Boy, can you make folks feel what you feel inside?
Cause if you're big star bound let me warn ya, its a long, hard ride"
Then he cried just south of Nashville
And he turned that car around
He said "This is where you get off boy,
Cause I'm goin' back to Alabam'"
As I stepped out of that Cadillac
I said "Mister, many thanks"
He said "You don't have to call me Mister, Mister.,
The whole world called me Hank
Chorus x2
If you're big star bound
Let me warn ya its a long, hard ride
If heaven ain't a lot like Dixie
I don't wanna go
If heaven ain't a lot like Dixie
I'd just as soon stay home
I was one of the chosen few
To be born in Alabam
I'm just alike my daddy's son
I'm proud of who I am
I went through a lot of good women
And shook old Jim Beam's hand
If I never see the pearly gates
I've walked through the promised land
If heaven ain't a lot like Dixie
I don't wanna go
If heaven ain't a lot like Dixie
I'd just as soon stay home
If they don't have a Grand Ole Opry
Like they do in Tennessee
Just send me to hell or New York City
It would be about the same to me
I've got wild honey trees and crazy little weeds
Growin around my shack
These dusty roads ain't streets of gold
But I'm a happy right where I'm at
All these pretty little southern belles
Are a country boy's dream
They ain't got wings or halos
But they sure look good to me
If heaven ain't a lot like Dixie
I don't wanna go
If heaven ain't a lot like Dixie
I'd just as soon stay home
If heaven ain't a lot like Dixie
I don't wanna go
If heaven ain't a lot like Dixie
I'd just as soon stay home
If they don't have a Grand Ole Opry
Like they do in Tennessee
Just send me to hell or New York City
It would be about the same to me
If heaven ain't a lot like Dixie
I don't wanna go
If heaven ain't a lot like Dixie
I'd just as soon stay home
If heaven ain't a lot like Dixie
I don't wanna go
If heaven ain't a lot like Dixie
I'd just as soon stay home
If they don't have a Grand Ole Opry
Like they do in Tennessee
Just send me to hell or New York City
It would be about the same to me
Well my name's John Lee Pettimore
Same as my daddy and his daddy before
You hardly ever saw Grandaddy down here
He only came to town about twice a year
He'd buy a hundred pounds of yeast and some copper line
Everybody knew that he made moonshine
Now the revenue man wanted Grandaddy bad
He headed up the holler with everything he had
It's before my time but I've been told
He never came back from Copperhead Road
Now Daddy ran the whiskey in a big block Dodge
Bought it at an auction at the Mason's Lodge
Johnson County Sheriff painted on the side
Just shot a coat of primer then he looked inside
Well him and my uncle tore that engine down
I still remember that rumblin' sound
Well the sheriff came around in the middle of the night
Heard mama cryin', knew something wasn't right
He was headed down to Knoxville with the weekly load
You could smell the whiskey burnin' down Copperhead Road
I volunteered for the Army on my birthday
They draft the white trash first,'round here anyway
I done two tours of duty in Vietnam
And I came home with a brand new plan
I take the seed from Colombia and Mexico
I plant it up the holler down Copperhead Road
Well the D.E.A.'s got a chopper in the air
I wake up screaming like I'm back over there
I learned a thing or two from ol' Charlie don't you know
You better stay away from Copperhead Road
Copperhead Road
Copperhead Road
Copperhead Road
Ever since the days of old,
Men would search for wealth untold.
They'd dig for silver and for gold,
And leave the empty holes.
And way down south in the Everglades,
Where the black water rolls and the saw grass waves.
The eagles fly and the otters play,
In the land of the Seminole.
So blow, blow Seminole wind,
Blow like you're never gonna blow again.
I'm calling to you like a long lost friend,
But I know who you are.
And blow, blow from the Okeechobee,
All the way up to Micanopy.
Blow across the home of the Seminole,
The alligators and the garr.
Progress came and took its toll,
And in the name of flood control,
They made their plans and they drained the land,
Now the glades are going dry.
And the last time I walked in the swamp,
I sat upon a Cypress stump,
I listened close and I heard the ghost,
Of Osceola cry.
So blow, blow Seminole wind,
Blow like you're never gonna blow again.
I'm calling to you like a long lost friend
But I know who you are.
And blow, blow from the Okeechobee,
All the way up to Micanopy.
Blow across the home of the Seminole,
The alligators and the garr.
Blue Kentucky highway, headin' for the line
She hadn't said a word all night,
But the wheels are turnin' in her mind
Now I was ridin' shotgun,
And I knew things had gone awry
Just as soon as she dropped me off
At the side of the road
And she let that gravel fly
Now I'm walkin' in the moonlight,
Seein' nothin' but the taillights
And that's a pair of taillights
I may never see again
She hit me with the left and right,
Showin' me nothin' but the taillights
And that's about as lonely
As the highway's ever been
Back here with my thumb out in the wind
Was it somethin' that I did to her,
Or the things I never said
I wonder if the way we were was only in my head
Now if I even make it back to town
Before the sun comes up
I'm gonna hit every parking spot around
'Til I find that pick-up truck
Now I'm talkin' in the moonlight
Seein' nothin' but the taillights
And that's a pair of taillights
I may never see again
She hit me with the left and right
Showin' me nothin' but the taillights
And that's about as lonely
As a highway's ever been
Stuck here with my thumb out in the wind
Well I'll bet right now she's laughin'
At how she brought me to my knees
But she won't be laughin' half as loud
When she gives me back my keys
She'll be walkin' in the moonlight,
Seein' nothin' but the taillights
And that's a pair of taillights
She won't ever see again
She hit me with a left and right
And with nothin' but the taillights
And I know that's about as lonely
As a highway's ever been
Back here with my thumb out in the wind
There she goes, here I come
never liked the rain until I walked through it with you
Every thunder cloud that came was one more I might not get through
On the darkest day there's always light and now I see it too
But I never liked the rain until I walked through it with you
I hear it falling in the night and filling up my mind
All the heaven's rivers come to light I see it all unwind
I hear it talking through the trees and on the window pane
When I hear it I just can't believe I never liked the rain
Like the rain I have fallen for you and I know just why you
Liked the rain always calling for you I'm falling for you now
Just like the rain
When the cloud is rolling over thunder striking me
It's as bright as lightning and I wonder why I couldn't see
That it's always good and when the flood is gone we still remain
Guess I've known all along I just belong here with you falling
Like the rain I have fallen for you and I know just why you
Liked the rain always calling for you, I'm falling for you now
Just like the rain I have fallen for you
I'm falling for you now just like the rain
And when the night falls on our better days
And we're looking to the sky
For the winds to take us high above the plains
I know that we'll find better ways to look into the eye of the storms that will be calling
Forever we'll be falling
Like the rain I have fallen for you, and I know just why you
Like the rain always calling for you, I'm falling for you now just
Like the rain I have fallen for you, and I know just why you
Like the rain always calling for you, I'm falling for you now just
Like the rain I have fallen for you, and I know just why you
Like the rain always calling for you, I'm falling for you now just
Like the rain
Like the rain
Like the rain
Like the rain
Like the rain
Like the rain
im in a sad mood, my aunt sue died a few hours ago..god damn it....god fucking damn it!!!!! why?!?!?!? anyway if i seem sad or pissed off im not gonna take it out on you...ill need to vent
[this is another song that im in love with, i want them to play this at my funeral] Find myself all alone
In darkness without you
Now I can't turn away
From what I must do
You know I'd give my life for you
More than words can say
I've shown you how to love someone
I know you'll find a way
Say goodbye, close your eyes
Remember me
Walk away, the sun remains
Remember me
I'll live on somewhere in your heart
You must believe
Remember me
No way I can change my mind
I don't have the answers
If you could see through my eyes
You'd let go of your fears
And though I have to leave you now
With the thought of each other
I'll miss your touch
You call my name
I am with you forever
Say goodbye, close your eyes
Remember me
Walk away, the sun remains
Remember me
With the change, we can't explain
Remember me
I'll live on somewhere in your heart
You must believe
Remember me
Solo
You know I'd give my life for you
More than words can say
I showed you how to love someone
I know you'll find a way
Say goodbye, close your eyes
Remember me
Walk away, the sun remains
Remember me
Be there to watch over you
Remember me
Feel I'm gone
My heart lives on
Remember me
Don't you think of this as the end
I'll come into your dreams
Remember me
Close your eyes
Say goodbye
Remember me
Say you will (3x) (Close Your Eyes)
Remember Me
Say You Will (3x) (Say GoodBye)
Remember Me
to: [Fallen Child Athena] with lost of love
from: wolf
I'm not a woman, I'm not a man
I am something that you'll never understand
I'll never beat you, I'll never lie
And if you're evil, I'll forgive you by and by
You, I would die 4 u, yeah
Darling, if you want me too
You, I would die 4 u
I'm not your lover, I'm not your friend
I am something that you'll never comprehend
No need to worry, no need to cry
I'm your messiah and you're the reason why
'Cause you, I would die 4 u, yeah
Darling, if you want me too
You, I would die 4 u
You're just a sinner I am told
Be your fire when you're cold
Make you happy when you're sad
Make you good when you are bad
I'm not a human, I am a dove
I'm your conscious, I am love
All I really need is to know
That you believe
Yeah, I would die 4 u, yeah
Darling, if you want me too
You, I would die 4 u
Yeah, say one more time
You, I would die 4 u
Darling, if you want me too
You, I would die 4 u
2 3 4 u, I would die 4 u
I would die 4 u
You, I would die 4 u
im done with it all
im donr with my mom cursing everything i do
im done with the fighting
i cant take it anymore, im atmy wits end
im done with all of it
Two feets they come a creepin'
Like a black cat do
And two bodies are layin' naked
Creeper think he got nothin' to lose
So he creeps into this house, yeah
And unlocks the door
And as a man's reaching for his trousers
Shoots him full of .38 holes
(Chorus)
Mr.Saturday night special
Got a barrel that's blue and cold
Ain't no good for nothin'
But put a man six feet in a hole
Big Jim's been drinkin' whiskey
And playing poker on a losin' night
And pretty soon, Big Jim starts a thinkin'
Somebody been cheatin' and lyin'
So Big Jim commences to fightin'
I wouldn't tell you no lie
And Big Jim done pull his pistol
Shot his friend right between the eyes
(Chorus)
Oooh Saturday night special...
For twenty dollars you can buy yourself one too...
Oooh let me tell you all about it...
Well hand guns are made for killin'
They ain't no good for nothin' else
And if you like to drink your whiskey
You might even shoot yourself
So why don't we dump 'em people
To the bottom of the sea
Before some ole fool come around here
Wanna shoot either you or me
(Chorus)
Ooooh it's a Saturday night special
And I'd like to tell you what you can do with it too...
I wrote her off for the tenth time today
And practiced all the things I would say
But she came over
I lost my nerve
I took her back and made her dessert
Now I know I'm being used
That's okay man cause I like the abuse
I know she's playing with me
That's okay cause I've got no self esteem
We make plans to go out at night
I wait till 2 then I turn out the light
All this rejection's got me so low
If she keeps it up I just might tell her so
When she's saying that she wants only me
Then I wonder why she sleeps with my friends
When she's saying that I'm like a disease
Then I wonder how much more I can spend
Well I guess I should stick up for myself
But I really think it's better this way
The more you suffer
The more it shows you really care Right?
Now I'll relate this a little bit
That happens more than I'd like to admit
Late at night she knocks on my door
Drunk again and looking to score
Now I know I should say no
But that's kind of hard when she's ready to go
I may be dumb
But I'm not a dweeb
I'm just a sucker with no self esteem
I never thought I'd feel this
Guilty and I'm broken down inside
Livin' with myself nothing but lies
I always thought I'd make it
But never knew I'd let it get so bad
Livin' with myself is all I have
I feel numb
I can't come to life
I feel like I'm frozen in time
Livin' in a world so cold, wasting away
Livin' in a shell with no soul since you've gone away
Livin' in a world so cold, counting the days
Since you've gone away, you've gone away
Do you ever feel me?
Do you ever look deep down inside
Starin' at yourself, paralyzed?
I feel numb
I can't come to life
I feel like I'm frozen in time
Livin' in a world so cold, wasting away
Livin' in a shell with no soul since you've gone away
Livin' in a world so cold, counting the days
Since you've gone away, you've gone away from me
I'm too young to lose my soul
I'm too young to feel this old
So long, I'm left behind
I feel like I'm losing my mind
Do you ever feel me?
Do you ever look deep down inside
Starin' at your life, paralyzed?
Livin' in a world so cold, wasting away
Livin' in a shell with no soul since you've gone away
Livin' in a world so cold, counting the days
Since you've gone away, you've gone away from me
I'm too young
I'm too young
origins...
the war never really affected me or my family, growing up in the outskirts of houston,texas
until i was say, 17 and a half, my dad was a brigodier general with the 14th texas infantry
he found it customary for the eldest boy to join the southern cause, so..as to my fathers orders
i joined the 14th,starting as a drummer boy, moving from seventh detachment to first, as an infantry corporal
my dad was proud of how far i had moved up in the ranks of battle, my first battle was chancellorsvil
experienced my first loss, my best friend dell mollit, another corporal, was shot. i was sitting at camp when the general
rode up, loooking at me and jack ezra he said "i need you two to go to gettysburg" i was the one to jump up and say
"yes sir", so we headed off to gettysburg, pennsylvania..
almighty...the battle was awful...at least from my perspective, everywhere you look laid dead or dying..both blue and grey
i never realized that this day my life would change forever, as i was promoted to cavalry commander,
taking my fathers place. riding my black stallion named "veska" {our family decended from russia}, i rode the line, rallying the men
waiting for the signal, and soon, it was given, with the mighty rebel yell we advanced, under heavy fire, then suddenly, i felt
something hit my chest, a burning feeling "ive been shot" the concussion knocked me off my horse, and is i stared up at
the sky, i was breathless..
the visitors...
later that night, as i laid amongst the dead of the battle, i heard someone coming, three women.."look at this one chara"
one of them said "no..im looking for an officer" i felt my heart begin to pound heavily..were theygoing to kill me?
"heres one" a younger girl said, her eyes shielded by the dark as she stood over me "whats your name?" m..major j..jasper
d..dellara i stammered and she giggled playfully, as if i said a joke, the others came over, the leader, must have been chara,
kneeled beside me and said "im going to take your pain away" and she bit me..i felt the sting as fire leaked into my
veins, grabbing my throat i yelled in agony..my heart stopped..i was dead..or so it seemed
{to be continued}
[eminem]
Whatever..
Dre, just let it run
Aiyyo turn the beat up a little bit
Aiyyo.. this song is for anyone.. fuck it
Just shut up and listen, aiyyo..
I sit back with this pack of Zig Zags and this bag
of this weed it gives me the shit needed to be
the most meanest MC on this -- on this Earth
And since birth I've been cursed with this curse to just curse
And just blurt this berserk and bizarre shit that works
And it sells and it helps in itself to relieve
all this tension dispensin these sentences
Gettin this stress that's been eatin me recently off of this chest
and I rest again peacefully (peacefully)..
but at least have the decency in you
to leave me alone, when you freaks see me out
in the streets when I'm eatin or feedin my daughter
to not come and speak to me (speak to me)..
I don't know you and no,
I don't owe you a mo-therfuck-in thing
I'm not Mr. N'Sync, I'm not what your friends think
I'm not Mr. Friendly, I can be a prick
if you tempt me my tank is on empty (is on empty)..
No patience is in me and if you offend me
I'm liftin you 10 feet (liftin you 10 feet).. in the air
I don't care who is there and who saw me destroy you
Go call you a lawyer, file you a lawsuit
I'll smile in the courtroom and buy you a wardrobe
I'm tired of all you (of all you)..
I don't mean to be mean but that's all I can be is just me
Chorus: Eminem
And I am, whatever you say I am
If I wasn't, then why would I say I am?
In the paper, the news everyday I am
Radio won't even play my jam
Cause I am, whatever you say I am
If I wasn't, then why would I say I am?
In the paper, the news everyday I am
I don't know it's just the way I am
[eminem]
Sometimes I just feel like my father, I hate to be bothered
with all of this nonsense it's constant
And, "Oh, it's his lyrical content -
- the song 'Guilty Conscience' has gotten such rotten responses"
And all of this controversy circles me
and it seems like the media immediately
points a finger at me (finger at me)..
So I point one back at 'em, but not the index or pinkie
or the ring or the thumb, it's the one you put up
when you don't give a fuck, when you won't just put up
with the bullshit they pull, cause they full of shit too
When a dude's gettin bullied and shoots up his school
and they blame it on Marilyn (on Marilyn).. and the heroin
Where were the parents at? And look where it's at
Middle America, now it's a tragedy
Now it's so sad to see, an upper class ci-ty
havin this happenin (this happenin)..
then attack Eminem cause I rap this way (rap this way)..
But I'm glad cause they feed me the fuel that I need for the fire
to burn and it's burnin and I have returned
Chorus
[eminem]
I'm so sick and tired of bein admired
that I wish that I would just die or get fired
and dropped from my label and stop with the fables
I'm not gonna be able to top on "My Name is.."
And pigeon-holed into some pop-py sensation
to cop me rotation at rock'n'roll stations
And I just do not got the patience (got the patience)..
to deal with these cocky caucasians who think
I'm some wigger who just tries to be black cause I talk
with an accent, and grab on my balls, so they always keep askin
the same fuckin questions (fuckin questions)..
What school did I go to, what hood I grew up in
The why, the who what when, the where, and the how
'til I'm grabbin my hair and I'm tearin it out
cause they drivin me crazy (drivin me crazy).. I can't take it
I'm racin, I'm pacin, I stand and I sit
And I'm thankful for ev-ery fan that I get
But I can't take a SHIT, in the bathroom
without someone standin by it
No I won't sign your autograph
You can call me an asshole I'm glad
Verse 1:]
In my mind im a fighter,
my hearts a lighter,
my soul is the fluid,
my flow sparks it right up.
An arsonic writer,
author with arthritis,
Carpal tunnel, Marshall with start-shit-iti
Hard headed and hot headed,
bull headed and pig headed,
dickheaded a prick,
a big headache.
I'm sick, Quick witted.
For every lyric spitted,
there are six critics who wait for me to slip with it.
So quick, it's dynamite stick bury the wick!
I'ts gonna explode any minute,
so ? tick with it.
and its not nelly, do not tell me to stop yelling
when i stop selling i'll quit so stop dwelling
I am not failing, you fuckers are not ready
Cos I got jelly like a ? belly.
This is destiny yes money im off running so get off me im not slowing or softening..
[CHORUS:]
No apologies.
No suckers im not sorry
you can all sue me.
Y'all could be the cause of me.
No apologies.
Y'all feeling the force of me no remorse from me..
Like there was no real cause for me
No apologies.
I'm not even acknolegeing you at all, 'til i get a call that gods coming.
No apologies.
Laugh fuckers its all funny, I could spit in your face while you standing across from me
No apologies! [Echo]
[VERSE:]
My head hits the pillow,
a weeping willow,
i cant sleep.
a pain so deep it bellows,
but these cellos,
help just to keep me mellow.
Hands on my head,
touch knees to elbows im hunched over.
Emotion just flows over these cold shoulders are both frozen you dont know me
i keep saying it, i cant stress it enough so keep playing and stand next to the subs
I choke mic's like asphyxiation when im strangling my own throat masturbating
fuck yeah im a basket case! Im'a master this rap shit til my ass is wasted!
Til my assasination, til im slain cos of some fag's infactuation.
'44 Mags, a facination, a taste for disaster, and if thats the case then..
[CHORUS:]
No apologies.
No suckers im not sorry
you can all sue me.
Y'all could be the cause of me.
No apologies.
Y'all feeling the force of me no remorse from me..
Like there was no real cause for me
No apologies.
I'm not even acknolegeing you at all, 'til i get a call that gods coming.
No apologies.
Laugh fuckers its all funny, I could spit in your face while you standing across from me
No apologies! [Echo]
[VERSE:]
This song isnt for you its for me, a true MC.
It's what he'l do just to see if he still has it.
And if his skills mastered, hes able to spill raps long after hes killed thats a
Real MC.
Got you feeling me, wether willing or unwillingly, you still agree.
As long as there's still this hunger and will in me, then expect a longer life expectancy.
Id be a savage beast if i aint have this, outlet to salvage me inside.
I'd be exploding soaked in self loathing and mourning.
So im warning dont coax me its silly, im really a sheep in wolfs clothing who only reacts when he gets pushed?
Don't be fooled.
The press blows up this whole thing, its stupid.
They dont know cos they dont see, that im wounded,
all they did was ballooned it.
Im sick of talking bout this tattoo's Cartoon did.
Thats why i tuned it out, im sick of duking, they can suck my dick while im puking,
and you too you can...
[OUTRO:]
Expect no sympathy from me im an MC, this is how im spose to be.
Cold as a G.
My hearts frozen, it dont even beat so
dont expct no apologies...
Expect no sympathy from me im an MC, this is how im spose to be.
Cold as a G.
My hearts frozen, it dont even beat so
dont expct no apologies...
Step by step, heart to heart, left right left
We all fall down...
[chorus]
Step by step, heart to heart, left right left
We all fall down like toy soldiers
Bit by bit, torn apart, we never win
But the battle wages on for toy soldiers
[Verse 1]
I'm supposed to be the soldier who never blows his composure
Even though I hold the weight of the whole world on my shoulders
I am never supposed to show it, my crew ain't supposed to know it
Even if it means goin' toe to toe with a Benzino it don't matter
I'd never drag them in battles that I can handle unless I absolutely have to
I'm supposed to set an example
I need to be the leader, my crew looks for me to guide 'em
If some shit ever just pop off, I'm supposed to be beside 'em
Now Ja said "I tried to squash it, it was too late to stop it"
There's a certain line you just don't cross and he crossed it
I heard him say Hailie's name on a song and I just lost it
It was crazy, this shit be way beyond some Jay-z and Nas shit
And even though the battle was won, I feel like we lost it
I spent too much energy on it, honestly I'm exhausted
And I'm so caught in it I almost feel I'm the one who caused it
This ain't what I'm in hip-hop for, it's not why I got in it
That was never my object for someone to get killed
Why would I wanna destroy something I help build
It wasn't my intentions, my intentions was good
I went through my whole career without ever mentionin' (?)
Now it's just out of respect for not runnin' my mouth
And talkin' about something that I knew nothing about
Plus Dre told me stay out, this just wasn't my beef
So I did, I just fell back, watched and gritted my teeth
While he's all over t.v. down talkin' a man who literally saved my life
Like fuck it i understand this is business
And this shit just isn't none of my business
But still knowin' this shit could pop off at any minute cuz
[chorus]
[Verse 2]
There used to be a time when you could just say a rhyme
And wouldn't have to worry about one of your people dyin'
But now it's elevated cuz once you put someone's kids in it
The shit gets escalated, it ain't just words no more is it?
It's a different ball game, callin' names and you ain't just rappin'
We actually tried to stop the 50 and Ja beef from happenin'
Me and Dre had sat with him, kicked it and had a chat with him
And asked him not to start it he wasn't gonna go after him
Until Ja started yappin' in magazines how we stabbed him
Fuck it 50 smash 'em, mash 'em and let him have it
Meanwhile my attention is pullin' in other directions
Some receptionist at The Source who answers phones at his desk
Has an erection for me and thinks that I'll be his ressurection
Tries to blow the dust off his mic and make a new record
But now he's fucked the game up cuz one of the ways I came up
Was through that publication the same one that made me famous
Now the owner of it has got a grudge against me for nothin'
Well fuck it, that mutherfucker can get it too, fuck him then
But I'm so busy being pissed off I don't stop to think
That we just inherited 50's beef with Murder Inc.
And he's inherited mine which is fine ain't like either of us mind
We still have soldiers that's on the front line
That's willing to die for us as soon as we give the orders
Never to extort us, strictly to show they support us
We'll maybe shout 'em out in a rap or up in a chorus
To show them we love 'em back and let 'em know how important it is
To have run ya nav and who sulked us up in our corners
Their loyalty to us is worth more than any award is
But I ain't tryna have none of my people hurt and murdered
There ain't words that I can't think of a perfecter way to word it
Then to just say that I love ya'll too much to see the virdict
I'll walk away from it all before I let it go any further
But don't get it twisted, it's not a plea that I'm coppin'
I'm just willin' to be the bigger man
If ya'll can quit poppin' off at your jaws with the knockin'
Cuz frankly I'm sick of talkin'
I'm not gonna let someone elses coffin rest on my conscience cuz