a part of me has died today, my former love [Fallen Child Athena] committ suicide, and its my fault..i wish to god it was me that died, not her, she didnt deserve it..it was my fuck up....i screwed up..oh god...i need help, im losing my mind my chest hurts, i cant eat, i cant sleep, i...it hurts to breathe..i feel like im suffocating...
i got my shirt in the mail ^^ im wearing it now, ill soon put up pics of how it looks
Conversion, software version 7.0,
Looking at life through the eyes of a tire hub,
Eating seeds is a pastime activity,
The toxicity of our city, of our city,
no, what do you own the world?
How do you own disorder, disorder,
Now, somewhere between the sacred silence,
Sacred silence and sleep,
Somewhere, between the sacred silence and sleep,
Disorder, disorder, disorder.
More wood for their fires, loud neighbors,
Flashlight reveries caught in the headlights of a truck,
Eating seeds is a pastime activity,
The toxicity of our city, of our city,
no, what do you own the world?
How do you own disorder, disorder,
Now, somewhere between the sacred silence,
Sacred silence and sleep,
Somewhere, between the sacred silence and sleep,
Disorder, disorder, disorder.
You, what do you own the world?
How do you own disorder-er-er
Now, somewhere between the sacred silence,
Sacred silence and sleep,
Somewhere, between the sacred silence and sleep,
Disorder, disorder, disorder.
When I became the Son,
I shone life into the man's hearts,
When I became the Son,
I shone life into the man's hearts.
Born to push you around,
Better just stay down
You pull away
He hits the flesh
You hit the ground
Mouth so full of lies
Tend to block your eyes
Just keep them closed
Keep praying
Just keep waiting
Waiting for the one
The day that never comes
When you stand up and feel the warmth
but the sunshine never comes
No the sunshine never comes
Push across that line
Just stay down this time
Hide in your cell
Crawl in your shell
You'll have your time
God'll make them pay
Take it back one day
I'll end this day
I'll splatter color on this gray
Waiting for the one
The day that never comes
When you stand up and feel the warmth
but the sunshine never comes
Love is a four letter word
And never spoken here
Love is a four letter word
Here in this prison
I suffer this no longer
I put it into
This I swear!
This I swear!
The sun will shine
This I swear!
This I swear!
This I swear!
Fortune, fame
Mirror vain
Gone insane
But the memory remains
Heavy rings on fingers wave
Another star denies their grave
See the nowhere crowd
Cry the nowhere tears of honor
Like twisted vines that grow
That hide and swallow mansions whole
And dim the light of an already
Faded prima donna
Fortune, fame
Mirror vain
Gone insane...
Fortune, fame
Mirror vain
Gone insane...
But the memory remains
Heavy rings hold cigarettes
Up to lips that time forgets
While the Hollywood sun sets
Behind your back
And can't the band play on?
Just listen, they play my song
Ash to ash
Dust to dust
Fade to black
Fortune, fame
Mirror vain
Gone insane...
Fortune, fame
Mirror vain
Gone insane...
Dance little tin goddess
Nananananana nananada nananananana nanananadana
Nananananana nananada nananananana nanananadana
Drift away
Fade away
Little tin goddess
Ash to ash
Dust to dust
Fade to black
Fortune, fame
Mirror vain
Gone insane...
Fortune, fame
Mirror vain
Gone insane...
But the memory remains
Ash to ash
Dust to dust
Fade to black...
The memory remains
Faded prima donna
Ah, suck it!
Dance little tin goddess dance
Nananananana nananada nanananana nanananadana
Nananananana nananada nanananana nanananadana
Nanana...say yes...nananana nanana...at least say hello...nanana
Nanana...say yes...nananana nanana...at least say hello...nanana
Nana nana
say yes, at least say hello
say yes, at least say hello
SLEEP AND DREAM OF THIS
DEATH ANGEL'S KISS
BRINGS FINAL BLISS
COMPLETELY
EMPTY THEY SAY,
DEATH, WON'T YOU LET ME STAY?
EMPTY THEY SAY,
DEATH, HEAR ME CALL YOUR NAME,
CALL YOUR NAME... SUICIDE
I'VE ALREADY DEID.
YOU'RE JUST THE FUNERAL
I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR... CYANIDE
LIVING DEAD INSIDE
BREAK THIS EMPTY SHELL FOREVERMORE.
WAIT, WAIT PATIENTLY
YOUR DEATH BLACK WINGS
UNFOLDING SLEEP
SPREADING O'ER ME
EMPTY THEY SAY,
DEATH, WON'T YOU LET ME STAY?
EMPTY THEY SAY,
DEATH, HEAR ME CALL YOUR NAME
CALL YOUR NAME... SUICIDE
I'VE ALREADY DEID.
YOU'RE JUST THE FUNERAL
I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR... CYANIDE
LIVING DEAD INSIDE
BREAK THIS EMPTY SHELL FOREVERMORE.
SAY, IS THAT RAIN OR ARE THEY TEARS
THAT'S STAINED YOUR CONCRETE
FACE FOR YEARS?
THE CRYING, WEEPING, SHEDDING STRIFE
YEAR AFTER YEAR, LIFE AFTER LIFE.
AN AIR OF FRESHLY BROKEN GROUND.
A CONCRETE ANGEL LIT RIGHT DOWN
UPON THE GRAVE WHICH SWALLOWS FAST
IT'S PEACE AT LAST, OH PEACE AT LAST!
EMPTY THEY SAY,
DEATH, WO'NT YOU LET ME STAY?
EMPTY THEY SAY,
DEATH, HEAR ME CALL YOUR NAME,
CALL YOUR NAME... SUICIDE
I'VE ALREADY DEID.
YOU'RE JUST THE FUNERAL
I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR... CYANIDE
LIVING DEAD INSIDE
BREAK THIS EMPTY SHELL FOREVERMORE.
FOREVER MORE. [AND END THIS WAR]
FOREVER MORE. [AND END THIS WAR]
IT'S JUST THE FUNERAL I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR
You just stood there screaming
Fearing no one was listening to you
They say the empty can rattles the most
The sound of your own voice must soothe you
Hearing only what you want to hear
And knowing only what you've heard
You, you're smothered in tragedy
And you're out to save the world
Misery
You insist that the weight of the world
Should be on your shoulders
Misery
There's much more to life than what you see
My friend of misery
You still stood there screaming
No one caring about these words you tell
My friend, before your voice is gone
One man's fun is another's hell
These times are sent to try men's souls
But something's wrong with all you see
You, you'll take it on all yourself
Remember, misery loves company
Misery
You insist that the weight of the world
Should be on your shoulders
Misery
There's much more to life than what you see
My friend of misery
You just stood there screaming
My friend of misery
Lay beside me, tell me what they've done
Speak the words I wanna hear, to make my demons run
The door is locked now, but it's opened if you're true
If you can understand the me, then I can understand the you
Lay beside me, under wicked sky
Through black of day, dark of night, we share this pair of lives
The door cracks open, but there's no sun shining through
Black heart scarring darker still, but there's no sun shining through
No, there's no sun shining through
No, there's no sun shining
[chorus]
What I've felt, what I've known
Turn the pages, turn the stone
Behind the door, should I open it for you?
Yeah
What I've felt, what I've known
Sick and tired, I stand alone
Could you be there, 'cause I'm the one who waits for you
Or are you unforgiven too?
Come lay beside me, this won't hurt I swear
She loves me not, she loves me still, but she'll never love again
She lay beside me, but she'll be there when I'm gone
Black heart scarring darker still, yes she'll be there when I'm gone
Yes she'll be there when I'm gone
Dead sure she'll be there
[chorus]
What I've felt, what I've known
Turn the pages, turn the stone
Behind the door, should I open it for you?
What I've felt, what I've known
Sick and tired, I stand alone
Could you be there, cause I'm the one who waits for you
Or are you unforgiven too?
[solo]
Lay beside me, tell me what I've done
The door is closed, so are your eyes
But now I see the sun, now I see the sun
Yes, now I see it
[chorus]
What I've felt, what I've known
Turn the pages, turn the stone
Behind the door, should I open it for you
What I've felt, what I've known
So sick and tired, I stand alone
Could you be there, cause I'm the one who waits
The one who waits for you
Oh, what I've felt, what I've known
Turn the pages, just turn the stone
Behind the door, should I open it for you
(Background) So I dub thee Unforgiven.
Oh, what I've felt
Oh, what I've known
I take this key (never free)
And I bury it (never me) in you
Because you're unforgiven too!
Never free
Never me
Because you're unforgiven too..
Oo-Oh-Oo
Outta my way
Outta my day
Out of your mind and into mine
Into no one
Into not one
Into your step but out of time
Headstrong
What's wrong?
I've already heard this song before
you've arrived
But now it's time
To kiss your ass good-bye
Dragging me down
Why you around?
So useless
It ain't my fall
It ain't my call
It ain't my bitch
It ain't my bitch
Down on the sun
Down and no fun
Down and out where the hell ya been?
Damn it all down
Damn it unbound
Damn it all down to hell again
Stand tall
Can't fall
Never even bend at all before
you've arrived
But now it's time
To kiss your ass good-bye
Dragging me down
Why you around?
So useless
It ain't my fall
It ain't my call
It ain't my bitch
Outta my way
Outta my way
Outta my day
Out of your mind and into mine
Into no one
Into not one
Into your step but out of time
Headstrong
What's wrong?
I've already heard this song before
You've arrived
But now it's time
To kiss your ass good-bye
And now it's time to kiss your ass good-bye
Dragging me down
Why you around?
So useless
It ain't my fall
It ain't my call
It ain't my bitch
No way but down
Why you're around?
No foolin'
It ain't my smile
It ain't my style
It ain't my bitch
Oh, it ain't mine
Ain't mine
Your kind
Your stepin' out of time
Ain't mine
Your kind
Your stepin' out of time
Dragging me down
Why you around?
No foolin'
It ain't my fall
It ain't my call
It ain't my bitch
You ain't mine
what is love? when you realize youve hit the wall at the end of it all, a promise of forever is broken and the ground is forever unsteady, im not perfect, ive never been perfect, im not some straight edge person, ive seen and done things that i hate myself for, but youve kept me from hating myself, ive been there when you needed me, but now the tables have turned around, and the world i created with you is slowly coming undone, if you could see what the world looks like through my eyes youd understand, but the again life is tricky, i will never surrender
good news, my mom ordered the navy top for me, its a different one from the one on my page, but its the same style, my step dad wasnt too happy about it, he dont like me wearin military things, which i do, but oh well, i got it to wear it, he said if he catches me wearing it he is gonna burn it, oh well...
Little supernovas in my head
Little soft pulses in my dead
Little souvenirs and secrets shared
Little off guard and unprepared
I was never good enough to find
I was never bad enough to mind
In the middle I will do my best
Take me in your arms and leave the rest
I will give you anything to
Say you want to stay, you want me to
Say you'll never die, you'll always haunt me
I want to know I belong to you
Say you'll haunt me
Together, together we'll be together, together forever
Little variations on my page
Little doors open on my cage
Little time has come and gone so far
Little by little who you are
I can see the patterns on your face
I can see the miracles I trace
Symmetry in shadows I can't hide
I JUST WANT TO BE RIGHT BY YOUR SIDE
I will give you everything to
Say you want to stay you want me too
Say you'll never die, you'll always haunt me
I want to know I belong to you
Say you'll haunt me
[2Xero]
Together, together we'll be together, together forever
I BELONG TO YOU
[2Xero]
Little supernovas in my head
Little soft pulses in my dead
Little souvenirs and secrets shared
Little off guard and unprepared
I will give you anything to
I will give you everything to
Say you want to stay you want me too
Say you'll never die you'll always haunt me
I want to know I belong to you
Say you'll haunt me
[2Xero]
Together, together we'll be together, together forever
I BELONG TO YOU
[2Xero]
1) Go to en.wikipedia.o
2) Find the song that was #1 the week you were born. (october 14, 1992)
3) Find the YouTube video
4) Post the link in your diary with no shame... (no shame my ass!!)
[http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7CRY_0krxrg]
when you came into my life, you made me whole
you took the shattered remnants of myself and fit them back the way they should be
then, when i fell apart, you were there to hold me together
when i cried, your shoulder was there for me to cry on
when i was hurt or betrayed you were there to tell me itll be ok
when you found out i was actually fleeing my past, you took me into your heart
and told me i have nothing to fear
for this i thank you
well, again things arent going the way i plan, i almost commit suicide last week after my mom and me argued, then i put up with my dad in his bad mood about his bitch of an ex,jennifer, sometimes i wish i could just say fuck it and BOOM!! but theres too much i would leave behind, though i dont see the reason to live something stops me...please if your a friend answer this question..
--if i died tommarrow, what would you say to me today?
well, today turned out in the total oppisite of what i had planned, me and my mom got into an argumen, she pushed me against the wall and it gave way, now theres a hole in the wall...thanks alot mom, thanks for putting me down in every way possibile, i do everything for you and im still not good enough...maybe if i was gone you wouldnt have to put up with me anymore..hows that sound? does that make you happy?
a little known interesting facts about the things in every day life
-coca cola, was originally meant for medicinal purposes, gets its name from kola nuts and (yes this is true) cocaine, said to cure anything from a hangover to surgery.
-pepsi, originally called "brads drink" was alost meant for medicinal purposes, and was used to help aid digestion.
-tetris, the common block game was created in the soviet union as a mind game for the students of the university of moscow
"They called me the Leather Apron
They called me the smiling Jack
They prayed to the heavens above
That I would never ever come back"
Can you hear how the children weep?
Chills of fear like a sawblade cutting deep
Once again there is pain
I bring flames - I bring cold
I'm the Blood Red Sandman coming home
On this unholy night I will make you my own
Blood Red Sandman
Coming home again
Red drops stain satin so white
-"The way I sign my name"
The neighborhood's pretty dead at night
-"And I'm the one to blame"
Can you hear how the children weep?
Chills of fear like a sawblade cutting deep
Once again there is pain
I bring flames - I bring cold
I'm the Blood Red Sandman coming home
On this unholy night I will make you my own
Blood Red Sandman
Coming home again
I'm coming home again
Scream all you want you won't wake up when you scream
"No-one leaves...
... The Monsterican Dream"
Can you hear how the children weep?
Chills of fear like a sawblade cutting deep
Once again there is pain
I bring flames - I bring cold
I'm the Blood Red Sandman coming home
On this unholy night I will make you my own
Blood Red Sandman
Coming home again
Once again there is pain
I bring flames - I bring cold
I'm the Blood Red Sandman coming home
On this unholy night I will make you my own
Blood Red Sandman
Coming home again
[JAVERT]
Valjean, at last,
We see each other plain
`M'sieur le Mayor,'
You'll wear a different chain!
[VALJEAN]
Before you say another word, Javert
Before you chain me up like a slave again
Listen to me! There is something I must do.
This woman leaves behind a suffering child.
There is none but me who can intercede,
In Mercy's name, three days are all I need.
Then I'll return, I pledge my word.
Then I'll return...
[JAVERT]
You must think me mad!
I've hunted you across the years
Men like you can never change
A man such as you.
[VALJEAN (in counterpoint)]
Believe of me what you will
There is a duty that I'm sworn to do
You know nothing of my life
All I did was steal some bread
You know nothing of the world
You would sooner see me dead
But not before I see this justice
done
I am warning you Javert
I'm a stronger man by far
There is power in me yet
My race is not yet run
I am warning you Javert
There is nothing I won't dare
If I have to kill you here
I'll do what must be done!
[JAVERT (in counterpoint)]
Men like me can never change
Men like you can never change
No,
24601
My duty's to the law - you have no
Rights
Come with me 24601
Now the wheel has turned around
Jean Valjean is nothing now
Dare you talk to me of crime
And the price you had to pay
Every man is born in sin
Every man must choose his way
You know nothing of Javert
I was born inside a jail
I was born with scum like you
I am from the gutter too!
[Valjean breaks a chair and threatens Javert with the broken piece. Turns to Fantine]
[VALJEAN]
[to Fantine] And this I swear to you tonight
[JAVERT]
[to Valjean] There is no place for you to hide
[VALJEAN]
Your child will live within my care
[JAVERT]
Wherever you may hide away
[VALJEAN]
And I will raise her to the light.
[VALJEAN AND JAVERT]
I swear to you, I will be there!
[They fight, Javert is knocked out. Valjean escapes
Part 1]
Daddy's flown across the ocean
Leaving just a memory
A snapshot in the family album
Daddy, what else did ya leave for me?
Daddy, whatcha leave behind for me?
All in all it was just a brick in the wall
All in all it was all just bricks in the wall
[Part 2]
We don't need no education
We don't need no thought control
No dark sarcasm in the classroom
Teachers, leave them kids alone
Hey, Teachers, leave those kids alone
All in all its just another brick in the wall
All in all you're just another brick in the wall
We don't need no education
We don't need no thought control
No dark sarcasm in the classroom
Teachers, leave them kids alone
Hey, Teachers, leave those kids alone
All in all you're just another brick in the wall
All in all you're just another brick in the wall
[guitar]
[Part 3]
I don't need no arms around me
I don't need no drugs to calm me
I have seen the writing on the wall
Don't think I need anything at all
No, don't think I need anything at all
All in all it was all just bricks in the wall
All in all you were all just bricks in the wall
[Goodbye Cruel World]
Goodbye, cruel world
I'm leaving you today
Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye
Goodbye, all you people
There's nothing you can say
To make me change my mind
Goodbye
Pick me up
Been bleeding too long
Right here, right now
I'll stop it somehow
I will make it go away
Can't be here no more
Seems this is the only way
I will soon be gone
These feelings will be gone
These feelings will be gone
Now I see the times they change
Leaving doesn't seem so strange
I am hoping I can find
Where to leave my hurt behind
All the shit I seem to take
All alone I seem to break
I have lived the best I can
Does this make me not a man?
Shut me off
I'm ready, heart stops
I stand alone
Can't be my own
I will make it go away
Can't be here no more
Seems this is the only way
I will soon be gone
These feelings will be gone
These feelings will be gone
Now I see the times they change
Leaving doesn't seem so strange
I am hoping I can find
Where to leave my hurt behind
All the shit I seem to take
All alone I seem to break
I have lived the best I can
Does this make me not a man?
Am I going to leave this place?
What is it I'm running from?
Is there nothing more to come?
(Am I gonna leave this place?)
Is it always black in space?
Am I going to take its place?
Am I going to win this race?
(Am I going to leave this race?)
I guess God's up in this place?
What is it that I've become?
Is there something more to come?
(More to come)
Now I see the times they change
Leaving doesn't seem so strange
I am hoping I can find
Where to leave my hurt behind
All the shit I seem to take
All alone I seem to break
I have lived the best I can
Does this make me not a man?
Now I see the times they change
Leaving doesn't seem so strange
I am hoping I can find
Where to leave my hurt behind
All the shit I seem to take
All alone I seem to break
I have lived the best I can
Does this make me not a man