all i want to do right now is to see him and just be with him right NOW!!! cant stand my grandma whos now in my way with my life. just shoot me now! XP

my heart is hurting. and i dont know why am crying! TT TT I MISS HIM!!! And my doctor thinks am depressed!!!
LIFE IS BEING SHITTY RIGHT NOW!!!!!! *BANGS HEAD ON TABLE SO MANY TIMES* THERE I AM NOT DEPRESSED AM STRESSED OUT!!!
 >.< DANG! imiss him! TT TT Yeah i said it already,but i dont care!!! I ♥ him!!!!!!

i was having a good morning....then rebecca told me that sara wasn't going to el dorado anymore and she is moving in 30 days!!! like life wasnt any harder. having so much difficulties with friends right now. Its not fair! Now i really dont like the SCHOOL!!!!!!!

SWAHOOOTS!!!!!!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!
 HAPPY PIRITE TALK DAY!!!!!!!

my mom is such a drag!! again....just wait..another 4 more years!.....am soooooo hating now!! ARGHHHHHHHH!!!!! not another 4 years of no freedom!! I need freedom now! FREEDOM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! >.<

i dont want to type in diary...

i dont want to type in diary...

well today is the second day of school. and am having a good time there. i cant believe i said that, i hate school. the one thing i like about school the most is seeing aki there! ^ ^ she is alot of help for looking for the classes.

.....lets see.... i HATE MY LIFE, I HATE MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!!! and I HATE MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!

what a dumb day! had to stay with my grandma all day!!! really hate her right now. she isnt really the niceist grandma to have. well i went to q-zar at lest. i dont like my family, i feel like am an ophen and this isnt really my rreal family. i dont act anythign like my family.

my heart and head hurts...
ive been crying for 2 hours. but am not going to tell anyone why. i mostly had a good day.

nothing ness......today is going to be a very boring day..

my heart hurts and my head is pounding! life is sooooo not living for i rather die!

Sorry aki for not seeing you for soooooooo long! ive been so busy with pixieland i dont have time anymore to see anyone or go on the computer. am always too tired to do anything. i really think that sean has a gf already because i went on my myspace and saw his page one of his friends said (i love u) on his page. And he has HER name all over HIS PAGE!! i am confused my brain says that hes just playing with me, but my hearts says that i love him. am still very hurtful now this reminds me about the peom i made..... i dont think i did the right chouse liking him. if i brake up with him i will just fall apart, but if i still go out with him ill never know if he really likes me.
i miss my old life when i just kept it a secret. i should just brake up with him...... TT TT i cant think anymore now am even more depressed about what i typed. why does he say he loves me but hes proably just laughing about me saying what a fool i am to like someone, i just feel sorry for her not ever having a boyfriend. hahahhahahahaahha!!!!!!!!

WWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHhhhhhahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i hate it!!!! HATE IT!!!!!!!!!!!! *sigh* and am suppose to go out tonight.TT TT
nothing sees right when you have a boy friend. i cant trust him when i dont know if he really likes me.

Went to camp, today was the last day. went on a bike ride for 2 hours and road for 16 miles it was fun just very painful. NEVER FORGET MY BRACES EVER AGAIN! now iam in a lot of pain from biking. went to pier 39 it was very crowded there. Then are group took the bart back home. got home at 4:49 pm it was a time of relaxing. and at home on the computer. ^ ^ thats my day.

had work today, blah,blah. got off work early cause of how hot it was. say my cousin. went to the arcade and had ice cream. gee that sounded like a fun day...... basically all ive been doing for 6 hours is reading harry potter it is very interesting though. but i think i broke my neck for sittign in one postion for toooooo long. ^ ^ dosent that sound like a fun day! but i didnt see SARA!!! that sucks TT.TT

VERY VERY VERY BORRRRRING!!!!!!!!! THERE WAS NOTHING TO DO BUT WORK!!! MOM IS A NICE PERSON AND ALL ITS JUST THAT SHE MAKES ME DO STUFF THAT SHE CAN DO ON HER OWN!!! AM GETTING REALLY ANOYED OF THAT WOMAN SHE SHOULDNT BE CALLED A MOM!!!!!!!!!!!! but i still had a nice day today very nice wheather,but very bored. ^ ^ thats it.

Very boring. hate work and hate the heat!! mom has been very strict all this summer and I hate it cant have a break no relaxing or having with my friends all there is, is work work work!!!

I am very happy to have sean as my boyfriend. i thought i wouldnt get a boyfriend until i was 20! Well its 4th of july. Have a great 4th of july! ^ ^