Well... today was a strange kind of day....I was very tired and felt like a horse. I was half asleep as I stood serving the other lazy/smart ass students there soup. I made the yummie deliciosous soup today. "Made with love" lol. Wow...did I just write lol? I really am tired. I'm getting closer and closer every day to saying those words. I just get scared and choked up becasue I'm unsure of how to say it. I'm scared to get hurt again. For once I don't want to just throw it out there in the open only to have it thrown back in my face. You know? I've never exactly felt this way with anybody before, this is all so new and foreign to me. I kind of want to tell him that (have I already told him that? heh-heh). He's made me feel different in this relationship. I don't think I've smiled this much (relationship or no) in a long time. I can think of him and the smile will come. I can see him all the way down on the opposite end of a hallway (he's tall and the hallways are long) and I will smile. Why is this? Is this really love? Lust? Longing? What are these new things to me? I've cried. Out of happiness, unknown reasons. Never sadness. He's never made me sad in anyway that has made me cry. He's made me angry (but we won't get too far into that one okay? *wink*)I'm just confused, happy, and unsure of myself. But I know that I'll figure everything out soon. I think...

Okay people help me out....How do I make a friends list????? For i am quite confused Oh well I'll figure it out if no on etells me........Woot! see you latahr!

POEM!!!!
Title: Unable To Touch  By: Me
It's an itch i can't scratch
A tear i can't cry
Boiling blood that can't be cooled
People will know
People will question
A need I fear to fill
A want i just can't grasp
Scraping away at endless sins
I need to escaped this hated skin
But then people will know
And then people will question
Smile and laugh for their own sake
They don't need to see the second layer
Madness that quivers
Alone in the dark
People will know
People will question
From blue to red
Pain to freedom
I can't act forever
One day I'll fall apart
One day the tears will flow
One day the blood will cool
but it has to stay locked up inside
Because I can't take the knowledge
Because I can't take teh questions
Things will only become worse
And I'm sure to stumble onto the pavement

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HOLY POOP LOOK AT ALL OF THE DIFFERNT EMOTICONS!!!!!HOLY SHI-OT!!!!!! HEE HEE HEE. Well I have to go to my MCAS help now >.<

Bai bais!
The Blood Dancer