omg! I can't stand my brother sometimes! I'm going to rant, so if ya'll don't feel like reading a bunch of bitching and moaning, I wouldn't get into this.lol anyways, He comes to my house everyday. Always during the time my little girl is taking her nap...that doesn't bother me. What bothers me is when he brings a ton of people over to my house in the middle of the night for a poker game. Then him and all of his buddies are loud and they wake the little one up. He of all people should know that is one of the most disrespectful things you could do to a parent. He has a little girl a year younger than mine. If I was to go to his house, bring 5 or 6 people he doesn't know just do play a game that he doesn't even like (without asking him), he would be ferious! I don't understand how one person could be so disrespectfull......oh well! He's gone for now. He'll just do the same thing over and over again and I'll probably post more ranting stories of how he pisses me off...but ya...going now!

All these years of friendship
and neither had said a word
about the thing that they both felt
To eachother they meant the world.

They knew eachothers secrets.
They felt eachothers pain.
But neither one of them had
known that the other felt the same.

They felt-

The same warm feeling you get in the presants of the one you love standing near, the same pause of your heartbeat you get when your with the one that you hold dear. It's hard to believe after all this time that both of them still care, only now this love is deeper because it's grown so much each year.

Then a day came along
when they both found the nerve
to say just how they felt.
It was hard to find the words
but they said-

They felt the same warm feeling you get in the presants of the one you love standing near, the same pause of your heartbeat you get when your with the one that you hold dear. It's hard to believe after all this time that both of us still care, only now this love is deeper because it's grown so much each year.

It's a never ending love
that they couldn't live without
and they didn't even know what
it was all about untill they said-

We feel the same warm feeling you get in the presants of the one you love standing near, the same pause of your heartbeat you get when your with the one that you hold dear. It's hard to believe after all this time that both of us still care, only now this love is deeper because it's grown throughout the years...

Im in this situation,
and I am so confused.
I have this "thing" inside me
and I dont know what to do.
I thought this would be better,
but it hurts me more each day,
knowing hes not happy with the choice
I think I'll make.
I can't tell what my problem is,
and its so hard not to say.
This "thing" I have inside me,
may or may not stay.
I have the choice to make myself,
and I cannot ask for help.
I've already said that I can't say
what this "thing" is,
but knowing it's there
is giving me hell.
Not that it's a bad thing,
but it's also not so great,
I'm not so sure what I should do,
This is tearing me up by the day.
Physically, emotionally, and in every
other way, this is ripping my heart in two,
trying to make the decision I have to make.

i cant believe i found the one
who truly makes me smile
i cant believe i found the one
who loves me all the while
ive never been so happy,
ive never felt so great,
i know for sure i've found the one
who loves me all the way.
hes my only one true love
ill never let him go
there are no words for me to explain
the words to let him know
i've told im this so many times
but he doesnt understand
he thinks that he aleady knows
how high my love for him stands
its impossible to comprehend
how much i love this man
because i fall in love all over again
the moment he touches my hand
i couldn't live without him
i would be so confused and lost
i cant imagine the pain i would feel
if i ever experienced that loss....
i love you baby!

yeah im bored and chatting with missy.lol exciting huh?!

I can't believe the way he did it.
A way so mean and harsh...
He found a way to figure out the one who has his heart.
He shouldn't have even let her in,
she shouldn't have givin him a ride.
When he first told me over the phone,
my heart just wanted to hide.
Hide from him and all his ways,
to forget all our times and all of our days.
He said this would never happen again,
that he would never cheat on me.
But once again it did,
so my heart ran away and hid.
Now I hide and have no more pride.
I've been stomped on one too many times.
I can't take this anymore,
my heart has no more open door.