ok...well shit. Lets see I have been sick for 3 weeks, the headaches won't go away. I cannot find a job, and I just found out I am going to be a father.

So here's a nice work thing. I unloaded off the truck and stocked, 1500lbs of pork for our bbq on friday!!! Happiness, I finally get to cook in the open pit and the smoker, happiness. Also on another note, well...we shall save that for later.

So here's something I was thinking about... more of a question really...

Could you be in love with a woman that has 2 children?
How about if she smoked more pot and drank more than anyone you have ever met?
That treated you like your slave?
That burned everything you owned when you left?
That used her child support card to buy beer?
That uses meth and pot around her kids?
That is letting her life spiral into nothing and has kicked you out of it, refusing to get better?

....somehow i am still in the deepest love here, so who is more fucked up? Myself or her?

for the very little amount its actually worth...happy birthday

effin a muh faks. i get to do a set tonight at the pool room with dixie duncan.

So, I miss the city. But, I will be there for my fill this weekend. Staying with my friend Dixie I hope, gonna do a set with him thursday night at the pool room so that'll be nice. Finally get to stretch my vocals once again.

something old for the memories

Shadows
An unnoticed identity clouded,
restless beneath your feet
sorrow life years buried in dirt
billions of cares unforgiven.
Scar a lifeline on granite stone
living wasted nothings
These unspoken distant calls repel,
dying seeds of hateful notes
Use nitrous pins to expose
this evil flesh inside
revealing impure fragile wings
that can't ever be hidden
Yourself seen towards judgement
flow an ocean of tears seeping
downwards to Hell.


*edit*...just searched for this to see where else it had been posted...fucking people, stealing shit. The original site has a copyright. but fuck them, nothing i can do about it.

If There Was A Single Day I Could Live,
A Single Breath I Could Take,
I'd Trade All The Others Away.

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