obsession is a terrible thing when it drives your every waking thought. It's all over something that should be so small and miniscule in my life.



but he's becoming my everything then isn't he?

lost and confused i trip through the baggage that im supposed to call my life.
the thing that poses as my father is being difficult.

this damned divorce has been going on for 2 years. i want it done and i want him out of my life. all i have is a piece of paper that i can throw at him if he comes within 500 yards of me. how lovely is that?


im so stressed. this is bullshit.



im out

i feel like im falling.
scared and confused i stumble through this process.
i have ussues with jelousy and trust.
im scared to get hurt again.
i need loyalty.
i feel lost.


so what am i supposed to do now?