Greyscale by ME

All around me I have friends
That accept my life and let me in
They urge me to be happy for them
I try, I try, and I try to let happiness win

But I sit alone in the grey
I watch them, the others
It is silent, I watch their ways
THEY have a way into the colors

I love my friends, I care
But I remain here, nowhere
Lost alone in the black
Knowing there's no way back

The white glares into me
And by it's harsh light I can see
My life, my joy, my pain,
All colors swirling down the drain

"Be happy, be happy!" they cry
While I let out another sad sigh
For I know they will always fail
With my life on the greyscale

Wheee!!!!!! I talked to [elfboy] today, for an hour and a half straight *stares* Tis odd, normally I have to get off before then. My dad is STILL asleep at 1:11 in the afternoon... he might have just woken up. Yikes. It allowed me a lot of time to talk though ^_^ I'd call Brett or Joshua but I have the feeling that both are somewhat busy.

Very insane but not happy. It's raining. Nastily. Thunder and whatnot. Ick. I feel terrible. Raistlin and Vitani - vewy noice peoples. Which is why I miss them so much. Yeah, Quiran, though I talked to her yesterday. I wish they could visit, but even if they had time and money that wouldn't happen. Stinky. Nasty. HORRID. Especially for Raistlin, because I know him better and he lives in the oosa... USA. It would be rather difficult for Vi to visit, as she lives in Sveden. *sigh* I hate this.

*grin* Happy and obviously insane. Ask Vitani if you don't believe me.

Today so far is pretty good, but I think it's about nine. (My clock needs to have its batteries replaced...) Already talked to [dark starlight], [Vitani] (VI!), and a few others...

68 days and counting since Raistlin's been gone... and I have been gone to the grave...

I WON THE COSTUME CONTEST FOR HARRY POTTER 3! WOOOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOO! YEAH! YAY! WHEEE! *jumps all over room in happiness* This is the first time that I've won ANYTHING! Now, I don't really like that it was for HP 3, as I don't like the movie, but I guess it's for just Harry Potter as I dressed like they did in the other movies. So... *Egyptian dance*

Feeling abnormally cheerful. What WAS in that tea? (chuckle) Though I am a tea drinker, that's for, by, and from Raistlin. Who deleted his diary entries, the bleeber!

I haven't talked much today, most of my time was spent on... *yet again, horror music* chores. It wasn't bad, which says something for my current sanity. Laundry, the pool, more laundry, dishes, more laundry, pool filter... and laundry.

Missing Raistlin to heck and back, but glad that he's not here, as he lives in a level-1 heck spot. Hmmm... I wonder what level I'm living in? Anyway, I'm a bit lonely, but okay.

Vitani is still cool.

Hating movie, hating movie, dah dah dah...
Geez, I HATE The Prisoner of Azkaban movie! It was my FAVORITE BOOK, for crying out loud, and it was totally messed up! AAAARRRRRRGGGHHHH!

For anyone that's interested: Quithanan is a very tasty elven treat that females make for males to show favor in a romantic way. Occasionally used as a threat. "Darling, if you don't wash the dog this minute, no quithanan for a MONTH!" Heheheh...

Vitani is cool.

I am in a state of shock. 7 out of 23 say that I'm awesome...

I found out how to contact Rowling. I also found out that the Host Witches for Harry Potter are partly inept, partly rude, and wholly haughty. I have the feeling that they don't care as much about the people that go on the chats as they do about their power and the site. But isn't that part of the site all about the people?

I tried to make a "Disappointed With the PoA Movie" club, but apparently that is "harrasment". Give me a break, they just don't want it to interfere with the sales or their power. Maybe I'll make a wiki here...

The Harry Potter movie STANK. That they can even call it Harry Potter is amazing. I wish I knew how to contact Rowling to complain. Most people hated it, too. Don't waste your money on it, readers. (My favorite book, too!)

Lonely for Raistlin, so lonely for Raistlin, lonely for the Drow, lonely for Gilthanas, lonely for all. Twisting in lonely circles, around, up and down, trying to get out, away, away, away! Turning in the spiral, lost in the gray maze, loneliness forever, soul drenched in lonely haze.

Pain, pain, go away
Please come back another day
I do not care if rain or shine
But for now leave me feeling fine.
(Not good at all, but hey, it's a moment's work!)

Haven't written in here for a while. My life is a little bizarre at the moment, as I don't even know what I feel like. Confused, I guess. My friends aren't really talking to me much, but [farfy girl] and I have talked and are getting along well again. We both were a bit uptight for a bit, but we've loosened up. Chores to do, so I guess I can write in this later... oh, and I submitted two short stories, including this one, to Raistland. Hope they like it.