wow.
how could i not have realized that Alex Evans did not exsist before today.
*whistles* talk about dreamy.

lol.
sorry. i read what a teenaged girl said, comming out to express her undying love for a guy she's never met. *eye roll* oh please. Really? Yes, he's gorgeous (*coughs* beyond gorgeous, actualy), but declaring your 'undying love' for a guy you've never met, and wil never meet. Phhhft. No thank you.

I prefer to know the guys I intend on loving, thank you very much.

Okay, I just watched Twilight for the first time...
<.< It really sucked. I was suprised.
I thought it would suck on a different level... but the actors were cheesy...
The settings where okay, but over all, it wasn't truely anythign like the first book.

There were some upsides:
1: Edward DID sparkle. ^.^ I like glitter.
2: Bella's truck WAS amazing.
3: My favorite: James looks like [Herger the Joyous]. ^.^ (Kudos to you John :-) )

Well, I'm sure I'll have more to rant about later.

:)
-Lex

[heritage]: English, Scottish, Dutch, Italian, Viking (yes. I'm viking. :P)
[Country of living]: america
[Birthdate]: January 17th, 1993
[Eye color]: blue
[School/work]: 11th grade, highschool
[Hobbies]: Books, music, art, sleeping
[Brothers/Sisters]: 4 sisters 1 brother
[Relationship]: no
[Piercing(s)]: ears
[Who would you like to meet]: haha *pokes [Asator Stormbringer] and [Rice]* :P
[Who do you admire most]: dunno
[Favorite Movie(s)]: LOTR, Gilmore Girls, Monty Python
[What's under your bed?]: I have no idea. Probably my dust bunnies making war to the shoes while the clothes are running a refugee camp
[Favourite sound]: thunderstorms
[favourite scent]: coffee
[Favorite Writer]: dont have one
[Favorite color]: smoky blue
[Favorite song at this moment]: Puppet - Thousand foot Krutch
[Favorite food]: pasta
[Favorite drink]: coffee
[Lucky number]: 3
[Favorite shoes]: Converse or heels
[What phrase do you use most]: M'kay
[What do you do in the weekends]: Sleep
[My Pets]: Dogs and a cat
[Simple or complicated?] Simple
[Cremated or Buried when dead]: Buried
[Stay up late or go to bed early]: early
[Light or dark?]: Dark
[Speak or Silence]: Silence
[Hug or kiss]: ehm... >.>
[Happy or Sad]: Depends. I like feeling happy, but I get more doine while sad.
[Left or Right]: Right
[What would you ask God if you could ask him 1 single question]: Why?
[You believe in reincarnation]: No.
[When you die, what will be your last words?]: I love you.
[Does true love exist]: Yes.
[Best feeling in the world]: creating a musical piece, adn it turning out fantasticly.
[Worst feeling in the world]: lonelyness
[Are you an emotional person]: I'm a caffiene -addicted female. What do you think?
[Do you ever cry during a movie]: Yes XD
[Your goal in life]: Own a cafe and art/music store.

Mkay. Here soon, school shall end. And since I am [CYBER SCHOOLED], my comp. privledges shall end as well. So that means, as of finals week _{(June 1- 5)}, I shall be unavailable.

This is just a place to hold my banners as I make them...:

What is a Rook, exactly?

So apparently, I'm a lot of things....

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I try to help, and I screw up.
I try to hard... it's not that I care or don't care. I just hate silence... it reminds me of last summer. *shivers*

So, I'm out for a while in a few minutes, maybe longer.

... i need coffee ._. 

Alright, day two of this revelution to use this thing:

I love him, I really do, and he loves me, at least he says he does. We talk for hours, and then he leaves for a week. It wrenches my heart intwo, because I know I love him, but I want him to show me he loves meby at least making a small effort to show up and say hello...
I hope its not to much to ask, though....
I don't know.
Love is a complicated thing. It really is.


so, with that off the line,
the rest is self explanitory.
I hevn't been sleeping well,
I haven't been eating,
I've barely been drinking anything,
and I haven't hardly been able to move with my former grace (XD haha Jking. I don't have an inch of race in me to save my life),
I don't know what's wrong, though.
I don't think I really care.

I think I'm going to make use of my diary.
It's here to keep all of my daily thoughts, so, why not use...?


...and I have a lot of thoughts...


...not all of them are intelegent...

...but not all of them are stupid...

...and I CAN come back and edit it later...

For years I watched,
as he threw his life away.
for years I cried,
praying for his safety.

As he wasted his life,
watching is bleed to teh floor,
I pleaded on my knees,
weeping at the door.

For years I watched,
and for eyars I prayed,
as I watches his life seep away.

One day I decided,
I would be the one to stop him,
I would be the one to...