-suicide risk-
I caught my dad. On my computer. On one of his sites. His computer has too many virus's to fix. So he needs my computer. And I even specificallyasked him not to download anything, or go on his sites, because those give virus's,too. I want to fucking die. And on the night of my birthday party,too. I get to go and blow out the candles on the cake in front of me while my family pretends to love me and then goes right back to ignoring me.
Happy fucing birthday to me. An I bet nobody's going to call to wish me a happy birthday on Tuesday,either.
i just wanna run away from all my fucking problems. My dad refused to go to atherapy session,too. He thinks me andmy counsiler will make him look more evil. Which is not fucking true.
I even tried to tell him that. But he won't listen. He won't admitt that it was wrong and disgusting to do that in my room. Near my things Near all the things that remind him of his only daughter. How could he do that?
Yeah, [Ayaka] everyone fucking looks at porn. You told me that last year.
But when it damages a family and leave one person unable to fuction, it can be cried about. Or whined about.
My mum got drunk for the first time in forever last night. I can almost tell this might bcome a reoccuring thing.