Ugh. My throat/neck is swollen due to my giglinormous tonsils. I'm having them out this summer. By the way. I recently had a dream where I get kidnapped,and I messed with my Ouija board and it gave me a date.-.
So if I'm not on at all over the next month, sorry.
My dad made me go to school today and yesterday. My friend Trevor (I love that kid.<3) got so mad because eventually I couldn't even stand my throat hurt so much. He wanted to go yell at my dad.He made me stay because I had play practise. Uuugh.
So now I've lost my voice, and I can only really communicate with a peice of paper and a pencil. I'm on right now because I can't really sleep,and I'm eating something to try and sooth my throat.
I can't even move my head. TToTT
I had to walk around all day today with a pack of ice untill I had a performance for another school around 12:00. Then I left around 12:30 after all my scenes with lines were done. My mum took me to Wendy's and I got a Frosty, which is kinda helping.
She gave me half a perkiset (or however you spell it) and instead of making me tired, it made me hyper. So..Yeah.
-bouncing off the walls and in pain at the same time- 
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-suicide risk-
I caught my dad. On my computer. On one of his sites. His computer has too many virus's to fix. So he needs my computer. And I even specificallyasked him not to download anything, or go on his sites, because those give virus's,too. I want to fucking die. And on the night of my birthday party,too. I get to go and blow out the candles on the cake in front of me while my family pretends to love me and then goes right back to ignoring me.
Happy fucing birthday to me. An I bet nobody's going to call to wish me a happy birthday on Tuesday,either.
i just wanna run away from all my fucking problems. My dad refused to go to atherapy session,too. He thinks me andmy counsiler will make him look more evil. Which is not fucking true.
I even tried to tell him that. But he won't listen. He won't admitt that it was wrong and disgusting to do that in my room. Near my things Near all the things that remind him of his only daughter. How could he do that?
Yeah, [Ayaka] everyone fucking looks at porn. You told me that last year.
But when it damages a family and leave one person unable to fuction, it can be cried about. Or whined about.
My mum got drunk for the first time in forever last night. I can almost tell this might bcome a reoccuring thing.