*smirks* I'm looking forward to tomorrow.

If my stomach pain won't go away, I have to do a gastroscopy. Do you know what that means? Right. PANIC! for me at least. I've heard it should be very unpleasant to do something like that. Why me? ;__; I don't wanna.
I
don't
wanna!

I easily get in panic when it comes to hospitals and everything about it. I guess I could call it phobia.

Ich habe angst!

I'm scared ;__;

My poor belly.. it didn't do anything wrong.

I wish I could play this song.

But I suck at playing guitar..

But "Guardian Angel" is what is going through my head atm.

I wonder what it means that she tried to talk to me again.... It feels like a hard slap in the face, but I'm doing my best to stand against it.

You tell me that you need me, but then you go and cut me down...

uhm.. I've found this somewhere and translated it into english.. I bet no one will write something about it, but if you are reading this and you want to tell me, I would be glad about it.. because I'm curious how you're feeling about me :)


What would you do when...

» I die:
» I would tell you, I like you:
» I would kiss you:
» I am living next to you:
» I am stealing something:
» I'd had to move somewhere far away:

 What are you thinking about my...

» Character:
» Eyes:
» Face:
» Hair:
» Clothes:
» Behavour:
 
[1] Who are you?
[2] Are we friends?
[3] Where and when did we meet the first time?
[4] How was I dressed?
[5] What are you thinking about me?
[6] What's the best memory you have of me?
[7] How long do you think we'll stay friends?
[8] Do you love me?
[9] Did I ever hurt you?
[10] Would you hug me?
[11] Would you kiss me?
[12] Would you have sex with me?
[13] Are we close to each other?
[14] Whats the most important thing about our relationship?
[15] Do you wish I'd be cooler?
[16] Do you think I'm lovely?
[17] What about me makes you happy?
[18] What about me makes you sad?
[19] Is there something that reminds you on me?
[20] What would you change on me?

Okay, I thought I was really bad at dancing yesterday, but the review of my classmates showed me that I could't have been sooooo bad. They said they liked my movements and that I was able to keep the beat and that I looked kinda sexy.. o__O Well, I can't remember exactly because I needed alcohol to walk on the dancefloor, but when I think about yesterday, I have to admit that it was a lot of fun too. I need to dance more, by the way, it makes a nice ass *g* I don't like hip hop much, though, but it has the best beat and Dennis (a guy out of my class).. omg, he can shake his hips like a Topmodel. Well, I bet I will do that again, but I must not have it every week.

Today's evening showed me how much.. .. never mind. I just couldn't get any clear thought at all, and honestly, dancing isn't my thing. I know why I don't like discothekes so much. And thinking while dancing doesn't make anything better. By the way, watching all these couples together.. THAT makes everything worse.

Saturday is gonna rock.

I am nervous.. o.O

The day I should meet the group here in my town was suspended to next week, but today I'll have a call with the band leader.. God, it would be perfect to get some stage experience with a few scenes on the stage. Even if I haven't planned to stay here for the rest of my life 'cause I've planned to leave Germany after I've got my final exams next year for attending a musical and stage school, it would be helpful. Very helpful. Nevertheless I am nervous, but I'll manage it somehow.