Deflowered.

And she kissed me like heaven
And I was earth
Her skin was so soft
I wanted to cry

I dug deeper and deeper
Tearing the feathers off her wings
Blood pooled the bed sheets
Her back arched in protest
But her sweet voice called for more

And I dug deeper and deeper
Until she touched land and I was on the moon
She kissed like heaven
And smelled like dirt

Even though I'll regret it,
I still do it.
And that's what
Makes it all the worst.

I had a dream that I was traveling with my family when we stopped in a town. We went into a shop and my mother took me to see a rack of dresses. None of them I liked so I left. I walked in a nearby woods on a horse and carriage trail before coming to a wall of trees. I saw a man and hid behind a large tree, curious on what he was doing. I found myself in his point of view and saw that he was sticking his hand into the belly of a man and woman. Instead of blood, it was a black and sticky mush. I found myself in my own point of view and realized the man was standing on a rock and looking at me. He started speaking, but I couldn't hear what he said. His eyes turned a solid black. I looked up to the tree line and saw that there was a great wall of fire engulfing them. Terrified, I ran back towards the town to warn them. When I reached it, the town had turned into some kind of camp and people were screaming and running around everywhere. Papers were blowing and smoke was nearly suffocating me. I just stood there and hearing someone singing. It rose above the screaming and the distant fire and I couldn't hear anything but the singing.

Cold Case

He'll be forgotten, too
His soul will be stored
In the cold basement
Along with other
Cardboard box memories

You make me
Want to believe
In God
So I'll get on my knees
In front of you
And pray

Weak Bridges

I didn't really want you
to go
I wanted to reach out and
grip your sleeve
So you can see these tears of mine
And wipe them away

London is Calling.

Cobbled streets
Barely whispers
Dirty feet
Between the alley ways
Voices are crying, the market
is singing
Angels are falling
the devil is dancing
Over the hazy moon, and through murky tides
The lady in red waits

Because when
the light gets too dark
And the dark gets too light
That is when worlds collide

Sitting here with my baka boyfriend.

I'm not as strong
As I am
As you think of me to be.

Because I'm tired,
And I don't know what I'm supposed to do.
Who I'm supposed to be, is this growing up?
Let me stay a child forever
and fade away with sunset tides

Smile and pretend it never happened
Walk away
Run from the demons of your past
Hide from the demons of your present
And prepare to fight
The ones of your future.

I would destroy the moon, my body, my soul - just to see you smile again.

copy cat, copy cat
rat-a-tat-tat
Running to your own beat, running to your own beat
Smiles hiding the truth, smiles hiding the anger
Smiles hiding the scars, smiles hiding the hurt

Oh, how could you
Leave them waiting
In the cold ground, so empty
So alive
Leave them here to think about the days
that will never come

The fading stars swallowed up by the sun
That is what your life will be
That will be your curse
Your empty promises that they treasured so dear
Forgotten in your future

Copy cat, copy cat
rat-a-tat-tat
Keep walking, keep walking
Away from it all, away from it all
So you can, so you can
get by, get through all of this
get by, get by

Spring, summer, winter, fall
repeat, repeat, repeat
How the years flew by
Still coming by, empty graves
They're not there, but somewhere in the atmosphere
in atoms that you can't see
but they're there, yes they'll always be there

Copy cat, copy cat
The sun still shines, even on the other side of the world
The sun still shines, the sun still shines, the sun still...

Even when it seems too much, just walk
Even if you feel the guilt, just walk
Even if it's crumbling to the ground, just walk
Even if it's weighing you down, just walk
Because the sun still shines even if the stars are out

Copy cat, copy cat
rat-a-tat-tat
Protect the ones that you love, you love
Human lives are so few, so fragile, so fragile
So easily taken away, taken away
You've learned that lesson well, very well

Glory comes at a cost, but it hurts much more
Knowing you could've done so much more
Hiding your face, hiding your shame
Rat-a-tat-tat

You poor copy cat, copy cat
You let her go, let her go
Pay the price, pay the price
of your broken promises, broken promises
You let her go

You give me no hope
Your eyes are like ammunition
When you look at me

Cherry Blossom Blues

It's 4 in the morning
and I'm still up
not wanting tomorrow to come
does that make me weak
or does it make me unsure
of what's to come

but I'm tired
and all I wanna do is go home
but is home here
in this dirty hotel room

so I'll take a look in this cracked mirror
of my former self
wipe away this dripping mascara
hold my head up high
and breathe

drive, keep driving
the roar of the engine
sending me further in this
These petals falling in the windshield remind me of rain
and the sweet smell reminds me of of bittersweet memories
Wipe them away, wipe them away
Don't hold back anymore

keep going, keep going
I'll get there someday
this broken heart of mine will heal

cause it's 4 in the morning
and I'm still up
not wanting tomorrow to come
but I'm so tired and I wanna go home
is home this dirty hotel room

no more, no longer
no more, no longer
cause I'm a little stronger, stronger
I'm better than this, I swear

Wipe away this dripping mascara
tomorrow will come eventually
but not today
and I'll come home to you

Hush, hush baby
Just drift away
in late night tangles