okay people so this is whats happening so far in my life. I started working with the fair traveling. I recently went to Shreveport, Louisiana to work and I meet the most beautiful woman at the fair. Her name is Allie Eason and she worked making deep fried oreo's and funnel cakes. She made hot chocolate too but it wasn't very good but I kept buying hot chocolate and deep fried oreo's just so I can see her. Then I finally got the courage to give her a note that said i thought she was cute and that I wanted to get to know her more. The note also had my number, so if she wanted to talk she could text or call me. She had me nervous that whole entire day. That night after work I got a text from her, then I got really nervous cause I was thinking that she didn't like me. It turned out that she thought I was cute too. Now shes in my life and two other girls too. One is named Felicia and the second is named Venus. Renee has been trying to play me like a fool and i'm sorry but this girl isn't a fool.

so today i just found out that i'm going to Shreveport,La. yay!!! i got to get back to work tomorrow. lol. So lately I've been talking to Renee, but not as much as we use to talk. Shes been pushing me away. Cause of her pushing me away some one else has been pulling me. It makes me so happy that shes there for me. She has become a best friend to me and now i can talk to her about anything. I think that Renee is trying to push me into some one else's arms. Its not working tho. I still like she a lot. I think i might love her now. but i'm not sure how she would take it, if I told her that I LOVE HER!

okay people. I went to Denton,Tx on the 27th of Oct. and to tell you the truth it was a bore fest. Zzzzzzzzzzzzzz.......... Lol. There was a few good parts like getting out of Waco,Tx for a little while. oh yeah and seeing a new place that I haven't seen before. I guess you can say it wasn't my best trip but it was a trip. Another thing K.L.R. is a suck ass host. We were the guest and treated like we weren't even there. nice! rite? But anyways its whatever. I'm moving on with Renee. YAY!!!

ok so here is whats going on now. that girl Kris is out the picture now. now i want a girl named Renee. Now Renee is independent and can do for herself. i like that she doesn't do everything mommy says and the fact that she can make her own choices. the biggest turn on with Renee is that shes so different from all these other girls that want to be with me. I love the fact that she says what on her mind and she always tells me how she feels. Renee is different in looks and in personality. I think I could actually love her and everything she stands for in her life. but i'm not really sure when i should tell her all of this and how i really feel about her.

update on my life. lol. well i haven't asked out my home girl. lol. i'm still a little scared she'll say no. but now i have a girl named renee that likes me and she lives where i do. their is also a few other girls that have an interest in me that i have noticed. but i'm still stuck on my twinkie kris. why i'm still not sure. she makes my feelings go back and forth and up and down. 

i'm now talking to a girl named Kris and shes from Denton,Tx. She is so much like me but a little shy. Shes my twinkie. :)  I like her so far she hasn't done anything to me to not like her. So that's a good thing. But I'm still going to ask my home girl Eglenda out on a date. For the simple fact that Eglenda lives in the same town I live in and Kris doesn't. So now I have to get the courage to ask my home girl out.

well edie is all about girls, girls, girls. So it hasn't worked out. But i'm keeping my options open. Now i'm talking to several girls. I'm now starting to think that i wanna be with my home girl Eglenda. i think i just might ask her out. that's if i ever get over this little bug i have.

so i have decided that i'm gunna break up with her. i have a friend thats been there for me through this whole thing. and now i think i'm falling for her. i think its going to be more different then being with jamie. i mean this girl edie is more into my mind then jamie was. she all about my intellegents.

so in my life lately my girlfriend told me she has been cheating on me. she said shes been cheating on me since she moved back to Houston. i don't like to get hurt and i think thats the worse way to hurt me. i put my all in our relationship and now i don't really know what to do.

whoot whoot!!!!!! i wrote something new! *giggles*

i'm loving the fact that i have a girl that loves me for who i really am and not just what i look like and what i wear.

well my date last night was a crock. it completely sucked. first she was late. then she brought her friends as a tag along. then she went and took the liberty to pay when i was the one that ask her out. and then she didn't talk to me the whole time. finally when she dropped me off she didn't even walk me to the door. Really what happened to that romantic gurl i knew 2 nights before last night. :( What happened to being a gentle lady now a days.

nothing really happened today but last night we had tornadoes all around us it sucked cause i suppose to go out o a date last night so i was kinda made about that. oh well I'll get over it. man i been missing Rachel for a long while. i miss that gurl with a passion.she make me feel so comfortable when I'm around her every time. its like wow.lol. i'm so happy that i get to see her again yay!!!

man i just recently found out that Aracely went back to her ex ole gurl. man she just don't know. but i know. that gurl is just gonna keep her from the world again. all that gurl does is use her and abuses her in every way possible. man i miss my cuz like no other. i just hate the fact that she keeps running back to this bitch of a girlfriend of hers. I'm sorry but i wouldn't be running back to that gurl. I'd be looking for a better gurl shit. that's why i left krys cause i didn't want to put up with being depressed and sad no more. man but i do have to say that Aracely can really put up with some shit. man i couldn't do none of that.

man i sorta went a little depressed yesterday cause Aracely didn't call it got me a little worried.then niella came over and i was like ummm....i really hope that Aracely don't come by to see me today.and today I'm just like what ever to everybody for the simple fact that no can make me happy right now but i don't know why i feel like this. i really wish i knew why tho. i guess I'm just have to figure it out on my own. I'm suppose to stay the night with niella tonight cause she wants me to but i really don't want to, to tell the truth. I'm already tired of her cause shes always on my ass (figure of speech). and everyone that knows me knows how i get when people are always on my ass. i tend to dump them and walk away with no tears or remorse.

man just last night i went to check on Cely. man she still doing good she don't seem to be effected by her ex-girl and her problems which is a good thing cause she needs to get on with her life. I'm just so happy that i can see her again. man missing friends that are close to you makes you go crazy like damn. man i missed that crazy sponge bob loven ass.lol. i don't know what i would of done if i didn't get to tell her bye before i moved to Vermont.man now that she's around more i don't think i wanna leave here anymore unless i can get her to move with me to a place new for her and me. i know that she likes to travel to new places like i do. so i hope that she could at least come and visit me. whenever she wants cause I'll pay for everything when she visits. man I'm just so fucking stoked that i can see her again. happy happy joy joy lol

damn last night was so amazingly awesome.just da fact that i got to see Aracely last night. damn i haven't seen that girl in damn near forever. i can't help but smile around her. she makes me so happy, but not intentionally it just seems to come out that way every time i see her. man i love that girl no matter what she does. i can't help but to love that girl. if i ever do get angry at her it never seem to last but a few minutes. its crazy how i can forgive her like nothing ever happened but when it comes to other females i have feelings for it'll take days or even months to forgive them. Aracely knows that i'd bend over backwards for her no matter what. that girl knows that shes got me wrapped around her finger. and she loves it.

so far im bored today...i saw my home gurls gurl today and all i gotta say is damn!!!! my home gurl is so lucky to have dis gurl cuz she sexy as hell...i hope that i can find a gurl like that one day...don't get me wrong i have gurls like that but non that live close enough to be with every day like my home gurl does...make me envy her....in so many way i wanna jus grab her gurl and just fuck the shit outta her...and just make her scream my name damn!!!! wet dreams much hahaha

man last night was going pretty good til jes popped into the sene man that bitch had me pissed.i thought that len was over that bitch already but naw she cheated on a good gurl for that pathetic crack whore. can you believe that piece of crock cause i still can't. 

if i tell her dis gurl is fucking around be hind her back than i'll be afraid that she's gonna thing that i'm lying just so i can have her to my self...but that's not my intention at all...i just don't want her to get hurt again.

so today was a weird day my home gurl that i have a major crush on is dating a gurl that's deceiving her...i don't know what to do. i don't know if i should talk to dis gurl that she's dating or if i should just tell her that dis is fucking around be hide her back...