I'm so missing my love (Ashley Renee Thomas). It's crazy weird that we both get sick when we aren't around each other for a long period of time. I'm going to try and see her for my birthday weekend tho. :) If all goes well then I'll be able to see her than. I really hope everything goes as planned. Cause I really want to see her. LOL.
I loved my petals on my bed room floor. I love the ring you gave me when you made the promise that you'll always be by my side and to not ever run away. I love the soothing bath you made for me before you gave me your promise. But do you know what I love the most. I loved that every time we were together we held each other. I love that every time we went to bed we held each other. I loved that we held hands threw out the day every day. Most of all I love the time we had together. I love you! Your my world Ashley Renee Thomas!
I miss her so bad it hurts me to talk, text, or skype with her. She's everything to me, yet she nothing to herself. How do I get her to see herself threw my eyes. How do I make her see what I see. I see someone so perfect for me. She's motivated, caring, always willing to help when someone is in need. She's loving, but it's love in return that scares her away. She's more caring than a 100 care bear hugs. Yet she doesn't expect care in return. She's everything I want and need and more. Why can't she see that, I don't know. She means the world to me and I wish she could just realize that my life with out her is pretty worthless. I feel worthless in many way beyond what my mind can take me. I want to be the one she runs to when she's in trouble, needs a friend, or just needs to vent even if her venting consists of yelling and cursing, I want to be the one to hold her when she cries over something or even if she cries over nothing. I want to be her rock. I want to catch every tear from her eyes, hold her, and tell her that her eyes will never shed a tear as long as I'm around. Unless her tears are tears of joy. I'm in love with her. (Ashley Renee Thomas)
She makes me so happy. She always puts a smile on my face. Ashley is too amazing! I'm so in love with her!
I finally got to see Ashley! She is so crazily amazing. omg. It's so hard to not smile when I text,talk, or skype her. She's so winning me over in every way. We had such an amazing time together. She's everything I've been looking for, for a very long long time.
Loving the girl that puts a smile on my face. :) A.R.T. (Ashley Rene Thomas) I can't wait to finally hug her and kiss her. I finally get to see her in person! YAY!!!
I might be in love with Lyndia but she doesn't seem to feel the same way about me anymore. So she says. I have a friend that has recently told me how she feels about me. She says she's liked me for a long time.
Recently I have been thinking of ways to tell Allie I want to date her. That her and I are better off as friends.
I'm in love with Lyndia and I don't know what to say to Allie. Cause Allie recently told me she loves me. But I didn't say it back to her. I'm in love with Lyndia and I'm not in love with Allie. Allie's nice and sweet and all but I just don't see us dating for too long. Lyndia isn't very popular with my friends but I want to be with her with my heart. Lyndia says she loves me too. But I'm not really sure how much she loves me? I LOVE YOU LYNDIA!!!
Super excited about Allie coming to see me from Alabama. :)
This puta and her bull-shit is pissing me off to the fullest. I'm thinking about taking my friend Cely up on her offer to get a two bedroom apartment with her. I really need to get away from this situation. I feel trapped.
UGHHH.......I'
So I have done nothing lately but chill at home. I've been on a small vacation from work. Hopefully I can get the September off for gay pride. :) wishing wishing wishing.....
bored as fuck at this school. UGH..... i need a better life.
i'm so missing my big daddy.
okay. lately I've been spending a lot of time with Eglenda. Well Renee doesn't like it. My home girl Niella doesn't like it either but that's cause I blow her off to chill with Eglenda. All my home girl wants to do is lay in bed and watch movies. All i wanna do is chill with Eglenda and Maggie. I don't wanna b cooped up in my room all day doing nothing in a house that I don't even wanna be in. :-(
ok so now my baby (Renee) is in the hospital. :( what to do? what to do? UGH!!!!! so stressed out about what to do. Right now no one is liking my baby (Renee) cause all my friends don't like the way she treats me. but what am I to do about it. I can't really help who I fall in-love with. Oh well. I guess i'm just going to have to take the criticism.
my friend Niella is a pain in my butt. Its always like she has to have all of my attention. I hate that shit! I'm like so in love with a girl named Renee and I don't really thinks she knows how much I love her. I hope that soon she will figure it out cause I care about her a lot. I missed hanging out with my friend Eglenda. She makes my laugh so hard some times.
i'm working at Golden Corral now. i made two new friends one named Chadai and another named Ginger. they're pretty cool. i meet them at work. I'm spending more time with Eglenda lately. Its nice that I can chill with her more. I been sick with the flu. Renee and I are doing good lately. I just wish she could finally commit to me.
I made a new friend named Ja'shuan. Shes a lot like me in many ways. Shes pretty cool. lol. Shes funny too. My friend Allie is missing me. I miss her too. Renee and I are doing okay. We are working on us. She doesn't really wanna date me right now. I really haven't gotten to the bottom of why she keeps accusing me of sleeping around with people. I'm trying my hardest to prove her wrong. I'm trying to show her that i'm faithful.
i have a really good friend that's going threw a horrible lose. R.I.P. Bobby Wilson (papa) You will always be loved and remembered papa. :-) <3