Notebook found by a very nice old Irish man called Stephan (who coincidently I met on a bus), who said he bits of my handwriting he could make out were good, and a young lady like me shouldn't swear so much. Also gave me his special singing potion, and advised if that didn't work to just try whiskey, as it makes everybody sing. Murderous rampage is now averted, return to your normal lives. PS purse still not found, but have my precious notebook so couldn't care less.
I though the loss of my purse was annoying. But that was easily coped with, my notebook being gone on the other hand (the most recent one, the ONLY one that isn't backed up because of the fiasco of getting new computers in the house) can only be dealt with with a special mixture of a complete nervous breakdown and murderous fury. My phone number is inside the front cover, so someone should get in touch. At least, that's what I'm telling myself while frantically turning my entire house upside down looking for the damn thing. If however they don't, and I find anything anywhere that resembles my work it will mean all out fucking WAR! I was prepared to take legal action when someone stole a short story of mine, but this is my novel. One of my three 'heart' novels. I will go to the ends of the earth for revenge if someone tries to pass it off as their own. So, if anyone has it, this counts as a warning. Do not steal my work (or the work of any artist)! Because if I WILL find you, oh yes, and I will personally rip you to shreds, tear your heart out and keep your head on a spike to warn off other would-be thieves. YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED
Next week is the week! After all this time saving up, I'll finally get my shiny new 13inch Macbook. Then I'l be able to type long into the night (great considering I'm nocturnal) without disturbing anyone else in the house. I won't have to put up with the PC's in Uni, I won't have to stop halfway through a peice of writing because someone else needs the computer for thier work. And I'll have money again, for things like food and books. Oh god how I've missed that bookshop smell of paper, oak and coffee. I'll be able to pay back Debs for all the food she's bought me to keep me from starvation, I should take her to Ichibana or the Frankenstein bar or Cafe Mao. And I should be able to push the boat out for Dad's 50th. Though my plan to get him a fifty year old whisky died pretty quick. I couldn't even afford a shot. Hmm, when I get the macbook I will use it's superior mac-technology to find him a present.
I'm under the strong impression my brain doesn't actually like me. Aside from technique block, which as I discussed earlier, is a bitch, it sometimes cuts out altogether, usually at the most embarrassing times possible. Today for example, I was so looking forward to the authors reading at 5pm. A fantasy writer, right up my street. Then, when he was reading from a particulary grusome extract (which incidently was excellently written) my right hand goes numb. Oh God. Then I feel the right side of my face go numb. Ooooohh God...... For those not familiar with how my brain malfunctions, before I get a migrane, my right hand, right side of my face, and the entire right side of my body goes numb. I reached into my bag for migraleve. None there. I'd goven it to Owen (my brother) and he hadn't given it back. Oooooooooooooh
I think I know what my old drama teacher was talking about when she told us about true friendship. Not the same as being in love, but damn close. Like love and friendship are two sides of the same coin (or 'the same magic') This weekend I stayed with Debs and I haven't been so carefree in a long time. She's introduced me to sushi and the music of Ludovico Einaudi, though I like it better on her half-dead piano. We went to her local pub and had red wine at a friend's house, we stayed up all night watching movies and she played the piano for me. I love hearing people play music, those moments are precious and unique. There aren't enough of them She even made me CDs to help me writing. She told me what it was like to be musically minded, apparently music is always in patterns. I'm teaching her to draw, and now trust her with my stories (a big deal for me, I'm overly protective of my writing). She's going to create theme music for my characters. I can't remember when I've laughed so much, I suppose when I was little, but you'll laugh at anything as a child. It made me realise how unhappy I was with my old friends. They ignore me and make me feel guilty for not getting drunk and slavering over men twice my age. I've finally cut all ties from them, and it feels like dropping an iron weight from my heart. I'm passed caring about how angry they are to lose thier glorified baby-sitter. I want real friends. I want real love. I want to stand next to a piano at 3am an hear amzing people make it sing. I want to talk about my violet skies and starry snow without being made to feel like an outcast.... I want my life as my own. Free and happy.
Writer's block, as anyone will tell you, is a bitch. But what is worse, much worse, is technique block. Writer's block is when you have no ideas, nothing, nada, zip , zilch. This personally only happens to me when I have to do academic work. Technique block is far more frustrating. I only ever get it with creative writing, the writing I want to do and would, if I could, spend all my time doing. It happens thusly - a brilliant idea pops up in the brain, in my case it's usually scenes that play out in my minds eye. In the mind, it's all perfect, everything is in place, the characters say the right things, thier movements boldster everything, the setting is beautiful and the eyes of characters glimmer with strength, burn with rage, smolder with passion. Then my hand cannnot keep up with my brain, and what appears on the paper is utter shit. Everything that was so perfect falls to bits and looks pathetic when read back. Ugh, it is a nightmare, a complete and total nightmare, worse than the one about machinegun-bea
Just so everyone knows, migraines suck. It's like having someone force red hot spears through your eyes and inject mercury into ever crevice of the brain. They strike without warning and ruin your whole day, sometimes even three days in my case. And of course, the pain isn't enough, there just has to be nausea too, because it clearly isn't horrible enough. For some reason my right hand and right side of my face (lips in particular) go completely numb, so it feels like having a damn stroke. Worse, I'm right handed, so I can't even write or draw because of it. And the pounding, it feels like some demon is trying to break my skull open from the inside. God, it's hell. Right, just needed a rant about that.
Something that never ceases to amaze me about my oldest friends is there insistance that I must be a pining, miserable creature because I am single.
I overheard them talking about me the other night (after descending on my house unannouced and interuptting the most productive writing session in 4 months), saying I must be so jealous of them as they have boyfriends and I don't. It was to this fact they attributed my recent detatchment to them, and my annoyence whenever they dropped in. Other aspects of the conversation involved how I pathetic I am for spending my money on books and art supplies rather than on alcohol, how stupid I was to prefer 'Pan's Labyrinth' to 'Borat' just to try and prove my intelligence and other such nonsence.
Firstly, I am not the downcast little bookworm they presume I am. My preference in music, films, books, theatre etc, is not because I'm trying to prove anything to anyone. I genuinely enjoy them, if I didn't I wouldn't waste my time on them. The reason I do not spend all my money on alcohol because I have good quality stuff in the house already. If I'm stressed out a shot of fine wiskey or a slosh of vodka with irn-bru helps settle my nerves, but I do not, like my peers drink to get drunk. Not that I could, every time I am ever dragged off to a club with them I drink twice as much and stay sober, ending up as a baby sitter trying to get them home without them killing themselves. Why bother spending money on a night out I don't want if I'm just going to feel like an 800 year old nanny and never be thanked for my efforts to keep them safe?
But more important than their judgements on my leisure time, it their constant scheming to get me paired up. "Why should I get a man?" I asked them. I already have precious little time to myself as it is, work is a pain, university growing more taxing as we wander into subjects in which I have little interest, with my mother ill she needs someone to look after her, and on top of that I have old friends dropping in whenever they feel like it because they assume I have no life. A boyfriend on top of that would mean I would never get to write at all... unless I suppose I found someone like Adrian, who never seemed to mind me scribbling away at all hours. But now I'm wavering. They told me I had to have a man 'just, cause, you do.' It's not as if women need men to provide for them, in this day and age we are independant, not 'goods and chattles.' I told them that as I am happy with my lonely little life, I saw no need to give up any of it to a partner unless I was in love. I don't think they believe in love, and they were quick to remind me of how disasterous love had been for me. But the old adage is true, tis better to have loved and lost. While they skip from one person to the next, they never seem to have the passion, the sheer bliss that I had with Adrian. True, I suffered for it in the end, and immediately after I wished none of it had happened, but with time I can compare it with what I see of thier lives, and I would not like to swap. I spent time in the arms of someone I truely loved, not jumping from bed to bed in a whirl of hormones and desperation not to be alone. Breezing along, they never feel heartache, but they will never feel love, and I'll gladly risk the former to attain the latter.
Well, I should draw this rant to a close, I suppose I just thank god or whoever may be up there for Debs and her friends, who believe me when I tell them the truth, and have the good grace to call before dropping in to judge my lifestyle as a failure.
I got rid of my stalkers! Yay! All thanks to the glory of metal, and Bob Dylan. Discovered quite by accident when I had 'Hallowed by thy name in my head' and was singing it without realsing it again. It drove two of them away before I had to even look at the latest poem about how everyone in the world hates their hair. Thank god, now I'm much more cheerful and creatively productive. I'm even (shock horror) procrastinatin
Time for an angry rant! Uni gives me such long word limits for subjects so boring I'd rather gouge my own eyes out than do the work yet give limits in the hundreds for creative writing! I have to find another 700 words for my damn journalism theory essay, but I had to cut more than double that from my last short story. I can't think of anything else damn it! I've done my task in a tight, concise way (which is surely the point of journalism), anything else I add will be rambling and stupid to read. And the fucking library has absolutely nothing realting to my question, so I had to fork out another £40 for books I don't want and bore me to tears. Sigh, I'm really more of a practical writer than an academic. Well, off to bang my head against the wall till my brian starts working again. Or at least until I find something else to distract me.
Do all artists have this dilema? I'm happily working on my writing and theatrical work, and making great headway. But, in the process, I've had to put my friend to one side. I fear she is heading for heartbreak, but as she rufuses to listen to me, I can't help her. Still, is it right to abandon someone just because they're being so bloody pigheaded? At the same time, I don't have time for my charity work anymore because I write everynight till about 2am. I can't be in the Childline call centre or working for Amnesty internation right now. I've increased my financial donation (small as it is coming from a student), but I still feel guilty. Am I selfish to go after the arts? But then, if I didn't I'd be so miserable I'd be no help to anyone. And when (when, not if, I'm thinking positively) I make it, I'll be in a better position to do good work. Oh, damn it. Whether to help save others or save myself? What's better? What's right? I suppose it doesn't really matter, it's not as if I could ever stop, I need it to survive. If I continue moaning I'll just turn into a whiny little emo kid. Jesus, that's awful. Stopping now.
My friend Debs, more pissed off at my ex than me, has decided to turn me into a 'flirting machine'. Apparently the first lesson will be 'how to jump on a guy you like'. It's hard to diswade her when she gets and idea in her head, I hope something will distract her soon. True, I trust her more than my other friends, but I'm still so damn picky I don't think she'll succeed in her mission.
Besides, I need time alone after Adrian. I was an idiot, and as I'm not often moronic it'll take a while to adjust. I thought I was in love, that's hard to bounce back from. Anyway, I've never been the type to jump on an attractive stranger. I like to know if I could love them before I even consider going to bed with them.
Oh well, she said she's discuss her masterplan over lunch, her treat. So at least (in my present dire financial state), I don't have to worry about food.
It's so odd. In my life normally I meet people, have thier friendship for a while and move on. I've lost touch with so many friends and never given it a second thought. Now, I'm trying to detatch myself from two friends, and I feel like I've lost part of my soul.
I'm sick of being the one they come to as a last resort, the one they expect to carry them home when their drunk or comfort them when they break up with thier boyfriend yet again. They forget me when they either get a drink in thier hand or a man in their bed. To be honest, if they can't appreicate how much I care about them I don't think they deserve me. So why can't I just break it and carry on like I did with all the others? Hell, I haven't felt like this since I had to leave Adrian behind.
They have whole new lives, lives that I do NOT want! I don't want to crawl home at three in the morning, drunk and losing all my dignity. I don't want to settle for the first guy to come along, even when I know he doesn't love. I don't want to settle for anything, and the sad truth is, they're holding me down.
They take and take and never show any warmth to me anymore. I wish I could forget how it used to be. I wish they...well, I don't know. Do I wish they hadn't changed? Or where they always like this and I just didn't notice? Is it the new vastness of the world that is open to me that had changed my view of them? I can't understand anyone who doesn't strive for the things they want. Where has their passion gone? What happened to all their dreams? Or did they never have any, did I give them dreams to make it easier on myself?
They didn't even know when I was broken hearted over Adrian. They always interrupt my writing, telling me to join in with them, trying to set me up with guys or getting me absolutely legless. Can't they understand how much my writing means to me? They used to, I'm sure of it. Now, I think they have labled me their sensible friend, who can never have any other role than to care for them.
When I'm with them, I feel so lonely. All I want to do is run away. I want to scream at them. I want to tell them how moronic they look when their drunk, how cruel they are to me (they never remember in the morning). I want to tell one how she has settled in a passionless relationship just because it's easier, and the other how her boyfriend told me he didn't love her, and would leave her when something better came along. I want to scream at them! I want to wipe those smug smiles off their faces as they tell me I'm so sulky and dull these days! I want them to know what they're doing to me. I want to ask them why they won't believe me when I tell them their new friend felt it was right to throw me against a wall and try to beat me to a pulp? Why take this newcomers side when I would have gladly given my life for them if they were ever in a fraction of the danger I was in?
I'm angry at myself more than anything else. I'm angry at my silence, then I'm ashamed at my desire to get back at them. I hate that I can't just move on, and then I hate them for always calling or turning up, all smiles, when I only feel the deepest sadness when they're around me. I never used to hate like this. I forgave everything, this rage is new and unwelcome. I want them to leave me alone. They're only using me as an anchor, because they're scared of their new lives, just like everyone at this stage of thier lives. They need at least one person to stay still. I won't be that person for them, but why am I the one who feels set adrift?
I wonder if one day, they'll turn around and realise I've gone? Will something click? Will they see I've been avoiding them at every opportunity? Could they ever think that perhaps they way they treated me could have been wrong? Or will they turn up crying on my door again, expecting me to welcome them and confort them when the truth about their choices catches up with them? And what will I do? Before, i would have taken them in any time. Now, I have no choice. For my writing, for my dreams, for the life I want, I will have to shut the door to them. I only hope they will forgive me.
I´m glad I didn´t give in. All the time I was in France I was so worried about meeting Adrian again. And as I grew more annoyed at my traveling compainions I came so close to calling him up. At least (I thought to myself) he would appreciate the art, the beautiful unicorn tapestries, and the Palace of Versailles (on a side note,I finally got in to the Palace Opera, it was absolutely breathtaking. I´ve dreamt of being on it´s stage every night since I saw it). My friends spent most of their time complaining that nobody would speak to them in english and continually being annoyed at me for eating proper food instead of going to the nearest fast food chain. It was a little sad having to go to all the wonderful places alone (Versaille Adrian and I had talked of visiting together many times) but at least I got the time and the peace to appreciate them.
Now I´m in Spain, I feel released. I´ve learned that all I can do is go forward. My friends and I have simply grown to different, so it´s for the best we will go our seperate ways on our return to Scotland.
As for Adrian, I wrote him a letter, explaining that I forgave him, but that we can never had what we did in the past, and wished him a happy future. I posted it early this morning, and he should get it before I arrive home. I hope he will understand and move on after that.
I´m taking a bus into Figueres tommorow to go and see the Dali museam. I can´t wait. Dali has always been one of my favourite artists. My parents were there yesterday, and thoughfully booked me a seat at a showing of Rocky Horror before they started their journey south. I think they felt for me when I told them about seeing Adrian again. On a positive note, since breaking up with Adrian, my parents have given me a lot more freedom. I don´t feel like I have to do everything they planned for me when I was a child.
I suppose this is the start of something better.
I wonder if I'm cruel. I know I'm not as gentle as I could be, but I don't think I'm cruel. I certainly don't mean to be.
I ran in to the only man I ever loved yesterday. He cheated on me, and after being publicly slapped by the other woman, on my birthday of all days, he hadn't called, or seen me. Then I run into him in Brussels and my whole world turns on it's head again.
If anything, I think he's the cruel one. He made me love him, to others, he seemed so cold and aloof. But he was so kind to me. He never laughed at my obssive writing, saying I was 'anchoring civilation itself', but he said that that was the purpose of any artist. He even took me seriously over the family legend. He encouraged me and inspired me,and made me feel so happy and loved I thought I'd explode.
When he left, he took my heart with him for a while. I know that because I couldn't write. My creativity is all heart. When it's broken, I can't do anything.
Then suddenly he's there again! He makes me so weak I almost gave in again the moment he caught hold of my hand. But I held my resolve. I treated him with curtosy, he bought me a drink. I thought at first it would be closure. Then he said he loved me. The reason he hadn't got in touch was he couldn't bear to hurt me again. He said he was moving on to Paris for a few days, and that I should go with him, meet my friends later when they arrive in the city. I nearly said yes immediately. But I can't let him near my heart again. But he's in my head. When I close my eyes I see that pleading look in his eyes.I hear him calling after me in my sleep.
Instead of going to meet him at the station, which he had a asked me to do, I went to the nearest shop, bought the biggest bottle of vodka I could afford, and downed it in the hotel room. When I woke up this morning, he'd left a message on my phone. He said I was cruel, but to meet him in Paris when I got there.
I don't want to meet him. He scares me now. Because he's so kind, but he could hurt me so much. I haven't said a word to my friends. But every time I see him in my mind's eye my chest aches. It's a pain that throbs through my whole body,right into my soul. Am I being cruel? Am I being clever? Or am I a pathetic fool drowing her sorrows to avoid a scary decision?
I just couldn't take him hurting me again.
Amsterdam is a good as I remember it. Unfortunately, I seem ill suited to my travelling compainions. What is the point of going on a trip, only to insist on staying in bed in the hotel until 3 in the afternoon, then do nothing but wander at night. I did manage to get the into Boom Chicago last night, and they seemed to enjoy it. They enjoyed the free beer certainly. I just hope the rest of the trip isn't wasted in the same way.
In the end, I had to leave without them this morning. I breakfasted alone, and it was delicious. Then went and saw the Rembrant exhibit. I've always liked Rembrant, there's always such expression and beautiful lighting in his work. I'm hoping to see the Dali meuseam when we get to Girona, but i suppose I'll have to cross that bridge when I come to it.
I'm contemplating what to do next, and I'm hiding out in an internet cafe until the weather brightens. I seem to have brought the scottish climate with me, I can only hope I can leave it behind as we go further south.
Amsterdam is so very laid back, I have no fear of wandering the streets alone as I sometimes feel when travelling. Perhaps I could live here for a while, as I plan to re-new my passports before ID cards are compulsory, and leave the country before one is forced upon me. I really don't like the road which my country is taking. I could live here I suppose, but then I do still dream of Venice. Either way, it will take a lot of work at the languages to succeed, I'm far to deeply emersed in my own language. I suppose, givin my chosen occupation in life, there is little to be done about that.
I'm facing a great dilema. Years ago, I lost contact with one of my best friends. I'd known her for as long as I can remember, and once, when I fell out of a tree and my leg peirced by a branch, she saved me from bleeding to death. Now I finally have a chance to be in her life again.
But there is a problem.
She and my brother had a major falling out. He had been in love with her, she was with someone else. I wasn't even told the details until two years afterwards. My parents simply told me I could never see her again.
And for a long time that was how things were for a long time. Even passing eachother in the street I couldn't say a word. Now, I want to make up for lost time. My family, mother and brother in particular, still hold a grude. My friend sent an invatation to her birthday party, my mother burned it before I even saw it, and only told me weeks later.
I'm angry. How can my family force me to chose like this? What about all that forgiveness preached in my mother's religion? It's so hypocritical. Besides, how can they expect me to side with them if they continually lie to me? They can't expect me to brush aside all those years of friendship just because they say so! I'm an adult now, and I shouldn't have to desert a friend that I love because of some silly childhood arguement. But I have to work out how I can maintain my friendship, without hurting my family.
The Last Unicorn plea for help
Have you ever read "The Last Unicorn" by Peter S. Beagle?
Have you ever seen the animated feature?
Heard the music?
Dreamed of unicorns galloping the foamy crests of waves?
Do you know the author has not received a dime from his work?
Browsing the net I came upon this:
www.the-last-u
Excited that there was a movie project, I went to check whom was the producer, there were non in the credits.
So I went to google and found this in Wikipedia:
http://en.wiki
# 4 New film development
And inside I read that the Author Peter S. is currently in a public conflict with Granada International, successor to ITC Entertainment, seeking to be paid what he is contractually owed for the 1982 film from these sales, other distribution, and merchandising.
From there I went here:
www.peterbeagl
And finally here:
www.conlanpres
I couldn't believe that one of my favorite author has have such a hard time.
Please go read this:
www.conlanpres
And help to spread the word.
I'm writing an essay called 'Pavlov's Dogs', either to use for a later univeristy task or perhaps to submit to a suitable newspaper or magazine for publication. It centres on the youth culture of today, the current trends of 'tribalism', the impact of the war on terror, globalizaton, mass media, realiy tv etc. I just want to get some opinions on people to see if what I'm writing has any credibility to it. Rest assured, I would never use a direct quote without first contacted the person and asking for permission. I really want to want to know what 'tribe' (for want of a better word) you think you belong to - goth, emo, hippy, ned(chav for those who are English) Metal-head etc. Why? What does it mean to you? Do you even like being classed in such a way? How do you think the general public views you? How do you view yourself? Anything you think you need to express about yourself or your chosen livestyle, just message me.
I went to the beach today. All my friends are away at Download, so I hopped on a train, then a bus, then a taxi and went to the beach down at West Kilbride. I haven't been there in years. There are housed built up nearly to the shore now, and the beach itself was packed with people soaking up the sun. Still, if you walk far enough there is still isloated areas. I found where I'd played hide and seek with my brother as a child, stowed my bag (containing my usual 6 or 7 notebooks) in a hollow in the rocks and went for a swim.
There really is nothing quite like swimming in the sea. I learned to swim in salt water years before I could in a chlorine pool. I've never been afraid of it. I swam as far out as I used to, to where I could see the seals flitting about in the deeper water ahead of me. Once, about ten years ago now I suppose (that makes me feel so old), I swam too far, and came face to face with one of them. It looked at me, and I at it, hanging in the water not daring to move, that is, until I needed to breathe. I surfaced, and it swam around me, poking it's head out of the water, scrutinaizing me with it's endless black gaze. Then I dived under and swam full throttle for land, knowing my mum would be in hysterics if she saw me so close to a wild animal (that incident at Edinburgh Zoo with the tiger was proof enough of that). Still, it was nice to watch them today, they're so full of spirit, a joy to behold.
I stayed in the water for what must have been a long time, cartwheeling with the waves, weaving and dancing just above the sand. When ever I'm in the sea, I always get songs spinning round inside my mind. This time, it was Tale as old as Time from Beauty and the Beast, quite a lot from The Little Mermaid, serveral Smashing Pumpkins songs, Doro Pesch and some random old songs I only half-remember from my childhood. It was fantastic, rising and fallling with the pulse of the water. In school, when I carried far too much weight, I used to dream about being an aquatic creature. It's the nearest thing I suppose I will ever get to flying. I can do anything in the water without fear of injury with a grace and ease i will never feel on land, and most wouldn't think it to look at me, but I'm an excellent high diver. Shame it wasn't possible to dive at the beach. There aren't any cliffs there. It's odd, but as I've already said, I'm never afraid in the sea. There's never any feeling of being desperate for air, I never feel overwhelled by waves or currents. I simply relax and go with them. If I need to get back to shore in a hurry I simply dive to the bottom and speed over the sand. I always kind of felt like the sea was a caring being, almost like a mother, making sure I was never hurt. Though I suppose if I ever was in the open ocean, or somewhere known for man-eating sharks, I would feel a little different.
I got out of the water when it was beginnning to chill, and sat on the beach to dry off as the sun was going down (I'd forgotten a towel, but I don't really care what I forget so long as I have enough notebooks). The sun was bright red, and the clouds hit by the firey glow cast shadows across the sky. I'd never seen that before. I wrote in various books until I was dry enough to get dressed. Then, I walked up from the beach to the nearest 'Little Chef'-ish place, bought myself dinner and ordered a taxi to the nearest train station. And I got back just in time for Dr Who. Not bad, certainly better than spedning £140 for Download. Even if all my friends are there, I wouldn't want to spend all that time and money on a lineup I really don't want to see.
Yesterday was a great day. I never expected it to be, as I had to wake up at 5:30 to get to my journalism exam on time. The exam itself was alright, got to question the values of mass media and have an angry rant at reality TV.
Afterwards, everyone said they were either going to the library, or to the bar in the union. Niether of which appealed to me, as for once we had a beautiful sunny day in my rainy little country. My parents were in London, my brother organising a gig, I had no reason to return home, so I decided to take a walk up to Kelvingrove Park.
I love when the waether's good in the city, it brings out all the buskers. Street painters, jazz muicians, the bagpipe -african drums combo, singers, magicians, jugglers. It's like the city has a whole new life in the sunshine. I stopped off at Waterstones to get a couple new books, and bought a new sketchbook and watercolour pencils from WHSmith. Outside, there was a band singing 'Country Roads.' Anyone who already knows my taste in film will immediately know that the Whisper of the Heart version of the song was caught in my head for the rest of the day. Which, as it put me in an even better mood, I thought deserved my loose change, so I emptyed the contents of my pocket into the guitar case and went on my way.
So, off I went up Sauchiehall street, with the tune running around in my head. I bought a balloon off a clown because it was in the shape of a fairy, and tied the string to my bracelt so it wouldn't fly off. When I finally got to the park, I saw to my delight that the swings were completely disserted. So, being the incredibly mature 18 year old girl I am, I grabbed one and started to see how high I could go.
Once I was thoroughly exhausted (about an hour in, what can I say, I love the swings), I collasped on a bench that was mercifully in the shade, pulled out my new sketchbook and began breaking it in. The film version of country roads was still in my head, and without realising it, beagn humming it, then singing. I nearly had a heart attack when I heard music coming from the other side of the hedge. Violin music. I stopped singing and peered over the hedge. There was girl on the otherside, very pretty with dark skin, black hair and long slender limbs (so obviously there was a slight pang of jelousy, but it passed in a millisecond), with her violin at he chin.
"Well," She said, looking very annoyed "Are we doing the song or not?"
So, I clambered over the hedge and landed in the flower bed (less gracefully than my pride liked), still trailing my fairy balloon and my new books.
She started playing again, and I started singing an clapping out the rythm.
When we'd finshed, she told me it had been good, not great. We needed all the other instruments.
We walked around the park, and I threw my uneating sandwhiches to the ducks. It transpired she also knew the March of the Sinister Ducks, and wouldn't be satisfied until she had sang all of it, to the bewliderment of the old age pensioners taking an afternoon strool. We talked about university. She was doing maths and said it was an easy skive course. I replied that english was the true skive course. For in maths, you have to have the correct answer, english mearly requires clever sounding bullshit padded out to a four page essay. Like my theory on the varying realties of fiction. After listening to all my crackpot hypothosis, she asked why I didn't do philosophy. I told her it took itself too seriously, English you can have a bit of fun with, everybody knows it's mostly waffle.
When the van came round I bought us ice-cream and she got in the Irn Bru. We talked about coursework, the easy days of highschool, friends, family, how hard it was to get good world cinema or any music that wasn't emo, exams, drawing, music, writing, whether or not ghosts were real, the annoyences of romance, holiday plans and what we'd like the future to be like. Then I saw it was getting late, so we walked off to the bus stop outside the museam, She went off one way, and I went the other. It was only when I was sprawled out on the back seat of the bus, with my sketchbook on my belly, the ballon dancing crazily over my head and a bottle of slightly warm irn bru pressed against my lips that I realised I didn't know her name. Shit.
Still, It was a great day.