i broke up with jay last night. but it was over facebook. cuz he doesnt have his phone on. its turned off cuz its dead. i think. but yeah. im in four hour anatomy. and i have nothing to do. cuz i did my report. and i did my government i was supposed to do yesterday. and im not even sad i broke up with him. i did cry last night about it. but that was it. im just gonna stay away from guys for a while. i got bored on the bus ride back to the high school from votech. so i drew a heart on my hand. its kool. its red and it has a black outline. and i think im gonna get that as a tattoo but on my foot and green. and a little smaller. but it does look kool were it is. but id never get a job if i put it were it is. so yeah. im really bored. so im gonna go now. ill talk to you later. i dont know when. and ill update you if anything exciting happens. which it wont. byebye.
i hate alex again by the way. and i dont wanna talk to him. and i dont wanna talk to jay. cuz i think he went to the strip club again with his dad. if i found out he did, then im gonna kill him. or just break up with him. i dont know. i hate my life. i wish things were simple. byebye. for real this time.
yeah. we lost snowcoming. but that isnt the best part. apparently after the game, all the boys on the team were in the locker room crying! dude, thats so totally awesome! nothing much else to report. except that mandas exbf steven is trying to hit on me. ok, not trying, is. but hes older than me, is disgusting, but has good taste in music. and i dont like him as more than a friend. we were watching a movie once, the chronics of riddick, and he was jacking off behind me. talk about gross. i dont like him at all. but i dont know how the hell to tell him. cuz if i do, its just gonna get back to manda. and then shes gonna yell at me. and then im gonna yell back. and then its gonna be an all out war. and i dont want a war right now. i have other things to worry about. like work and tests at school. and finding new classes to take for next tri cuz i got kicked out of votech. i dont know. im gonna go now. dont know what im gonna do but ill talk to you later. probably tomorrow. i dont know though.
snowcoming tonight. but i dont wanna go to pepband. not going to the dance. im bored. nothing going on. the pep rally sucks. and im bored. still. byebye.
got kicked out of votech next trimester by the way. *laughing hard*
yeah. and we have already started the plan. BALL IS IN MOTION! i put my hotmail name to say "megh bogdan" just to see what she says. and she hasnt logged on since ive done it. so i dont know if shes gonna say anything. but she more that likely will. and i cant wait for it. and me and him are more than likely gonna get back together. dont know how long. but longer than it did that last time. and if we do, we still have somethings to talk about. cuz we aint completely perfectly right. and i think he knows that. but he said that he needs sometime to get over britny. and id be over her pretty fast. cuz shes a whore. and i hate her fucking guts. but then again, ive never dated her. and i dont wanna start now. i have other problems on my hands. im in love with both my best friends and my boyfriend. the bf is alex the other bf is amber and bfcurrent is jay. and i dont know what the fuck to do about it. cuz its so totally confusing. i hate my life, i hate my job, i fucking hate school, i fucking hate the whole bloody godddamn world. i g2g. ttyl.
well it looks like me and alex are gonna try to get back at britny. when she gives him back his shit, which i doubt she ever will, im gonna take his jacket and wear it in front of her just to see what she'll do. and im gonna see if alex will date me. but becuz of this whole mess, i doubt it. too bad. i do miss and love him. but yeah. i should prolly go. i have to go to votech. and deal with the kids. but im too damn tired to wanna go do that. i'll talk to you later. byebye.
ok. i just got done talking to alex. ok. about an hour ago. but he told me that hes givin me new powers that are gonna help me out in the future. and im like i dont know about that i dont know anything. but yeah. and he told me that im not completetly humann anymore. and i dont know what the hell to say about that. he said that i am about 45% human still. and that that is prolly gonna change. but i dont konw if thats gonna happen. i dont know whats going on around here. so yeah. im going insane and stuff. and people think im not human and stuff. and i dont see why they dont think im human. i mean i am human. but i dont act a little different. and i hate this drug. cuz i can see the letters crunching in on each other when im texting further down. and it is kinda weird to see that. but i dont know if im fully human or not. i would like to think i am. but that would be cool with me if im not. i just wanna know how to use these powers. but my feeling is that im gonna have to use alex as a rat to see if they work. but theyre from him. so i dont know if any of this confusing shit is gonna work. it might. it might not. god only knows. so yeah. im gonna go to bed now. im way past my bedtime. i guess ill talk to jay tomorrow too. but yeah. wonder what my bad feeling is though. ill find out soon enough. later. byebye.
yesterday was so much fucking fun! we ended up going to the late show that started at 11:40. and i didnt get to bed until like 2:45. and i feel asleep really fast. like ten minutes after my head hit the pillow. but we went to hooters. i didnt like the food or the shorts. they were so damn tight that those girls couldnt have been wearing underwear underneath those. but thats just what i think about it. the movie was so fucking awesome!!! there was this one kill that was the best. this guy and girl were on the floor of a house and jason was underneath it. and he started shoving his machette up through the floor. and the chick is all freaking the hell out. and the guy is like get off the floor! and he gets killed like that. i liked that one. and the one that a girl was in the water and shes under a dock trying not to breathe loud. and jason walks out on the dock. and he slams the machette down through the dock right through the top of her head. it was so kool! i was watching through my fingers though. i love scary movies but i like watching them by myself. cuz i dont have to worry about people looking at me like im weird for being scared. and it makes it so much scarier to be alone watching it. and by the ending, theres gonna be another one. and i cant wait. and there was a preview for transformers number two. but they didnt say when its coming out. which everyone thought was odd. which it was. and there was another kill that everyone liked. there was an asshole. and he got it right through the back. and then was shoved onto a spike on some random guys truck. it was kool! and a girl that was awesome and perfect for the main guy died! and i was mad. i liked her. ive seen her in something else. but it was a great movie. and im so glad that i was able to go to it. i thought i wasnt gonna be able to go cuz it was so late. and i had to be to work at 11. which sucked by the way. no, but on the way back, we almost went into the ditch! ryan was driving and it was snowing pretty bad. and he was going about 70. and all of a sudden, we just slipped. and he had to crank the wheel all over the place to get us out of going into the ditch. and we were completely sideways three times! and i was actually not freaking out. and the rest of them were silent except ernie. stupid asshole wanted to go into the ditch! and amber was all crying and stuff after we were done spinning around. and ernie wasnt making it better. so i had to keep slapping him and telling him to shut the fuck up. but no, i got back at him. i was molesting him. and running after him calling baby dont leave me! chelsea told me to do it to be honest. but it was so much fun. cuz he hated it. and was all like get off me and oh my god! but yeah. i made it home alright i guess you could say. but my mama cant find out that happened. cuz id never be able to hang out with them again. but ryans a really good driver. and im still surprised that he managed to save it. but he said that his brother taught him how cuz his brother does it all the time. so yeah. but im done, my hands hurt like a bitch. later gator. ill let you know if i forgot anything. ttyl. mmwwaa!
HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!!!
if amber ever gets her ass here me, her, ryan, chelsea, mitchell, and ernie are gonna go see the the new friday the 13th movie in kalamazoo. and i really hope she gets here soon. but i havent heard from her. and chelsea isnt answering me. and ernie hasnt heard anything from ryan or amber. so i dont know if the movie is still on or not. but i hope so. cuz it looks really good. but im gonna go now. ill let you know whats going on when i know whats going on. byebye!
IT'S FRIDAY THE 13TH!
pretty boring day, like always. SSDD! i was watching house md season 1. and they look so much younger. and thinner. its crazy. anyway, im tired. so im gonna go to be. ill talk to you whe i talk to you. byebyebyebye!!
its ambers birthday today. and i got her some balloons and a satin flower and a home-made necklace. and its really cute. i gave her a cookie too. and she ate it right after i gave it to her. she said it was good. and i think the balloons i bought are gonna come to her in band! that would be kool. and shes in marketing with the place i got them so they might just do that too. but i dont know. yesterday i had to work. and then after work, me, mitchll, chelsea, ernie, and ryan all went to play pool. and i got four balls in! thats like a lot for me. and it was so much fun. and we might be going to see the new movie that comes out on friday. FRIDAY THE 13TH!!! YAY! im bored and tired and i have to go. classes. :C byebye.
not a whole hell of a lot to say. i went to school today. and it sucked. like always. cuz school is prison. so yeah. im bored. and i created two quizzes today about seven minutes in heaven. its fun. i wish i could play it for real. kinda like spin the bottle. oooooooooooooo
i feel a little better. i shaved my legs. and i guess that calmed me down. weird. i know. but yeah. and i dont know if i want to talk to jay anymore. cuz it hurts that he doesnt like/love me anymore. so yeah. im on crack pills! just sleeping pills. but yeah. i have to go. manda wants the computer. MY COMPUTER! so yeah. ill talk to you tomorrow. byebye!
yeah. i kinda went psycho this morning. cuz i didnt wanna go to school. cuz i dont feel the greatest and i hate school. and i dont know what i wanna do with the rest of my life. and if i do know, i doubt ill get there. cuz i doubt theyre gonna let me back in school. ive missed like 14 or 15 days. and thats truent*. and i dont see myself being a teacher. i just cant see me getting up every damn day to go to school and teach little kids. i just cant. and that scares me. cuz i dont know what i want and what im good at. and my sisters like well most freshmen in college change their majors 4 times. im not even in college and i dont know what i want. how am i supposed to pick classes if i dont know? i cant. and i still love jay. and i dont think he loves me anymore. the last time he said he loved me sounded forced and he only said it becuz i said it first. and me and otto are over. i just gonna tell him that when i see him next. he hasnt even called me. and hes gonna say cuz he forgot my number. ive told him 5 times. and he can never seem to remember. guess its not important enough to him. im just gonna go cry again. ill talk to you sometime later. byebye.
yeah. life blows. i havent gone to school in two days. cuz i dont feel good. and i fucking hate school. so yeah. im gonna watch the rest of true blood and then call jay and then go to bad. ill ttyl. byebye!
and six more weeks of winter and i hate alex and the whore!
i hate my fucking sister. ok. i came home in a bad mood with my dad. but when i walked in the door, i was friendly and said him manda. and she didnt say anything. so i set my homework down. and went to go talk to my mama in her bedroom. and i talked to her for about 15 mins and left with my computer. so i went back to the table and set my computer down. and i was plugging it in. and she came out. just getting out of the shower. and shes like your sitting here arent you. i said yes. and shes like well i have to get ready to go to work. i need the cord. so i unplugged it and threw it. and she got all pissy and was like you dont need to throw it. im not the one youre mad at. i said im not the one who started this argument. i was fine with you. i just have to do my homework. and shes like well i have to get ready. i think work is more important. and im like i have to do my homework so i can pass with better grades than you did. she passes with a 2.6. but anyway i called her a stupid bitch and told her that im smarter than she is. and i am. and she knows it. and she hates it. and she hates me. so yeah. i am officially hating my sister. and i dont love her anymore. i havent loved her in a long time. like if i had no friends, and i was getting married, i wouldnt have her be my maid of horror. id find some random chick and be like you wanna do me a favor? ill pay you! so yeah. i hate my sister, i hate school and homework, and i hate my boyfriend. my life rocks. NOT! *crys in corner really loud*
im bored. and im tired. and i hate alex. so thats about the sum of my life. and i hate my life. so im gonna go cry now.