not a whole lot has happened. i sucked ass today at tennis. and i think coach isnt gonna put me on varsity. and if she puts rachel on there before me, im gonna be fucking pissed at hell. but yeah. after ryan and ernie got out of work, we all, including mama, went to play tennis. and i hit mama right in the chest. and i feel really bad. cuz shes really sore. but yeah. im bored. and that about all thats happened. and im getting pissed. cuz my l key is sticking. and it sucks. but im gonna go now. ill talk to you later.
today was so much fun. we went to holland to these courts called de witt. and it was kool. i like the indoor courts. they ball is faster but its better i think. and i did really good. the only bad things that happened was at the begining of practice, i twisted my ankle when we started to run. and they dont like my serve. the jv coach and jen aldrich. they want more of a spin on my serve and they want me to have my arm straight when it goes up instead of half bent. but i like me serve. it works and it get aces. so i like it. and im not gonna change it. so yeah. but crazy bounce was fun too. its a little kids place. but i dont see why. they slides are way too big for them. and they were crying. and the jousting thing was too big too. and dodge ball isnt for little kids either. so i think it should be teens. but yeah. i had fun. we took a team picture infront of the blow up tiger. that sounds wrong. but all of the girls were talking to me. so its good. i think they like me. and like that im good. but im bored now. so im gonna go read some more harry potter fan fics or something. ttyl. byebye. oh p.s, by the looks of it msu lost. they have six minutes left and its 64 46 ohio state. so yeah. im happy about that. yay. byebye.
today wasnt as interesting or fun. just boredom. i didnt go to first and second hour again. but imagine that. this is like the third or fourth time ive done it. and my parents keep yelling at me. but i dont care. i graduate in two months. so i really dont give a flying fuck anymore. i just wanna get this shit over with and never come back to allegan. anyway, we did challenges today. i got beat by mallory. but i beat this freshmen halley or hannah. think its hannah. yeah mallory: 6 to 2. Me and hannah: 6 to 0. she sucked massively. but then again, ive been playing half my life. but mallorys been playing for two years. maybe three. but yeah. im thinking coach is gonna put me in singles. cuz she didnt have me play doubles at all. im kinda bored right now. so im gonna go now. i hope my headache goes away. i get to go to practice tomorrow. and then krazy bounce. not sure what it is. but ill tell you when i get back tomorrow. ttyl. byebye.
the funniest thing ever happened today at lunch. my prom date tj ross, britny's ex, put on some of my really short shorts! it was so damn funny! and i even have pictures! he put them on the first time and i didn't get to see it. but he said that he got three feet out of the bathroom and Mr mallard yelled at him to take them off. so he came and found Otto and i and he put them back on for us. and Otto had the most disgusted look on his face that i have ever seen. i was laughing so hard! and people were walking by going what the fuck?! and i told tj that he can just keep the shorts. cuz i don't want them cuz they touched his massively hair legs. kinda gross actually. but funny. i call him tito. its hilarious. yeah. tennis was ok. im doing better. but my backhands are better than my forehands. that's kinda weird too. but the girls are being semi-nice to me. cuz they prolly finally see me as being good. cuz im about to make it on varsity. more than likely. i just hope that i make it over rachel. that would be so funny. but i doubt that she would talk to me ever again if that happened. no skin of my nose really. so yeah. im bored. im gonna go warm some water to take a bath. i'll talk to you later. byebye.
i took a warm bath. and i feel so much better. just thought you should know.
i dont know if i mentioned it, but britny is talking to me again. and its pretty scary. and alex and me are ok. for now that is. so yeah. ill talk to you later. prolly today.
yesterday was a pretty eh day. had practice. at a church i might add. and i hit jesus. right in the head. there was a hangy down thing and hes on the cross. and i hit it just right to hit him on the head. i thought it was funny. and everyones like you just hit jesus! and im like im sorry jesus! jay called around 10 and broke up with me. i dont remember all of the conversation cuz i was half asleep and id taken an ambien. but he said that i didnt trust him and that we dont get to see each other. and hes going into the military which i totally dont agree with. he told me there are other fish in the sea and that ill met the right one eventually. but i told him that i love him so much and that i wanna be with him and no one else. but he said no. today... i had a totally and complete break down during 5th hour mentoring. i was trying to help a kid with history. and it was one of those worksheets that you fill in the blanks and they go in exact order. but i couldnt help him find the second answer. so i called mrs raab over to help me. and i told her it was one of those worksheets that goes in order. so she proceeds to tell me that no worksheet is like that and that i have to read further. so she reads a page. and it answers questions like halfway down the worksheet. so im like its not there. and shes like your setting an example for these children. and your not setting a good one right now. you need to read it. so im like i need a break. so i take off at a run to the bathroom. where i cry. for like five minutes. and then i come back. and mrs raab isnt there. but lava (real name alva morgan) asks me if im alright. and i shake my head no. so we go in the hall. and i tell her its family, boyfriend, work, homework, and tennis all put together plus her yelling at me that set me off. cuz i have so much going on right now. and i just wanna cry most of the time. and she told me that this is just a trial. and that life is like this too. so i calmed down. and i sat in the hallway. and then mrs raab came back out cuz she came back when me and lava were talking. and she gave me a note. and i quote "im sorry IF i upset you. forgive me. mrs raab." theres no goddamn if about it bitch! you know you pissed me off. and you know that i was fucking crying and that i dont wanna talk to you! most people dont wanna talk to other people that yell at them and piss them off! shes so goddamn stupid. but yeah. i have that first hour tomorrow. cuz of mme testing. reversed schedule. i dont wanna have gym 5th hour. cuz after that is tennis. and im so fucking sore right now. and im tired. and i wanna cry. and i wanna beg jay to take me back. but i have more pride than that. barely. im gonna go now. gonna watch something. anything. ttyl. byebye. i doubt anything else is gonna happen thats interesting. but if there is, ill let you know.
by the way, i think im gonna make varsity this year. i really hope i do. thats all. ttyl.
not much had happened recently. i tried getting online yesterday but the internet was down cuz of the huge thunderstorm we had. so i was pissed. and i lost my 1600 on espin.com. so im still mad. and im mad at alex and jay. stupid website says alex is spelled wrong. anyway, alex is being a douchebag. and i dont like him much anymore. and i dont like jay much anymore cuz he doesnt call me or come see me. and he doesnt say he loves me first when he does call me. which hasnt been in like four days. tennis started today. so im happy about that. so i finally have something to do after school. besides come home and do homework. and now i work only on the weekends. so thats a plus too. and mama wont get to bitch me out if i do something stupid. ok, more like when i do something stupid. theres not if about it. im bored. i finished my homework. and im mad at most of the people that i would call or text. and i dont wanna talk to amber. cuz shell just ask about eric, alex, and jay. so im not even gonna go there. dont wanna. so bored. i think im gonna go get my headphones so i can listen to three days grace. i love them. im gonna go now. ill let you know if anything fun or exciting happens. but i doubt it. ttyl. byebye.
not much went on before today. so here i am. im bored. and this website is firefox and its underlining everything that isnt spelled right and doesnt have the appostrophy thing. and apostrophy damn. i dont know how the hell to spell it. fuck it to hell. but we had the band festival today. and we got out of fourth and fifth hour. but i also got out of third. i had to do a physical for tennis. which starts monday!!! and i totally cant wait. its gonna be so much fun. but yeah. we got a I at festival. so i get to rub it in jays face that we did better than they did. its funny. speaking of rubbing it in, i can rub in to britny and jay that i have a prom date. that isnt jay. and that is britnys exbf. so hehe. i think its funny. hehehehehehehe
i hung out with britney and zoey yesterday. and it was so much fun. she called maddy over and we played monopoly. and i actually won for once. it was fun. and we played wii sports. and i suck at tennis. but baseball and bowling are fun. and zoeys getting big. and shes so cute. and motherhood really does suit britney. its adorable. i thought she would make a good mama but shes fantastic. and she loves doing it. i wish i could have taken a picture of them glowing. cuz thats what they were doing. they are so cute. it was so much fun hanging out with them though. i cant wait to do it again. probably this weekend again. but probably not today. im gonna go now. im gonna go watch house. ill talk to you later. byebye.
my monkey looks pretty good. all of the blood is gone except for a little in the banana and his tummy. hes a little lighter too. but thats to be expected. cuz its fading in. i just hope i dont have to have him redone. "you say that i didnt try." sorry. listening to three doors down. "i just dont care about you anymore. its not fair when you say that i didnt try. its just that i dont care about you anymore." i love that song. its called let it die. i dont wanna go to work. and i dont wanna work with people that are so goddamn stupid. but i dont work with alex. so thats a stupid person down. i saw jay yesterday. and we were ok. but today hes even farther away from me. and i talked to him yesterday about it. and he said it wasnt intentional. but i think it is. i dont think he loves me anymore. and i really dont wanna lose him. but think of all the shit that i have pulled on him. the next time i talk to him, im gonna ask him if there is anything that he wants to talk about. like stuff that i did to him and stuff like that. but hes not gonna talk. i know that already. but i should prolly go. i have to have dad put cream on munchiey the monkey and i have to get ready still. so ill talk to you later. and let you know whats going on with me and jay. ttyl. byebye.
i got my tattoo yesterday! its my flying monkey! and i think im gonna name him munchiey. thats what mama said i should name him. and i cant think of anything better to name him. hes so cute. im gonna try to get a picture of him. but i doubt its gonna work. and alex wants me to go to his birthday party on friday at craigs cruisers. but amber and i have band festival. at 3. so yeah. i dont think we're gonna make it. so we're gonna have to go and do it sometime other. which sounds weird. but yeah. i love my tattoo. im bored. so yeah. im just gonna watch house. but ill talk to you later. byebye.
second tri is over. so im going yay. and we have friday, monday, and tuesday off. and im gonna get my tattoo tomorrow. but i dont know what. but yeah. i have team activities, senior english, band, anatomy and physiology, and mentoring. so im gonna have to fucking run and do shit in team activities. i cant breathe. my asthma is messing up. so i cant breathe. cuz of work yesterday. and im bored. so im just gonna keep watching house. and trying to breathe. mmwwaa. byebye.
im now ok with what i did with jay. i dont really think im stupid anymore. and im gonna stay with him. cuz i love him. so yeah. and im not gonna break up with him if alex wants me back. im done messing around with alex. and im done cheating on jay. i love jay. im gonna go now. im gonna go talk to the consilors***. byebye.
*british voice* you know what i am? im a bloody idiot. thats what i am. *normal voice* i had sex wish jay. even though i broke up with him. but he doesnt know that i guess. so yeah. heres how it went. i got home from school. britney daniels called. wanted me to come over. i call her back and dada says, you have someone waiting outside. so i tell her ill call her back. and i go out there. and hes standing there. and he tells me hes just got back from san diago. what the bloody fuck?! and then we go bowling cuz i tell britney that jay has surprised me with a bowling trip. so im gonna hang with her friday or saturday. i feel bad though for leaving her behind not going. i talked to alex just now. but ill finish the story. so we bowled. and then we came back here to my house. and then we messed around in the backroom. and then i had the bright idea of going in my mamas bedroom. and we had sex in there. so yeah. i still think that im just a booty call for him. and that he doesnt love me. but he told me that he didnt cheat on me. so i dont know whether to belive it or not. and back to alex. i called him. cuz i wanted to talk to someone before i did something stupid. and he knows i had sex. i basically outright told him. and he said just to do what i think is right. so yeah. he helped calm me down. so im thankful. i just wish i hadnt done it. cuz that makes jay think that he still has a chance. and i dont know if i wanna give him another chance. and i hurt. like really really fucking bad. no pun intended. but yeah. im gonna go now. ttyl. byebye.
i broke up with jay last night. but it was over facebook. cuz he doesnt have his phone on. its turned off cuz its dead. i think. but yeah. im in four hour anatomy. and i have nothing to do. cuz i did my report. and i did my government i was supposed to do yesterday. and im not even sad i broke up with him. i did cry last night about it. but that was it. im just gonna stay away from guys for a while. i got bored on the bus ride back to the high school from votech. so i drew a heart on my hand. its kool. its red and it has a black outline. and i think im gonna get that as a tattoo but on my foot and green. and a little smaller. but it does look kool were it is. but id never get a job if i put it were it is. so yeah. im really bored. so im gonna go now. ill talk to you later. i dont know when. and ill update you if anything exciting happens. which it wont. byebye.
i hate alex again by the way. and i dont wanna talk to him. and i dont wanna talk to jay. cuz i think he went to the strip club again with his dad. if i found out he did, then im gonna kill him. or just break up with him. i dont know. i hate my life. i wish things were simple. byebye. for real this time.
yeah. we lost snowcoming. but that isnt the best part. apparently after the game, all the boys on the team were in the locker room crying! dude, thats so totally awesome! nothing much else to report. except that mandas exbf steven is trying to hit on me. ok, not trying, is. but hes older than me, is disgusting, but has good taste in music. and i dont like him as more than a friend. we were watching a movie once, the chronics of riddick, and he was jacking off behind me. talk about gross. i dont like him at all. but i dont know how the hell to tell him. cuz if i do, its just gonna get back to manda. and then shes gonna yell at me. and then im gonna yell back. and then its gonna be an all out war. and i dont want a war right now. i have other things to worry about. like work and tests at school. and finding new classes to take for next tri cuz i got kicked out of votech. i dont know. im gonna go now. dont know what im gonna do but ill talk to you later. probably tomorrow. i dont know though.
snowcoming tonight. but i dont wanna go to pepband. not going to the dance. im bored. nothing going on. the pep rally sucks. and im bored. still. byebye.
got kicked out of votech next trimester by the way. *laughing hard*