Dear Diary,
May 15, 2009 Friday 9:33 P.M.
I'm worried about Jay. And I feel like something bad is gonna happen. But I don't know what. So I'm going crazy here. And I wish I knew how Jay was. But he won't return my calls. So yeah. When the last time my period was? I don't know. I just hope that I'm not. That would be the icing on the cake. That would go over so well with Jay and my parents. I think they'd kill me. But that wouldn't suprise me at all. I'm so damn bored. The tennis season is over finally. So I don't have anything to do after school for the whole next week. I'm all over the place. I don't know what the hell to do. I'm listening to music. But that isn't calming me down like it usually does. So I'm at a loss. And I'm not tired. But it's 9:37 P.M. So yeah. I'm gonna go now though. If anything kool or interesting happens, which it won't, I'll let you know. I'll talk to you later. Don't know how much later that will be though.
Meghan

Dear Diary,
May 17, 2009 Sunday 8:32 P.M.
I talked to Jay today. And he's ok. But he doesn't really wanna talk to me. But I guess that's ok. So yeah. I don't have to worry about it. I quit my job today. I just got so sick of all the shit. And yeah. Alex got pissed off at me. So I'm not talking to him or anyone. He was talking shit about me today. Cuz he knew that i quit. So yeah. But I don't care anymore. I just want all this shit to be over. I want school to be over. I want to get to be older and not have to deal with all this stuff. I just want my life to be easy. But I guess that isn't gonna be how it is. So yeah. I'm watching Baby Mama. I'll talk to you when I have more interesting report.
Meghan

life pretty much sucks. so yeah. thats all that needs to be said.

im really bored. and i got my mom a present for mothers day. a windchime. and a card. its kool looking. but im watching house. so im gonna go now. byebye.

i played first singles over nicky yesterday. and i think its funny. she was so pissed off. i wanted to laugh. anyway, i won 6-1, 6-1. and i was playing really fucking good too. it was awesome. and i thought that it was the best i played in a long time. it was so damn cool. you will never guess who just sat down next to me. its so weird. and its nathan storey. and hes my ex from like freshman year. its so weird. like he hasnt changed at all. its so odd!!! im gonna go now. i have to look up shit for my report. and i dont wanna. but i have to pass the class for tennis and graduation. so ill talk to you later. byebye.

i played in the jv invitational yesterday. it was one through four singles and doubles. and im the only one that won. the only one that got a medal. and they didnt even have the fucking medals ordered. so i have to wait for it to get ordered. and im pissed off at that. mother fuckers. i burnt my face and arms and a little of my legs. my face is still really warm from yesterday. and it sucks. cuz it hurts. and its red. and it looks bad. so yeah. im bored. and i have to clock in soon. so ill talk to you later. dont know when. but later. byebye.

we've been playing field hockey in team activities. and its so much fucking fun! i love it. i love running into people. and whacking them with the stick. and hitting the ball. but i was talking to people today about the punch. and they said that it was spiked. so yeah. its official. someone got to the punch. it was so cool though. i got to see carl drunk. and hes really funny. he gets horny and loud. so does lindsey. macey, i had her convinced that she and carl fucked like crazy. she was complaining that her thighs hurt. so i smartassedly told her that it was cuz she and carl did it. and she's like nuh uh. but i kept going with it. and by the end of the night she thought that they really had. and then carl had to go and ruin the whole thing and tell her the truth. oh well, i had fun with while i could. i dont even remember the whole night. so it had to be spiked. im tired. so im gonna go now. ill talk to you later. byebye.

prom was so much fun. and i was expecting it to suck. so it was a blast. the car ride was fun too. macey, lindsey, carl, and i were in the car. and us girls were screaming proffanity. it was funny. and i was telling them some of the naughty jokes that i know. i wish we could have stayed for the post prom though. there was a hypnotist. and supposably, he had some chick under that and she was speaking chinese. i wish i could have seen it. people were saying that it was really funny. but i had a lot of fun at prom. i was playing around with the ping pong ball in post prom and was wacking it at otto. and he was chasing it all over the place. it was funny as hell. i thought i was gonna laugh until my sides burst on saturday. and i swear to god, there was something wrong with the punch. cuz it tasted like there was rum or something in it. but i dont know for sure. but i had like five glasses of it. and lindsey was the most messed up of us and she had ten glasses of it. we got a tin on mints as a momento. its kinda kool. but im gonna go now. i have to finish the homework i didnt feel like doing. and i have to get to gym soon. ttyl. byebye.

i played fourth doubles yesterday with rachel. and we won. 6-3, 6-2. yeah. get to play today too. gotta go. gonna get yelled at.

omg! sarah got into a car accident. so i get to take her place today, wednesday, thursday, and maybe saturday. so yeah. yay! i mean, not yay for sarah. but yay for me cuz i can play. but thats all i have for now. ill talk to you later.

not a whole lot has happened. but i live in allegan. so what do i expect to happen. alex is leaving for the army or something. and i cant wait. i dont like him anymore. he talks to much. and whenever we invite him to go do stuff, he backs out on us. not that i want him to go. i just wanna be nice to him. and thats weird of me. i took this quiz to see what zodiac sign i am and it said aries. but im really a sagittarius. so yeah. im really bored. i should be doing the homework that i missed on monday, tuesday, and wedsnesday. but i dont feel like it. im just gonna wait to do it. cuz i have senioritis. like really bad. it sucks. but i love it. i cant wait til summer is here. uncle dave is here. and he bought me a butterscotch pie cuz we went to shipsy. it was fun. we went to the cheese factory. but they werent making cheese. i was sad. and im bored now. so im gonna go. and maybe do my homework. but i really doubt it. i have other things that i can do. like watch house or family guy. byebye. ill talk to you next friday at the earliest. i have tennis matches monday through thursday. so that sucks. and i played this friday. won 6-0, 6-1. and then 8-0. fifth singles. but i played. im gonna go now. byebye.

SPRING BREAK! YAY! ITS FINALLY HERE! im so happy right now. and a whole group of us are going to go out and cosmic bowl. its gonna be so much fun. im still kinda mad though. i work two days next week. and i have the whole damn week off. and thats all i get. so im mad. and i work 10-3 on easter. so that sucks. eh. im so bored. bored bored bored bored bored!!! im gonna go now. ttyl.

im still fucking pissed off. im here at village. and ian was sitting near me. and teresa and dennis come up and ask him to work over me. i was just sitting here and i was doing nothing. so yeah. i fucking hate this. and a meeting for the allegan lions club is going on right now. so im gonna finish up here pretty fast. i hate tennis. i hate my doubles partner. i hate all the fucking coaches. and i just wanna fucking murder someone. but i cant take this anymore. im fucking out of here. ill talk to you later. oh btw, they got shelby shultz good today. they moved her car, told her practice was canceled, and stole her clothes. i thought it was funny as hell. but im gonna go now. maybe go complain to jay or alex or ber. ill ttyl. byebye.

im so fucking pissed off. i didnt make varsity. and its all because of my partner holly. i did everything i could do. and i did it all right. i even took a ball in the throat that could have killed me for that fucking team. and they need me on jv. its fucking bullshit. im better than elaina and rachel. i could beat them. im just pissed. that jv sucks ass this year. and im gonna be the only senior on the jv squad. but coach said that im still gonna get my varsity letter. do you fucking think thats gonna make me feel better? its gonna make me feel better that im gonna get a little dinky letter while being on a shitty, losing team? i dont fucking think so! i want to quit so damn bad. but i have to show them that i cant quit. that they havent gotten to me. that i cant be forced out of anything. and if i dont get my letter, im gonna fucking raise hell. im not gonna play jv just to get screwed over even more than i already am. its not gonna happen. but im gonna go now. i have to get home soon. so yeah. ill talk to you when i get back on the internet. byebye.

yeah. we dont have internet at home anymore. and that sucks ass. nothing much has really gone on. we had a tennis tournament today. and i think im gonna get screwed out of varsity because of the partner i had today. she cant play worth a shit. and it pisses me the fuck off. and i just wanna kill her. ok, i was serving, and she kept hitting it out on the ad side. so we played a fucking grand total of ten fucking deuces. and we ended losing that fucking game and it was the match game too. so i was fucking pissed at her. and i got nailed in the chest today before i served. and i was crying. cuz it hurt like hell and i couldnt breathe and i was panicking. so i was crying and trying to breathe. and coach aldrich came out was talking to me, telling me to calm down and take deep breaths. but i couldnt. so i had to use my inhaler. but yeah. i dont like my partner. i mean i like her as a person, but i dont like her as a tennis player. she has a lot yet to learn about tennis and playing the game. she needs to work on her game completely. so yeah. im gonna go now. oh, by the way, i want jay back, i had a dream about him, and im gonna go after him. so yeah, hes in for it. ttyl. byebye.

i finished the essay, the cornell notes for the 20 pages, and the webquest. and i think my mind is melting. and im so damn tired. i just wanna crawl in bed and never get back out. but i have to stay here for another half hour. so yeah. i hope they get out early. and i really dont wanna swim tomorrow. but yeah. ill talk to you later. byebye.

i am so fucking crying on the inside. cuz i have a essay to do, read 20 pages with cornell notes, a web quest with 2 parts, get three dividers, and do 3 fucking reports on golf, snowboarding, and wrestling. and i dont fucking wanna. all but the reports are for english. and the reports are for team activities. and i have to swim tomorrow. and i had a fucking sprained ankle! stupid asshole mother fucker gym teacher. i swear hes out to get me or something. and i forgot to say that i have to study for a test tomorrow in anatomy and physiology. and i dont fucking wanna! i hate school with a passion. and i wanna kill it. but at least im gonna be out of school soon. two damn more months. but im gonna go now. i have to get back to my homework. and then i can maybe play clue on the computer. i really wanna. ill talk to you when i get done with the long ass homework. that will be in twenty years! later. byebye.

im still really bored. and really kinda in pain. and still watching house. and it just froze on me. so im kinda mad now. and im bored. out. of. my. mind! so yeah. im gonna go now. and ill talk to you sometime tomorrow. when. im. still. bored. out. of. my. mind! cuz i will be. im gonna go insane before school starts again. byebye.

i have a sprained ankle. and i cant play tomorrow. and i have to stay off it for a while. until it doesn't hurt anymore. so yeah. im bored. and im watching house. so yeah. im gonna go now. byebye.

not a whole lot has happened. i sucked ass today at tennis. and i think coach isnt gonna put me on varsity. and if she puts rachel on there before me, im gonna be fucking pissed at hell. but yeah. after ryan and ernie got out of work, we all, including mama, went to play tennis. and i hit mama right in the chest. and i feel really bad. cuz shes really sore. but yeah. im bored. and that about all thats happened. and im getting pissed. cuz my l key is sticking. and it sucks. but im gonna go now. ill talk to you later.

today was so much fun. we went to holland to these courts called de witt. and it was kool. i like the indoor courts. they ball is faster but its better i think. and i did really good. the only bad things that happened was at the begining of practice, i twisted my ankle when we started to run. and they dont like my serve. the jv coach and jen aldrich. they want more of a spin on my serve and they want me to have my arm straight when it goes up instead of half bent. but i like me serve. it works and it get aces. so i like it. and im not gonna change it. so yeah. but crazy bounce was fun too. its a little kids place. but i dont see why. they slides are way too big for them. and they were crying. and the jousting thing was too big too. and dodge ball isnt for little kids either. so i think it should be teens. but yeah. i had fun. we took a team picture infront of the blow up tiger. that sounds wrong. but all of the girls were talking to me. so its good. i think they like me. and like that im good. but im bored now. so im gonna go read some more harry potter fan fics or something. ttyl. byebye. oh p.s, by the looks of it msu lost. they have six minutes left and its 64 46 ohio state. so yeah. im happy about that. yay. byebye.

today wasnt as interesting or fun. just boredom. i didnt go to first and second hour again. but imagine that. this is like the third or fourth time ive done it. and my parents keep yelling at me. but i dont care. i graduate in two months. so i really dont give a flying fuck anymore. i just wanna get this shit over with and never come back to allegan. anyway, we did challenges today. i got beat by mallory. but i beat this freshmen halley or hannah. think its hannah. yeah mallory: 6 to 2. Me and hannah: 6 to 0. she sucked massively. but then again, ive been playing half my life. but mallorys been playing for two years. maybe three. but yeah. im thinking coach is gonna put me in singles. cuz she didnt have me play doubles at all. im kinda bored right now. so im gonna go now. i hope my headache goes away. i get to go to practice tomorrow. and then krazy bounce. not sure what it is. but ill tell you when i get back tomorrow. ttyl. byebye.