Dear Diary,
June 23rd, 2009 Tuesday 8:25 P.M.
Today I went to Holland with mama and dada. Jay called me while we were at Dairy Queen. And I told him that I was eating ice cream. And he's like I'm gonna hang up. So I said ok. And he did. And he hasn't called back since then and I'm not gonna end up calling him. I'm done with this shit. I deserve better. So I think of myself as single. It works for me. Cuz I really don't care anymore. I think I'm just gonna go after Pongo no matter what. Amber should be over him by now. And I don't care about the goddamn unwritten rule of dating a best friend's exboyfriend. It doesn't even matter. I just wanna be happy. And I don't know what that is yet. But I'm gonna eventually get there. I hope. Who knows with my luck as it is. I haven't been online in ages. And it really sucks. I miss talking to people. I haven't talked to Otto in forever. And I haven't talked to katy or lindsey. Or Nancy. Yeah. Anyway, I didn't end up going to bed until 4:30. Wasn't tired. Was bored outta my mind. Eh. I just tried to get on the internet here. But I don't know the passwords to any of the things. So I'm stuck with no internet forever! So bored. Feel like calling Jay and telling him that I'm done with his bullshit. But I think he's expecting that. And wanting that. But I'm so lost. And I kinda wanna yell at someone. Eh. Bored. I'll ttyl. Byebye.
Meghan
Dear Diary,
June 24th 2009 Wednesday 7:58 P.M.
I talked to Otto today. And he said that he still likes me. "Becuz of what he did." Meaning sex. I don't know what to do about boys. I hate em. Just wanna kill em all and find a way to create life by myself. Internet is pissing me off. At the library. I'll be able to be online for about 5 minutes. And then it'll kick me off. Cuz the Allegan Public Library network doesn't work. And I have to use some piss poor thing. So yeah. I wanna talk to Otto more but I don't remember his number. And I'm not walking to him house. Don't think so. But I should get going. I have to be to Village Market at 8:30. And I wanna take my time getting there. So I'll ttyl sometime. Byebye.
Meghan The Man Hater
Dear Diary,
June 24th, 2009 Wednesday 9:46 P.M.
Mom is really starting to piss me off. She had pain management today. And it's not managing anything from my point of view. She's yelling at me and stuff. And I don't like it. And she wonders why I'm always trying to get out of the house away from her and dad and Amanda. They all piss me off for doing stupid shit and yelling at me. They can say, Hey can you please move the t.v? instead of, Move the fucking t.v. now! Just once I would like them to understand that I don't like people yelling at me and I don't function the best when they do it. They all piss me off. And I told Otto earlier that I don't really want a boyfriend. But I lied. I really do want one. It's just that I want one that loves me and doesn't just want me for the sex and one that understands me and loves me for who I really am. One that takes me out places. He doesn't have to pay for everything. But somethings. Even take me shopping every once in a while. But I doubt I'm ever gonna even find a guy that loves me or would try to make me happy. Cuz I want to be happy and I want that person to be happy too. I kinda want a guy like Otto. But he didn't take me out places really. But he understood me. And I need that. I don't know. Jay is an ass. He called me and said that he wasn't mad at me. And that it was just a joke and that he thought I was gonna call him right back. When I didn't call him right back, why didn't he call me then and tell me that he was just joking with me and not really mad at me? I don't understand him at all. And that really sucks. He's not the Jay I fell in love with a long time ago. But I don't think I'm the same person either. I don't know what to do anymore. I don't know who I will end up with or if I will end up with someone. I don't know what I want to do with my life. But I do know that Jay's an asshole and I don't wanna be a teacher or have kids. Eh. Otto told me today that I will end up getting my powers back. It's been silent here. And I'm not really bothered with it. If they come back, they come back. And I'll deal with them then. But for now, I'm good. It's weird. In my last entry I said that I hadn't talked to Otto in ages and I talked to him today. Weird. I don't know. Maybe I was supposed to talk to him today for some reason. Stupid Fate. Likes to me with me. Eh. I don't have anything else to say for now. So I'll talk to you tomorrow prolly. Byebye.
Meghan The Angry And Confused
P.S. I hear mom inside yelling at dad. So I don't plan on going inside for a while. Later!
Dear Diary,
June 21st, 2009 Sunday 7:35 P.M.
Today has been a pretty slow day. Nothing much to do. Dad had a pretty good father's day. Really fucking warm though. Kelly my future roomie texted today. And she and her parents want to get together and have a dinner. So that's cool. And she wants to go to Michigan's Adventures. Been there. It's ok. But not the best part ever. Disney is so much more koolier. But I can't wait for school to start. I think I'm gonna have so much fun. I also think that Ian is gonna end it with Amanda on a random turn of thoughts. Cuz he and Amanda aren't really talking. And he got his jeep like he wanted. So that's what I think. And that's what I hope. He isn't even good enough for Amanda. But that's just what I think. And she thinks the same thing about all the guys that I date. Which reminds me that Jay didn't call me back. But that really doesn't surprise me. I think he's waiting for me to end it again. Or something. I don't really know. Maybe I should just ask him. He said that he wanted to start all over with me. But I really don't believe him. This is the best damn basis for a relationship that I've ever seen! NOT! I don't know what to do when it comes to Jay anymore. ACK! So damn confused all the time. And I'm totally a kluts. I run into everything. I skined my bad leg. I skinned my other leg. I skinned my middle finger. Flip people off and be like I have a boo-boo. Hehe. Nothing bad has happened today. So that's a good thing. Who knows when that will stop. I ended going to bed at 2 this morning. I watched Eagle Eye. I love that movie. Shia Labouf (spell check!) is so hott! But right now mama is playing Mario Party 8 on the WII and I have the music going. So it's pretty cool. But I'm bored now. I'm gonna play Clue and listen to music. I doubt Jay will call tonight but I don't know that for a fact. I'll ttyl. Byebye.
Meghan
Dear Diary,
June 23rd, 2009 Tuesday 12:32 A.M.
Yesterday, since that's what it technically is, Stacey, Amber, and I went and saw Up. It was ok. A little weird. But it was a little kids movie from Disney, so what should I really expect. But it was fun. Cuz afterwards we went to the park and prank called Jay and he answered. It was funny cuz Amber was acting like a Chinese women and she's like "Ching Chang Chong. Me want food." And then she hung up. Jay was like WTF! before she hung up though. We started laughing like crazy. And Stacey is prolly gonna end up breaking up with Josh cuz he doesn't call her ever and she cheated on him and plans to do it again. She's such a whore. At least I don't have sex with more than one guy at a time, I just date them at the same time. But I haven't done that in a while. So good me. Yeah. I'm gonna go to bed now though. I'm gonna go with mom and dad later to Holland for mom's physical therapy on her back. And maybe out to eat. But I doubt it. We have no money. But ttyl. Byebye.
Meghan
Dear Diary,
June 19th, 2009 Friday 4:20 P.M.
Amanda's at Ian's for the weekend. So I have relative peace here. But Monday the war will more than likely start up again. Mom's in pain, dad's an ass, I'm bored, Amber still likes me which is weird, Amanda's a vindictive bitch which reminds me that my mom told me that I was also one in my own way, Ian's a stupid asshole bastard fucking fatass, and Jay doesn't love me I don't think and doesn't ever call me and when he does it's for like five minutes and he has to go. So my life is really weird. I like Pongo (Ryan) and he's off limits cuz of Ber Bear. I like Alex but he likes someone else in the army. I like Otto but last I knew, he has a girlfriend. And I doubt we would work out. I just don't know what the hell to think. Or to do. Cuz I'm so confused. I just wish life would be awesomely easy. I'm listening to Get Low. And it reminds me of Alex so much when we used to be at his house all the time listening to music. Eh. I'm just gonna stay away from guys. I'll answer the phone to Jay but I don't plan on talking about sex or us loving each other or anything like that. I just wish that life was like last summer. It was easier. Even with the court case. That I could handle. I don't really wanna grow up. Too many damn problems. I don't know. Mama wants me to come down. So I gotta go. I'll talk at you later. Byebye.
Meghan The Confused.
Dear Diary,
June 19th, 2009 Friday 9:19 P.M.
Bored as hell. It's supposed to storm really bad tonight like this morning. It was kool. I'm watching Alvin and the Chipmunks. It's cute. I'm still really bored. And it's totally crap that he had his stuff out in the rain and it still worked. But that works for me I guess. I will talk to you later I guess. Bye.
Meghan
Dear Diary,
June 20th, 2009 Saturday 11:18 P.M.
Jay called me earlier. And he was being a complete jackass. It's like he's totally changed. And I don't like it at all. But I don't know what to do about it. Cuz I don't really wanna break up with him again. Cuz I wanna see if it will work. But I don't know if I should bring up the subject or how I would. It's just a touchy subject I think. Weird. And he has changed with saying he loves me and thinking about sex. I will give him props for that. But he could at least act like he wants to talk to me and that he likes me at all. But yeah, that's what I get. For some reason, I get the feeling that he's just trying to get back at me for breaking up with him all those times. I did what I thought was right. But I don't think he understands that. And I'm not about to explain my feelings to him. I shouldn't have to. I'm so bored. And it hurts to type. So I'm gonna call it a night. At least for now. Who knows when I'm gonna end up going to bed. Byebye.
Meghan
Dear Diary,
June 10th, 2009 Thursday 6:17 P.M.
I'm really freaking bored. There's nothing to do. Summer sucks. And I wish Ryan or Alex would ask me out. Yeah. I doubt that's gonna happen. Wow. Bored. Family Guy is kinda weird. I'm gonna go now becuz I'm so damn bored. Meow.
Meghan
Dear Diary,
June 12th, 2009 Friday 10:34 P.M.
Today was "Becoming A Scot Day" at Alma. And it was ok. It had some brain melting stuff to talk about. But I made two new friends. Which doesn't normally happen. And not with girls. But it did today. Kelly, my new roommate, and her friend Christina. Kelly was a lot more friendly. And she's completely like me. She looks a little preppier. But she'e just as clumsy as me. And she was telling me a fun story about how she ran into a cow in the middle of the night. She's really funny. And we hit it off really well. So we decided to be roommates. It was kool. But I'm gonna go. I'm watching Space Buddies. I don't know why. Cuz it's pretty lame. But I'll talk to you later. Byebye.
Meghan the Freshman
Dear Diary,
June 18th, 2009 Thursday 10:41 P.M.
Had a huge war today in theTaylor household. Manda got pissed off at me for making a simple sugestion. And then later on, she was talking about Amber. And I didn't like it. So I told Amber about it. And Amber went to Amanda and Ian. Cuz he was talking about her too. And I totally didn't like it. And I told Amber not to tell Amanda that I told her that stuff. But she did. And then Amanda told mama in an enraged phonecall. And I got my ass reamed. But so did Amanda apparently. But I didn't actually hear it. But it was like a bomb went off in the house. And mama was fighting with Uncle Dave too. So it was a grand day all in all. Oh, I forgot about Eric talking to me again. And wanting sex. And I said no. Like always. And he called me a whore and said that he wanted to know what Alex and I did. And I told him that is was Alex's and my business. But he kept wanting to know. But today has really sucked ass. So I'm gonna go to bed now. I'll talk to you later. If I have anything interesting and good things to report. And there won't be any. So yeah. Night and bye.
Meghan
Dear Diary,
June 8th, 2009 Monday 9:00 P.M.
See? I'm back. I'm talking to Alex. And I do like him. And Amber said that I should talk to him more and maybe ask him back out. I'm not sure. I'm not sure about anything anymore though. So that could be it. But I don't know. He's hurt me a lot in the past. And I'm not even sure that he likes me anymore. I mean, he's talking to me but that doesn't mean that he likes me enough to try this all again. I'm not sure that I want to either. I haven't even broken up with Jay. And I'm pretty sure that he's not gonna let me go again without some sort of fight. Though he was the one that broke up with me the last time. Which I still don't understand. I have problems and I didn't break up with him over them becuz I didn't know what to do to solve them. But that's what he did. I think he cheated on me. But I have no proof. And mom said that I shouldn't date Jay again. And that Ryan is better than Jay. And I think she's still trying to control my choices. Not that I make the greatest ones. Hence me getting my ass suspended. But that was fun as hell. I don't know what I want to do with my life. I'm afraid of the big bad world out there after high school. It's weird. I just wanna stay young forever. I wish Peter Pan was real and that he'd wisk me off to Neverland. That would be nice. Young and no responsibiliti
Love,
Meghan
Dear Diary,
June 9th, 2009 Tuesday 9:52 P.M.
Back again. With nothing to report. Listening to music again. Just got done watching Zoom. I love the hot guy Dylan in it. Yummy. I'm so bored. Jay hasn't called me in like two days. So what does that say right there? That I was right and that he only wants to date me becuz of the sex. And that's not what I want. Like I said. But I'm not gonna call him. I'm gonna wait til he calls me and then tell him that I think that he wants me becuz of the sex and that I don't really wanna be with him anymore. Then I'll make my move on either Alex or Ryan. I'm thinking Alex though. He says he's normal now but I'm not so sure of that. But we'll find out. My college sign up for classes is Friday. And I don't know what to do! It's scary. AAAAAAAAAAAHHH
Meghan
Dear Diary,
June 5th, 2009 Friday 3:22 P.M.
I got back with Jay. Cuz I thought that things would still be ok. But they aren't. And I don't know what to do. I'm so lost. It seems that I'm still the go to girl for Jay for sex. And I'm tired of it. That's all that I think he's there for. and I'm so fucking mad at him if that's true. And mom yelled at me earlier. She doesn't know yet that I'm back with Jay. But that isn't going to last that long so there's no need to inform her of it. But she yelled about me interupting her phone call. So I was mad at her. But not now. But it's been a pretty bad day so far. I just hope that Alex doesn't come over here and say anything stupid to me. Cuz I'm tired of people getting pissy with me. I hate it. I just want people to not be rude. But that's the world for me. So yeah. I just wish that Jay loved me as much as I love him. I know it's stupid to wish that and to give him sex. But I thought he had changed. But nope. I don't know what to do about it though. Cuz it's not gonna change. I just don't know how to bring up the topic to Jay. Cuz he's gonna go on the defensive. And that's not gonna get us anywhere. So I'm lost. But I'm gonna go for now I guess. I have nothing better to do. So yeah. I'll talk to you later. Byebye.
Meghan
Dear Diary,
June 8th, 2009 Monday 3:04 A.M.
Can't sleep. Or don't really wanna sleep. Just finished a book that I started five hours ago. It was really good. I'm bored. I got my grades from the last trimester. Gym C-, Senior English C-, Band A+, Anatomy A-, and Mentoring B+. I thought that I had a better grade in gym than I did. But I guess not. I thought that I had failed Senior English. So I'm surprised that I passed. Maybe becuz she liked me or something. Cuz I never did do anything in that class. Band no surprise. She didn't wanna piss off the Taylors. No surprise in Anatomy either. I loved that class. It was fun and easy. But I thought that i had an A in Mentoring. Cuz I did everything that i was supposed to do and then some. Oh well. I don't really care. Still haven't talked to Jay about the whole me being the go to girl for sex. I don't really even know why I have sex with him. It;s not like he lasts that long anyway. And I don't orgasm either. Weird. That I've never really thought about it before now. But yeah. I wouldn't say that shit to him though. I couldn't be that mean. I don't know what to do when it comes to him. So yeah. And I never did tell about grad and grad bash. It was ok. That grad was so damn long. I thought I was gonna die of boredom or something. And I still had a gimp from my leg. It was weird. And grad bash was so much fucking fun! They had go carts. And I was drifting and stuff. And smacking people from behind. Lol. I wish I had a go cart. I went bowling on Friday and Saturday. Alex was there Saturday. And he was hitting on me. And I think that he wanted to ask me out. But I don't know if I really wanna get back on the train wreck. Cuz it never works with us. Like me and Otto. Weird. But I do still like him a little. Even though all the shit that we have gone through. That's weird too. I just guess that I still like all of my exboyfriends to some point. I just like people I guess. Until they're stupid. Which is often. I still think that I should break up with Jay. Cuz he's not gonna change I don't think. But I could be wrong. What's the oddest thing so far in this shitty summer is that Otto said that I was gonna lose my ability to predict things. And I think he's right. Cuz I've been getting headache things and fuzzy and blurred vision and it's just that feeling that I have. So maybe Otto is right. It wouldn't surprise me at all. Cuz he generally is right. Outta all of my exboyfriends, he's the one that I would go back to I think. Not for the sex or anything like that, but becuz he understands me and he's like me in the sense that he's not quite normal. But that's a requirement for all the boyfriends that I've had. So yeah. But I'm bored. I just gonna listen to the music that I have going and then go to bed. Doubt I'm gonna wake up til like 2. But I don't know. People will more than likely text or call me. And I fucking hate that. People know that I'm not a morning person and they still text and call me and are like "what's up?", "what you doing?" LEAVE ME ALONE GODDAMN IT! They just don't fucking understand that shit. But that's it for right now. I might be back later today. Doubt anything is gonna happen that's kool. Later.
Meghan
Dear Diary,
May 18, 2009 Monday 9:32 P.M.
Nothing really interesting to report. But I did something stupid. I took Sam's phone. And threw it into the Kalamazoo River. So it's not the smartest thing I've done. But what's done is done. And I think that isn't even close to what they deserve. But the phone was all I had for now. I was just doing a little back onto them all the bullshit they did on to Amber and I in the drumroom. So I pitched it into the River for good. And I just hope that I don't have to deal with it again. So yeah. I'm gonna finish the movie I have on. And then I'm going to bed. Cuz I'm very tired. And bored. I have four days left of school. Night night. Byebye. Sleep tight. Don't let the bed bugs bite.
Meghan
Dear Diary,
May 26, 2009 Tuesday 6:40 P.M.
Yeah. It's been a while since I've written. I'm out of school. I went out but not the way I planned it. I was in gym on Thursday. And we were playing Frisbee Baseball (a really stupid invention if you ask me) and I slid into first base cuz the chick was three inches from me and it seemed like a good idea. It wasn't. Sure, I made it safe, but my leg really really hurts. Anyway, I got to the end, last batter, and the same chick was about a foot away from me and I was the same from the base. So I slid. But I didn't make it. And it hurt even worse. And it was really bleeding. But I got an A for that day. And we didn't go in after that right away. So it's infected now. And it sucks. But I got out of school. I left after first hour. And the next day, I was there until the end of second hour. So it was awesome. I took all of my exams in the office and then got to leave. I didn't get to say goodbye to everyone. But there are only less than a handful that I will truly miss. So I'm not really worried about it. But at least I'm out of school. High school that is. Speaking of, they just got a new sign. And it's pretty cool. It's techno and stuff and says events. Awesome. Yeah. Jay called me on Friday or Saturday, I don't remember what the damn day is anymore, and he asked if I was gonna come to his graduation party. And I said maybe. But I didn't. That's a chapter that's done in my book in life. And it took me two and a half months to do it. Pretty good since I loved him. Eh. I'm done with Jay and guys. Like forever. And ever. They suck. I can't believe I graduate in two days. Ok, maybe I do. They might have found out that I stole Sam's phone and threw it in the Kalamazoo River. And I don't know if I even passed all of my classes. Which I highly doubt I did due to all of my absenses. I had about 14 first tri, 22 second tri, and 10 or 11 this tri. That's 46 or 47 just this year. And I do that every year. That's horrible. Yep. That's me. I've changed so much during just my senior year, it's crazy. Last year I wouldn't have dremt that I would put someone's shoes in the toilet, that I would get suspended for it, or that I would steal someone's phone and throw it into a river. Yeah. I didn't see that happening at all. But I'm not disliking the changes. I mean, I know who I am. That may not be the best person that I cant be, but that's who I am. So yeah. I still don't know if I still wanna do Childhood Education. I don't really wanna scare the kids. Cuz I will eventually. And I'm not known for holding my temper in check. Quite the opposite. But yeah. I'm bored. And I'm not sure that I have anything else to write. But I will soon. I'll tell you what graduation and the breakfast and the postgrad bash are like. I doubt much fun stuff. But I don't know, I could be blown away. I'll talk to you later.
Meghan
Dear Diary,
May 15, 2009 Friday 9:33 P.M.
I'm worried about Jay. And I feel like something bad is gonna happen. But I don't know what. So I'm going crazy here. And I wish I knew how Jay was. But he won't return my calls. So yeah. When the last time my period was? I don't know. I just hope that I'm not. That would be the icing on the cake. That would go over so well with Jay and my parents. I think they'd kill me. But that wouldn't suprise me at all. I'm so damn bored. The tennis season is over finally. So I don't have anything to do after school for the whole next week. I'm all over the place. I don't know what the hell to do. I'm listening to music. But that isn't calming me down like it usually does. So I'm at a loss. And I'm not tired. But it's 9:37 P.M. So yeah. I'm gonna go now though. If anything kool or interesting happens, which it won't, I'll let you know. I'll talk to you later. Don't know how much later that will be though.
Meghan
Dear Diary,
May 17, 2009 Sunday 8:32 P.M.
I talked to Jay today. And he's ok. But he doesn't really wanna talk to me. But I guess that's ok. So yeah. I don't have to worry about it. I quit my job today. I just got so sick of all the shit. And yeah. Alex got pissed off at me. So I'm not talking to him or anyone. He was talking shit about me today. Cuz he knew that i quit. So yeah. But I don't care anymore. I just want all this shit to be over. I want school to be over. I want to get to be older and not have to deal with all this stuff. I just want my life to be easy. But I guess that isn't gonna be how it is. So yeah. I'm watching Baby Mama. I'll talk to you when I have more interesting report.
Meghan
life pretty much sucks. so yeah. thats all that needs to be said.
im really bored. and i got my mom a present for mothers day. a windchime. and a card. its kool looking. but im watching house. so im gonna go now. byebye.
i played first singles over nicky yesterday. and i think its funny. she was so pissed off. i wanted to laugh. anyway, i won 6-1, 6-1. and i was playing really fucking good too. it was awesome. and i thought that it was the best i played in a long time. it was so damn cool. you will never guess who just sat down next to me. its so weird. and its nathan storey. and hes my ex from like freshman year. its so weird. like he hasnt changed at all. its so odd!!! im gonna go now. i have to look up shit for my report. and i dont wanna. but i have to pass the class for tennis and graduation. so ill talk to you later. byebye.
i played in the jv invitational yesterday. it was one through four singles and doubles. and im the only one that won. the only one that got a medal. and they didnt even have the fucking medals ordered. so i have to wait for it to get ordered. and im pissed off at that. mother fuckers. i burnt my face and arms and a little of my legs. my face is still really warm from yesterday. and it sucks. cuz it hurts. and its red. and it looks bad. so yeah. im bored. and i have to clock in soon. so ill talk to you later. dont know when. but later. byebye.
we've been playing field hockey in team activities. and its so much fucking fun! i love it. i love running into people. and whacking them with the stick. and hitting the ball. but i was talking to people today about the punch. and they said that it was spiked. so yeah. its official. someone got to the punch. it was so cool though. i got to see carl drunk. and hes really funny. he gets horny and loud. so does lindsey. macey, i had her convinced that she and carl fucked like crazy. she was complaining that her thighs hurt. so i smartassedly told her that it was cuz she and carl did it. and she's like nuh uh. but i kept going with it. and by the end of the night she thought that they really had. and then carl had to go and ruin the whole thing and tell her the truth. oh well, i had fun with while i could. i dont even remember the whole night. so it had to be spiked. im tired. so im gonna go now. ill talk to you later. byebye.
prom was so much fun. and i was expecting it to suck. so it was a blast. the car ride was fun too. macey, lindsey, carl, and i were in the car. and us girls were screaming proffanity. it was funny. and i was telling them some of the naughty jokes that i know. i wish we could have stayed for the post prom though. there was a hypnotist. and supposably, he had some chick under that and she was speaking chinese. i wish i could have seen it. people were saying that it was really funny. but i had a lot of fun at prom. i was playing around with the ping pong ball in post prom and was wacking it at otto. and he was chasing it all over the place. it was funny as hell. i thought i was gonna laugh until my sides burst on saturday. and i swear to god, there was something wrong with the punch. cuz it tasted like there was rum or something in it. but i dont know for sure. but i had like five glasses of it. and lindsey was the most messed up of us and she had ten glasses of it. we got a tin on mints as a momento. its kinda kool. but im gonna go now. i have to finish the homework i didnt feel like doing. and i have to get to gym soon. ttyl. byebye.
i played fourth doubles yesterday with rachel. and we won. 6-3, 6-2. yeah. get to play today too. gotta go. gonna get yelled at.
omg! sarah got into a car accident. so i get to take her place today, wednesday, thursday, and maybe saturday. so yeah. yay! i mean, not yay for sarah. but yay for me cuz i can play. but thats all i have for now. ill talk to you later.
not a whole lot has happened. but i live in allegan. so what do i expect to happen. alex is leaving for the army or something. and i cant wait. i dont like him anymore. he talks to much. and whenever we invite him to go do stuff, he backs out on us. not that i want him to go. i just wanna be nice to him. and thats weird of me. i took this quiz to see what zodiac sign i am and it said aries. but im really a sagittarius. so yeah. im really bored. i should be doing the homework that i missed on monday, tuesday, and wedsnesday. but i dont feel like it. im just gonna wait to do it. cuz i have senioritis. like really bad. it sucks. but i love it. i cant wait til summer is here. uncle dave is here. and he bought me a butterscotch pie cuz we went to shipsy. it was fun. we went to the cheese factory. but they werent making cheese. i was sad. and im bored now. so im gonna go. and maybe do my homework. but i really doubt it. i have other things that i can do. like watch house or family guy. byebye. ill talk to you next friday at the earliest. i have tennis matches monday through thursday. so that sucks. and i played this friday. won 6-0, 6-1. and then 8-0. fifth singles. but i played. im gonna go now. byebye.
SPRING BREAK! YAY! ITS FINALLY HERE! im so happy right now. and a whole group of us are going to go out and cosmic bowl. its gonna be so much fun. im still kinda mad though. i work two days next week. and i have the whole damn week off. and thats all i get. so im mad. and i work 10-3 on easter. so that sucks. eh. im so bored. bored bored bored bored bored!!! im gonna go now. ttyl.
im still fucking pissed off. im here at village. and ian was sitting near me. and teresa and dennis come up and ask him to work over me. i was just sitting here and i was doing nothing. so yeah. i fucking hate this. and a meeting for the allegan lions club is going on right now. so im gonna finish up here pretty fast. i hate tennis. i hate my doubles partner. i hate all the fucking coaches. and i just wanna fucking murder someone. but i cant take this anymore. im fucking out of here. ill talk to you later. oh btw, they got shelby shultz good today. they moved her car, told her practice was canceled, and stole her clothes. i thought it was funny as hell. but im gonna go now. maybe go complain to jay or alex or ber. ill ttyl. byebye.
im so fucking pissed off. i didnt make varsity. and its all because of my partner holly. i did everything i could do. and i did it all right. i even took a ball in the throat that could have killed me for that fucking team. and they need me on jv. its fucking bullshit. im better than elaina and rachel. i could beat them. im just pissed. that jv sucks ass this year. and im gonna be the only senior on the jv squad. but coach said that im still gonna get my varsity letter. do you fucking think thats gonna make me feel better? its gonna make me feel better that im gonna get a little dinky letter while being on a shitty, losing team? i dont fucking think so! i want to quit so damn bad. but i have to show them that i cant quit. that they havent gotten to me. that i cant be forced out of anything. and if i dont get my letter, im gonna fucking raise hell. im not gonna play jv just to get screwed over even more than i already am. its not gonna happen. but im gonna go now. i have to get home soon. so yeah. ill talk to you when i get back on the internet. byebye.
yeah. we dont have internet at home anymore. and that sucks ass. nothing much has really gone on. we had a tennis tournament today. and i think im gonna get screwed out of varsity because of the partner i had today. she cant play worth a shit. and it pisses me the fuck off. and i just wanna kill her. ok, i was serving, and she kept hitting it out on the ad side. so we played a fucking grand total of ten fucking deuces. and we ended losing that fucking game and it was the match game too. so i was fucking pissed at her. and i got nailed in the chest today before i served. and i was crying. cuz it hurt like hell and i couldnt breathe and i was panicking. so i was crying and trying to breathe. and coach aldrich came out was talking to me, telling me to calm down and take deep breaths. but i couldnt. so i had to use my inhaler. but yeah. i dont like my partner. i mean i like her as a person, but i dont like her as a tennis player. she has a lot yet to learn about tennis and playing the game. she needs to work on her game completely. so yeah. im gonna go now. oh, by the way, i want jay back, i had a dream about him, and im gonna go after him. so yeah, hes in for it. ttyl. byebye.