Hey. Long time no write. I've been busy. Doing homework. And breaking my pinky finger on my left hand. So it's hard to type. Stupid snow ball fights. I hate them. Oh well. On Monday the doctors are gonna take more x-rays to see if I need to have pins put in. I really hope that I don't. Cuz that would really fuck with my semester. I don't want to be kicked out of college! My last semester's grades were really bad. I had a 1.8. That's the lowest that I've ever had! I'm on academic probation. And I'll get in trouble if I do bad again this semester. And mom and dad will be mad at me and disappointed. Fun. At least Kelly will prolly be moving in with Tara. Then I'll have the room to myself. And then I will actually be able to study without her bugging me all the time. Yay! I hope she moves soon! That would be nice. Yeah. I like it here in Alma. So I don't really wanna leave. Plus I'm proud of myself becuz I'm actually in college. And I've lasted longer than my sister did. But she didn't like college at all. Some of my classes aren't really all that bad. I just don't like my professor for Famous Trials of the 19th Century. She's a bitch. Oh well. I can't like them all. But I absolutely love my math teacher. Yeah, a miracle that I like math now. But she actually is there for me and answers my questions. I can actually understand what she's saying. It's cool cuz I don't have to be bored in math now. But yeah, I need to go to bed. My parents are picking me up in like ten hours. And I haven't finished my homework and packing and I haven't showered. So maybe I'm not going to bed. I gotta do all of that stuff! Ack!

it's always busy around here. even if it's the weekend. and yeah, i'm going nuts here. kelly and asa are always here and they are being stupid. and fucking alot. yeah it's so fucking annoying. so yeah. im gonna go crazy if they dont stop. but he said that he wouldn't be back for another two weeks. and i hope he's telling the truth. TWO WEEKS FREE OF ASA! HELL YEAH! i can't wait til he's gone. i just kinda wish she would be pregnant so she would get pulled outta school. then i could get a new roommate. that would be nice. and they prolly wouldn't fuck if i had a new roommate. i emailed jay a few days ago. and he responded. i was surprised. and yeah. i guess i'll talk to him. but i don't really know if i wanna date him again. i doubt it would work. it never does. and i do know that i don't wanna date otto again. anyway, he as in jay seemed like he was ok. i don't know though for sure. and there's no way i'm gonna tell my mom that i'm talking to jay again. she would kill me. cuz she's always like he's not good enough for you and he treats you like shit. he was the first one that i even loved. so yeah. and i liked the sex. even though i told otto that i didn't. oh shit. i'm in deep with the lies i know that. i just keep going. i think i'm gonna email otto and tell him that i'm not gonna date him again. but that would hurt him. and he is a friend. so i don't know what to do. i don't wanna hurt him. but i want him to leave me alone. i just don't know what the hell to do anymore. and that's what i always say. eh. i don't know. maybe i'll just bring it up lightly. maybe that will work. i don't know. i will talk to you when i get the chance. no idea when that is gonna be. so yeah. i will ttyl. byebye.

sorry i havent had time to write. its been busy around here. just too much to do in so little time. its crazy. school is awesome. i love it. i dont really like nutrition though. and my freshman year seminar is kinda hard. and i didnt go yesterday. and i didnt do the homework that was supposed to be due yesterday. so yeah. i dont know how im gonna pass that class. but i have to in order to graduate. so yeah. me thinks me is fucked. but yeah. i like english so far. my teacher is funny as hell. someone sneezed and instead of saying bless you, he said go to hell. i was funny. but yeah. thats about it for now. nothing real interesting. im gonna go to the movie on the chapel lawn on friday though. i will talk to you later though. byebye for now. and i will try to write on here more. but no promises.

yeah, ive been really fucking busy. so i havent had time to write on here. but ive been doing homework. and i like my math teacher and my math class. so yeah. im doing pretty good. id be better if i could get some sex. but i dont know anybody that well or anybody that i wanna. so i guess im not gonna get laid. so yeah. bored. nothing to do. i finished my homework already. and i have my fys at 7 to 930. but yeah. ill talk to you sometime. dont know when. byebye for now i guess.

pre-term is over. finally. i didnt do that last paper that i was supposed to do. so i wouldnt be surprised if i didnt pass my pre-term. but thats ok i think. i was there all the time and i did everything else that i was supposed to. so yeah. i should do pretty good. yeah, im bored right now. im watching thr real world cancun. its so dumb. bored. bored. bored. bored. bored. i was playing on facebook. and now there is nothing to do at all. and my parents should be here soon. so yeah. we are going to see whats down town and whats in mount pleasant. so yeah. thats about it for today. so im gonna go now. ill talk to you later sometime. byebye for now.

today was the funnest day ever! we had three new guys up here in the room and we were playing bullshit and uno and spoons. it was so fun. and i was yelling hi at anyone that would walk by our room. so yeah. the people out in the hall thought i was crazy and stuff. but oh well. i like it here. not really looking forward to class tomorrow. but i have to go. or ill get written up. so yeah. but im gonna go to bed now. yeah. byebye for now.

yeah, we moved into alma today. so im all alone in alma. with no parents. it really hasnt sunk in yet i dont think. cuz im not all like omg i miss my parents yet. so yeah. but ill be ok i think. i really hope i will be. and i had a cute guy fix my computer. so yeah. but i think hes gay. he had all the signs of a gay guy. but thats not something id ask him. and hes like older than me. so he has rank on me. so yeah. but i have to go now. i dont think kelly has a key to get into the room. so yeah. ill talk to you later. byebye.

i hate stupid people. stacey texted me telling me that she broke up with eric. i knew that already. but she honestly thinks that im gonna give a flying fuck? nope, not sry, i dont. i dont care about her anymore. and amber texted me asking if i was still mad at stacey. i didnt answer her either. and alex called me twice saying someone got a hold of him and wanted to know if i was still mad at them. i didnt answer and havent responded but im thinking, why the fuck are you beating around the goddamn bush?! i already know who it is and i know you know and that you know that i know that you dont normally beat around the bush. i just wanna know when theyre gonna all take a hint and be like, 'oh, meghan is mad at us and doesnt wanna talk to us cuz shes mad at us.' but hell no, that aint gonna happen. just wish it would. but nope. stupid people piss me the hell off. i just wanna beat them all into fucking bloody pulps. and then make it illegal to be fucking stupid. but i dont see that happening any time soon. but ill talk to you later. dont know when. but later. byebye.
the very angry meghan

i just go back from birch run. we went shopping for school clothes and stuff. and i got some socks and some earrings and some nail polish. we stayed in the hotel 8. and i took the pen and pad of paper. lol. it was an ok hotel. they had t.v. so that was cool with me. but right now, im on the internet cuz i missed it so much. yeah, mom and dad are fighting again. what a surprise. not really. yeah, im gonna go now. gonna go play vampires again. or maybe uno. but ill talk to you later. byebye.

i got a camera in the mail today! yay! and now i can take it off to school with me. otto still likes me. and i still like him. but i dont know what to do about it. hes with katie la ponsie. and he says he loves her. but eh. i have to go. my computers about to die.

we added the norton anti virus stuff on our computers today. and i dont really see a difference. but moms isnt doing what its supposed to be. so shes getting mad at it. so im getting angry. so im gonna go play vampires. and maybe talk to otto if he gets back online sometime today.

i talked to Otto yesterday/today. and we talked about how we are different and stuff. and i really miss talking to him face to face. but i never get to see him anymore. it sucks. and hes like the best best friend in the whole world. but i dont get to see him enough. and now im gonna be going off to college and hes gonna be here. and i dont know. he said that we will always be friends. and i hope hes right about that. cuz i dont wanna lose him as a friend. hes the only one that ive really ever opened up to. and i told him it was kinda becuz he was my first. and he was technically. but that really isnt a reason. not to me anyway. but yeah. thats all i have to say for now. but im going to bed now. ill talk to you later i guess. byebye.

these two people that are going to alma contacted me on my facebook. its cool. weird but cool. im currently bored though. still nothing to do. and i have 12 more days left til move in day. so im going omfg over here. but yeah. i do that a lot. i wonder what kelly is up to. my mom uploaded some pictures of me from tennis season and prom and my 18th birthday cake on facebook. so i changed my profile picture. it looks better than me glaring at the camera. cuz stephanie took it when i was in a really pissy mood. i yelled at her for it. i am so damn bored. i like that vampire game on facebook. but i have to wait for it to load back up all my energy and stamina and health. so i can play it for like a half hour and then i have to wait an hour to play again. thats the only thing that really sucks about that game. i was on hotmail today and britney daniels' baby zoe is gonna be one really soon. its so weird. but shes so cute! she was almost a halloween baby. off by three days. oh well. im gonna go now. and be bored. but ill talk to you later. byebye.

12 MORE DAYS!!!

bored. hot. nothing to do. and we still dont know if im gonna be able to go. we cant get a loan for dad. yeah. i really hope we can. im bored. gonna go. byebye.

nothing really is going on here. and im really bored. like way way way way way bored. and the assholes next door are out in their pool screaming. and i just wanna kill them all. it would be nice. but that isnt gonna happen. i cant wait til i leave for school. its almost here. but im gonna go watch some more foamy is guess. nothing else to do around here. maybe mom dad and i will go watch a movie tomorrow. i hope so. but i doubt it. oh, and did i tell you? im so fucking glad to be single! yay! ill talk to you later though. byebye.

and yes, i know. all the things i transferred over are out of sequence. but i dont care.

im mad. i just went to get the other ones. the last like four or five. and i somehow lost them. but they werent really important. so it doesnt matter. so yeah. im really bored. i talked to jay yesterday and he told me that he was over in iraq. and im like bullshit. and hes like if you dont believe me, then i dont wanna be with you anymore. this is coming from an asshole who hasnt called me in at least a month, if not more than that. and im like, its been over for a while now jay. and hes like i dont wanna talk to you anymore, go away. so im like whatever and i left him alone. oh well. i didnt like him in the first place. guys just suck ass. on monday, mom, dad, kelly, and i went to michigans adventures. it was so much fun. but i got burnt really bad. and so did dad. i just wish we could go again. but i like kelly. and i have two weeks tomorrow til i leave for school. i cant believe im gonna be in college. i thought that this day would never come. its like so weird. and im gonna miss my mom. maybe my dad. and not my sister. i know that for a fact. but yeah. i dont know what im gonna do as in for the rest of my life. cuz i dont know what i wanna study. so yeah. im clueless. but thats ok for now. i can decide what i wanna do later i guess. eh. im bored. and im tired. so im gonna go now. byebye.
meghan

Dear Diary,
June 19th, 2009 Sunday 11:23 P.M.
Bored. Just showered and shaved my legs. Listening to music. I wish I could go see Harry Potter again. But we don't have the money. And it would be just dad and I again. Mom never really go into it. She thinks we're weird and obsessed. I know I am! I don't know what to talk about. Cuz there is nothing to talk about. Stupid Allegan. I have that dinner with Kelly and her parents on Tuesday. So I'm looking forward to it but I'm not. I wanna meet them, but I don't know if they will approve of me. Not a lot of parents do. They all think I'm weird and that I'm a bad influence. Eh, I can be a bad influence. But I'm generally a good person. I just have my issues and fits occasionally. I mean, everyone does. But eh. I just want them to like me and I wanna like them. But I don't know. And I wanna like college. But I really don't know what I wanna do. I wanna go see the world. But how am I gonna do that if I don't have any money? I'm not. Which really sucks. I'm so mad. They're making two movies of the last book. And the first part is coming out summer of 10 and the second part summer of 11. What the hell is wrong with that! EVERYTHING! I just wanna see it all at the same time. I know it's gonna be like four hours long that way. But I would totally sit in the movies for four hours just for Harry Potter. Totally worth it. I love Harry Potter! I need to find the books and reread them. Cuz I don't remember what's in all of them. And I just love the books. I'm really bored. So I guess I'm gonna go read. Or get my stupid fucking charger to work (which won't happen) and watch a movie. But I doubt it. Ttyl. Byebye.
MEGHAN LOVE DRACO MALFOY!!!

Dear Diary,
June 20th, 2009 Monday 10:24 P.M.
I saved a mouse this morning. It was 12 something. And I went down to get water. And Bella was playing with something that looked like it was moving but looked like their play mouse. So I looked closer and it was a baby mouse. So she put him (I'm assuming it's a him) in her mouth and took off. So I smacked her til she let go of him. And I snatched him up and put him in my Alma cup. Mom said she's surprised I picked him up with my bare hands and that he didn't bite me. He prolly saw that I was trying to save him from the cats and didn't want to bite me. He was so tiny. But I called my mom and she and manda came out. And manda took pictures. But mom and I went outside and let my mouse friend go. I wonder how he's doing. But later today I made peanut butter cookies. By myself. Dad had to help me do the mixer cuz it hated me I swear, but other than that I did it on my own. Which is awesome. I forgot to fork one batch though. And the last batch was 7 "monster" cookies. They were just a lot bigger than the rest of the cookies. Mom had one. But I don't think I'll be eating them a lot. Baking things makes you not wanna eat it. Eh. I don't know. The dinner is tomorrow. And I don't know what to expect. But I imagine that dad is gonna do something stupid in the time we're there. And it normally takes me a while to get to talk to people. Cuz I don't trust them or know them. Eh. I just hope it goes well. I'll tell you about it when it's done with. I'm going with mom tomorrow morning to her appointment. I think it's physical therapy. And that takes like an hour or an hour and a half. And it sucks just sitting in the car with nothing to do. I'll prolly bring something to do. But I'm gonna go now. My pill should be kicking in soon and I wanna listen to music before I pass out. So I'll talk to you after dinner. Byebye.
Meghan (Who is dreading the dinner and her dad doing something stupid! Ack!)

Dear Diary,
June 23rd, 2009 Thursday 8:37 P.M.
The dinner went pretty well actually. They were nice. And they didn't seem to have a problem with me. I had my tatoo showing but they didn't comment. So I guess that's a good thing. But that's about it for now. I'm watching South Park. So I'll ttyl. Byebye.
Meghan

Dear Diary,
June 25th, 2009 Saturday 6:31 P.M.
Nothing really to do. Watching South Park again. There's nothing else to do. I hate it. Bored. Gonna go now. Byebye.
Meghan

Dear Diary,
June 13th, 2009 Monday 8:23 P.M.
Jay called me again and said that he had a funeral to go to. So he didn't come over. That's good too. I'm on my period and I'm cramping and bleeding harder than I normally do. Eh. It sucks. I went with mom and dad to Holland today. Dad had an appointment at 9 and mom had one at 11. And we went to Bed, Bath, And Beyond. I got a waste basket and a shower holder thing. I don't even know what I'm gonna study and go off and do. And that sucks. Jay might be leaving on Thursday for the Army. And he said that he has a letter for me. Well, two actually. In case he dies or if he lives. I don't know how I'm gonna get them if he does leave. Unless he mails them or has someone else mail them for him. I don't know. I really don't want him to go. But I've decided that it's not my choice and it's gonna happen no matter what. I just wish it could be later instead of sooner. Eh. No body listens to what I want though. I told Alex today that I don't really believe in God. And he's like I'm totally the wrong person to say that to. I know he's all churchy and shit, but he could have just listened to my opinion and said ok, you have your opinion, I have mine. But he totally went like bonkers. Eh. Damn bastard. Ack. Stacey and Eric from work (that I don't work for anymore thank God if he's there for that which he isn't damn it!) are dating. And that's so disgusting. And Eric told Ian that Amanda is one of the biggest gossips in the store. Whatever dude! That would be Dylan and Stacey. And Ernie if I really think about it. And Eric says that he didn't say anything about Amanda and that he never would becuz he doesn't have any reason to cuz he likes Amanda. And that is where I throw the bullshit flag. He fucking hates Amanda cuz she won't take his shit. He disappears all the damn time and she's always calling him up front to actually do some work. He prolly goes into the boy's room and jacks off for all of us know. That's so wrong. And Stacey's just with him for the sex. Which is the worst part. He looks like a fucking werewolf for fucks sake! He's all hairy and shit and he smells like he's never met with a thing called a shower or bath. It's so gross. And I'm really glad that I got out of that place when I did. But I told Amber and Stacey and Alex about Stacey and Eric dating. Alex and Ernie are big gossips too. So I decided to cause some trouble at Village Market even though I'm no longer there. Fun Fun for me. Lol. Aahhh! I wish I had the damn internet. I haven't been on in like three weeks. And it's driving me nuts. I haven't checked my email and I prolly have like two hundred or so. I don't know. And I like just randomly surfing the net. HARRY POTTER COMES OUT ON WEDNESDAY!!! Dad and I are gonna see if we can find a theatre that is gonna have it on the day it comes out. But I doubt it. They didn't ever have Transformers 2 at the M-89 Cinema. They run Thursday to Thursday. So we might have to wait til Friday for Harry Potter. I'm thinking it will be there. Cuz it's so much bigger than Transformers. Which got a shit review too. I haven't seen it but I thought it looked good from the previews. And the first one was good. And Linkin Park did another song for this one. New Divide it's called. I like it. Good song. Bored. Can't wait for Harry Potter. They're gonna do a two part end to the series. I don't know how they're gonna do it in the theatres when it gets there. But that's their promblem. Eh. I wish we had a converter box. I'm missing my shows. House. And I don't really know what else is on since I don't have the converter box. But I know I'm missing stuff. Family Guy! I haven't seen it in ages. And I don't have the internet to see it on. But the site that I normally go on isn't working for some reason. I could just watch South Park on the net if I had it. But I don't. So it's pointless. I'm so damn bored. And there's nothing to do. Like absolutely nothing. Cuz Amber's at work. And it's late. And I don't know if she's gonna talk to me. Due to all the Stacey/Eric bullshit. Cuz Amber was all asking me what was going on and stuff. And I was telling her a little bit of the stuff going on. But not all of it. Cuz Eric told me that he never said it and I'm like well would Ian lie to Amanda just to piss her off? He said yeah cuz Ian wants to break him and Stacey up. Who really cares. It's just stupid dude. Eh. Alex told me that Stacey's just using Eric for the money. Cuz Eric buys her everything. But that's just the guy he is. Put Eric's personality in a different, hot body and he'd have more girls hitting on him than just nasty ass Stacey who wears the same shorts and tank top every damn day. It's just wrong man. But I don't know. I'm gonna find something to do. TTYL. Byebye.
Meghan the Extremely Bored and Disgusted

Dear Diary,
June 15th, 2009 Wednesday 12:35 A.M.
HARRY POTTER IS OUT TODAY!!! I really wanna see it really really bad. But I don't know if I will. Cuz dad would be up all day and he doesn't have any sick days left to use to be able to go see it. But it's supposed to be really good. The last one is my favorite book so I can't wait til that comes out. I'm ripping music and making more c.d.s right now. But I think I'm gonna go read. I'll talk to you later sometime. Don't know when. With nothing to report. Of course. Later though. Byebye.
Meghan

Dear Diary,
June 15th, 2009 Wednesday 6:53 P.M.
OMG! HARRY POTTER WAS THE BEST MOVIE SO FAR!!! Dad and I went to see it today at 3:30. It's two and a half hours long! But it was so good that it was totally worth it. And it was just as I imagined it too. It was awesome. They did a great job. I wish I could find the book so I can reread it. I'M IN LOVE WITH HARRY POTTER! Oh, and don't forget Draco Malfoy. Yummy! I just changed my background to Draco. *faints* Not really. But I wish the Harry Potter world was for real. I would be in heaven. I'd totally try and get with Draco. But I loved the movie. It wasn't full like I expected it to be, the theatre. But there were a lot of people there. And when Dumbledore died, there was a chick that started crying. I just wanted to smack her. It's like didn't she read the books? Anyway, Tom Felton did a great job playing Draco. I love Draco! He's misunderstood I think. And he was trying to do it for his father. And so Voldemort didn't kill him. I'm gonna go now though. HARRY POTTER ROCKS!!!! Ttyl. Prolly about Harry Potter and Draco (yummy). Byebye.
Meghan The Biggest Harry Potter Fan

Dear Diary,
FOURTH OF JULY!, 2009 Saturday 11:04 P.M.
The fireworks yesterday were kinda lame. But eh, it's Allegan. I have fun hanging out with Amber though. And Stacey said that she might be pregnant. That would be funny as hell I think. I guess I'm just mean like that. But today was pretty ok. Ian was over. So that says something right there. The five of us were playing BuzzWord. It was fun. And I actually knew a lot of the things. I got chew the fat and rosetta stone and Your Under My Skin by somebody I don't know. And a bunch more that I don't remember. But mom and dad didn't know where I pulled those outta. But I knew them. Retards down the street are currently setting some fireworks off. Pussy ones in my opinion. They decided to have a firework competition last night. I won cuz I set off some Roman Candles. I love those things. Today lit two off at the same time. It was awesome. They were just behind each other. And the little kids were like "That was so kool!" Hell yeah it was kool. I did it, that's why. Eh. Hate little kids. Don't wanna be a teacher anymore. Eh. I'd just prolly kill the kids. Maybe I'll be an Egyptologist (spelling?). I've always been interesting in Egypt. So that would be fun. Maybe I could try my hand at learning the alphabet. Even though there are over 700 different symbols. Crazy. But kinda makes sense at the same time. This is gonna be random but I noticed that the most used letters on my keyboard are: a s d f i e r n t u o l and k. Weird. Never really thought about it before. I'm really weird. I have my music really high and I can still hear their fucking Cuckoo. It's a squeal firework. Like a whistler but not really. Haven't talked to Alex in ages. Haven't talked to Jay in ages. Talked a little to Otto last night. And his girlfriend Katy was totally livid. Oh well. Not like I'm interested in him. I'm just his friend. Eh. Bastards the lot of them. Bloody hell. Fuckfire. Eh. Bored now. Maybe I'll watch a movie or something. I don't know. I'm weird. I know that. HAPPY FOURTH OF JULY EVERYONE!!! I'm gonna go find something to do until I get tired. Which won't be for a while yet. Eh. I'll talk to you later. But nothing important will happen I tell you. Byebye. TTYL!
Meghan

Dear Diary,
June 5th, 2009 Sunday 7:19 P.M.
Nothing really to report. I broke mom's burner thing for the oils. It was an accident. But I feel bad about it. I saw a buck today. Someone must have scared it down the street and it shot down Ronnie's yard nect to us. It was kool. I'm currently watching Nancy Drew. So I'm gonna go now. I'll talk to you later. Byebye.
Meghan

Dear Diary,
June 6th, 2009 Monday 10:51 P.M.
Mom's in a lot of pain. So dad took the night off to take mom to the emergency room. I just hope she's gonna be ok and that they can find something that will dull or get rid of the pain. I said brain surgery to cut the pain receptors. But that's impractical. Eh. Jay called me last night. And it was just barely last night. He said that he missed me and wanted to see me but didn't know when that was gonna be. And that he'd been in Canada killing wolves. I don't know what to believe anymore. Cuz all the shit that comes out of his mouth seems like a lie. And he does it all the time. Eh. Maybe I should just dump him. Cuz I really could do without him. It's not like I love him and am gonna die without him. I don't know anymore. But I'm bored. And I'm mad at LimeWire. It refuses to work until I open Windows Media Player. I hate it. I need to take this thing taken in and serviced. Cuz I prolly have some virus or something that makes it all slow and stuff. And I hate it slow. But I'm still bored. And I have a book that I wanna read so I'm gonna sign off now. But I'll talk to you tomorrow most likely. With nothing of interest to report I'll bet. TTYL. Byebye.
Meghan

Dear Diary,
June 8th, 2009 Wednesday 5:48 P.M.
Gweniey died today. And I cried. Like a lot. I love/loved her. She was my little girl. I went to get her out of her cage to talk to her and feed her. But she wasn't moving. So I took the cage to mom and mom got her out. And she was dead. And I started crying. And dad buried her today. She's with Gracie and the little babies. It had just been a really tough week. But I'm gonna go now. I'll talk to you later. Byebye.
Meghan

Dear Diary,
June 10th, 2009 Friday 11:58 P.M.
Just barely Friday. Jay called me. And he actually said that he loved me. Which kinda surprised me. But I don't know what will come out of his mouth. It's weird. And he wants to come see on Sunday or Monday. Don't know which. And he wants to have sex. And he wants 69. I really don't know what to do. And I'm not even on the pill. But he said that he's gonna bring some condoms. I don't like condoms. They suck. They make it itch. I'm gonng go now then. Watching My Fair Lady. Byebye for now.
Meghan