As I sit here, alone in my room, I notice the silence that has taken my every word and whisked it away to a far off place. I feel so alone, but I don't feel quite so lonely when I notice the stars that have found the power to shine so bright just for me. The way the world works has began to break my heart into pieces that I've decided to give to those important people that have existed in my life, but those people are leaving me, to sit here, alone in my room, with my life as the only entertainment.
Sounds barely ripple across the room to where I sit. Sounds of life, sounds of living, sounds of love. Suddenly a note blares so loud I'm knocked off the chair I sit in to the ground, far below where it should have been. The hole that I've dug for myself suddenly engulfs me and blocks out those beautiful stars I've come to call my own and though I grasp the walls that crumble away from where I claw I never cease to fall. Warm breath relaxes me as the strong arms of two angels form a blanket on which I land. As I lay there and drift out of time and space and into a realm where I can truly be happy, I remember that one piece that I've given away that can never make it back into the puzzle of my heart, where I will forever bleed from and can never replace.

So my interview went well. C: I'm happy things went smoothly. I rock at math, I like talking, it was good...although I will admit I was nervous and somewhat jittery...couldn't sit still easily, but it went well. I hope to get a call back on Saturday. <3 It'd make my day! x3

Okay, so I have a general update to give you all, since I haven't updated anything lately. xD I need to redo my house...lol

Anywho, I recently rearranged my room, so now I'm able to play computer at my desk. That's a major YAY! for anyone who's been following life. xD I such at cleaning but here, I did it! <3


Next, I have recently been applying to jobs. Anyone looking for jobs knows that trying to find one while the economy friggin' sucks is harder than finding a needle in a haystack (for those of you who like metaphors like that) but I applied at the right time to get an interview tomorrow! (Wednesday) at 2 PM EST.

*endless squealing and jumping and general excitedness*

If you haven't noticed, I'm so effin' happy about the whole damn thing that I only wish I could've sat still long enough to tell you sooner! x3

So now I feel pretty good. lol I picked a door lock...sort of. lol We thought the bathroom key was locked in one of the bathrooms and kept having trouble with opening the boys room. My boyfriend opened the girls room no problem and looked around for the key in it, but nope, not there.

I ended up taking one of those cool looking plaster/putty knives with points and junk or whatever and prying the door open with it. Of course, my boyfriend had to pull the door because I had to hold the dead latch (the part that goes into the wall when the door's closed). It was irritating and quite fantastic to realize I could do that stuff. xD

First, I like popcorn...I love popcorn...especially kettle corn. It can just brighten my mood. xD
Secondly, I love food. Who doesn't? All nay-sayers can go fuck off somewhere because food is awesome.

Now I've been pissed off before, but lately, it's gotten annoying how easily I can get upset over the simple shit. Like I was in Wal-Mart the other day with my boyfriend and brother at like 2 in the morning, a usual routine with us that now has gotten shoved to just the weekends. And we were walking around, checking out video games, then material for a cloak my mom's gonna make my boyfriend, and I was like, why not check out the food? Of course, earlier that day I was feeling less shitty than the day before on account of myself being prone to strep throat and needing my tonsils removed badly, so food was on my mind a lot because, well, I hadn't eaten anything but popsicles and soup. You get pretty bored with it all at some point. So I walk down the chip isle and see chips on sale, like half off and grouped in a pair, like 2 for 4, I think it was.

So I call out to my boyfriend and he's all immediately, "NO!" That throws me. So, I get pissy and walk out of the store. Why? Because he didn't wait to listen. I can be such a girl, sometimes...I mean, I'm okay to hear a no for things when I ask and I'd've probably asked why and gotten a, "I don't wanna waste money on it cause I don't have a lot" or something, which is fine, I would've accepted it and all...either way, we ended up back at Denny's and I got a huge breakfast special and he got his usual chicken strips and fries and a coke. lol I eat a ton of food after being sick.

Next thing that pissed me off today was when my initial site I check daily (http://www.planetzot.com/forums in case anyone wondered about it) is under temporary removal for renovation. I'm all for making things better, but I hate that they have to close down the site for it...>,>; Grr...

So...yeah. Kettle corn made me feel better, just eating it. C: Yay for food! xD

Stole this from [Piercedskull]. lol

A- Really good kisser.
B-You are always fun when it comes to meeting new people.
C- your wild and crazy
D-You have trouble trusting people.
E-You have a nice ass ;-)
F-People totally adore you
H- ur cool
G-You never let people tell you what to do.
T-You are popular with all types of people.
I-You have a nice ass;-)
J-you are broad minded
K- You like to try new things
L-You have a nice butt;-)
M-You are really hot.
N-Everyone loves you.
O-You love Mickey Mouse
P-You are popular with all types of people.
Q-You are a hypocrite.
R- you are one of the best in bed.
S-People think you are so sexy.
T-you are one of the best in bed.
U-You have very good personality and looks.
V-You are not judgemental.
W-You are very broad minded.
X- You never let ppl tell u wat to do
Y-One of the hardest gangsters alive
Z-You like it in the butt VERY VERY HARD

C-your wild and crazy
A-Really good kisser.
I-You have a nice ass;-)
T-you are one of the best in bed.
L-You have a nice butt;-)
I-You have a nice ass;-)
N-Everyone loves you.

...um...is that a good thing? o,O

Do you remember all those cheesy romantic lists people post all over their diary or their house? The ones that say "If you love her, hug her tight and kiss her forehead..." or something just as cheesy?
Well, I've decided it's high time to be the cheesy writer of an original set. lol Since I'm female, I'll only really write from the female perspective because that way, I'll know what's written is true. I don't wanna make a bad one that gets me in trouble. (With who? I don't know. lol)

A Female's Point of View
Girls who wear the skimpy clothing aren't asking for a long relationship.
If you see a group of girls dancing, they're out having fun. The ones looking for hook-ups came to the bar/club alone.
Girls are never looking for a hook-up.
Sometimes, girls just want to be the boss.
Never has any girl simply gone out with someone for sex. They might say they did, but it's never true.
Every girl wants to be treated like a princess once in a while. It doesn't have to happen twice.
Girls don't like to cry even though they do it a lot. Just be there and hold her, then pretend it never happened, even if you're the reason she started crying in the first place.
If girls argue with you about being beautiful, it means they want you to say it again. If she keeps saying "No, I'm not," then just kiss her so she stops talking, then say "You are. Period."
Girls like knowing the truth, even if they don't like hearing it from you. The girls that treat you differently after hearing something they don't like aren't the ones for you.
Girls are girls. It's easy to forget that.
Believe it or not, girls can feel crappy for no reason. Let them blame PMS so they can move on faster.
Even though you like to know they eat, girls don't like eating in front of people they like, especially with something that's really messy.
There's more coming, I just gotta eat food now. lol

Attention all friends, watchers, and other creatures of significance. I have an announcement:

Meow.

If there was ever a time to pay homage to those of you who can actually continue a serious thought and hold on to it, it is now. People out there are suffering inside and out for things that have happened in the world, but they don't matter to the world we each see, the world that revolves around our lives. Your life is wonderful. Your have ups and downs. You have problems. It's your life. Don't exchange it for the one you think you want because then it would no longer be yours, but a lie.

Anyways, here's a "diary" entry that spoke out to me moments ago. <blog:1093540> [Forbidden Rampage] has a wonderful grasp of the English language and how to use it.

To the rest of the people who deserve to be named but are lost in translation, I apologize. It is 4:30 AM where I'm at and my back, hands, and eyes hurt from spending too much time online when I should be sleeping to get back the regular sleeping schedule.

On the topic of Antonio, which I still will call him no matter what anyone says his name is, he is currently residing at my older brother's apartment where he should stay, cute and happy. He had fleas, possibly worms, and is the runt of the litter and only after we gave him a bath, combed out the fleas, and got some liquids into him did he start acting like a true kitten.
For his size, he's quite energetic and tends to follow the kitty fishing toy with feathers attached to the string like it's the only thing worth doing in the world. He should be twice his weight, but only recently has he been rid of a few problems. Anyways, I have yet to hear what Tony's new name is. I hope it something cute because if it isn't, I'm calling him Antonio and he'll get majorly confused.

Well, Goodnight everyone...or rather, goodmorning. I'll get on again later. C:

Title: Another Sleepless Night

I seriously need to start taking sleeping aids or something because my sleeping habits are ruining me. (=),(=) I sleep during the morning hours until around 2, usually, after going to bed around 6 in the morning. It's not very fun at all...

Oh, got a new kitteh. His name is Antonio. Tony for short. He's small, gray, and has a few problems that we need to see a vet to help take care of. x333 He's adorable and sleeps on my tummy all the time.

My phone has suicidal issues. O,o

Today it hopped out of my hand onto the sidewalk. It slid across a good seven or eight squares about two and a half feet long, diagonally every few squares. When I finally picked it up after its battle, it had all these brand new scratches on it!...scary.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3eA08Vj04o8&feature=related
Everyone gets kissed!!!!

This looked like fun on [de Morte]'s diary, so I decided to do it too. xD

Go to: http://thesurrealist.co.uk/slogan.cgi
Put your name in, and generate slogan after each question.

1. What do you say to yourself every morning?
Lin Star, and on, and on... (Should I be worried?)

2. What do you want other people to say about you?
A Tough Lin Star to Follow (I couldn't agree more.)

3. Someone asked you out, your answer is...
The Lin Star of Your Life (...wow.)

4. How would you answer a booty call?
Bring Out the Lin Star (...o.o I don't do booty calls, though...)

5. How would you introduce yourself to someone you really like?
Go to Work on a Lin Star (I need work?)

6. To someone you dislike?
I'm not Just the Lin Star, I'm a Member (...of what?)

7. You're in a conversation and you suddenly feel the need to pee, how would you excuse yourself?
Where do you want Lin Star to go today? (o.o Creepy: public urination.)

8. Your parents ask you why you got home late, you say...
For a Hard Earned Thirst, Lin Star (...my parents wouldn't buy that.)

9. You're failing a subject, you say...
Welcome to Lin Star County (Sounds like a fun place. :D)

10. The love of your life asks you to marry him/her, what do you say?
The Curiously Strong Lin Star (Cool...cool...)

11. Your bf/gf is breaking up with you, you tell him/her...
You're in Good Hands With Lin Star (Or were, I should say.)

12. Someone told you you're an asshole, you tell them...
The Lin Star Effect (Oh wow...shitty come back...)

13. What are the best words to describe you?
Lin Star Not Included (That really sums me up, don't you think?)

14. If you're going to have a movie about your life, the title is...
Pleasing Lin Star the World Over (Wow.)

15. Your last words before you die...
Daddy or Lin Star? (Did the hitman get us mixed up?)

16. Your message to a special someone..
Moving at the Speed of Lin Star (...ugh)

17. Title of this post will be...
Your Flexible Lin Star (Sounds like a porno...)

Yay! I'm all set up with my new jewelry box Ninja's mom gave me. It's awesome but I've got too much jewelry. (Who can have too much!? There's never enough! Mwahahaha!) She also got me this plastic earring/necklace holder thing. Good thing I like earrings and necklaces better than any other type of jewelry. lol

So I have more stuff to add to it, but I hope that I can find some kind of wall-hanging thing for all the clip-on earrings until I turn them into dangling ones. *shrugs* Some of them will stay as clip-ons cause they're better that way.

I'm excited about it...yeah.


Anyone here heard of Maburaho? It's similar to Girls Bravo! in artistic style and general perverseness you know? It's got a decent story line, though. Kinda weird...lol

So...it's like 3 AM where I live. lol
I've been up since...1 PM yesterday, technically. xD

I'm not really tired, but my body knows it's supposed to sleep during the dark hours and I can't seem to stop falling asleep around 4 AM and waking up around noon the next...later that day.

Any suggestions? *off to bed; will read in the afternoon*

*a day late, but whatever*

I told you guys I would give you a list of stuff I got for my birthday, right? Well, the computer fucked me over and deleted everything by some stupid keyboard shortcut that moved you to the previous page in the web browser. That really pissed me off and put me in a mood not to type anything.

So here's the list of birthday stuff. :D

Fat Sharpie Marker Set
Crayola Pip-Squeak Marker Set
Drawing Pad
Tracing Pad
White Knee-High Converse
Mini Pen, Pencil, & Gel Pen Set
Mini Dry Erase Board Marker Set
Random Stationary Items
2 Boxes of Yogos
Green Play Dough
Green Lego Car
Pirate Lego Set
Lap Tray with Side Pockets
Green '70 Plymouth Matchbox Car
Drawing Set with Colored Pencils & Pastels and Metal Case
Tube Socks (for Converse)
A Burger King Pokemon Collectible (Gold Pikachu Card)
Wooden Jewelry Box
Stud Earring Set
Yin-Yang Necklace
2 16" x 20" Stretched Canvas
Catch Phrase Music Edition
Large Plastic Shower Carrying Case
3 Pajama Tank-Top/Shorts Sets
Beach Bag
Beach Towel
Space Ball (Super Bouncy Ball)


That's all I can remember right now. I'll add more later after I remember stuff. ;D

*Quote from about 2 minutes ago:

FUCK!
FUCKITY FUCK FUCK!!!
FUCK.

Fuck my computer...>,>

Hahahahaha! I'm finally 18 officially, damnit!!! *stands randomly on a desk with a big stick*

So I have plans for the whole day tomorrow, including a birthday party and some random shopping with my mom and a family friend. I'll be getting up early (it's currently 2 AM so I should get to bed very soon) to start out with my mom and her friend and her little girl to go shopping at this one sale at a big fancy university in my area. Once that's all fine and dandy-done, I get to go to my boyfriend's house and swim in the pool with a few close friends and hopefully have my little brother's girlfriend come over. We rarely get to see her, so it's special. xD

It'll be a general party with hotdogs, brauts, and hamburgers as well as presents and cake. I think I'll ask my mom to also get ice cream to go with the cake. I heard something about balloons, but I'm trying to play dumb with most things. I will tell you a secret, though. I had some money last weekend and my mom was tight on budget (economy stinks in Michigan) so I went to the mall and got a pair of converse that were on sale. These converse go all the way up to my knee! I was so happy, too! *fan of converse* I also picked up some tube socks to go with it. They're bright colored stripes, but mostly white, like most tube socks are. The catch is that I had my boyfriend give them to my mom so she can give them to me for my birthday.

It's not weird, to do that. My mom finds things in the store that we would never have bought her and she says "Hide it and give it to me on my birthday" or something, cause it's hard to buy gifts for certain people, you know? I'm one of them, give or take...and I didn't know how long those shoes would be on sale.

So I dunno when the party will end or when my brother will be coming, my older one who lives in an apartment, so it's all good. I just have the first part of the day planned out...give or take...


Well, wish me luck and a happy birthday! Awesome, right?
Lin *

I'm feeling a bit...well, deflated, for one.

My eyes are aching from constantly staring at my computer screen for God-only-knows how long and I probably am literally this -> @__@ right now...

And so now, I'm hoping to get off soon. X,x

A few updates:
My birthday's this weekend, for those of you who care. I don't want special stuff, just a random "Happy Birthday" sometime on Saturday.
I just got wireless internet at my house, so I'll be on more often.
School starts for me next Wednesday and I still need to get my books. It's a hassle and I don't have the money for the books. I don't even know what books I'll need for it, so I'll have to PM the teachers or something...

That's really it...oh, and please check out this awesome roleplay by [Thrice]: Masked Morality AND the other awesome roleplay by [Flisky]: Tooth and Talon.

I have characters in both, and they're both awesome...gotta make a home for Alice, though. @__@ I'm so busy already...>,>;

So Chao to you all!
Love yas!
Lin *

Totally taken from [Flisky]! xD

1.You have ten dollars and need to buy snacks at a gas station, what do you buy?
Um...a mega monster, Sour Cream & Cheddar ruffles lays chips, and some gummy things...

2. If you were reincarnated as a sea creature, what would you be?
A seahorse...or dolphin...

3. Who is your favorite redhead?
Um...my friend named Emily.

4. What do you order when you are at IHOP?
I don't like that place. It doesn't do great pancakes at 3 in the morning. @__@

5. Last book you read?
Do mangas count, though? I mean really?

6. Describe your mood.
Sleepy, slightly irritated...done with stuff.

7. Describe the last time you were injured?
Wait, as in "had to go to the hospital" injured or "felt some pain" injured?

8. Of all your friends, who would you want to be stuck in a well with?
Stuck in a well?...my boyfriend. He'd get me out.

9. Rock concert or symphony?
Never been to either.

10. What is the wallpaper of your cell phone?
Some weird orange flower silhouettes.

11. Favorite soda?
Coke, pepsi...something with bubbles...xD

12. What type of shirt are you wearing?
A black t that says "Die Trying" *takes picture of it for your benefit*

13. If you could only use one form of transportation:
...telekinesis?

14. Most recent movie you have watched in theaters?
Ooh...Harry Potter & the Half Blood Prince...big fan of HP movie series...bigger fan of the book series. xD

15. Name an actor/actress/singer you have had the hots for?
Hmm...I'd have to go with a few. For old guys, Sean Connery. For younger guys, and don't hurt me, Heath Ledger.

16. What is your favorite kind of cake?
CHOCLATE! o0o

17. What did you have for dinner last night?
Tacos. I'm part spanish or something. xD

18. Look to your left, what do you see?
A field of grass, the comm. college auditorium, a lamp post, some trees...rocks...lol I'm outside. ;D

19. Do you untie your shoes when you take them off?
Yeah. I can't get 'em off without untying them.

20. Favorite toy as a child?
Ugh...I loved notebooks and pens to write with.

21. Do you buy your own groceries?
Not usually. I always end up coming home with an extra few things for me.

22. Do you think people talk about you behind your back?
Certain people with no lives, yeah.

23. When was the last time you had gummy worms?
A while ago...the last time I went to Meijer's and stole one from the little bulk candy box. xD

24. What’s your favorite fruit?
...um...fruit. >> I like most fruits...

25. Do you have a picture of yourself doing a cartwheel?
No...no one's had a camera when I did them...

26. Do you like running long distances?
No. I don't like running at all. *out of shape*

27. Have you ever eaten snow?
Totally! Who doesn't when it snows every winter?

28. What color are your bedsheets?
Um...one's dark blue...the other has garfield on it...and the other has purple unicorns. @__@

29. What’s your favorite flower?
I like my mom's Yuka plant. It sprouts little see-through lantern-like thingies...xD

30. Do you do ballet?
I did...for about 2 and a half years...

31. Do you listen to classical music?
When the radio plays it.

32. What is the first TV theme song that pops in your head?
TV theme song? Family Guy.

33. Do you watch SpongeBob?
Whenever I baby sit this 4 year old.

34. What temperature is it outside right now?
Um...probably around 64...ish...

35. Do people consider you smart?
Mostly, yes.

36. How many piercings do you have?
One per ear.

37. Are you signed on AIM?
I don't usually do aim.

38. Have you ever tried gluing your fingers together?
Not on purpose...really.

39. How do you feel about your family?
They're great if you live about an hour away from them and only see them during christmas.

40. Do you have an iPod?
Yeah, but it got lost in the black hole of my room.

41. What time do you go to bed?
Um...usually a little past midnight...

42. What CD is currently in your CD player?
What CD player? Who has one of those still? They're like VCRs: vintage.

43. What movie do you know every line from?
Finding Nemo, Harry Potter & the Chamber of Secrets...some others I can't remember the name of right now. xD

44. What is your favorite salad dressing?
Ranch. Usually...don't like varying that.

45. What did you get for Christmas this year?
Stuff...and stuff again.

46. What family member/friend lives the farthest from you?
...um...no idea, really.

47. Do you like hugs?
OMG! OMG! A hug!? You're gonna give me a hug!? YOU'RE MY NEW BEST FRIEND!!!

48. Last time you had butterflies in your stomach?
Um...when Ninja Denmark (my boyfriend's Alias) picked me up on the stairs...I hate heights and looking down the stairs, you feel like there's no ground...O,o...scary.

49. What is the way people most often mispronounce any part of your name?
It's not so much pronouncing it as it is a spelling issue...

50. Last person you hugged?
Ninja Denmark. ^_^ ♥♥♥♥♥

Stolen from [de Morte]

The Basics
Hair Color: All Naturally Dirty Blonde (No Pun Intended. Really.)

Eye Color: Hazel

Height: 5'6"

Profession: House Nanny *To Be Changed.

Relationship Status: Involved

What's Your Sign?: Leo

Any Siblings?: 2 Brothers.

Shoe size: US-8.5

Where were you born?: Michigan

Innie or Outie: Innie

Righty or Lefty?: Righty

Any pets?: 2 dogs, 5 cats (I want a kitten again.)

What month were you born in?: August

My Favorites
Favorite Color: Soft Lime Green

Favorite Hobby: Drawing

Favorite Book/Author: Tie between Earth's Children Series and Dramacon

Favorite School Subject: Mathematics (I'm crazy smrt in it. xD)

Favorite Vacation Destination: Michigan Adventures

Favorite Food: Pepperoni Pizza

Favorite Animal: Horse

Favorite Childhood Memory: Don't have one.

Favorite Person In Your Life: Ninja Denmark

Favorite Facebook Application: ...what the hay?

Favorite Possession: Laptop

Mall Store: Barnes & Noble (Book store)

Favorite Fast Food Restaurant: Taco Bell

Sandlot or Little Rascals: ...what?

Favorite Holiday: St. Patrick's Day

Favorite Number: ...dunno.

Favorite Hard Candy: caramel thingies old people eat

Favorite Month: October/November

Favorite Ice Cream: Cookies'n'Cream

Favorite Smell: ...Ninja's shampoo...xD

Favorite Drink: Chocolate Milk/Flavored Water

Favourite kind of pants: comfy jeans

This or That
Chocolate or Vanilla: Chocolate

Big Mac or Whopper: Both

Coke or Pepsi : Both

Beer or Wine: N/A

Coffee or Tea: Tea

Apple Juice or O.J.: Apple Juice

Facebook or MySpace: Neither

Summer or Winter: Winter

Windows or Mac: Windows

Cats or Dogs: Cats

Boxers or Briefs: boxers

Rain or Shine: Rain

Chips or Popcorn: Flavored Chips/Kettle Corn

Salty or Sweet: Both

Plane or Boat: ...

Morning or Night: Night

Movie or Play: Movie

Walk or Drive: Biking/Roller Skating

Money or Love: Love

Breakfast or Dinner: Both

Forgiveness or Revenge: Forgiveness

Paint or Wallpaper: Paint

House or Apartment: House

Truth or Dare: Truth, then Dare

Contacts or Glasses: Glasses

Root beer or Dr. Pepper: Root Beer

Mud or Jell-O wrestling: ...Jell-O

Skiing or Boarding: Swimming

Silver or Gold: Silver, mostly

Diamond or pearl: Colored Diamond

Sunset or Sunrise: Sunset

Phone or in person: In Person

Oldest, middle, youngest or only child: Middle

Indoor or Outdoor: Indoor

Do You?
Have Any Pets: Yes

Have Any Children: No

Smoke: No

Drink: No

Exercise: Rarely

Spend Your Life On Facebook: No

Play On A Sports Team: Yes

Belong To Any Organizations: No

Love Your Job: Kinda

Like To Cook: Depends

Play An Instrument: Yes

Sing: Yes

Dance: Yes

Speak Multiple Languages: Barely

Ice Skate: No

Swim: Always

Paint: Yes

Write: Yes

Ski: No

Juggle: No

Do you wish you lived somewhere else?: No

Do you like roller coasters?: Hell NO!

Enjoy spending time with your Mother?: Yup

Ever think about the price of gasoline?: Don't really do much

Sleep with a fan on?: Can't sleep without the sound easily

Have a good handle on spelling?: Yes

Ever type "kik" instead of "lol?: No

Know how to play chess?: Yes

Ever miss being a little kid?: Yeah

Want to get married?: Someday

Have You Ever
Stolen Anything: Yes

Been Drunk Before Noon: No

Had Sex In A Public Place: No

Got Caught Telling A Lie: Yes

Got A Speeding Ticket: No

Been Arrested: No

Littered: Usually Don't

Fantasized About A Co-Worker: No

Cheated On A Test: Yup

Cheated In A Relationship: Never

Failed A Class: Yes

Screened Your Phone Calls: Yes

Eaten Food Off The Floor: Yes

Stuck Gum Under A Desk: Not a Desk

Wished You Were Someone Else: Yes

Cried During A Movie: Yeah

Had A One Night Stand: No

Had to pull over on the side of the road to puke?: No

Had your heart broken?: No

Had a good feeling about something?: Yes

Had a near death experience: No

Swam in freezing water: Yes

Jumped off a house: No

Been attacked?: By a Dog

Bungee jumped: Never want to

White water rafted: Nope

Pulled an all nighter?: Yes

Surfed: No

Lied about your age: Yes

Broken a bone?: No