For always having been the artist called,
The flow of words seemed to of awkwardly slowed,
Never was such a fool born,
That ever evoked such scorn,
You were never different, were you?
You just always knew what to do
To infiltrate and then disarm
the safe that was my heart.
Now forget all about this great lie
And leave me alone to just die.


And the set storyline has changed to Prologue->Plot movement with Good Albireo-> Evil Albireo. The third set didn't really have any real material to work with. So without further ado the prologued characters. With only one artwork provided at this point:








The three arted ones are locked in ability wise. The rest might change. I only really am very happy with Albireo and Erumani. Not surprising since I know them best, and have a clear idea of their plot. Elbereth got moved around in a big way as I actually found a way to make her story relevant about a week go. Great timing it turns out, considering life circumstances. Thought about making her black. Decided that was being too vindictive. And honoring all at once. I like Black. Maybe I should make her red...

Whatever. Enjoy.
Some memoir entries coming up soon.

Say what you will. You lost any right to have an opinion over my fate when you betrayed my love for you.

This is what I want, this is how it will be.

All winter, we got carried
Oh way over on the rooftops let's get married.
All summer we just hurried
so come over, just be patient, and don't worry.
So come over, just be patient, and don't worry.

So come over, just be patient, and don't worry.

And don't worry.

Try.......
Try.......
Try.......

No I don't wanna battle from beginning to end;
I don't want cycle or recycle revenge;
I don't wanna follow death and all his friends.

No I don't wanna battle from beginning to end;
I don't wanna cycle or recycle revenge;
I don't wanna follow death and all of his friends.

-----

And in the end,
we'll lie awake,
And we'll dream,
We'll make our escape.

And in the end,
we'll lie awake,
and we'll dream,
We'll make our escape.

Humans are such silly temporal things. Nothing you do can make you last forever, can it?

Wrong. That is why men make art. It is something that supercedes itself, something that goes beyond the ordinary limits of your existence. It is something people remember you for a hundred years later.

Why do we write? Why do we draw, paint, build, sculpt, or act? We do it because it makes us immortal. And that's what all men want in the end isn't it? Someone a thousand years from now wishing they could just walk in your footsteps.

We do what we do because we want to be remembered. not necessarily for what we are, but for what we thought and dreamed.

Why do I write? So that one day my dream of a perfect world can be realized. And no one will have to go through what I have.

A dream that can last an eternity.

anyone lived in a pretty how town
(with up so floating many bells down)
spring summer autumn winter
he sang his didn't he danced his did

Women and men(both little and small)
cared for anyone not at all
they sowed their isn't they reaped their same
sun moon stars rain

children guessed(but only a few
and down they forgot as up they grew
autumn winter spring summer)
that noone loved him more by more

when by now and tree by leaf
she laughed his joy she cried his grief
bird by snow and stir by still
anyone's any was all to her

someones married their everyones
laughed their cryings and did their dance
(sleep wake hope and then)they
said their nevers they slept their dream

stars rain sun moon
(and only the snow can begin to explain
how children are apt to forget to remember
with up so floating many bells down)

one day anyone died i guess
(and noone stooped to kiss his face)
busy folk buried them side by side
little by little and was by was

all by all and deep by deep
and more by more they dream their sleep
noone and anyone earth by april
wish by spirit and if by yes.

Women and men(both dong and ding)
summer autumn winter spring
reaped their sowing and went their came
sun moon stars rain

You know where to find me
Matthew West

I saw your sky fall down today
Suddenly turn from blue to gray
'Til one by one the raindrops
Turned to tears upon your face
Wish there was something I could do
Wish I could ease the pain from you
But I've never felt so helpless
It's like you're drowning right in front of me
And I'm reaching out but you can't see
There's something holding on to you so tight
So I guess this is all I'll say to you tonight

If you ever need me
You know where to find me
I will be waiting
Where I've always been
If you ever need me
You know where to find me
I have never left you
I'm where I've always been
Right by your side
Right by your side

If the whole wide world is on your back
If the strength you need is the strength you lack
If you're in a crowd but all alone
If you can't stay here but you can't go home
If you can't answer all the whys
'Cause you're too tired to reach that high
I want you to remember

If you ever need me
You know where to find me
I will be waiting
Where I've always been
If you ever need me
You know where to find me
I have never left you
I'm where I've always been
Right by your side
Right by your side

If the whole wide world is on your back
If the strength you need is the strength you lack
If you're in a crowd but all alone
If you can't stay here but you can't go home
If you can't answer all the why's
'Cause you're too tired to reach that high
I want you to
I need you to remember

If you ever need me
You know where to find me
I will be waiting
Where I've always been
If you ever need me
You know where to find me
I have never left you
I'm where I've always been
Right by your side
Right by your side

Strawberry Swing
Coldplay

They were sitting
They were sitting on the Strawberry Swing
Every moment was so precious

They were sitting
They were talking under Strawberry Swing
Everybody was for fighting
Wouldn't wanna waste a thing

Cold, cold water bring me 'round
Now my feet won't touch the ground
Cold, cold water what ya say?
When it's such…
It's such a perfect day
It's such a perfect day

I remember
We were walking up to Strawberry Swing
I can't wait until the morning
Wouldn't wanna change a thing

People moving all the time
Inside a perfectly straight line
Don't you wanna just curve away?
When it's such…
It's such a perfect day
It's such a perfect day

Ahhh...

Now the sky could be blue
I don't mind
Without you it's a waste of time

Could be blue
I don’t mind
Without you it’s a waste of time


Could be blue,
Could be gray
Without you I’m just miles away

Could be blue
I don’t mind
Without you it’s a waste of time



Damn you Rachel, I guess I am a strawberry swing person. Definitely not a Violet Hill person. When have I ever fought over anything?

*sigh*

"
I've read your poems, how about you read one of mine.



There was a man who walked the same path everyday,
He hadn't been born to it but he'd chose the way

He'd knowingly made her his Sun,
but while he spinned in circles, she had moved on

His friend stood to the side offering love and help from the start,
But he couldn't hear her, for he was deaf to all but the beating of his broken heart

His pockets were full of this and that, a hanky or so he'd found on the path;
maybe it would lead him to his love or perhaps bring her back

Alas what he was looking for couldn't be found,
For by those feelings she was no longer bound

She had chosen her way and was living once more,
While he crouched lonely, outside the door

He himself had chosen this path,
Like someone choosing to walk on shattered glass

He could fix his heart at any time,
But if this was suggested he'd accuse them of crime

How could he who's love was so pure,
Just give up and put it on the shelf

He never realized this was all about himself

Once in a while he'd turn to his friend,
Who would welcome him and make amends

But soon enough it would show;
He was just using her, just wanted to know.

Know how his love was, so far away
And through his friend perhaps he could say

She would hurt at this for she's believed he cared,
But it seemed he had too many problems to ever be aware

She was friends to both, but the Sun responded to her love and gave it back,
Sometimes double,
He gave nothing at all an only called when in trouble

She'd waited patiently with nothing in return, just trying to make him happy
Maybe then he'd see... but perhaps it was not to be

For he still walks the path and she continues to wait,
Trying to be strong

For she fears what would happen if he were to finally discover he'd been wrong,
And he'd reach out his hand... but she'd be gone."

Samantha, for what it's worth, you're probably the best friend I ever had, so thank you. And you're right, aren't you?

A Comet Appears
The Shins

One hand on this wily comet,
Take a drink just to give me some weight,
Some uber-man I'd make,
I'm barely a vapor

They shone a chlorine light on,
A host of individual sins,
Let's carve my aging face off,
Fetch us a knife,
Start with my eyes,
Down so the lines,
Form a grimacing smile,

Close your eyes to corral a virtue,
Is this fooling anyone else?
Never worked so long and hard,
To cement a failure,

We can blow on our thumbs and posture,
But the lonely are such delicate things,
The wind from a wasp could blow them,
Into the sea,
With stones on their feet,
Lost to the light and the loving we need,

Still to come,
The worst part and you know it,
There is a numbness,
In your heart and it's growing,

With burnt sage and a forest of bygones,
I click my heels,
Get the devils in line,
A list of things I could lay the blame on,
Might give me a way out,

But with each turn,
It stays front and center,
Like a dart stuck square in your eye,
Every post you can hitch your faith on,
Is a pie in the sky,
Chock full of lies,
A tool we devise,
To make sinking stones fly,

And still to come,
The worst part and you know it,
There is a numbness,
In your heart and it's growing.

Kill me. It'd be easier, and make everyone happier.

Since I've managed to fail doing it myself.

Sittin' here
Dreaming of days far from here
late and no particular year oh oh oh
You wore that dress, no the one right there
Dance like you do
Flowers fumble from your hair oh oh

I must confess you're all I dream about
All that I think without
Never have a single doubt
To sing out, whatever it is you're trying to say now
Whatever is on your mind
Sing out whatever it is you're trying to say now
Whatever is on your mind

You're so shy don't know what you're worth
but you're worth so much more
More than any song could implore
Your family's gone so let's start our own
Down along the wood
Turn our house into a home

I must confess you're all I dream about
All that I think without
Never have a single doubt
To sing out, whatever it is you're trying to say now
Whatever is on your mind
Sing out whatever it is you're trying to say now
Whatever is on your mind

Sing out whatever it is you're trying to say now
Whatever is on your mind
Sing out whatever it is you're trying to say now
Whatever is on your mind

I always said to follow your heart, didn't I? Well, what do you do when you don't know what it['s telling you.

Or rather, you know what it's telling you and it's something you cannot do. Something that can never happen.

Rachel's always right, in the end you just have ash and memory. I wonder where love ever went.

Or maybe it's time I stopped running.

Well, love. I guess when it came down to it, you and I really were exactly the same weren't we? We both would sacrifice anything and anyone for our own happiness.

Even each other apparently.

Yeah but nobody searches
Nobody cares somehow
When the loving that you've wasted
Comes raining from a hapless cloud
And I might stop and look upon your face
Disappears in the sweet, sweet gaze
See the living thats surrounds me
Dissipate in a violet blaze

Can't you see what you've done to my heart, and soul?
This is a wasteland now

We spies, we slow hands
Put the weights all around yourself
We spies, oh yeah we slow hands
You put the weights all around yourself now

I submit my incentive is romance
I watched the pole dance of the stars
We rejoice cause the hurting is so painless
From the distance of passing cars
But I am married to your charms and grace
I just go crazy like the good old days
You makes me want to pick up a guitar
And celebrate the myriad of ways that I love you

Can you see what you've done to my heart, and soul?
This is a wasteland now

We spies, yeah we slow hands
You put the weights all around yourself
We spies, oh yeah we slow hands
Killer for hire, you know not yourself

We spies, we slow hands
You out the weights all around yourself
We spies, oh yeah we slow hands
We retire like nobody else
We spies, intimate slow hands
Killer for hire you know not yourself
We spies, intimate slow hands
You let the face slap around the self

The past and pending

As someone sets light to the first fire of autumn
we settle down to cut ourselves apart.
Cough and twitch from the news on your face
and some foreign candle burning in your eyes.

Held to the past, too aware of the pending
chill as the dawn breaks and finds us up for sale.
Enter the fog, another low road descending
away from the cold lust, your house and summertime.

Blind to the last cursed affair, pistols and countless lies
a trail of white blood betrays the reckless route your craft is running.
Feed till the sun turns into wood, dousing an ancient torch
loiter the whole day through and lose yourself in lines dissecting love.

Your name on my cast and my notes on your stay
offer me little but doting on a crime.
We've turned every stone and for all our inventions,
in matters of love loss, we've no recourse at all.

Blind to the last cursed affair, pistols and countless lies
a trail of white blood betrays the reckless route your craft is running.
Feed till the sun turns into wood, dousing an ancient torch
loiter the whole day through and lose yourself in lines dissecting love.

Til Kingdom Come

Still my heart and hold my tongue
I feel my time
My time has come
Let me in
Unlock the door
I never felt this way before

And the wheel just keeps on turning
The drummer begins to drum
I don’t know which way I’m going
I don’t know which way I’ve come

Hold my head inside your hands
I need someone who understands
I need someone, someone who hears
For you I’ve waited all these years

For you I’d wait 'til kingdom come
Until my day, my day is done
And say you'll come and set me free
Just say you'll wait, you'll wait for me

In your tears and in your blood
In your fire and in your flood
I hear you laugh, I heard you sing
I wouldn’t change a single thing
And the wheels just keep on turning
The drummers begin to drum
I don’t know which way I’m going
I don’t know what I’ve become

For you I’d wait 'til kingdom come
Until my days, my days are done
And say you'll come and set me free
Just say you'll wait, you'll wait for me
Just say you'll wait, you'll wait for me
Just say you'll wait, you'll wait for me

That's Okay
The Hush Sound

You were a child who was made of glass
You carried a black heart passed down from your dad
If somebody loved you, they'd tell you by now
We all turn away when you're down

You want to go back to where you felt safe
To hear your brother's laughter,
See your mother's face
Your childhood home is just powder white bones
And you'll never find your way back

And when you're gone, will they say your name?
And when you're gone, will they love you the same?
If not, that's okay.
If not, that's okay.

You are broken and callow
Cautious and safe
You are a boundless and beauty
With fright in your face
Until someone loves you,
I'll keep you safe
But like them, I will give you away

And when you're gone, will they say your name?
And when you're gone, will they love you the same?
If not, that's okay.

And when you're gone, will they say your name?
And when you're gone, will they love you the same?
Oh, when you're gone, we won't say your word
But you know that's okay.
Don't you know that's okay?

The artist they would always call you,
But you could never dream now could you?
It was always I who perceived,
You who fell away, who couldn't see

No, no…that wasn't it,
You just couldn't give chase.

Bound up in there heres and whys,
In the dos and don't, goods and bads,
Just go and live, leave the rest behind.
All that matters is; happy or sad.

Oh, how I loved you;
Now to my shame
But our worlds simply;
Weren't the same
You called me foolish,
I called you a heartless wretch,
And in the end I lost my heart
(And my best friend!)
All in one fell swoop

The past; being what it is
Has a funny tendency to stick
Around when you want it gone
And remind you of what you did.

I promised you I'd be what you needed,
And as I promised, nothing I have become,
(though, I must protest, it's rather lonely)

But now…now love, you have ripped apart the cast,
And this time…this time,
It shall be I who will write the script
(with a cast more amenable to what I do and say
Who can use their hearts and chase their dreams
Just as you wished you could
Just as I wish you could…)

So perhaps this shall be goodbye, or perhaps we'll meet again,
Maybe you'll grace me with a talk and a glass of gin,
Once we're old and grayed and lived over our lives,
I'll be here, you'll be there,
And maybe then, we can find the middle.

Or maybe I'll find a fate more akin
To that poor old lad Mercutio

one last glance from a taxi cab
images scar my mind
four weeks felt like years
since your full attention was all mine
the night was young and so were we
talked about life, God, death, and your family
didn't want any promises
just my undivided honesty

and *you sang
oh, oh, things are gonna change now for the better
oh, oh, things are gonna change oh they're gonna change

I am the patron saint of lost causes
a fraction of who I once believed (change)
only a matter of time
opinions I will try and rewrite
if life had background music,
playing your song,
I've got to be honest, I tried to escape you
but the orchestra plays on,

and they sang,
oh, oh, things are gonna change now for the better
oh, oh, things are gonna change

[Chorus 2x:]
hands like secrets are the hardest thing to keep from you
lines and phrases like knives your words can cut me through
dismantle me down, (repair) you dismantle me, you dismantle me

give me time to prove
to prove I want the rest of yours (prelude)
call this a prelude to a lifetime of you,
it's not that I hang on every word,
I hang myself on what you mean,
its not that I keep hanging on,
I'm never letting go,

[Chorus 2x]

[Bridge:]
save me from myself
save me from myself
Help me!
save me from myself
save me from myself

oh, oh, things are gonna change now for the better
oh, oh, things are gonna change

[Chorus 4x]

"If you could of never met me would you of had it that way?"

No. Never. You may never love me, but without loving you, where would I be?

Take what you will, what you will
And leave. Could you kill, could you kill me
If the world was on fire
and nothing was left but hope or desire
And take all that I could require, is this love?
Or am I on the floor over-desperate?
Hold hands streaming of blood again?
And then take full weight of me
Guard my dreams, figure this out,
It's me on my own. Helpless, hurting, hell.
Will you stay strong as you promised?
Cause I'm stranded and bare.
Meanness is washed up and all that I have
is God. Take this and all,
Then grace takes me to a place
Of the father you never had
Ripping and breaking and tearing apart
This is not heaven
This is my hell.