I told you that if my dreams ever died I couldn't be far behind them. Well, all my dreams HAVE died, and those that live are meaningless to me. Yet I can't make you or anyone cry, and here I am, making them cry in life. So why not die and let them cry just one last time?

So I finally get one of my dearest wishes. I'm a sponsered player. I'm going to go to Legacy tournaments all over California. I got the deck of my dreams to play with. And I really don't care anymore. It doesn't really matter.

*fin
Anberlin
Cities

Feels like you're miles from here,
in other towns with lesser names.
Where the unholy ghost doesn't tell
Mary or William exactly what they want to hear.
You remember the house on Ridge Road
told you and the Devil to both just leave me alone.
If this is salvation, I can show you the trembling.
You'll just have to trust me. I'm scared.

I am the patron saint of lost causes.
Aren't we all to you just near lost causes?
Aren't we all to you just lost

Tommy, you left behind
something that will mean everything right before you die.
What if you gained the whole world?
You've already lost four little souls from your life.
Widows and orphans aren't hard to find.
They're home missing daddy who's saving the abandoned tonight.
Wish your drinking would hurry and kill you.
Sympathy's better than having to tell you the truth.

That you are the patron saint of lost causes.
All you are to them is now a lost cause.
All you are to them is now, causes.

Billy, don't you understand?
Timothy stood as long as he could and now
you made his faith disappear.
More like a magician and less like a man of the cloth.
We're not questioning God.
Just those he chose to carry on His cross.
We're no better, you'll see.
Just all of us, the lost causes.

Aren't we all to you just lost causes?
Are we all to you lost?
Lost causes
So all we are to you,
Is all we are, is all we are
All we are is all we are

[Choir, repeated:]
Patron Saint, are we all lost like you?

Take what you will, what you will
And leave. Could you kill, could you kill me
If the world was on fire
and nothing was left but hope or desire
And take all that I could require, is this love?
Or am I on the floor over-desperate?
Hold hands streaming of blood again?
And then take full weight of me
Guard my dreams, figure this out,
It's me on my own. Helpless, hurting, hell.
Will you stay strong as you promised?
Cause I'm stranded and bare.
Meanness is washed up and all that I have
is God. Take this and all,
Then grace takes me to a place
Of the father you never had
Ripping and breaking and tearing apart
This is not heaven
This is my hell.

You are the moon
The Hush Sound

Shadows all around you as you surface from the dark
Emerging from the gentle grip of night's unfolding arms
Darkness, darkness everywhere, do you feel all alone?
The subtle grace of gravity, the heavy weight of stone

You don't see what you possess, a beauty calm and clear
It floods the sky and blurs the darkness like a chandelier
All the light that you possess is skewed by lakes and seas
The shattered surface, so imperfect, is all that you believe

I will bring a mirror, so silver, so exact
So precise and so pristine, a perfect pane of glass
I will set the mirror up to face the blackened sky
You will see your beauty every moment that you rise

-----
I am the Moon

I remember a time so very long ago,
when someone told me that they admired
my humble grace and hidden dignity.
I remember her looking to the sky
and sighing, wishing all could see my light.

She spoke of love and dreams, confiding
not in other men, but with me far above.
She told me my light was pure, and I laughed
Having only seen skewed reflections from the waters.
You believed and loved a light
that everyone took for granted.

You set up a mirror, but to it I was blind.
I saw nothing but the darkness in which I live,
and light warped by so much imperfection.
Finally I learned to see it, I learned to believe
Not for myself; but, when you believed so strongly,
how could I inevitably resist.

But then the sun arose, blurring my light forever.
You left to honor it's blazing might,
When all I could do was echo it's light.
You called me friend, Now call me worthless,
Called me light, now weep when the sun's light leaves,
And you you are left to comfort in my pale light.

So I will shatter you're mirror, so perfect,
So exact. It is as perfectly flawed as you.
It shows me what I don't want to see,
For if I am perfect and good, why did you leave
My comforting light, my only friend.
And worship the sun that is for all to see?

So pardon me, my love, if one night
If one night you are alone, and see
in your little telescope; that I have
shattered to pieces, and fallen to earth
As the sun has replaced me as your night turned to day
And I am unneeded, so unneeded I die.

Heh. Oops.





Added Power and toughness xD

Look Away

She’s everything to everyone
Wish I could have seen it come down
But I heard incorrectly

It seems everything she knows is now
Five minutes ‘till closing
that’s not a lot of time when you’re nervous

And they say, daughter look away, don’t be afraid
When you want to turn back a million times
And it might get colder, but wait ‘till it’s over
Darlin’, you’ll find your way

But she said...

I, will not look away this time
Take all these cuts, and make them shine
And all this pain I’ve held inside
So I can find my way home again
I will not look away this time
Take all these cuts, and make them shine
Don’t want to be perfect, just alright...

He’s on his way to nowhere
‘Cause he heard it was safe there
And safe is something valuable here
He’s spent half his life searching
And the other half working
Hard to find out if Jesus is real

And they said, son look away, don’t be afraid
When you want to turn back a million times
And it might get colder, but wait ‘till it’s over
Son, you will find your way

But he said...

I, will not look away this time
Take all these cuts, and make them shine
And all this pain I’ve held inside
So I can find my way home again
I will not look away this time
Take all these cuts, and make them shine
Don’t want to be perfect, just alright...

Every time, every line,
Every time you wanna say goodbye, sing..

Every time, every line,
Every time you wanna say goodbye, sing..

I, will not look away this time
Take all these cuts, and make them shine
And all this pain I’ve held inside
So I can find my way home again
I will not look away this time
Take all these cuts, and make them shine
Don’t want to be perfect, just alright...

She’s everything to everyone
Wish I could have seen it come down
But I heard incorrectly

It seems everything she knows is now
Five minutes ‘till closing
that’s not a lot of time when you’re nervous

If there ever was a song for both of us....

So, there is already a cycle of creatures that represent the purest example of each color, or the elemental incarnations. At the time they were correct, but a few short sets later a few of them are off kilter (Especially Guile with the recent nerfing of countermagic in every conceivable way.) These creatures are my personal favorite cycle of cards, and thus I printed support for otherwise lackluster creatures:


But no. This was not enough for me. The original cycle was flawed. The mechanics and names did not match (Purity), and I felt other concepts were just plain wrong for their color (Dread). While I liked the cycle, there was room for improvement. So I present, the new and improved Elemental Incarnation cycle:






Comments appreciated.

Already Home
Thousand Foot Krutch

The trouble with truth is it never lies
And the trouble with wrong’s
That it’s never right
So I rest my head under Your light
The trouble with peace, is it never fights
And the trouble with love’s
That it’s always blind
I want to walk to the edge of it
Tonight, and I fall down

I am on my knees
‘Cause You’re everything I need
And I’ve made a mess of myself
On my own
Now I am on my face
And I’m calling out Your name
And I won’t run away
‘Cause I’m already home

The trouble with tears is that they dry
And the trouble within
Made me wanna cry
I’ve never felt so much like I’m alive
I wanna open my eyes and see Your face
If I have to wait a thousand days
I’ll still be right here, right next to You
And I fall down

I am on my knees
(I am on my knees)
‘Cause You’re everything I need
(everything I need)
And I’ve made a mess of myself
On my own
Now I am on my face
(I am on my face)
And I’m calling out Your name
(calling out Your name)
And I won’t run away
‘Cause I’m already home

And I won’t run away
(I won’t run away)
I won’t run away
(I won’t run away)
I won’t run away
‘Cause I’m already home

And I know I haven’t always been
Where You wanted me
I’m standin’ here, arms out
Broken down
Before You

I know I haven’t always been
Where You wanted me
I’m standin’ here, arms out
Broken down

I am on my knees
(I am on my knees)
‘Cause You’re everything I need
(everything I need)
And I’ve made a mess of myself
On my own
Now I am on my face
(I am on my face)
And I’m calling out Your name
(calling out Your name)
And I won’t run away
‘Cause I’m already home

For always having been the artist called,
The flow of words seemed to of awkwardly slowed,
Never was such a fool born,
That ever evoked such scorn,
You were never different, were you?
You just always knew what to do
To infiltrate and then disarm
the safe that was my heart.
Now forget all about this great lie
And leave me alone to just die.


And the set storyline has changed to Prologue->Plot movement with Good Albireo-> Evil Albireo. The third set didn't really have any real material to work with. So without further ado the prologued characters. With only one artwork provided at this point:








The three arted ones are locked in ability wise. The rest might change. I only really am very happy with Albireo and Erumani. Not surprising since I know them best, and have a clear idea of their plot. Elbereth got moved around in a big way as I actually found a way to make her story relevant about a week go. Great timing it turns out, considering life circumstances. Thought about making her black. Decided that was being too vindictive. And honoring all at once. I like Black. Maybe I should make her red...

Whatever. Enjoy.
Some memoir entries coming up soon.

Say what you will. You lost any right to have an opinion over my fate when you betrayed my love for you.

This is what I want, this is how it will be.

All winter, we got carried
Oh way over on the rooftops let's get married.
All summer we just hurried
so come over, just be patient, and don't worry.
So come over, just be patient, and don't worry.

So come over, just be patient, and don't worry.

And don't worry.

Try.......
Try.......
Try.......

No I don't wanna battle from beginning to end;
I don't want cycle or recycle revenge;
I don't wanna follow death and all his friends.

No I don't wanna battle from beginning to end;
I don't wanna cycle or recycle revenge;
I don't wanna follow death and all of his friends.

-----

And in the end,
we'll lie awake,
And we'll dream,
We'll make our escape.

And in the end,
we'll lie awake,
and we'll dream,
We'll make our escape.

Humans are such silly temporal things. Nothing you do can make you last forever, can it?

Wrong. That is why men make art. It is something that supercedes itself, something that goes beyond the ordinary limits of your existence. It is something people remember you for a hundred years later.

Why do we write? Why do we draw, paint, build, sculpt, or act? We do it because it makes us immortal. And that's what all men want in the end isn't it? Someone a thousand years from now wishing they could just walk in your footsteps.

We do what we do because we want to be remembered. not necessarily for what we are, but for what we thought and dreamed.

Why do I write? So that one day my dream of a perfect world can be realized. And no one will have to go through what I have.

A dream that can last an eternity.

anyone lived in a pretty how town
(with up so floating many bells down)
spring summer autumn winter
he sang his didn't he danced his did

Women and men(both little and small)
cared for anyone not at all
they sowed their isn't they reaped their same
sun moon stars rain

children guessed(but only a few
and down they forgot as up they grew
autumn winter spring summer)
that noone loved him more by more

when by now and tree by leaf
she laughed his joy she cried his grief
bird by snow and stir by still
anyone's any was all to her

someones married their everyones
laughed their cryings and did their dance
(sleep wake hope and then)they
said their nevers they slept their dream

stars rain sun moon
(and only the snow can begin to explain
how children are apt to forget to remember
with up so floating many bells down)

one day anyone died i guess
(and noone stooped to kiss his face)
busy folk buried them side by side
little by little and was by was

all by all and deep by deep
and more by more they dream their sleep
noone and anyone earth by april
wish by spirit and if by yes.

Women and men(both dong and ding)
summer autumn winter spring
reaped their sowing and went their came
sun moon stars rain

You know where to find me
Matthew West

I saw your sky fall down today
Suddenly turn from blue to gray
'Til one by one the raindrops
Turned to tears upon your face
Wish there was something I could do
Wish I could ease the pain from you
But I've never felt so helpless
It's like you're drowning right in front of me
And I'm reaching out but you can't see
There's something holding on to you so tight
So I guess this is all I'll say to you tonight

If you ever need me
You know where to find me
I will be waiting
Where I've always been
If you ever need me
You know where to find me
I have never left you
I'm where I've always been
Right by your side
Right by your side

If the whole wide world is on your back
If the strength you need is the strength you lack
If you're in a crowd but all alone
If you can't stay here but you can't go home
If you can't answer all the whys
'Cause you're too tired to reach that high
I want you to remember

If you ever need me
You know where to find me
I will be waiting
Where I've always been
If you ever need me
You know where to find me
I have never left you
I'm where I've always been
Right by your side
Right by your side

If the whole wide world is on your back
If the strength you need is the strength you lack
If you're in a crowd but all alone
If you can't stay here but you can't go home
If you can't answer all the why's
'Cause you're too tired to reach that high
I want you to
I need you to remember

If you ever need me
You know where to find me
I will be waiting
Where I've always been
If you ever need me
You know where to find me
I have never left you
I'm where I've always been
Right by your side
Right by your side

Strawberry Swing
Coldplay

They were sitting
They were sitting on the Strawberry Swing
Every moment was so precious

They were sitting
They were talking under Strawberry Swing
Everybody was for fighting
Wouldn't wanna waste a thing

Cold, cold water bring me 'round
Now my feet won't touch the ground
Cold, cold water what ya say?
When it's such…
It's such a perfect day
It's such a perfect day

I remember
We were walking up to Strawberry Swing
I can't wait until the morning
Wouldn't wanna change a thing

People moving all the time
Inside a perfectly straight line
Don't you wanna just curve away?
When it's such…
It's such a perfect day
It's such a perfect day

Ahhh...

Now the sky could be blue
I don't mind
Without you it's a waste of time

Could be blue
I don’t mind
Without you it’s a waste of time


Could be blue,
Could be gray
Without you I’m just miles away

Could be blue
I don’t mind
Without you it’s a waste of time



Damn you Rachel, I guess I am a strawberry swing person. Definitely not a Violet Hill person. When have I ever fought over anything?

*sigh*

"
I've read your poems, how about you read one of mine.



There was a man who walked the same path everyday,
He hadn't been born to it but he'd chose the way

He'd knowingly made her his Sun,
but while he spinned in circles, she had moved on

His friend stood to the side offering love and help from the start,
But he couldn't hear her, for he was deaf to all but the beating of his broken heart

His pockets were full of this and that, a hanky or so he'd found on the path;
maybe it would lead him to his love or perhaps bring her back

Alas what he was looking for couldn't be found,
For by those feelings she was no longer bound

She had chosen her way and was living once more,
While he crouched lonely, outside the door

He himself had chosen this path,
Like someone choosing to walk on shattered glass

He could fix his heart at any time,
But if this was suggested he'd accuse them of crime

How could he who's love was so pure,
Just give up and put it on the shelf

He never realized this was all about himself

Once in a while he'd turn to his friend,
Who would welcome him and make amends

But soon enough it would show;
He was just using her, just wanted to know.

Know how his love was, so far away
And through his friend perhaps he could say

She would hurt at this for she's believed he cared,
But it seemed he had too many problems to ever be aware

She was friends to both, but the Sun responded to her love and gave it back,
Sometimes double,
He gave nothing at all an only called when in trouble

She'd waited patiently with nothing in return, just trying to make him happy
Maybe then he'd see... but perhaps it was not to be

For he still walks the path and she continues to wait,
Trying to be strong

For she fears what would happen if he were to finally discover he'd been wrong,
And he'd reach out his hand... but she'd be gone."

Samantha, for what it's worth, you're probably the best friend I ever had, so thank you. And you're right, aren't you?

A Comet Appears
The Shins

One hand on this wily comet,
Take a drink just to give me some weight,
Some uber-man I'd make,
I'm barely a vapor

They shone a chlorine light on,
A host of individual sins,
Let's carve my aging face off,
Fetch us a knife,
Start with my eyes,
Down so the lines,
Form a grimacing smile,

Close your eyes to corral a virtue,
Is this fooling anyone else?
Never worked so long and hard,
To cement a failure,

We can blow on our thumbs and posture,
But the lonely are such delicate things,
The wind from a wasp could blow them,
Into the sea,
With stones on their feet,
Lost to the light and the loving we need,

Still to come,
The worst part and you know it,
There is a numbness,
In your heart and it's growing,

With burnt sage and a forest of bygones,
I click my heels,
Get the devils in line,
A list of things I could lay the blame on,
Might give me a way out,

But with each turn,
It stays front and center,
Like a dart stuck square in your eye,
Every post you can hitch your faith on,
Is a pie in the sky,
Chock full of lies,
A tool we devise,
To make sinking stones fly,

And still to come,
The worst part and you know it,
There is a numbness,
In your heart and it's growing.

Kill me. It'd be easier, and make everyone happier.

Since I've managed to fail doing it myself.

Sittin' here
Dreaming of days far from here
late and no particular year oh oh oh
You wore that dress, no the one right there
Dance like you do
Flowers fumble from your hair oh oh

I must confess you're all I dream about
All that I think without
Never have a single doubt
To sing out, whatever it is you're trying to say now
Whatever is on your mind
Sing out whatever it is you're trying to say now
Whatever is on your mind

You're so shy don't know what you're worth
but you're worth so much more
More than any song could implore
Your family's gone so let's start our own
Down along the wood
Turn our house into a home

I must confess you're all I dream about
All that I think without
Never have a single doubt
To sing out, whatever it is you're trying to say now
Whatever is on your mind
Sing out whatever it is you're trying to say now
Whatever is on your mind

Sing out whatever it is you're trying to say now
Whatever is on your mind
Sing out whatever it is you're trying to say now
Whatever is on your mind

I always said to follow your heart, didn't I? Well, what do you do when you don't know what it['s telling you.

Or rather, you know what it's telling you and it's something you cannot do. Something that can never happen.

Rachel's always right, in the end you just have ash and memory. I wonder where love ever went.

Or maybe it's time I stopped running.