An amazing person, but still... shes not ready for my kind of love. she just doesn't have herself open enough to put in what deep love requires... I'm left hanging.. it doesn't hurt.. not at all... but it does leave me empty and drained and I won't let that last. I just pray she'll learn that love requires both to open up to each other... and stay open.

You bring me pain
And laugh away
I sigh in vain
As you tear your way
I go insane
As I lay
Here in chain
Your sadistic way
Bringing true pain
As you hear me say

I love you...
You are my all
My only beauty

And yet I get
None in return
Little but regret
For my 3 words burn
I hate it all and yet
To you I still turn
To the cruelty set
As I simply yearn

i'm not the type of friend that you pay much attention to.. i'm a mutt.. i'm always nearby ifyou need company, but no need to mess with me more than that.. I'll whine for attention a bit, show that i'm still there and that i care... usualy just a small pat on the head in return... you know... just to boost your ego a bit, knowing that you've got one being that loves so much that no matter what, they won't leave... which you find humorous that they stay through it all... I'm just a faithful hound... i defend, and just walk along.. too worn out to go off and have fun... too young to wear out and leave... too faithful to find a new master that cares... just a mutt... an old mutt.