The next dream was scary; not frightening, but twisted...I can't really explain the dream itself really well, but there was this man...and I wasn't myself. What I mean when I say that is that, I wasn't me. I was someone else, a small child, though the dream progressed until this person was almost an adult. This man..he was the twisted one..He made the child kill a rat with his own hand, but the kid was willing to do it if it meant staying with the man, if it meant that the man would allow him to live in his house and learn from him and stay by this man's side...The man must have been evil, I have no doubt of that in my mind..well, almost no doubt..because of the other horrible things that man did, though like I said, the whole dream is just a blur of events...At one point, the small child, a bit older then when the dream started, was going to be drowned by this group of men...There was a little girl there too, and I think, though once again I'm not quite sure, that that was where she died, for she didn't appear again, and like the boy, she had always been at the man's side. But just before the boy was drowned and gone, the man showed up and killed all of the others, all of the ones that were trying to do the killing....it was a very, very strange dream, and I had it a while ago, about a month ago, i think. I'm sure it makes me sound strange or something, but I can't determine what dreams I have, now can I? ^_^

That man...I want to draw him. But I don't think it'll turn out quite right..

more weird dream-ness....two of them in fact..
(I want to copy them down, lest I forget them)
   In the first one, I was in the yard of the house my grandparents lived in before my grandfather died..I was standing next to the rose bushes..and there were other people ther, but they were the sort of people that are always in dreams; the shadowy, faceless masses. Anyway, there were shouts, and I looked up from the rose I was staring at and there was this enormous fox, perfectly groomed, clean as anything; its fur wasn't ragged like a normal fox's fur would be, the fur was the same length all around its body, giving it a rather round appearance, and like i said, it was enormous, a little bigger then a great dane, really..The people around me were freaking out, pointing, and it looked up and saw me and started walking toward us. It jumped both fences (my grandparents yard was placed so that if you wanted to enter the yard from the road beside their house, you had to go up a pathway, over one fence, and then get over the fence in their yard) anyway, it jumped both fences, and weaved its way through the people, who had frozen in their spots, I don't think they moved for the rest of the dream...It stopped beside meand just kind of stared at me for a while, it was the brightest red orange I have ever seen, honestly..it was a sort of melon-ly red orange too..and its eyes were rimmed with black..it was so pretty i just sort of stared back for a while. Then it moved, and i got out of its way, and went over to the rose bush, nosing around in the soil underneath. It stopped, and pointed a paw at the ground, whining a little bit. I went to dig with my hands where it pointed, but I stopped, not quite sure that I should dig with my hands. I saw a pen sitting nearby and dug with it. After a little while I pulled out this big flat stone, and I thought that that was what it had wanted, but it motioned for me to keep digging, so I did. After a little while longer, I unearthed berries. Honest to god, a handful of various berries...I offered them to the fox, and it just sort of stared at me with those black rimmed eyes..it's irises were gold..it stared for a while, then bent its head down and ate them. But it didn't seem satisfied, in fact I think it actually said something at this point it the dream, and I said something back, but I can't remember what it was..I wish I could..anyway, i went and got an icetray, and (apparently the gathering we were having was some kind of barbeque..) filled three (it was only two rows of three, another strange thing) of one side with pale ground hamburger, which I then doused with water, (again, I have no idea why) but that didn't seem enough, so I grabbed some of the bright red strips of beef from the small fridge (which was, btw, outside as well) and filled the other side with them, folding them up, speaking to the fox the entire time. I returned to where the fox was, and watched him eat it all..i dont remember, he may or may not have thanked me, and then i woke up.
     The second dream was very strange indeed, and I don't think I was even in it..I shall post it in another diary entry, this one is pretty long..nah, Ill just add it here later..its getting fuzzier and fuzzier..

I keep having the same dream over and over again, I haven't really told anyone about it before now, either...The thing is, i never remember having had the dream before then until I'm having it again, and I can never remember it fully...its got some kinda meaning, I know it must, or I wouldn't be having it so often..i can only remember bits of it..tests, not written or anything, but sort of tasks...one of which was rather scary...something about foxes..rather, one fox...it was white...

I also went to one of the best parties I've been to in a long time yesterday. When I first got there, I was a little aprehensive, I was afraid there wouldn't be a lot of people I knew. Anyway, by the time I got there (only 15 minutes late) the band was setting up, and I didn't see anyone but Alice, [Ally Girl] that I really knew. I gave her her present, yada-yada-yada, (-^_^-) saw Ariana [IT'S A BOY] and Star, and talked to them for a while. Brittany got there, [Brit.], and we talked, laughed, blahblahblah..it was fun. I was used as a human sheild for a while, cause Ari's afraid of dogs and there were three of them. I was actually thrown in front of a dog as Ariana LEAPT over a car... then, ariana took it as her personal duty to free me of my inhibitions, you can just imagine how well that went. I ended up screaming "BOBBY!! ... COCK!" across the yard, and three people were trying to pull my shirt off me.. I was more or less maliciously "touched" for a while by several people, and at one point unexpectantly kissed on the cheek. hmm...what else?I found out that I can carry Star, I was mooned by Mike, (several others were also victims of the grevious event) during his "Construction-worker-with-a-machine-gun act...Ari and I were attacked by a small child. While I was out, lying on the grass with Ari and waiting for the storm to start(everyone else had gone inside, save for Ari, me, this one girl,and a couple..oh! and the little kid) , she sat on me, quite suddenly, took the breath outta me. ^_^;; I threw her off, and that was when the child attacked her. It was hilarious really..she was screaming her head off..then he came for me, and of course, i was screaming..its a scary sight, a small boy running toward you screaming when your lying on the grass and can't get up. It was even worse when he flung himself on me. Anyway, we migrated over to the swingset, but we heard thunder. Under protests from Ari ("but im dead~! CAN'T YOU SEE THE DEATH IN THESE EYES?!?!") I dragged her inside off the giant lighting rod, under the promise that the dogs would be taken upstairs. The band started to play, and i was just standing there..listening..Ariana turned around to me, screamed "You have to move!! (she had to scream, the band was v. loud...) Look like an idiot! They need that!! Trust me!" So, laughing, i actually danced, moshed...at one point the small child was crowd surfing..By the time the band stopped for a break, it smelled like an italian sub in there, and we all (band included) went out into the rain, which has lessened, to play dodgeball. When that was over, (my team lost horribly) most people went back inside, some people stayed out longer...the party kind of calmed a bit after that and my mom came and picked me up. It was great too, soon as I got in the car, she said "You are SO lucky" Why? said I. " 'cause I almost sent your father to come and get you....rough crowd.." >.<

I had a very very strange dream last night..
it was something about a book, i can't remember the details, but it was scary...there was some scientist, and she was talking about testing some theory from a book about some sunken boat with a shark, but we couldn't get a shark or a real boat, so we used a scale model and bought some really deadly tiny fish that had a needle-like protrusion on its face...Anyway, we got one of those fake sunken ships, like you put in an aquarium, you know? and we put the fish in the aquarium, and suddenly we were all really small, i don't know how, but everyone just took it in stride like "Duh, of COURSE we're small.." like people in dreams always are. Then three guys showed up, three older guys with beards and the such, dressed kind of like people in meidevil times, but really in a cool way, know what i mean? i can't remember there names, but they were really important, the names i mean, and i recognized them from somewhere. Anyway, they were supposed to swim into the ship without getting stabbed by the fish and get some treasure. So they swam in and the fish was released after they had swum somedistance down into the tank (to give them a chance or something) but something went terribly wrong, and the first two guys got out, but the third guy was stuck in the tank, he couldn't get up the ladder out of it, and the fish was stabbing him in the back of the neck..there was blood and I was screaming his name..Rab something..Rap-I don't remember!! Anyway, he got out, and somehow, he wasn't hurt, but the fish somehow got out of the water and was flying around the room, it looked like a mosquito, it was attacking the walls, bouncing against them like a mosquito does, and it was coming closer and closer to us, not intentionally apparently, but then the scientist moved and it noticed us and started to fly toward us. But it landed on the wall beside us first, like it was trying to see which one of us it wanted to kill..and none of us could move. Then suddenly, one of the guys just reached forward and smashed it with his finger. then, like nothing had happened, the scientist walked over to a nearby table and starting talking about doing the experiment again, but this time, why didn't we use a different kind of fish, something not so deadly, but something that was still going to come after us, to replicate the idea of a shark.. And then, there I was, and where normally I would have been screaming my head off, I was suggesting that we use a goldfish, because they would go after us if we were small enough, but i f they got us ,what could they do? they were goldfish, right? and everyone just kind of looked at me like i was stupid, and laughed, but in a kind way, and i laughed, and then..I woke up. >.<

there it was...under the curb...I walked past it, but stopped (in the middle of the road, mind you) i thought "What if thats the one pencil i needed to be able to draw again? And I just walked past it.....well, now it has to be...it'll either be a magic pencil or a cursed pencil...better go pick it up...at which point I turned around and picked it up. and then walked back across the road at the van that was waiting for me on the other side..

This is from DNAngel...hehehe...

Keiji:Well then, lets get down to business. Daisuke, UNDRESS.


Daisuke:WHAT? Are you kidding me?! No way! Forget it!


Keiji: I can't tell with your school uniform on. Funabashi, if you please.


Funabashi: (Holding Daisuke's arms back) Excuse me.


Daisuke: Hey!! Ahh! Stop it! Prevert!


Keiji:Be quiet and take it like a man!


Daisuke: What are you doing to me?!? NOOOOOO!!


Keiji:Relax! It only seems weird at first!


Funabashi:Sir...may I ask why you're undressing..?


Keiji:I'm not! Uh...its just loose...heehee!..All right, Let's try
again shall we?


Daisuke:Why..Why me?


Henchmen 1:(outside the door) there he goes again...


Keiji:Oh ho! This is on pretty tight! Ha ha! This too! C'mon! Off, off off!


Henchman 2: He sounds like a dirty old man..


Keiji: There! What do you think?

i JUST MADE $20! woo hoo...^_^

This happened to me today..
at school...walking...yeah, ok, so just read it.
Every time I'm walking that length of concrete my mind goes complelety blank..I can't help it, it just does...so anyway, this was my thought process..
::singing:: I feel good, really good..dont know why but i feel really good..::singing continues in the background::
nother voice: must think of something to say...must think...THINK THINK THINKTHINKTHINK!! stop singing!!
::singing continues::
::other voice continues to ramble::
nother voice: I like those trees...they're pretty...I wonder what kind of tree they are?
yet another: I dunno..
why not?
cause i dont..
YOU SHOULD!
DONT YELL AT ME!
TREEEES!!
Ask someone!
They wont know either!
::that second voice stops rambling:: it would be something to talk about..
no, no..that won't do at all..
WHAT KIND OF TREES ARE THOSE?!?!
I DON"T KNOW DARN IT!!
::still singing::
...at which point I started to laugh outloud..

i was awake at like 3AM one night/morning...inu-yasha ended and Big O was on..I tried to fall asleep, but before i did, i felt my legs moving like i was running on all fours, but i could also feel that my legs weren't moving at all. I kinda half fell asleep, i could still hear Big O in the background...anyway, i had a dream then thati was a wolf, black one, in a pack. It was snowy and we surrounded a herd of caribou...we started running and pulled one down..it was really weird because i could feel the caribou thrashing, the throat in my teeth, things like that...i could even taste it. We killed it and ate it, there were even some weird memories i had in the dream of things that had happened to the wolf before...then i lay down and fell asleep and woke up (really.)

i feared that if this were in my house, they'd take it down..but i had to put it somewhere..its just too wonderful!!! ^__^

What she's saying is
"That power is mine!" from the last episode...::sniff::

More old stuff..
I like quotes..little bits of knowlege that represent who a person is...yeah. ^_^;

"Everything has a beginning and an end. Life is just a cycle of starts and stops, there are ends we don't desire, but they're inevitable, we have to face them, its what being human is all about."-Jet Black


"Guess my strong point is my stamina. These little scratches are nothing at all. ... Like I said, nothing at all. ... I'd appreciate it if you'd...STOP TOUCHING ME!"-Sanosuke Sagara


"Thou shalt not kill, remember?! What the hell kind of preacher-man are you anyway?!"-vash the stampede


WOrds of wisdom...from ed:
"Mmmm... Pudding!"
"Bebop! Here here! Alright! Woohoo!"
"NO WAY! No way no way no way no wayyy no way no way no way no waaay no way no way no way no way no way no way no way no way no way no way no way no way no way no way no way no way no way no way no way no way no way!!!! Waahhh-Haah! No Way!!... Oh! it's Faye-Faye!"
"Data, data. Bogus data!"
"Satellite from days of old, lead me to your access code!"
"High socks are cool!"
"Not coming for Ed, oohlala."
"Ed love Piyokos!"
"It's show time!!! Nyyyooommmm!!"
"Ein!!! Who are you talking to?"
"Faye-Faye! Smoke smoke, Faye-Faye! Puff puff, Faye-Faye!"
"Faye-Faye, some weird mail came came for Bebop Bebop.
"The computers ka-put and we're drifting in space toward oblivion."
"Ed's got data!"
"PUDDING!!"



AND THE PIECE DE'..UMM..MY FAVORITE!


"Most things get better if I kick 'em"-Spike Speigal



http://www.geocities.com/padfootmk/rkquiz.html hehe! I got Sano!

Im moving this stuff from my house to my diary to make space, so the new stuff for a while will just be old stuff from my house! ^_^;; keep checking tho, eventually, it'll be new.
A - Age: 14
B - Best Quality: I have no idea...
C - Choice Of Meat:Medium Rare Steak!yum!
D - Dream Date: hmmm...
E - Ex: is not important
F - Favorite Food: Beef and Broccolli over white rice!
G - Greatest Accomplishment: not sure
H - Happiest Day of Your Life: hmm..dunno
I - Internal conflicts: a few
J - Job title: Babysitter...XP
K - Kool-Aid: Cherry
L - Love: Pomegranate...and Gackt
M - Most Valued Thing I Own:My Coyote Claw necklace
N - Name: For all intensive purposes..Ed
O - Outfit You Love: My short black skirt with my knee high boots, my Claw Necklace and the black jacket I bought in Paris! ^_^
P - Pizza Toppings: pepperoni and Onion!
Q - Question you want to ask: Who me? Not me. Couldn't be. Then who?
R - Red is what: hmm...the color of blood
S - Sport To Watch: nahnahnah...no.
T - Television Show:Animes!!..2 many to choose from..
U - Unique habit: Spontaneously bursting into japanese song..i.e. "Real Folk Blues"
V - Very bad habit: Nail biting.._-_
W - Winter: I love Snow but i hate da cold!
X - X-rays you've had: none
Y - Year Born: 1989
Z - Zodiac Sign: Sagitarius!! I probably didn't even spell that right but who cares! Element of sagitarius is FIRE!! And in the Chinese Zodiac, I am an Earth Snake!

"Watermelon. Or like a panda with a mean face. Or like sandals with pressure points drawn on them. Or the smell of a blackboard eraser. Or a Sunday morning when you wake up..and its raining. Well, I like him more then hard bread."--Mamimi Samejima, FLCL
   I just love this quote, its one of my favorites, but I could never remember it. I finally dragged out the CD last night and watched that part of the episode. Do you know what it means? Its why I love it so much. Because of its meaning, not so much as because of the randomosity. Mamimi is explaining to Noata how much she likes his brother. She's talking about the sort of love that you reserve for those special things. The things that you love and appreciate, but don't quite know why. Do you understand? ^_^

I gotta post this!! Its my favorite song right now!! So wonderfully creepy and sad!
GOLLUM'S SONG!!
Where once was light
now darkness falls
where once was love
love is no more...
don't say..goodbye
...don't say..I didn't try
These tears we cry..
are falling rain
for all the lies you told us!
the hurt! the Blame!!
And We will weep..
to be so alone..
we are lost..we can never..go home..
So in the end..I'll be what I will be..
no loyal friend..was ever there for me
Now we say..goodbye
We say..you didn't try!!
These tears you cry..
have come too late!!
Take back the lies you told us!
The hurt! The blame!
And you will weep,
when you face the end alone!
You are lost..you can never..go home..
you are..lost..
you can never..
go..home..

Sorry..I had to put this where I could...^_^
"Gotta Knock a lil harder" from the Cowboy Bebop movie, Knockin On Heaven's Door.
Happiness is just a word to me
And it might have meant a thing or two
If I'd known the difference


Emptiness, a lonely parody
And my life, another smokin' gun
A sign of my indifference


Always keepin' safe inside
Where no one ever had a chance
To penetrate a break in


Let me tell you some have tried
But I would slam the door so tight
That they could never get in


Kept my cool under lock and key
And I never shed a tear
Another sign of my condidtion


Fear of love or bitter vanity
That kept me on the run
The main events at my confession


I kept a chain upon my door
That would shake the shame of Cain
Into a blind submission


The burning ghost without a name
Was calling all the same
But I wouldn't listen


The longer I'd stall
The further I'd crawl
The further I'd crawl
The harder I'd fall
I was crawlin' into the fire


The more that I saw
The further I'd fall
The further I'd fall
The lower I'd crawl
I kept fallin' into the fire
Into the fire
Into the fire


Suddenly it occurred to me
The reason for the run and hide
Had totaled my existnce


Everything left on the other side
Could never be much worse that this
But could I go the distance


I faced the door and all my shame
Tearin' off each piece of chain
Until they all were broken


But no matter how I tried
The other side was licked so tight
That door it wouldn't open


Gave it all that I got
And started to knock
Shouted for someone
To open the lock
I just gotta get through the door


And the more that I knocked
The hotter I got
The hotter I got
The harder I'd knock
I just gotta break through the door


Gotta knock a little harder
Gotta knock a little harder
Gotta knock a little harder
Break through the door..........