I'm finding that my mind has been slightly affected by my choice of watching lately...when i haven't been doing things that have actually sort of given me the vestiges of muscles, i've been watching nothing but Sifl and Olly...



"It's a simple equation folks..
Canibalism * apocalypse^2 - guilt/people = hot dog junction"

I'd like to apologize right now for my moods lately. I haven't meant to act the way I have, and it's completely wrong for me to do as I have. I haven't really been acting upon the outbursts of anger and possessiveness in my head, because I know I shouldn't. But the very fact that they exist is reason enough for apologies, don't you think? Just little things are causing outbursts of rage and jealousy, things that shouldn't bring about such things..It could just be that I'm simply frustrated because of certain things that have or have not been happening lately...I'm not going into details, don't ask, no matter who you are, ok? I'm hostile right now, I don't know why--- I won't let the actions in my mind reach my body, but it's altering the way I act towards people anyway, because I'm restraining myself...I don't like this! But to fix it, I'd have to either just burst out at someone, or wait for it to go away..

I won't let myself be the me I am in my mind..

kenshin-y goodness!!

LUCKY LUCKY LUCKY LUCKY LUCKY!!!!

This is simply a little note to myself; ignore it if you want, means no difference to me. ^_^
Diabolos Concert Songs (in order)
1)Dybbuk-----Gackt & You rapping! How do they make that sound good?!?
2)White Eyes-----Holy....monkeys
3)Dispar-----0.0 favorite....song...ever..
4)Metamorphoze----- (no comment on it yet)
5)Redemption-----new song for Dirge of Cerberus! (love it!)
6)Ash-----(no comment on it yet)
7)Misty-----awesome Gackt & You duet!
8)Lust for Blood-----0.0 vampire~gackt! with a big floaty coffin!
9)Noesis-----(no comment on it yet)
10)Farewell------(no comment on it yet)
11)Future-----weird dancers.....
12)Black Stone-----yay! The Black Stone jacket returns!!
13)Mirror-----So...much....energy!! They look like they're having so much fun....TT-TT
...
How many times can one man scream "Yeah?!"
14)U+K-----As always..so very kawaii..but with way too much "Nya nya"-ing
15)Storm-----0.0 Must...learn....dance!
16)Road-----(no comment on it yet)
17)Todokanai Ai to Shitteita no ni Osae Kirezu ni Aishitsuzuke-----(no comment on it yet)
18)12gatsu no Love Song-----(no comment on it yet)
19)Love Letter-----(no comment on it yet)

::watches it all::
::watches it all again::
o___________0
::falls over::
I gotta get to Japan. I'll endure all the perverts on trains....I just gotta get to one a' his concerts!

Thank the lord in heaven for YouTube! Some wonderful, ANGELIC individual has posted all of Moon Child in 7 minute bits so that it doesn't screw up halfway through the movie because of it's length. I'm only on Part 6...which is just before the unveiling of Yi-Chen's (sp?)mural, but still! So great!!! The fight scenes, though a bt exagerated, are great--even funny...like Kei waltzing with the dead guy and using his gun, still in said dead guys hand, to shoot all of his pals...::dances around::I found Moon Child~I found Moon Child...::skips off::

Hmmm....life right now is stressful once again, friends. Why is it that there only seem to be tiny spaces of non-stressful times before a lot of deadlines crop up again? ::sigh:: Ah well. Despite the stress, life is still good. I'm really worried about my grade in Honors Alg III/Pre-calc...but I don't know if theres much I can do about it save hope I don't crash and burn on the mid-term...argh! Happy things to say~happy things!!! hmm...::imitates a certain someone:: "Hey Allee, (my nickname) what's that on your neck? Hmmmmm?".....hehe....yeah, ::cough::bitemark::cough:: anyway~ something else has happened as well that surprised me greatly, but I don't think it has to be discussed right now. Nonetheless, somehow, its been making my miss that certain person much more, well, its not only that that makes me miss him more, I miss him more each time he has to go, but you know what I mean. There's a different kind of missing mixed in; it was there before, but it's much....well, stronger now. Curse the inability to stop the thoughts. I doubt I'll be able to keep my promise to go to sleep before 11:30 now. TT-TT Curse it all!!

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haha! I have written my first Private Diary entry! None shall read, and all shall despair at the lack of their knowledge of my posting!! ::maniacal~type giggles::

I might not be on here as often as I used to me, schoolwork, chores, and Rosetta Stone are keeping me kinda busy.I might be able to get a couple of new pics on here sometime soon, depending on if i can get Photoshop to work or not...I've got an idea for an actual drawing instead of all the simple doodles I've been doing. (I'll only say the some of my presents are involved, as well as a can of Pledge and a Swiffer) Life's going pretty good now actually, I mean, a lot of stressful things have just ended, and my birthday party was a lot of fun as well. Got to see a lotta old friends again. Matthias, Chris [Tarek Tavaria], big chris, Jenn, Ari and Kenny-kun [ozo] were there, as well as a lot of new friends, Charisa, Paul, Kyle, Adrianne, and of course, Martin [Signe]. Everyone got along pretty much perfectly, which surprised me, not that I expected them to hate each other or something. There was a great deal of innuendo dealt around as well. Good times all around.^_^
On a slightly different note, ummmm...i dunno what i was gonna say here...hmmmmmmmmm...well, good dreams lately, not going to go into detail, but good dreams have been had. I'm pretty sure some of them were significant, but I can't remember...ah well, I'm sure I'll get it eventually.
Well, thats it for now, bai dear friends.

YAY!!

guess who?
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Couple of new things to talk about, sorry I haven't been on lately, dear friends, but I've been pretty busy. Anyway, one thing I've been getting some weird looks about is my current mood, namely: "I demand the skin of a 5 year old!"

well, see, its a long story. I was watching tv, and there was this commercial for anti-aging skin-creme type stuff. The lady using it was like "Make your skin look up to 10 years younger!" getting angry at the commercial, as I often do, I went off on a rant which sounded something like: "Oh yeah, thats soooo what I need, I mean, look at me. Don't I look 15? Yeah...I'm so not aging gracefully enough. Now, skin that looks 10 years younger, thats what I need. I demand the skin of a 5 year old!"
 As I was in the process of saying that last sentence, my dad walked into the room and gave me the strangest look I have ever recieved.... ^_^;;;


but since then, it's developed into meaning exactly what it sounds like. ^-^ It also gave birth to a strange conversation about me being the Empress of Nevada, and feeding rabid monkeys to lions. Well, really, the sick villagers were fed to the rabid monkeys, who were then thrown to the lions...it's a long story too.


Any~way....my life has been pretty good socially lately, school-wise too, If I really consider everything, though it has kept me constantly on deadline for things. >< Me and Martin are great (martin = perfection, remember? at least, for me. I hate it when people say "I've got the best boyfriend in the world! Your's couldn't even compare!" It just seems presumptuous, don't you think? I mean, I completely understand that you wouldn't trade your boy for anyother in the world. I wouldn't trade mine for Gackt. It's just the particular wording that bothers me. Wow, I never ended those parenthesis, did I? Crap....this is all an aside, isn't it? Well, here.) There we go.
  Now, back to what I was saying. Martin and I, greatness, you get it. I've found myself the perfect freak for me. ::Mumble::He likes to be bitten...::mumble:: Which works out perfectly, of course. -^.^- Cause, don't you know? I'm a freak too...he hasn't hesitated to remind me of the fact. And every once in a while, he'll say just one little word that reminds me of an entire occurance, of then of course, I start to blush... He'll just look at me, smile and say something like, "Ear" or "Pop-rocks..." or, God Forbid, "camera.." then giggle or some such evil action. I haven't told you guys about Pop-rocks, have I? Would you like to know? Hmm...well, If you don't then just don't keep reading, cause I'm gonna write it in anyway.
   We were sitting in the library during study hall, munching on various foodstuffs, when m'friend Charisa pulls out what else but a bag of Pop-rocks. I ate some, got an idea, which Martin immediately, and creepily, picked up on, without me saying anything...I said, "You know what I bet would be weird?" and he just looked at me and started giggling. A few moments later, I kissed him....with a mouthful of pop-rocks...he cracked up and said, "I knew thats what you were gonna do!"
   Let's see, what else is there for me to mention? I had a rather interesting dream in which I got to kick a person in the head and then beat them with a gun, I finally got some more pocky through Charisa, who, by the way, is also now my source for some really nice Yaoi...^_^;; Hmmm...went and saw Corpse Bride, it was ok, Tim Burton's technique has definitely improved, even the little clay boobs were all jiggly. ^_^ Saw that with martin, jenn, and ari--the latter decided to tell Martin about hobbitses-ness and the homecoming incident. Oh! and I got Martin addicted to DDR now too..even after I was too tired to stand, he was still trying to beat xenon; he improved so quickly, it was scary! Wow, I bet this diary entry is really long now, I guess I'll stop writing...^_^;; sorry~!

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argh!!!

::falls down, beating the floor with fists::

damn the whole stupid population! You just have to exist at the most inoppurtune moments, don't you? If you could have the courtesy, nay, the decency to just STOP existing for a few precious moments, we wouldn't have these problems, now would we?!?! ARGH!

I realized that I said "actually" quite a lot in that last entry...I guess I was writing it in a rather disbelieving state of mind. Who would guess that any guy could be so very perfect?

If this would make you mad, then don't read it.
Idjit.

Weird feelings...argh!! Not fair. ::whimper:: I mean..well...I don't know how to put this into words without making it sound really bad...darn it!!! ::sigh::