Hehe I'm happy life's good even with all the bad mixed in it makes the good so much better. ^_^
The other day i was sitting in my jazz class, and Mr. Manna ( our band director) hands me and Ona a peice of paper. I read it, then read it again. Yea! Mr Manna had gotten an e-mail and Teal Sound a drum corp needed more people to march in the brass line, so he suggested it to us!!
For those of you out there Drum Corp International (DCI for is short) hardcore marching band, however weird that may sound, that's the only way I know to explain it. So i'm excited about having a life over the summer, even though I'll be gone for like three months, I think it'll be worth it. Well that's what's new in my life, so yeah.
ttfn ta ta for now,
a very happy Leah
"I wrote your name in the sand,
but the waves washed it away.
Then I wrote it in the sky,
but the wind blew it away.
So I wrote it in my heart,
and that's where it will stay"
That's a quote I found on someone's house and I liked it, so i decided to put it up here!! ^_^
And here are some wonderful Emery lyrics.
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Disguising Mistakes With Goodbyes
just take it back (I feel)
they're only words (your hair)
we hold the tethers (through my)
we're here together (fingers)
we paint the night (every)
only to find (silk stand)
it's cracked and peeling (takes my)
each face revealing (breath a-)
what we don't say (-way)
let's take these lines and
draw ourselves out of here
this shipwreck
from set-sail
we'll map the stars
tonight they help to find a way
when all is said
words can breathe more life than death
the inner sense that people share
touching on secrets and letting down hair
over and over let's not forget last time
i've kept the best parts and play them in my mind
this is tomorrow so take it or leave it
empty diaries
there's nothing to say
and we'll take the right steps
to keep these pages clean
you want the answers
i see them on your face
you need to know this is where the promise breaks
i can give you my answer
i can give you my answer
i can give you my answer
i can give you my answer
i know (i know)
if you stay (if you stay)
this will be (this will)
ours to take (be ours to take)
inside i (i feel)
am overwhelmed (so good)
from holding back (i want)
but know that this won't be forever (you for all my days, but tonight...)
i can't stay here
you can't ask me
just so you would know
ttfn ta ta for now
I had fun today!! Lydia, Ona, Andrew, Jessie, and I went to see Kimber. There was so much stuff we did that I couldn't mention it all even if I wanted too. But yeah I had lots o fun.
Gah!!! I want to say stuff but then again I don't want to. I don't think anyone understands.(maybe ona, but no one else) . Welll that's all for now, so bye! ^_^
ttfn ta ta for now,
Leah
I'm missing your laugh
How did it break?
And when did your eyes begin to look fake?
I hope you're as happy as you 're pretending.
More Dashboard. I wish I could kow what your thinking, to be able to get inside your head learn your motives. Then again I should look inside myself first, figure myself out first, then ask you. No one knows who I'm talking about. Saun probably has an idea, but not to many other people know. that's good though.
I love Bro Tim. And God too, even more. I know now what it means to have an accountability partner, but as hard as I thought it would be, it wasn't. I'm glad I can have someone to talk to honestly, and know that no one else will know.
Life's been alright for me, but not spectacular. My Mom needs to get a job, but the pne place she applied at has weird hours. I like my new classes, but I'm missing something, I don't know what it is though.
Now that I think of it, why DO we date people? To try to fill that hole in ourselves, to get a higher scocial status? Why? Why. I just wish I had more pieces to this puzzle. Well I need to go, but that's just some stuff for all of you to chew on .
ttfn ta ta for now,
Leah
Mood- bad, just bad.
Music-Lord if the Rings Soundtrack (the third one)
"Don't be a liar, don't say that everythings working when everythings broke and you smile like a saint but you curse like a sailor, and you might say the jokes on me."
-Dashboeard Confessionals
"Saints and Sailors"
Ya know, I could hate you, but I don't. I don't know why. Why do I have to think this now, of all times? Not that's I'd do anything drastic. But I just have to wonder. Why did I say yes,why did I do this rather than say no? Do my own folish desires get in the way of my logic, of my better thinking? Should I have thouhght this through more, would I have been happier elsewhere? I think of this now, but why now? Why? Don't know why.
On the better side of things, God's called me to do this after school Bible study. He's been telling me to do it for some time now, and I'm finally taking action.
TTFN ta ta for now,
Leah
And you smile like a saint but you curse like a sailor and your eyes say the joke's on me.
Mood- "I feel weird." ...
Music- Dashboard Confessionals
I've had a decent week. I'll say it was good till wednesday after school. My boyfriend broke up with me. I figured it was coming with the way he was acting at lunch. He's a loser. But to make things even better he starts flirting with my bestfriend...o
Ta ta for now,
Becky
One Way Mule by Silverchair
Let my spirit ride on a one way mule
Blistered skin in a cold hearted pool
Distant emotion hides a concrete wall
Naked and anchored I'll climb right back
To you
Love me for my mind, coz I'm a dangerous heart
When I've got time to kill I'm coming back for you.
I'll stake out just to find
The knife in a dangerous heart
When I've got time to kill I'm coming back for you.
Distant memories in a cage by my bed
Viscid dreams stick to holes in my head
But a patient career of sleep in a Sunday dress
Rides my wake
That's how I feel now. This morning I thought I was gonna have a good day but, I was wrong. Rocco was about the only person who cheered me up. SO if you read this Rocco, thank you. But after band practice it went downhill from there.
Copeland- There Cannot Be A Close Second
You've got an extra special heart and a perfect light that shines through.
But it seems like the hardest part is shining back at you.
So forgive me if I don't know what to do when you look at me.
There can be no hesitation; there cannot be a close second to you.
I've got a perfectly normal heart, bruised and broken from within.
At times I don't know how to start to let you in here.
Mood-content ^_^
Music-Dashboar
I've had a weird week. Sam broke up with Lydia. Man is tomorrow gonna be weird.They were like always together, it's gonna be weird.
Band camp has been going on since Monday. It's torture I tell you. My band director has to much fun telling us one more time, like fifty million times. Gah. But I have to say Friday nights at the football games are worth the sunburn and sore arms and legs.
Mood-weird
Music- Jack Johnson
Right now, I guess I could say I'm fighting a battle I thought I had already fought. Old emotions are coming back from the grave to haunt me. I hate that. I thought I had already gotten over this but i haven't. Grr. I'm so afraid of becomng that which I fear the most. Why is it that we learn from others mistakes? I learned from one, but I am so afraid that by having learned that I'll limit my actions. It's weird.
mood- sad not really but i miss people.
music-silverch
However hopelessly romantic I sound, I miss him. Wah. I wish they'd get back from the bahamas already. I miss Nessy too. Poor Nessy.Missin them. the summer sucks. Period.
p.s. this is the shortest entry of mine ever.
well as you can tell i was a little upset last time i wrote on here. My dad passed away saturday, but he's in a better place. I was a mess. I cried my eyes out and i know i will tommorow at the funeral. Tonight was the veiwing i did well, but i git a little teary eyed when i saw him. Life's gonna be so hard now without him. My mom's gonna have to get a job to pay off a morage on the land and we still have to pay on a vehecile or however you spell it. I just don't know what to expect. Man my life kinda sucks now.
My life sucks. Period.
Mood- Mad
Music-none
As you all know my dad is dying. Today I caome back from a friends to find that he'd slipped into a comma. They saud he could still hear and stuff, but i just can't bring myself to stay in the same room as him and not be crying.
My mom says i should talk to him but I don't see why i should, I mean he wouldn't even be able to anwser me.
I'm getting annoyed because there are so many people over here, like family and comunity, but I don't like it how I can't get privacy. I go to my room to be alone, and someone has to walk in, they start to talk to me, then i start to cry again.
I just can't have any privacy. Then they keep asking if I'm hungry. If I were hungry i would walk into the kitchen, open the fridge, and get something to eat. I hate it how they think I'm a little kid or something. Grr. I just want to scream, then fall on the floor and cry.
I just want to cry, but i wish I had someone's shoulder to cry on. Preferably yours.
My life sucks. Period.
Man i've had a weird and busy week.
Music- Fooly Cooly in the back ground.
Mood- bored and tired
Okay, i'll start with monday. Went to school, then went to Lake City (the nearby city with a mall.) We (we being me Roara,Saun, and Lauralanthalas
Tuesday. Went to school. Sucessfuly failed quiz in algebra. Came home, slept, woke up ate dinner went back to sleep. More bordem. Still no Celeste. More tears.
Wednesday. Went to school, then to Laralanthalasa
Thursday. School, came home. By this time in the week was sick of science class because it is so redundant. Happy to have Celeste in first, third, and fith. Was fearing ww 3 between social group. No Saun. Tear.
Firday. Okay, get to fourth her of Dulce Vita's wrek. Didn't think to much of it. Went with sister to get hair put in perm rods for prom. Talked to Dulce Vita's mom, she said that he could have died, then it hit me. He could be dead gone ka put. I would have had an emotional breakdown. My dad isn't doing good, and the future dosen't look so good for him. If my dad dies I don't know what i'm gonna do. And if Dulce Vita would have died, my world, my life as I know it would be...be immpossible. I was so relieved that he was okay. Still no Saun. More tears.
Today. Prom is tonight. I'm not going, it was supposed to be awesome. I went over to Celeste's house to watch and tease her as she got ready. It was fun. We went and saw the decorations and saw everyone while they were all pretty and stuff. Went to Ryo-Oki's house (or should i say her parents) played ddr, got home. Watched gundam seed and the new inuyasha episode. And am now in the process of writing this. Well that's my boring life. Hope you had some fun in reading this. Still have not gotten to see Saun. More and more tears.
Hmmm...what to put what to put.
No music in stupid library.
Quite happy.
Wednesday our school's jazz band went to state competition, and we made an excellent. I'm so happy about that. ^_^ But not only did i have fun there, i had fun on the bus ride there and back, and i think you know who you are. So thanks!!
Yesterday i got all sucidal and junk, it was bad and i scared myself. But as you can guess i'm here now.Wich is a very good thing.
The show was awesome. I went to see unforsaken( really cool christian local band) and there were some other cool bands there. I got a demo cd for one of them, their called Chasing Victory,and i got a pin. Hehe ^_^ I didn't get to see much of Unforsaken though due to my strict parents who want me home early all the time. But i stil had fun
Check out Chasing Victory at their site, www.chasingvic
Well that's all folks.
And I'm sure the veiw from heaven beats the hell out of mine here, and if we all beleive in heaven, we can make it through one more year down here.
Tuesday afternoon, Kevin Heiderman ran into the back of a school bus. His girlfriend, Jade Roberts, was instantly killed. She was only in the 10th grade. Kevin was spared, yet all the bones in his face were broken.
I didn't know Jade very well and i'm sure I'll get to meet her sometime. Kevin I do not know either, he is still in the hospital.
I ask that you pray for Kevin, his family and Jades family.
Rest In Peace Jade
Sorrow to wisdom, not poison. That's something a friend told me. But i think that only now do i really grasp it.
Music- DDR music
Mood- Really really afarid of loosing you again.
All i have to say is that I love you curtis, I really think I do.
By me saying this I hope that this dosen't make us anyless or better friends if you don't feel the same.
This is my choice, please still be my friend, that's all I ask.