For the first time in a long time I am happy. Depression tends to rub off on others, and when now i dont have none being rubbed.....in to me..*ooh that sounds kinky* I am happy. I can spend my time on more constructive things. Religion....freinds... Cause you can only try so hard to help someone who dosnt want to be helped. Maybe for attention..maybe they like being that way. I dont know. That person dont want help....if they did...they would try....a lot harder. But if they want to take the easy way out...we cant feel sorry for them.

  So farewell and take care.. I hope you find out what you are looking for before you hurt any others as bad as you have hurt me... 

  Some advice though... Find a religion you can follow...not just preach.

Goodbye,


It's hard for me to forget
Someone like you that I've met
Who had lot of pleasing way
Who cares and loves me everyday

Goodbye would never be the right word
That I could offer to those mem'ries you'd brought
I love you and I always will
For everything in my heart is real

Saying goodbye is not so easy
For me the one who love you truly
But this time I guess, I must pause
Deny my feelings,but not have it lost

Goodbye though I still love you
Somehow could ease the pain
Can I still bring joy in your way
Can I still say I love you once again

I wish I knew you. I thaught I did, but was proved wrong. i try my hardest to understand, but it does nothing but make me more confused. You pulled me in your sweet embrace, and now hold me at arms length. I felt secure but now i feel as if i dont know anything about you, all the things we talked about...was it you? who was it? i need to know....for comfort..........for security.............. The hours i spent thinking of YOU....who was i thinking about?

The shit is Bananas....i mean.

To my sexy Joey. Its okay baby. I know that you were not being a smartass, and I know that you were just making fun *more or less* of whats his face, who didnt wanna give you his personal information. lol. Im so glad that you called me last night baby. Even if it was 2:00 in the morning. I needed to hear your voice anyways! I tried calling, but your sister was on the phone with her boyfriend. :P I love you babes! And it was sweet of you to call and talk to me, and say goodnight, and tell me that you love me! I slept alot better than night. I even slept in till 9:00 which is a accomplishment for me. lolol. Well babes, im sure you will be on the net soon, and we chat more then, and turn on our cams! *kisses you gently on the lips...then looks in to your beautiful eyes. * I love you joey. You make more happy than anything, or any person on this earth. I will always love you no matter what. :)

~Matt~

Well i nearly had a heart attack today. There was some confusion and my baby was mad at me!!! I would die if he became mad at me!!!! I would simply die!!! But i explained it, and he heard it wrong before, so he wasnt mad. THANK GODDESS!!! Now we can go back to being lovey dovey! YAY!! Im just happy we got it taken care of. I tried calling, but his family is evil!!!! So its been a day since i heard his voice. IM GONNA CRY!! But im talking to him on IM. :) Which is better than nothing. Joey. I love you more than you could know!! I WILL NEVER STOP, OR QUESTION OR LOVE ANYONE ELSE BABEY! :D

MARRY ME!!!

Hmm...

This is Joey. Haha. I just thought I'd make an entry in my baby's diary. SOOO YEAH. Here it is. Not really sure what to say. Matty, you're the most beautiful man I've ever met. Beautiful in every aspect. And I love you with everything that's me. You...make me want to continue on. Thank you for always being there and listening to my stupidity. Not many people can deal with that...and I appreciate it that you do. I LOVE YOU!!!!

Yours,

Jojo

Yay! See joey I told you i would figure it out!!!! *dances around in circles*
It has been forver since i last wrote here, I usually write in my other web blog, but Ill write one today.

Well to sum up what happend since....I MET THE MAN OF MY DREAMS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *Ahem* Well its true. His name is JOEY! and i love him to death!!! And he loves me! and we are gonna spend the rest of our lives together no matter what!!! So there!! Even though im fugly. LOLOL. BooBAhs joey, dont get mad...its true. LOLOL. We met here on elftown, thats the strange thing. and now we talk like 5 hours a day on the phone! Its a good thing i got a really good cell phone plan!!! Yay!!! He makes me feel so happy inside and I just love him more than a paragraph or a million could explain!!!!!!!!

*kisses him gently* I love you joey. I hope you know that!

YAY!! I updated my elftown account!! I am so happy I was able to finally do that. Anyhoo. It is super bowl sunday. I dont like football, but my grandma is coming over and i am hoping shell spoil me. j/k. Its a nice day outside and I am in a good mood. I think ill take my laptop to my room and finish my elftown finishing touches there.

Im rather new to all this. I made the account a long time ago, but never used it. So I think ill have to get back in to it and start doing stuff. Yay!!!