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Written about Saturday 2004-09-11
Written: (7329 days ago)
Dear Valentin,
Yeah, I knew you were gonna read this soon... and if Erik is with you... hey! :) I am not feeling too good. My stomach hurts. And my head does too. I think I'm gonna go to the hospital... but... yeah. Hey, sorry about yesterday... i didn't click on you. My mom disconnected the phone... I'm serious! But yeah... I don't know what else to write.... but I guess if you want, write back, I dunno. I'm sleepy, so laters.
---Alice!!!---
For some strange reason... I want this diary entry to be of love....
I think I've been in love. Maybe more than once. I'm not sure. I still have feelings for Ervin... even after our break-up. I really did like him. I wanted to be with him, marry him. We were meant to be. But... I guess not... I still remember him....
I don't know. But love is confusing. I think I like Felipe. And sometimes Valentin.But then again.... maybe not Valentin, although he is a very good friend, and I adore him! But Felipe.... he's different... and I wish he liked me too. On 2nd thought....
I wish for everyone to find true love.
Everyone deserves it.
Man, I love pandas.... and that one is so cute! Look at them go!!! That reminds me of that one book, Hop on Pop... heh! I love Dr. Seuss! My fav. book from him would probably have to be....*thinks* hmm.... that's a hard one... and those pandas aren't letting me concentrate!!! So, I'll stop for now.....
I am very happy to death. Yesterday we went to Six Flags and I had a lot of fun. But right now I'm using the PC and listening to Mr. Brightside. God, that was fun. First we went on Viper, then Cyclone, then Gold Rusher (Me, Pato, and Peter went on that one like 10 times!) Tidal Wave, Freefall, and the rest of the ones I forgot. It was fun, but I kept thinking of ------ and that was no fun. We got home at 10:50 and yeah.... we were exhausted. But, I am kinda mad, since I left one of my Chucks at the park! I'm a loser! Who the hell loses a shoe at an amusement park!? Aaaaghh! I'm so mad. But whatever. It's over with. And I'm glad.
Hmmm.... I am quite....erm..
Erik!!!!!!!!
Come back!!!!!!Dear you,
Hmmm.... the details???? lol! Okay... he called me Tuesday and told me to meet him at the park.... & I did 'cause he lives all the way in Palmdale.... and he came just to see ME! so.... I went... well, at first I didn't recognize him cause he looked so different.... but... okay, you know what? I'll just tell you by phone cause to write it out is gonna take forever! ^^ But I am :) and thats all that matters! And don't worry;if it doesn't last, o'well. Al cabo que hay mas... but... nevermind! I'm getting off the topic! Hey, you might wanna check this out: & If I Die Before I Wake.... here are the dedications and stuff.... Well, my hunny bunny.... te me cuidas, te banas, y reciclas!!!!
Luv, Alice!!!
Hey, well i already found out whos dating (cuz u told me) member??? u memeber..... well congrats on that, i hope it last.... pues si me contaron pero que no te de verguenza, its all gravy, hahaha( im laughing at the phrase not at you, para que no pienses mal) well u didnt give me the details, im gonna be waiting for them and if you want u could put it at my email thing. Well thats bout it for right now. Nos vemos pronto........
ERik
Dear Baby Bottle Pop,
Duuuuuude! I already told you... well not really, el chismoso de Robert te dijo... ::grumbles:: I didn't want you to find out about what happened this Saturday.... ahora siento tanta verguenza.... hey thanks for the jokes! And the quizzes... they were kinda funny! lol.... anyway, I dunno what happened to that email thing of mine! My homepage no quiere abrir and that means I can't open your mail!!! *cries* Hey, I dunno si te contaron... pero guess who's dating already!? L.O.L!!! Well, ahit te veo!Take care! And don't forget to K>I>U>
Luv, Alice....
hey dont worry about the present, really. So what do you have to talk to me about??? you got me wondering, im eager to know........ So y did you change the pic in this thing??? What pic r you talking about??? the one im gonna give you??? or one that you already have??? but getting back to what you got to talk to me about.......is it something bad??? you really got to tell me as soon as possible. Well take care...
Your welcome! Like I said, I'm gonna get you an actual present... not some card.... I might get it this weekend.... & "it means alot to you"? :*) really? *cries* K>I>U> means Keep It Updated.... And I'm doing great! Con las visitas tuyas y de Valentin y de Benny of course... and PLEASE let me put your pic up!!!! As you can see I got my ugly pic updated on this thing.... doesn't Tubby look so phucking cute?!? Yes, yes he does... oh, & I need to talk to you cause some shit happened... and it has to kinda do with you... but by the time you get this you'll probably know... Well, thanx 4 replying to the email thing... say hello to felipe 'n' alex 'n' josh.... don't forget to visit me more often...lol...
Alice....
Hey, well thanks a billion for the card, I appreciate it. it means a lot to me.....by the way what is K>I>U>????? So, how r u doing??? i tried sending you the pic, but it said that the pic was to big for me to send it. Well t.c.c.i.c.
Erik
Hey you!!!!
Hopefully you like this as well as my present! ^^
Take care and I wish you the best of eternal birthdays.
NAH! I didn't get in trouble! It was kinda funny, but, no. Hey, BTW, I might get my password changed... I'll tell you what its gonna be by phone... BTW, why did you guys ask me those questions yesterday??? <Who's cuter...??> :} Well, K>I>U> cause you know I care.
Well just put that behind you and forget about it, okay?Well, anywho, how was ur day yesturday??? I hope u didnt get in trouble with ur mom cuz of u know what. but yeah....well take care, laters
-Erik
Para: Erik
Okat, okay.... I finally was able to go on this thing.... I AM SO CONFUSED!!! Okay.... I know this guys named Ervin.... ya le hable a Vala sobre el....but what?! OMG.....I think it's Adri playing around! Tu sabes como es Adriana... a little joker! But... c'mon, Erik, if I had a bf, you woulda been the 1st to know! But ya te dije.... it's not like that! Oh, and I wuz never >< at you.... I just thought que u got mad at me & that u don't like going 2 my place! But I'm never mad at u....U should know that....Luv Always, Alice!
So, wass up? I know ur mad, i just don't know why. Well let me know what did I do.... any who.... wass up with this guy ervin??? is he ur bf??? and if so y didnt I know??? Well take care, hope to hear from you.
-Erik
Written about Wednesday 2004-07-07
Written: (7395 days ago)
DO YOU BELIVE IN HEAVEN
DO YOU BELIVE IN LOVE
DONT TELL ME A LIE
DONT BE FALSE OR UNTRUE
IT ALL COMES BACK TO YOU
OPEN FIRE ON MY BURNING HEART IVE NEVER BEEN LUCKY IN LOVE
MY DEFFENCES ARE DOWN A KISS OR A FROWN
I CANT SURVIVE ON MY OWN
IF A GIRL WALKS IN AND CARVES HER NAME IN MY HEART
I'LL TURN AND RUN AWAY
EVERYDAY WE'VE BEEN ALL LED ASTRAY
ITS HARD TO BE LUCKY IN LOVE
IT GETS IN YOUR EYES ITS MAKING YOU CRY
DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO
DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO
LOOKING FOR LOVE CALLING HEAVEN ABOVE
SEND ME AN ANGEL
SEND ME AN ANGEL
RIGHT NOW!
RIGHT NOW!
IT GETS IN YOUR EYES ITS MAKING YOU CRY
DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO
DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO
SEND ME AN ANGEL
SEND ME AN ANGEL
RIGHT NOW !
RIGHT NOW!
SEND ME AN ANGEL
SEND ME AN ANGEL
RIGTH NOW!
RIGHT NOW!
SEND ME AN ANGEL
SEND ME AN ANGEL
RIGTH NOW!
RIGHT NOW!
SEND ME AN ANGEL
RIGHT NOW!
RIGHT NOW!
HONEY ME ERVIN THIS IS A SONG CALLED SEND ME AN ANGEL BY THIS COOL BAND CALLED ZEROMANCER YOU SHOULD LISTLEN TO THEM !!!!!!!!! BUT ANY WHO I LOVE YOU HONEY I LOVE YOU ALLOT I CANT WAIT TO GO SEE YOU AND HOLD YOU,HUG YOU,AND TELL YOU I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!! WELL HONEY I THINK YOU LOOK HOT IN YOUR PIC SO DONT THINK YOU ARE UGLY OK HONEY.BECAUSE YOU ARE NOT!!!!!!!! WELL HOPE YOU LIKE THE LYRICS OK HONEY I LOVE YOU ALLOT ,AND ALLWAYS WILL !!!!!!!
ERVIN ANTHONY RAMOS
Well, I am so sorry 4 the delay in this.... and mil gracias for going to my gradutaion.... that meant ALOT! I am so excited about this whole summer thing... I can't wait until your b-day! That day is gonna kick butt....<in a good way> Well, take care and much thanks 4 being my human journal....*wi