[cvg54]'s diary
I am so sorry about yesterday,
Why?
Cause…. I don’t know why I reacted the way I did… hmm… how to explain???? L I guess I was hurt when u told me that…:(
Thing is I JUST DIDN’T KNOW HOW TO BE THAT WAY LIKE THE THING AROUND THE ROSY THING
I’m still confused… what do you mean?!?! And no, I WILL NOT FORGET IT!!!!
Like it seemed like fun but I just wasn’t happy I was with you but you seemed so far away I don’t know. It was like I was trying to fit in or something that was weird EDDY.
So what are you trying to say…. Were you uncomfortable there or what…? Porque Beto told me that you didn’t want to be there ‘cause of all the people that were there, or something like that… is that what it was???? (p.s. yes, that WAS weird…)
I was but that wasn’t it, it’s always people that has fucked me up but no I just didn’t seem there I felt lost or something
Well, I’m not really referring to that, I’m talking about when you said that you were not happy…. :)… I mean, are you talking in general or are you referring to us….????
General
That includes us, you know…
I guess but I feel like I have to learn how to be happy even though it sounds weird I just never felt that and if I did I don’t know what to do.
Yeah, but it really sounds like I am not making a difference, and if that’s the case, well then…
No because I’m learning how to be at least but I don’t know
So… are you mad at me?
For?
For being S-T-U-P-I-D???
You are not stupid and no cause after I felt like I was lying to you
About…?
Like when you would tell me if I was happy I said yes cause I thought it was but I don’t know if it really is happiness not because I’m not or whatever but because I have never known what happiness is
Well… I have like three things to show/tell you about that MIGHT make you happy, but I’m not sure, seeing as how you’re hard to please…
In the sack not in public lol
:) Very funny, Mr. I-Am-Such-A-Fu
Oh yeah I wonder what could it be
:)IT’S A THINGY GIFTY SORTA THING!!!! (Tee-hee… aww, nuts, she took the candy…)
Sounds promising
I am hoping that’s a good thing… watch, I’ll show you… just don’t say anything… not yet… that’s what I’ve been working on these past few days…
And I LOVEEEEEEEE you for it
You misspelled love. Lol
Alright
I am so sorry about yesterday,
Why?
Cause…. I don’t know why I reacted the way I did… hmm… how to explain???? L I guess I was hurt when u told me that…L
Thing is I JUST DIDN’T KNOW HOW TO BE THAT WAY LIKE THE THING AROUND THE ROSY THING
I’m still confused… what do you mean?!?! And no, I WILL NOT FORGET IT!!!!
Like it seemed like fun but I just wasn’t happy I was with you but you seemed so far away I don’t know. It was like I was trying to fit in or something that was weird EDDY.
So what are you trying to say…. Were you uncomfortable there or what…? Porque Beto told me that you didn’t want to be there ‘cause of all the people that were there, or something like that… is that what it was???? (p.s. yes, that WAS weird…)
I was but that wasn’t it, it’s always people that has fucked me up but no I just didn’t seem there I felt lost or something
Well, I’m not really referring to that, I’m talking about when you said that you were not happy…. J… I mean, are you talking in general or are you referring to us….????
General
That includes us, you know…
I guess but I feel like I have to learn how to be happy even though it sounds weird I just never felt that and if I did I don’t know what to do.
Yeah, but it really sounds like I am not making a difference, and if that’s the case, well then…
No because I’m learning how to be at least but I don’t know
So… are you mad at me?
For?
For being S-T-U-P-I-D???
You are not stupid and no cause after I felt like I was lying to you
About…?
Like when you would tell me if I was happy I said yes cause I thought it was but I don’t know if it really is happiness not because I’m not or whatever but because I have never known what happiness is
Well… I have like three things to show/tell you about that MIGHT make you happy, but I’m not sure, seeing as how you’re hard to please…
In the sack not in public lol
J Very funny, Mr. I-Am-Such-A-Fu
Oh yeah I wonder what could it be
J IT’S A THINGY GIFTY SORTA THING!!!! (Tee-hee… aww, nuts, she took the candy…)
Sounds promising
I am hoping that’s a good thing… watch, I’ll show you… just don’t say anything… not yet… that’s what I’ve been working on these past few days…
And I LOVEEEEEEEE you for it
You misspelled love. Lol
Alright
Dear Diary,
Hmmm.... I'm in my 4th per. class... (AP Computer Programming/Di
I have about 3 minutes beofre my lunch time.... yummy! Hmm, I should start writing in here everyday from this day forward. Well, right now I have a swarm of butterflies in my tummy because I think Eddy is mad at me and I'm about to see him but I don't know if I should and I think I'm going crazy and what if we break up I hope we dont I really do and god my tummy is killing me and I cant belive Im typing so fast and stupidly I apologize to any readers and I have about 30 secoonds, so bye!
Hmmm.... long time no write to in this thing..... lets see... update: I LOVE EDDY MONTOYA WITH ALL OF MY HEART
I love you Eddy!!!
A girl and guy were speeding over 100 mph on the road...
Girl: Slow down. Im scared.
Guy: No this is fun.
Girl: No its not please, its too scary!
Guy: Then tell me you love me.
Girl: Fine, I love you Slow down!
Guy: Now give me a BIG hug.
*Girl hugs him*
Guy: Can you take my helmet off & put it on? Its bugging me.
Paper the next day: motorcycle crashed into a building because brake failure. 2 people riding only 1 survived.
The truth: halfway down the road, the guy realized that his brakes broke, he didnt want 2 let the girl know. Instead, he had her say she loved him & felt her hug 1 last time, then had her wear his helmet so that she would live even though it meant his death
Ahhh.... being with someone you like all the time... how wonderful...
Ronald.... I can't believe he asked me out!
The Hunger Argument:
Number of People worldwide who will die of starvation this year: 60 million
Number of people who could be adequately fed with the grain saved if Americans reduced meat intake by 10%: 60 million
Human beings in America: 243 million
Number of people who could be fed with grain and soybeans now eaten by US livestock: 1.3 billion
Percentage of corn grown in US eaten by people: 20%
Percentage of corn grown in US eaten by livestock: 80%
Percentage of protein wasted by cycling grain through livestock: 90%
Percentage of oats grown in US eaten by livestock: 95%
How frequently a child starves to death: every 2 seconds
Pounds of potatoes that can be grown on an acre: 20,000 lbs
Pounds of beef produced on an acre: 165 lbs
Percentage of US farmland devoted to beef production: 56%
Pounds of grain and soybeans needed to produce 1 pound of feedlot beef: 16 lbs.
The Environmental Argument:
Cause of global warming: greenhouse effect
Primary cause of greenhouse effect: Carbon Dioxide from fossil fuels
Fossil fuels needed to produce a meat-centered diet vs. a meat-free diet: 50 times more
Percentage of US topsoil lost to date: 75%
Percentage of US topsoil loss directly related to livestock raising: 85%
Number of acres of US forest cleared for cropland to produce meat-centered diet: 260 million acres
Amount of meat US imports annually from Costa Rica, El Salvador, Guatemala, Honduras, and Panama: 200,000,000 pounds
Average per capita meat consumption in Costa Rica, El Salveador, Guatemala, Honduras, and Panama: Less than eaten by average US house cat
Area of tropical rainforest consumed in every quarter-pounde
Current rate of species extinction due to destruction of tropical rainforests for meat grazing and other uses: 1,000 species extinct per year
The Cancer Argument:
Increased risk of breast cancer for women who eat meat four times a week vs. less than once a week: 4 times
Increased risk of breast cancer for women who eat eggs daily vs less than once a week: 3 times
Increased risk of breast cancer for women who eat cheese and butter 3 or more times a week vs less than once a week: 3 times
Increased risk of ovarian cancer for women who eat eggs 3 or more times a week vs less than once a week: 3 times
Increased risk of fatal prostate cancer for men who consume meat, cheese, eggs and milk daily vs sparingly or not at all: 3.6 times
The Natural Resources Argument:
User of more than half of all water used for all purposes in the US: Livestock production
Amount of water to produce a pound of wheat: 25 gallons
Amount of water to produce a pound of meat: 2,500 gallons
Cost of common hamburger if water used by meat industry was not subsidized by US taxpayer: $35/pound
Current cost of pound of protein from beefsteak, if water was no longer subsidized: $89
Years the world's known oil reserves will last if every human ate a meat-centered diet: 13 years
Years the world's known oil reserves will last if human beings no longer ate meat: 260 years
Barrels of oil imported into US daily: 6.8 million
Percentage of fossil fuel energy returned as food energy by most efficient factory farming of meat: 34.5 percent
Percentage returned as food energy from least efficient plant food: 328%
Percentage of raw materials consumed by US to produce present meat-centered diet: 33%
The Cholesterol Argument:
Number of US Medical Schools: 125
Number requiring a course in nutrition: 30
Nutrition training received by average US physician during four years in medical school: 2.5 hours
Most common cause of death in the US: Heart attack
How frequently a heart attack kills in the US: Every 45 seconds
Average US man's risk of death from heart attack: 50%
Risk for average US man who avoids the meat-centered diet: 15%
Risk for average US vegan man: 4%
Amount you reduce risk of heart attack if you reduce consumption of animal products by 10 percent: 9%
Amount you reduce risk of heart attack if you reduce consumption of animal products by 50 percent: 45%
Amount you reduce risk by changing to a vegan diet: 90 percent
Meat, dairy, and egg industries claim you should not be concerned about your blood cholesterol if it is: "normal"
Your risk of dying of a disease caused by clogged arteries if your blood cholesterol is "normal": >50%
The Antibiotic Argument:
Percentage of US antibiotics fed to livestock: 55%
Percentage of staph infections resistant to penicillin in 1960: 13%
Percentage of staph infections resistant to penicillin in 1988: 91%
Response of European Economic Community to routine feeding of antibiotics to livestock: Ban
Respons of US meat and pharmaceutical industries to routine feeding of antibiotics to livestock: Full and complete support
The Pesticide Argument:
Percentage of pesticide residues in the US diet supplied by grains: 1%
Percentage of pesticide residues in the US diet supplied by fruits: 4%
Percentage of pesticide residues in the US diet supplied by vegetables: 6%
Percentage of pesticide residues in the US diet supplied by dairy products: 23%
Percentage of pesticide residues in the US diet supplied by meat: 55%
Pesticide contamination of breast milk from meat eating mothers vs non-meat eating: 35 times higher
What USDA tells us: Meat is inspected
Percentage of slaughtered animals inspected for residues of toxic chemicals such as dioxin and DDT: <0.00004%
The Ethical Argument:
Number of animals killed for meat per hour in US: 500,000
Occupation with highest turnover rate in US: Slaughterhouse Worker
Occupation with the highest rate of on-the-job injury in US: Slaughterhouse Worker
Cost to render animal unconscious with "captive bolt pistol": 1 cent
Reason given by meat industry for not using "captive bolt pistol": Too expensive
Okay, so I saw the O.C. and it was HOT! But I can't write much 'cause my fingers are numb! *blows on fingers to warm 'em*
Dear Diary,
It gets me so mad that people look down on me just cause I'm a damn girl. I wish I was a guy.
:}
I love The Lone Ranger!
I wish I had been born in those days so I could have seen the show.... he he....I can imagine being on the phone with Vala and saying, "I'm watching the lone ranger!"
I can't wait until I come out as a dama in Adri's 15. OMG! How awesome! Even Peter is gonna be a chambelan! (But, not mine!) :) I kinda got hurt when Whats-His-Face said he wasn't going to be in it.... how sad. Guess I'll have to take someone else. :( Not what I had in mine.... Oh well. I don't understand why I just can't accept the fact that it was never meant to be. *sighs* Erik is right. lol... "There plenty of fish in the sea." How cute. I thought guys had no art or creativity for things like that. Meh. It's funny how Erik and Vala always prove me wrong when it comes to guys!
I LOVE MONKEYS! I LOVE MONKEYS! (Thats why I love Peter and James, lol...)
This sux, this sux..... Oh man, this sux! I am so not feeling right right now....
Dear Diary,
Is it wrong to like one of your best guy friends?
*Douglas Robb
*Orlando Bloom
*Gael Garcia Bernal
*Diego Luna
*Daniel Estrin
*Conor Oberest
*Billy Martin
*Leonardo Di Caprio
*Oscar de la Hoya
*Billy Joe Armstrong
*I-Forgot-His-
I think that's it. Nah! I'll keep hunting....