[Shishiru]'s diary
When somebody loved me
Everything was beautiful
Every hour we spent together
Lives within my heart
And when she was sad
I was there to dry her tears
And when she was happy
So was I
When she loved me
Through the summer and fall
We had each other
That was all
Just she and I together
Like it was meant to be
And when she was lonely
I was there to comfort her
And I knew
That she loved me
So the years went by
I stayed the same
But she began to drift away
I was left alone
Still I waited for the day
When she'd say
I will always love you
Lonely and forgotten
Never thought she'd look my way
And she smiled at me
And held me
Just like she used to do
Like she loved me
When she loved me
When somebody loved me
Everything was beautiful
Every hour we spent together
Lives within my heart
When she loved me
Im hungry -.-
thats all
rar
the soft, chillign sentsation
This chilly winter night
perhaps represents myself
the snow
gently falling with this gentle breeze
a breeze which caresses my soft
delicate skin.
The cold winter night is calling me
lulling me to sleep
and i am drowning in thought
as the soft, cold cotton snow burries me away
I can feel it all slipping away.
My sorrows are all vanishing
into a sea of white
i hear something
a voice from far away
they are screaming something
or maybe even crying
crying for me?
it's changed colors...
A deep crimson covers the ground beneath me...
is this my own blood?
what has happened?
I cant remember...
i struggle to see what is going on around me
but im failing...
pretty soon, that energy fades away
and the lullaby has returned
that sweet lullaby, soon soothes my hurting soul
and heres another thing: when i fell, i noticed there was an infant child right behind me--if she had fallen instead of me, she could have gotten worse too... ^_^ so i kinda feel good about it! Oh, and when i fell, the first thing that came out of my mouth, after i laughed, and said "oof" when i hit the ground was: "Im fine! That was Fun!" than ten minutes later "ow, okay, now its starting to sting a little..." XD im such a doofus.
makesou ni naru toki datte
hitomi wo tojireba kokoro kara
sekai ga miete kuru
You must be strong
Just believe in yourself and don\'t you fear
So open up your mind and close your eyes
Take another look from the other side
ima wa hitori demo kono ashi de doko made mo
aruite ikeru hazu dakara
Look inside yourself kagayaki ga aru kara
Yes, subete shinjite hoshii
You can take another look from the other side
Reach into your soul ashita ga mienakute mo
Yes, ikiru tsuyosa ga areba
You can take another look from the other side
ai no subete ni deau made...
anata ni negatte-iru kara
kokoro no tobira wo hiraitara
nanika ga miete kuru
So don\'t you fear
Even though you\'re miles away
I\'m by your side
So open up your mind and close your eyes
I\'ll be there for you no matter where you are
onaji kono hibi ga kurikaesu wake ja nai
ashita wa dare ni mo mienai
Look inside yourself kodou kanjiru kara
Yes, "MIRAI" shinjite hoshii
You can take another look from the other side
Reach into your soul ashita ga mienakute mo
Yes, chigau sekai ga atte
You can take another look from the other side
ai no subete ni deaeru yo...
Look inside yourself kodou kanjiru kara
Yes, "MIRAI" shinjite hoshii
You can take another look from the other side
Reach into your soul ashita ga mienakute mo
Yes, chigau sekai ga atte
You can take another look from the other side
ai no subete ni deau made...
This is how i feel, about YOU
until it is too late
you ignore me
i dont think you even believe
that we are still friends
what did i do wrong?
why are you so distant from me?
you never call
we never speak
i speak to you
i try to joke with you
but in responce
all i get is a small noise
from your throat.
What is it that i've done?
are you just no longer interested?
do you even consider me
as your friend any longer?
you'll never know who you are
because you simply dont care
so go
run away from it
go away
leave me
you and your "girlfriend"
who needs friends anyway?
you wont know who you are
until i am gone...
so go
i no longer care...
who needs friends
like you anyways...
Go
and listen to your stupid music
you abandoned me
so what does it matter?
I miss the old you
the one i could talk with.
You get mad because i leave early
but
to put it simply
if i walked with you
we'd never speak.
I care for you,
but i never get
the same responce back,
when we're all together
you're never happy
unless SHE is there.
and when she is
we never speak
our eyes never even MEET
So Leave,
Fuck Off
i dont care.
I dont need a friend
who doesnt need anyone else
but her.
You show no gratitude.
Without me,
there wouldnt be a YOU and HER
I dont feel its fair
to leave me out in EVERYTHING
everytime i hear your plans
HER name escapes your lips
or someone ELSES
besides ME
we never go ANYWHERE together
without bringing HER along
otherwise
you're bored
I hate it.
I hate what you've done to me.
Dont try and consol me
If you think real hard, you'll know who you are
and i dont want to hear
any BULLSHIT from you
go away
emo girl
far away
because i dont care
because you dont care
so there
Currently sitting in VCD...
Aint it
Mata ashita! hinode imei botsu
Hey aren't we all?
Sure...whateve
you are quite the selfish mother fucker
what would you do if your heart was consumed by the darkness?
what would you do with no heart?
go on, try and tell me
you may have a solid heart
but inside, you have nothing
you have already lost the game
you had found your light...
but you tore apart what you had
which set you apart, made you glow
but now the glimmer has faded
and everyoen goes on
nobody glances towards the dimer light
they always look to the brightest
and hope to become like that
so there...now its done
you reap what you sew
it's all over now, nothing left but to wait
for your light to flicker out
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how many can look at this...and not help but laugh or smile? XD!!!
To add to my last diary--as proof--my mom even acts like a child--and she gets along better in life than i could say, you do, bitch.
...thats all ive got to say...what a bitch...
Those who dont think clearly really get on my nerves
all of you, painting your future, as if it were on the canvas before you
you cannot live for the furture, nore the past, you live for today, and only today
what will you do if you die, tomorrow, huh? right, you'll sit there and say "Shit, why did i spend all that fuckign time thinking of my future, and things i want, instead of livign for today, and following life's main stream". You're all fucking morons. Life is too short to be worried about all that shit, especially even before you've made it on your own. I dont call this being 'mature' i call it being blinded from the truth...
Hurtign others...you think you can get away with it? darkness which falls upon a heart will soon come to consume it, you know? so why be the center of it?
trying to act your age...? whats wrong with actign younger than we are? being as we are young adults, doesnt mean we have to forget what it was like to run around, playing tag--and living life. Did you ever sit there, as a child, and beat down on ones heart? Is that what is means to be an adult? than i might aswell stay a child...
anyone got any bullshit to say to me? send me a message.
o_o hmm...simple mathematical equasions...
Greg Ayres... + Ryan O'donohue... = a very happy shi-chan...
I dotn mean Yaoi-ness, im just sayin...those guys are my two favorite voice actors, ever! how i wish i could sit with both of them in the same room O-O falls over, twitching and drooling* sadly, that is yet a dream, and shall never happen...but that doesnt mean i still cant love them both to death!! >D squeeee!!! *Goes on a fangirl rampage*