[Shishiru]'s diary
i adore this boy...
Billy Gilman:
I am black, I am white
I am all skins in between
I am young, I am old
I am each age that has been
I am scrawny, I am well fed
I am starving for attention
I am famous, I am cryptic
I am hardly worth the mention
I am short, I am height
I am any frame or stature
I am smart, I am challenged
I am striving for a future
Chorus:
The color of sky is blues and grays
The color of earth is greens and browns
The color of hope is rainbows and purple
And the color of peace is people together
Shades of life
I am
I am able, I am weak
I am some strength, I am none
I am being, I am thought
I am all things, said and done
I am born, I am died
I am dust of humble roots
I am grace, I am pain
I am labor of winned fruites
I am slave, I am free
I am bonded to my life
I am rich, I am poor
I am wealth amid strife
[Repeat Chorus]
I am shadow, I am glory
I am hiding from my shame
I am hero, I am loser
I am yearning for a name
I am empty, I am proud
I am seaking my tomorrow
I am growing, I am fading
I am hope amid the sorrow
I am vertain, I am doubtful
I am desperate for solutions
I am leader, I am student
I am fate and evolutions
I am spirit, I am voice
I am memory, not recalled
I am chance, I am cause
I am effort blocked and walled
I am hymn, I am heard
I am reasoned without rhymes
I am past, I am nearing
I am present in all times
I am many, I am no one
I am seasoned by each being
I am me, I am you
I am all-souls now decreeing
[Repeat Chorus]
I love this song:
one heart you are following
you can run but you can't begin
in a place where you don't fit in
cause love will find a way (yea)
when you're down you can start again
turn around anything you're in
love will find a place
if you've got...
(chorus)
one heart
you are following
one dream
keeps you wondering
love lights your way through the night
one wish
keeps you tryin
once your silver linin
love lights your way through the night
you can fall a thousand times
you can feel like you've lost your mind
but love will find a way (o yea)
in a minute you can change your life
and a moment can make it right
love will find a place (ayeaea)
if you've got...
(chorus)
everybody needs something to hold on to (2 x's)
if you've got...
(chorus)
keeps you tryin...once your silver linin...love lights your way through the night
....love will find a way...love will find a way in your heart
it sort of reflects how i feel on this lovely, yet gloomy
1st of June...
Im doing fine
how is your family?
they're almost like a scattered memory to me...
i never meant any harm
I was young, and reckless
you know how it gets
I dissapeared without a trace
the last i said things i said to you
the last time i saw that beautiful smile...
the ones we took on that day
you were so much taller than me
but i loved you just the same
though we dont share the same family
You're close to my heart
my soul, and hopefully i am to you
ive watched you grow from afar
i havnt changed at all
how is this going to work out?
but it makes me nervous even still
to stand at your door
a hand clutched over my heart
when i was going through such hard times
but i abused you, took over you
i cant say how sorry i am, even in simple words.
im scared, my sister
wont you hold me close
and tell me everything will be alright?
but it makes me nervous even still
to stand at your door
a hand clutched over my heart
but im frightened you wont accept me
what i have become...or rather...
what i have not become
we used to go on walks in the forest
we used to walk to the corner store
visiting the places of our earlier childhood.
but it makes me nervous even still
to stand at your door
a hand clutched over my heart
Im coming, im running towards you
Im returning, but if only for a short time
wont you welcome me...
it also reflects how i feel
on this day, June 1st...]
something ive lost a good
long time ago
I need it to survive
glancing to old footprints
worn away by time
will i ever find it?
i didnt even realize
what i had left behind
it was a large piece of myself.
it could be anywhere by now
but im still going to look
no matter where i must travel.
over trees, rivers
streams, oceans
ill do whatever i can
i cry alone, reaching for what ive lost
My friends might think im fine
but im not, i need to find it.
i feel the chills of emptiness filing me
it races down my spine
i dotn want to live this way
i think i hear it calling to me
I'll become a child once more
will you welcome me with open arms?
until this day
i fear i will never find it
that piece of my heart i left behind.
We are what we're supposed to be
Illusions of your fantasy
All dots and lines that speak and say
What we do is what you wish to do
We are the color symphony
We do the things you wanna see
Frame by frame, to the extreme
Our friends are so unreasonable
They do the unpredictable
All dots lines that speak and say
What we do is what you wish to do
It's all an orchestra of strings
Doin' unbelievable things
Frame by frame, to the extreme
One by one, we're makin' it fun
We are the Cartoon Heroes - oh-oh-oh
We are the ones who're gonna last forever
We came out of a crazy mind - oh-oh-oh
And walked out on a piece of paper
Here comes Spiderman, arachnophobian
Welcome to the toon town party
Here comes Superman, from never-neverlan
Welcome to the toon town party
We learned to run at speed of light
And to fall down from any height
It's true, but just remember that
What we do is what you just can't do
And all the worlds of craziness
A bunch of stars that's chasing us
Frame by frame, to the extreme
One by one, we're makin' it fun
We are the Cartoon Heroes - oh-oh-oh
We are the ones who're gonna last forever
We came out of a crazy mind - oh-oh-oh
And walked out on a piece of paper
Here comes Spiderman, arachnophobian
Welcome to the toon town party
Here comes Superman, from never-neverlan
Welcome to the toon town party
You think we're so mysterious
Don't take us all too serious
Be original, and remember that
What we do is what you just can't do
What we do is what you just can't do
What we do is what you just can't do
What we do is what you just can't do
What we do is what you just can't do
We are the Cartoon Heroes - oh-oh-oh
We are the ones who're gonna last forever
We came out of a crazy mind - oh-oh-oh
And walked out on a piece of paper
There's still more to come
And everyone will be
Welcomed at the
Toon - Toon
Town - Town
Party
The week after this next week...
Im nervous as hell...
Im going away somewhere...
somewhere far away...
where my childhood will take me into it's arms again...
Im not saying where im going
it isnt where you might be thinking...
but im going to visit an old friend...
I hope they can open thier heart to me once again
and accept that i am sorry...
For those of you who know where i am going, do not speak a word to this friend...
for those of you who dont know...its best that you dont
When somebody loved me
Everything was beautiful
Every hour we spent together
Lives within my heart
And when she was sad
I was there to dry her tears
And when she was happy
So was I
When she loved me
Through the summer and fall
We had each other
That was all
Just she and I together
Like it was meant to be
And when she was lonely
I was there to comfort her
And I knew
That she loved me
So the years went by
I stayed the same
But she began to drift away
I was left alone
Still I waited for the day
When she'd say
I will always love you
Lonely and forgotten
Never thought she'd look my way
And she smiled at me
And held me
Just like she used to do
Like she loved me
When she loved me
When somebody loved me
Everything was beautiful
Every hour we spent together
Lives within my heart
When she loved me
Im hungry -.-
thats all
rar
the soft, chillign sentsation
This chilly winter night
perhaps represents myself
the snow
gently falling with this gentle breeze
a breeze which caresses my soft
delicate skin.
The cold winter night is calling me
lulling me to sleep
and i am drowning in thought
as the soft, cold cotton snow burries me away
I can feel it all slipping away.
My sorrows are all vanishing
into a sea of white
i hear something
a voice from far away
they are screaming something
or maybe even crying
crying for me?
it's changed colors...
A deep crimson covers the ground beneath me...
is this my own blood?
what has happened?
I cant remember...
i struggle to see what is going on around me
but im failing...
pretty soon, that energy fades away
and the lullaby has returned
that sweet lullaby, soon soothes my hurting soul
and heres another thing: when i fell, i noticed there was an infant child right behind me--if she had fallen instead of me, she could have gotten worse too... ^_^ so i kinda feel good about it! Oh, and when i fell, the first thing that came out of my mouth, after i laughed, and said "oof" when i hit the ground was: "Im fine! That was Fun!" than ten minutes later "ow, okay, now its starting to sting a little..." XD im such a doofus.
makesou ni naru toki datte
hitomi wo tojireba kokoro kara
sekai ga miete kuru
You must be strong
Just believe in yourself and don\'t you fear
So open up your mind and close your eyes
Take another look from the other side
ima wa hitori demo kono ashi de doko made mo
aruite ikeru hazu dakara
Look inside yourself kagayaki ga aru kara
Yes, subete shinjite hoshii
You can take another look from the other side
Reach into your soul ashita ga mienakute mo
Yes, ikiru tsuyosa ga areba
You can take another look from the other side
ai no subete ni deau made...
anata ni negatte-iru kara
kokoro no tobira wo hiraitara
nanika ga miete kuru
So don\'t you fear
Even though you\'re miles away
I\'m by your side
So open up your mind and close your eyes
I\'ll be there for you no matter where you are
onaji kono hibi ga kurikaesu wake ja nai
ashita wa dare ni mo mienai
Look inside yourself kodou kanjiru kara
Yes, "MIRAI" shinjite hoshii
You can take another look from the other side
Reach into your soul ashita ga mienakute mo
Yes, chigau sekai ga atte
You can take another look from the other side
ai no subete ni deaeru yo...
Look inside yourself kodou kanjiru kara
Yes, "MIRAI" shinjite hoshii
You can take another look from the other side
Reach into your soul ashita ga mienakute mo
Yes, chigau sekai ga atte
You can take another look from the other side
ai no subete ni deau made...
This is how i feel, about YOU
until it is too late
you ignore me
i dont think you even believe
that we are still friends
what did i do wrong?
why are you so distant from me?
you never call
we never speak
i speak to you
i try to joke with you
but in responce
all i get is a small noise
from your throat.
What is it that i've done?
are you just no longer interested?
do you even consider me
as your friend any longer?
you'll never know who you are
because you simply dont care
so go
run away from it
go away
leave me
you and your "girlfriend"
who needs friends anyway?
you wont know who you are
until i am gone...
so go
i no longer care...
who needs friends
like you anyways...
Go
and listen to your stupid music
you abandoned me
so what does it matter?
I miss the old you
the one i could talk with.
You get mad because i leave early
but
to put it simply
if i walked with you
we'd never speak.
I care for you,
but i never get
the same responce back,
when we're all together
you're never happy
unless SHE is there.
and when she is
we never speak
our eyes never even MEET
So Leave,
Fuck Off
i dont care.
I dont need a friend
who doesnt need anyone else
but her.
You show no gratitude.
Without me,
there wouldnt be a YOU and HER
I dont feel its fair
to leave me out in EVERYTHING
everytime i hear your plans
HER name escapes your lips
or someone ELSES
besides ME
we never go ANYWHERE together
without bringing HER along
otherwise
you're bored
I hate it.
I hate what you've done to me.
Dont try and consol me
If you think real hard, you'll know who you are
and i dont want to hear
any BULLSHIT from you
go away
emo girl
far away
because i dont care
because you dont care
so there
Currently sitting in VCD...
Aint it
Mata ashita! hinode imei botsu
Hey aren't we all?