My Ruin - Terror

This is what you call me...
I strike terror among men
I can't be bothered with what I think
I bare my cross, my soul, myself
I forgive ... but I never forget
I've been put upon this earth in FEMALE form
But I can't handle myself with the best of you
as well as the worst
and I often have
I have the right to remain silent but I choose to speak, sing
scream
I am
LIPS, HIPS, TITS...
I AM THE POWER OF A WOMAN
STRONG like music
true like friendship
but without my friends there would be no music...
only spoken word

I am able to change
so I live without regret,
without remorse
Only a remix
I am drunk, I am sober.
Heaven doesn't want me and hells affraid I'll take over.
Don't bother trying to censor me, or shut me up
because it won't work.

I am cold and distant yet worm and
close to those who deserve to see that side of me part of me...
the heart of me.
You find me so hard to understand in your world, the world you percieve to be so normal
I am deformed...
scorned, reborn
I am me and I know exactly who I am,
what I am and the wrath
I bring the ugly beauty,
the lying truth,
the virgin whore...
the quiet storm
a lover, a fighter, a saint, a sinner, a sister, a daughter old school... a beginer.
I have decorated my self with love, hate, truth... you
all of you, both of you, none of you...
more than one of you with lips like sugar, eyes like meat.
I've watched men come, go and cheat
I sleep to dream and dream of sleep.
I had a dream Joe
that you were standing in the middle of an open road.
I had a dream Joe
that your hands were raised up to the sky and your mouth was covered in foam.

I've been crucified,
justified and mortified by my behaviour,
both feminine and masculine.
I am contradiction and a juxtapostion.
my relief is my release
and only time will tell all is well that ends well.
I am unsweetened, unclean...
being called drama queen,
ex-girlfriend,
ex-member...
the tantrum, the temper

I point my finger...
take the blame
and this time I will own the name
because nobody is going to ruin me,
if I have to I WILL RUIN
MY SELF AND IT WILL BE 'MY RUIN'!

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HIM - The Funeral Of Hearts

love's the funeral of hearts
and an ode for cruelty
when angels cry blood
on flowers of evil in bloom
the funeral of hearts
and a plea for mercy
when love is a gun
separating me from you

she was the sun shining upon the tomb of your hopes and dreams so frail

he was the moon painting you with its glow so vulnerable and pale

love's the funeral of hearts
and an ode for cruelty
when angels cry blood
on flowers of evil in bloom
the funeral of hearts
and a plea for mercy
when love is a gun
separating me from you

she was the wind carrying in all the troubles and fears you've for years tried to forget

he was the fire, restless and wild and you were like a moth to that flame

the heretic seal beyond divine
a prayer to a god who's deaf and blind
three little words and a question:
why?

love's the funeral of hearts
and an ode for cruelty
when angels cry blood
on flowers of evil in bloom
the funeral of hearts
and a plea for mercy
when love is a gun
separating me from you

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Kate Winslet - What If

Here I stand alone
With this weight upon my heart
And it will not go away
In my head I keep on looking back
Right back to the start
Wondering what it was that made you change

Well I tried
But I had to draw the line
And still this question keeps on spinning in my mind

What if I had never let you go
Would you be the man I used to know
If I'd stayed
If you'd tried
If we could only turn back time
But I guess we'll never know

Many roads to take
Some to joy
Some to heartache
Anyone can lose their way
And if I said that we could turn it back
Right back to the start
Would you take the chance and make the change

Do you think how it would have been sometimes
Do you pray that I'd never left your side

What if I had never let you go
Would you be the man I used to know
If I'd stayed
If you'd tried
If we could only turn back time
But I guess we'll never know

If only we could turn the hands of time
If I could take it back would you still be mine

'Cause I tried
But I had to draw the line
And still this question keep on spinning in my mind

What if I had never let you go
Would you be the man I used to know
What if I had never walked away
'Cause I still love you more than I could say
If I'd stayed
If you'd tried
If we could only turn back time
But I guess we'll never know
We'll never know

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Madonna - The Power Of Goodbye

Your heart is not open
so I must go
the spell has been broken
I loved you so
Freedom comes when you learn to let go
Creation comes when you learn to say no
Walk away

You were my lesson I had to learn
I was your fortress you had to burn
Pain is the the warning that somethings wrong
I pray to God that it wont be long
Walk away

there's nothing left to try
there's no place left to hide
there's no greater power
than the Power of Goodbye

Your heart is not open so I must go
the spell has been broken
I loved you so
You were my lesson
I had to learn
I was your fortress
There's nothing left to try
There's no place left to hide
There's no greater power than the power of goodbye
Learn to say goodbye
I yearn to say goodbye

There's nothing left to try
There's no more places to hide
There's no greater power than the power of goodbye
There's nothing left to lose
There's no place left to hide
There's no greater power than the power of goodbye

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Learn To Be Lonely

Child of the wilderness
Born into emptiness
Learn to be lonely
Learn to find your way in darkness

Who will be there for you
Comfort and care for you
Learn to be lonely
Learn to be your one companion

Never dreamed out in the world
There are arms to hold you
You’ve always known your heart was on its own

So laugh in your loneliness
Child of the wilderness
Learn to Be lonely
Learn how to love life that is lived alone

Learn to be lonely
Life can be lived, life can be loved, alone