M.e.m.o.r.i.e.s
So many memories
Lay, +:twisted:+, in my mind
Memories of j.o.y, of love
[-Memories-] that I long to find
By day, I live the 

By night, I live the 

By half light, the dreams are smothered
By a thousand broken >screams<
Maybe they were your screams
Maybe they were /m/i/n/e/
Who knows?
There is no *border*
But a fine, [.r.e.d.], glowing line
If only you could .see.
What lies, 's'h'a't't'e'r'e'd', 
In my head
Maybe you could see,
Why my -h.e.a.r.t- is so [~cold~], so dead.

B.r.o.k.e.n
I'm not just the skin I walk in
I'm not a stupid little slut
Maybe I deal with the problems
With a slash, a dice, a cut
I'm not the perfect little queen
You always wanted me to be
You seem to look at everything
But really, you never see
You never delve into the bright blue eyes
That reveal so very much
You never realise that the hurt can heal
With one hug, one kiss, one touch
Behind the mane of bright red hair
Is a heart that cries red tears
But you just look and you just see
The embodiment of your fears
Your daughter with no talent
With no intelligence
You try to seal her off
With your bright white picket fence
You never look at all her drawing
Never read her harsh refrains
A pretty, broken, red haired shell
Is all that now remains
She is your superficial wound
She'll vanish without a trace
She will never leave a mark
Of that pretty, broken face
You try to sculpt her in
To all the things you long to be
But to you she's just a twisted whore
Foolish, wild and free
She will feed on all your secrets
She will break with all your lies
And despite all the little things she says
She will sit alone and cry
That superficial wound
She will never go away
She cries, broken, in the dark night
She laughs, broken, in the day.

I'm gradually developing 
a case of
Extreme hyperness
That's what happens when they don't send me to 
school for [.2.d.a.y.s.]

You see,
I'm one part ill
And one part avoiding
[StUaRT H.u.m.p.h.r.e.y.s]
You see
Wednesdays and Thursdays
I have textiles.
With him
And I just can't stand it any more

Anyway.
.L.a.T.e.R.s.

Oh my gaaaaaawd.
I'm so ill.
I hate being ill
It sucks.
So much.
Ugh.
[*dies*]



LMFAO.

Me: Uuuuuuuuugh
    *dies*
Ashlee: Are you ill...?
       Or doing coursework?

Here's a list of s-o-n-g-s
Songs that break my [h.e.a.r.t] 
Songs that make me [c.r.y]
Don't you just L.o.V.e them?

¤ Angels - Robbie Williams
¤ Broken Angel - Hanson
¤ The Drugs Don't Work - The Verve
¤ Drugs Or Me - Jimmy Eat World
¤ It's A Motherfucker - The Eels
¤ I Don't Wanna Miss A Thing - AeroSmith
¤ Be Like That - Three Doors Down
¤ Whiskey Lullaby - Alison Krauss and Brad Paisley
¤ Girl In The Mirror - Britney Spears
¤ Born To Make You Happy - Britney Spears
¤ Everytime - Britney Spears
¤ You're Missing - Bruce Sprinsteen
¤ Sound The Bugle - Bryan Adams
¤ The Blowers Daughter - Damien Rice
¤ Sail Away - David Gray
¤ My Heart Will Go On - Celine Dion
¤ I Will Always Love You - Whitney Houston
¤ Without You - Mariah Carey
¤ All By Myself - Celine Dion
¤ Emotion - Destinys Child
¤ Out Of Nothing - Embrace
¤ Unpretty - TLC
¤ Just The Way I'm Feeling - Feeder
¤ Teenage Angst - Placebo
¤ Hallelujah - Jeff Buckley
¤ Bedshaped - Keane
¤ Kissing You - Des'ree
¤ I Try - Macy Gray
¤ Champagne Supernova - Oasis
¤ Don't Look Back In Anger - Oasis
¤ Whiter Shade Of Pale - Procul Harum

...So I cry a lot....

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Love is all you need...

Me: Sarah?
   Do you still love me??
Sarah: No, ive hated you since you slept with my girlfriend and had an affair with the cat next door.

I don't have a prayer for writing the book...
I just wanna be a page...
In Jeannies diary...
One single page...
In Jeannies diary...

Wow.
I was really really drunk.
So Mally's fault.

Me and mamlalaavika were so drunke.
Aeere so drunk.
But mally's fghone home now.
=(
*cires*
We wacyhjed titatinc.
WEll
Teh end bit.
TEh sad nbit.
='(
[choke_on_dreams] <---mlalalavieka.

Omg.
Guess what
No.
Not that.
Guess again!
No!
You're shit at this.
Ok.


I'll tell you.


I have
Textiles coursework
AND
Physics coursework.
Both due in next
Thursday!!!

And guess what!!!
I haven't even started!!!
Sounds familiar.


Anyway,
No.
I completely lost my thread now.
So yeah.

Who put the bomp in the bomp bah bomp bah bomp? 
Who put the ram in the rama lama ding dong?

...I didn't push her

*On phone to dad*
Me: Hey, I dropped cheese all over the floor
Dad: Well maybe you should clean the cheese up
Me: Or, alternatively, I could kick the cheese under the fridge and hope nobody notices
Dad: Or you could do that.

I love pizza

Here is my highly insightful and
evidently
correct view on the 
Meaning of Life

Woot.
Rawk awn sistah.

Here goes...

I don't understand why people make such a big *deal* over it.
I mean, 
sure,
Maybe we were put on this planet for the surveillance of a higher power.
Maybe we were put on this planet for some greater purpose
that nobody will ever know.
Maybe we were put on this planet
solely to reproduce.
But really, who actually cares?
Surely it's better to [.e.n.j.o.y.] the time you have rather than wonder
why you have been given it.
Even if i do mean nothing
and am totally insignificant
and have no purpose in life.
It doesn't really bother me.
Because I know that
while i'm here
I can [. e . n . j . o . y .] myself.
I can spend my time with the people that i love
and the people who love me
and I know that
no matter how meaningless my life is,
and how [pointless] my efforts are
i have left an undeniable, 
indelible footprint on this world.
In somebody's [memories]
Maybe lots of peoples memories.
I know that,
good or bad,
In my life, I will have meant something, to someone, at some point.
And [p.e.r.s.o.n.a.l.l.y.], that makes me happier than
knowing the Meaning of Life ever could.
~Frankly~,
I don't really care why I have this life.
Or who gave me it.
Because, I know, that, 
someone, somewhere,
will always remember me.
I have left footprints on someones [-h-e-a-r-t-].
Maybe it's just me.
But I'd rather think that
than spend the rest of my life wondering
[.W.h.y.]