I need help.
I need serious help.
I want to die and I'm okay with that.
My mind tell me it's wrong, but that doesn't stop me from wanting it. If someone held a gun to my face, I'd say "Make it quick, I've got enough pain in my life."
I'm afraid that I am perfectly serious.
Please, let me end this.
Someone tell me it's alright.
Someone tell me it's okay to feel this way.
I don't want to live in doubt anymore.
I can't hate myself anymore than I do now, so give me this small comfort and tell me it's okay to die.
Mood: Conflicted
That college called and I'm accepted. I dunno if I wanna go there anymore, though.
Ah! I just had my first college interview, and, I'm uber psyched! And nervous! I am so very nervous, because this is my top pick! I REALLY hope they accept me... The admissions rep. said I have a really good chance and the only reason he can think of that they would turn me down would be if my criminal record was too risque. Wait! I don't have a criminal record! W00+! I never get caught.
But the interview was an experience in itself. I was super psyched, and kept stammering (and if you know me irl, this isn't common) so I'm really afraid they will down on me. Then, when we were in the middle of all the paperwork, the power WENT OUT!!! We did the rest by candles and the light from my mom's laptop.
YEah, so that's it.
LOOK! I'm writing again! eh...I don't know what to write. Bye
I need to write in this more often. Well, today, I did nothing, but recently, I tried out for momiji's part on this one fanlisting. I think that was pretty bold, for me.
um...INU MOVIE AUG. 14
I'm sick...stupid virus. I hate getting sick.
Stupid fog...I hate bad weather, Don't you?
YAY! I finally got my drawing scanned! this is the best! lalala
hm.. nothing today. o course, it's only 7:54
yeah, i have alot of friends with wierd names. *cough* Bob *cough*
la la la. Yeah, i like InuYasha. la la la
grrr.... i have a really bad headache right now!
my god, people are staring at me! help! they are making noises too! please help!!!
stupid, stupid people. why must i be tortured by their prescence? grr... i shall be alone