damn im really going nuts.....dad wont let me join the callcentre all of a sudden...prolly thinks im some kind of druggie......bushra had a heart attack.......learned the correct riff for ronan keating's song...watched the aviator....played GT3......had a messed up day...

campaigned a little at school,stayed at my dads office for a long time.tried to get online at night but the monitor got fried,literally hehe,there was smoke and everything so i couldnt post any entry here,fahad and ahmed had a fight and got my mom and dad worried.theyre so immature sometimes.thats all i guess

stayed home all day,dad went to lahore in the morning and came back in the evening.fahads friend jawad had an accident and is in a critcal state. Talked to nadi,ahmed,jessica,irfan and faheem today,i just dont know whats going on,like she never admitted loving him but i see "i love you" notes on her away messages so much,why would she hide it from me? damn i really wish all of this was sorted out,i need some moments of peace. Things keep getting worse with time,i have no idea what to do,who to ask or anything. Afifia phupho came over too,just saw cast away again which kind of made me more emotional,what am i going to do?

im back in pakistan,had one of the worst days of my life. An 8 hour flight,watched Harry Potter 3 and kill bill 2 on it, both of which were kind of okay. The flight was pretty much okay,but when i got off the plane i went through hell,the heat was unbearable and it was so humid,i wish i didnt have to come back to pakistan,went straight to school at 8 and met my friends who were surprisingly boring,we got tired of talking in like hardly 10 minutes,i felt a bit hurt but i always keep such stuff to myself,its no use letting it out. School seemed like the last place id ever want to look at. I simply hate it,all the effort and everything,i cant wait until this year's over with,i want to get out of here,ive had too much,im counting the days,theres still 10 months to go,not to mention nadi was the focus of my mind all day today,thats what kept me going,unwrapped the guitars,put everything in its place,but i feel alone,i feel abandoned and weak i dont know why,i miss my brothers a lot and i miss nadi the most.Visited my uncles,tahir mamoon came over too. But inspite of everything,im still alone and i cant live with it. Plugged my tablet in,it works. Tried drawing on the plane too,just scribbled a pose for nadi and usher,hope it makes her shine with her beautiful smile when i show it to her. Have to get up tomorrow to talk to her too,shes the only person who makes me feel better,at times i think she couldnt be any better,shes more caring than my closest friends here and i love her for that.Anyway,thats kind of everything about this day