today was the first day of work :D yay lol :P my feet have never hurt this bad :( meh ... ouch ... was on them 11-8 ... that's 9 hrs! ugh ... they hurt so bad :(
what do u do when u find out that all u've ever known w/this one person was a lie and has been a lie and continues to be A LIE ? hmm? what do ya do? good question ... i s'pose just let them get on w/their lives cuz u dont need all that ... u deserve better ... much better ...
someone asked me to prom today! yay :P he's a really awesome guy ... christian and hilarious :P hehe ... i think he is acting like it's a real hardcore date ... i was kinda just thinking as in friends ... he was tryin to show me off to his friends ... :S lil uncomfortable when i heard that but eh ... it's cute to be crushed on :P hehe ... i want to get a new dress tho! grrr ... but mom won't let me ! psh ! i got a job ... i'm savin up! gah! lol they suck :P i want a black and white dress :D ... yay ... i'm so excited about prom ... :)
"Through The Rain"
-Mariah Carey
When you get caught in the rain with no where to run
When you're distraught and in pain without anyone
When you keep crying out to be saved but nobody comes
And you feel so far away
That you just can't find your way home
You can get there alone
It's okay, what you say is
I can make it through the rain
I can stand up once again on my own
And I know that I'm strong enough to mend
And every time I feel afraid I hold tighter to my faith
And I live one more day and I make it through the rain
And if it keeps falling down don't you dare give in
You will arrive safe and sound, so keep pressing on steadfastly
And you'll find what you need to prevail
What you say is
I can make it through the rain
I can stand up once again on my own
And I know that I'm strong enough to mend
And every time I feel afraid I hold tighter to my faith
And I live one more day and I make it through the rain
And when the wind blows, as shadows grow close don't be afraid
There's nothing you can't face
And should they tell you you'll never pull through
Don't hesitate, stand tall and say
I can make it through the rain
I can stand up once again on my own
And I know that I'm strong enough to mend
And every time I feel afraid I hold tighter to my faith
And I live one more day and I make it through the rain
I can make it through the rain
And stand up once again
And I live one more day and night
I can make it through the rain
(Yes you can)
You will make it through the rain
i'm so excited about this wkend! i'm playin in a tennis tourniment ... an there's gonna be a buncha cute guys there ... including this one that i kno! ahh lol ... he's 17 i think ... a real cutie ... really blonde ... tall ... an like number one in the state! ahh yay ... tennis players r so cute ... well some of them lol ...
i also got a job! yea!
"You’ll See"
-Madonna
You think that I can’t live without your love
You’ll see,
You think I can’t go on another day.
You think I have nothing
Without you by my side,
You’ll see
Somehow, some way
You think that I can never laugh again
You’ll see,
You think that you destroyed my faith in love.
You think after all you’ve done
I’ll never find my way back home,
You’ll see
Somehow, someday
All by myself
I don’t need anyone at all
I know I’ll survive
I know I’ll stay alive,
All on my own
I don’t need anyone this time
It will be mine
No one can take it from me
You’ll see
You think that you are strong, but you are weak
You’ll see,
It takes more strength to cry, admit defeat.
I have truth on my side,
You only have deceit
You’ll see, somehow, someday
All by myself
I don’t need anyone at all
I know I’ll survive
I know I’ll stay alive,
I’ll stand on my own
I won’t need anyone this time
It will be mine
No one can take it from me
You’ll see
You’ll see, you’ll see
You’ll see, mmmm, mmmm
i've had my better days ... much better :S ...
*it only hurts when i'm breathing
*my heart only breaks when it's beating
*my dreams only die when i'm dreaming
*so i will hold my breath ... to forget ...
feeling really blah ... I HATE MY DAMN PERIOD! STUPID HORMONES! >:( GRRRR ARGHHHHHH
torn ... nothin really specific ... just torn ...
just had to keep these somewhere real kwik ...
"Movies"
-Ashanti
[Verse 1]
Looking in the mirror I can see myself standing in your
Arms holding me and kissing me and loving me, oooh
You just can't get enough of me now I'm on the phone telling
You I'm all alone so come on over I'm out the shower now,
about to oil down I can't wait till you get here.
[Chorus 2x]
I wanna be like those girls in the movies,
to have a man so in love it makes him drop to his
knees she's even on his mind while he's asleep at night
cause that's the feeling you've given me.
[Verse 2]
I'm almost ready to accept the truth I'm in love with you
and I wanna tell you I'm glad that
you're here, uh and now we're face to face in the candlelight,
I'm watching your eyes watching
mine layin here with you, feel so good, feel so good.
With your hand in mine we don't have to
worry about time,or what the future brings
we can just let it be the way you smile
At me I already see you don't wanna leave so we can just
Sit back, relax and let it move naturally.
[Chorus 4x]
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"The Power Of Love"
-Celine Dion
The whispers in the morning
Of lovers sleeping tight
Are rolling like thunder now
As I look in your eyes
I hold on to your body
And feel each move you make
Your voice is warm and tender
A love that I could not forsake
(first chorus)
'cause I am your lady
And you are my man
Whenever you reach for me
I'll do all that I can
Lost is how I'm feeling lying in your arms
When the world outside's too
Much to take
That all ends when I'm with you
Even though there may be times
It seems I'm far away
Never wonder where I am
'cause I am always by your side
(repeat first chorus)
(second chorus)
We're heading for something
Somewhere I've never been
Sometimes I am frightened
But I'm ready to learn
Of the power of love
The sound of your heart beating
Made it clear
Suddenly the feeling that I can't go on
Is light years away
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"Then You Look At Me"
-Celine Dion
Laugh and cry, live and die
Life is a dream we are dreaming
Day by day I find my way
Look for the soul and the meaning
Then you look at me
And I always see
What I have been searching for
I'm lost as can be
Then you look at me
And I am not lost anymore
People run, sun to sun,
Caught in their lives ever flowing
Once begun, life goes till it's gone
We have to go where it's going
Then you look at me
And I always see
What I have been searching for
I'm lost as can be
Then you look at me
And I am not lost anymore
And you say you see
When you look at me
The reason you love life so
Though lost I have been
I find love again
And life just keeps on running
And life just keeps on running
You look at me and life comes from you
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"I Want You To Need Me"
-Celine Dion
I wanna be the face you see when you close your eyes
I wanna be the touch you need every single night
I wanna be your fantasy
And be your reality
And everything between
I want you to need me
Like the air you breathe
I want you to feel me
In everything
I want you to see me
In your every dream
The way that I taste you, feel you, breathe you, need you
I want you to need me, need me
Like I need you
I wanna be the eyes that look deep into your soul
I wanna be the world to you I just want it all
I wanna be your deepest kiss
The answer to your every wish
And all you ever need
I want you to need me
Like the air you breathe
I want you to feel me
In everything
I want you to see me
In your every dream
The way that I taste you, feel you, breathe you, need you
I want you to need me, need me
'Coz I need you more than you could know
And I need you to never never let me go
And I need to be deep inside your heart
I just want to be everywhere you are
I wanna be the face you see when you close your eyes
I wanna be the touch you need every single night
I wanna be your fantasy
And be your reality
And everything between...
I want you to need me
Like the air you breathe
I want you to feel me
In everything
I want you to see me
In your every dream
'Coz baby I taste you, feel you, breathe you, need you
I want you to need me, need me
Like I need you
be gentle w/me for i can break
the light will die that i can make
if you want to hold me until the end
be sure to recieve my love w/as much as u send
i'll be here forever always to hold you
each day will be better then the last, starting anew
just be sure to be careful but never let go
because then these tears will surely show
how much i felt for you here in this place
that can never ever be replaced
... not even with this light ...
... that's burned out from our fight ...
"Deep in Thoughts of You"
Cannot focus
Like a drug
Taking over
Forever lost
In the depths
Of eternity
From one thought
Of you with me
______________
"Secrets Unfurled"
Passionate secrets
Soon revealed
Truth be known
By those who sealed
Desperate love
To hide away
From the elders
Until next May
Efforts made
Hidden below
For fear of
The relative foe
A secret love
Infatuated
Wishing time
Would be compensated
Future dreams
Of together forever
With motivation
From those who say never
Wishing time
Would cease to exist
Locations near
So no one's missed ...
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"Soon We Shall"
Trying to focus
Sitting here
Thinking about
May of next year
Surrounded by people
With nothing to do
Always lost
And alone without you
People are here
Yet I feel so alone
Because to you
This love cannot be shown
Wanting to hold you
And my love I could show
But we have to wait
Before we can know
I hope that you'll wait
With me you can stay
Then united we'll be
More in love than ever ... one day ...
______________
"No Matter What They Say"
Suffocating here
Drowning in my pain
Knowing that my tears
Are all shed in vain
I see all their thoughts
And the looks on the their face
Wishing I could run to you
And hide in a secret place
Away from them all
And things that they say
While I'm loveing you
They try to lead me astray
Not liking the fact
I'm in love with you
They use hateful words
And cruel things they do
They think they're helping
Only the BAD they see
They don't see our love
And how good you treat me
I wish they would see you
And accept who you are
But no matter what they say
I'll continue to love you from afar ...
why do we tend to do stupid things when we're falling for someone?? hmm?? tell me that?? ... can we recover? can i recover it? ... :(
ok life has now given me a lemon rite? (to make lemonade ya kno? lol) but it gave me a lemon that was not ripe enuff :( ... and no one believes that it will ever make good lemonade b/c it's out of season ... but i kno in my heart that once it's ripen ... it will make the best an sweetest lemonade of all :D ;) ....
does ne one kno what i'm talking about??? if u do, u get a cookie lol (not really but ya kno hehe)
lol ... well when u fall in love ... it feels perfect ... for those few or amountless moments ... everything fits ... the puzzle isn't missing pieces and everything is complete .... rite now i have lost pieces and nothing is together or complete but i'm good ....
>greatest feeling in the world! :)
<worst pain ever endured! :(
hmm let's see .... i'm pretty sure that i'm really interested in two diff guys but they're both freshman and one has a g/f an the other is likin someone ... what do i do? hmm ahh ... i'm gonna try to win ... lol and the guy w/a g/f ...we've been pretty much "talking/datin