-i don't kno what to do ... i don't kno what's going on ... i hate all this ... so much for "my happy ending" cuz "nobody's home" so just "take me away" ... ... ...
~*~Avril Lavigne~*~
"My Happy Ending"
So much for my happy ending
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...
Let's talk this over
It's not like we're dead
Was it something I did?
Was it something You said?
Don't leave me hanging
In a city so dead
Held up so high
On such a breakable thread
You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be
You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all of the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
You've got your dumb friends
I know what they say
They tell you I'm difficult
But so are they
But they don't know me
Do they even know you?
All the things you hide from me
All the shit that you do
You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be
You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all of the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
It's nice to know you were there
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done
You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all of the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
"Nobody's Home"
I couldn't tell you why she felt that way,
She felt it everyday.
And I couldn't help her,
I just watched her make the same mistakes again.
What's wrong, what's wrong now?
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.
Open your eyes and look outside, find the reasons why.
You've been rejected, and now you can't find what you left behind.
Be strong, be strong now.
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.
Her feelings she hides.
Her dreams she can't find.
She's losing her mind.
She's fallen behind.
She can't find her place.
She's losing her faith.
She's fallen from grace.
She's all over the place.
Yeah,oh
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.
She's lost inside, lost inside...oh oh yeah
She's lost inside, lost inside...oh oh yeah
"Take Me Away"
I cannot find a way to describe it
It's there inside; all I do is hide
I wish that it would just go away
What would you do, you do, if you knew
What would you do
All the pain I thought I knew
All my thoughts lead back to you
Back to what was never said
Back and forth inside my head
I can't handle this confusion
I'm unable; come and take me away
I feel like I am all alone
All by myself I need to get around this
My words are cold, I don't want them to hurt you
If I show you, I don't think you'd understand
Cause no one understands
All the pain I thought I knew
All my thoughts lead back to you
Back to what was never said
Back and forth inside my head
I can't handle this confusion
I'm unable; come and take me away
I'm going nowhere (on and on and)
I'm getting nowhere (on and on and on)
Take me away
I'm going nowhere (on and off and off and on)
(and off and on)
All the pain I thought I knew
All my thoughts lead back to you
Back to what was never said
Back and forth inside my head
I can't handle this confusion
I'm unable; come and take me away
Take me away
Take me away
Take me away
Take me away
~*~in loving memory of Dane~*~
"Slipped Away"
-Avril Lavigne
I miss you, miss you so bad
I don't forget you, oh it's so sad
I hope you can hear me
I remember it clearly
The day you slipped away
Was the day I found it won't be the same
I didn't get around to kiss you
Goodbye on the hand
I wish that I could see you again
I know that I can't
I hope you can hear me cause I remember it clearly
The day you slipped away
Was the day I found it won't be the same
I had my wake up
Won't you wake up
I keep asking why
And I can't take it
It wasn't fake
It happened, you passed by
Now your gone, now your gone
There you go, there you go
Somewhere I can't bring you back
Now your gone, now your gone
There you go, there you go,
Somewhere your not coming back
The day you slipped away
Was the day i found it won't be the same noo..
The say you slipped away
Was the day that i found it won't be the same oooh...
I miss you
one of my dear friends died on april 22nd ... and i didn't find out until this monday the first or somethin like that ... broke my heart an it breaks it even more to kno that we fell out of contact an i never told him how much i cared for him and loved him ... he was such a good friend to me and we went thru good times and bad an still came out friends ... my prayers go out to him and his family as well as ne one else suffering from this terrific loss ... :"( ... come bak dane ...
this is a song that made me think of him in a way ... somewhat so yea thought i'd put it up ... an everyone ... please be sure to tell ppl how much u care about them every day ... no matter how busy u r or u just don't have the time to talk ... MAKE TIME! i didn't an look where it got me ... i'm sry dane ...
"Angels In Waiting"
-Tammy Cochran
we camped out on the livin room floor
in our old sleepin bags
by a make believe fire
in our tent made of covers
we'd talke for hours
my tow brothers and me
keepin the faith
racin w/destiny
They were angels in waiting
Waiting for wings to fly from this world
Away from their pain
Treasuring time
'Til time came to leave
Leaving behind
Sweet memories
Angels in waiting
Angels in waiting for wings
they always knew
they'd never grow old
somtimes the body is weaker than the soul
in their darkest hour
i made a pronise
i will always keep
i'll give them life
i'll let them live thru me
They were angels in waiting
Waiting for wings to fly from this world
Away from their pain
Treasuring time
'Til time came to leave
Leaving behind
Sweet memories
Angels in waiting
Angels in waiting for wings
*cries* dane truly was an angel in waiting ...
TATU LYRICS
"How Soon Is Now?"
I am the son and the heir
Of a shyness that is criminally vulgar
I am the son and heir
Of nothing in particular
You shut your mouth
How can you say
I go about things the wrong way
I am human and I need to be loved
Just like everybody else does
I am the son and the heir
Of a shyness that is criminally vulgar
I am the son and heir
Of nothing in particular
You shut your mouth
How can you say
I go about things the wrong way
I am human and I need to be loved
Just like everybody else does
There's a club if you'd like to go you
Could meet somebody who really loves you
So you go, and you stand on your own and
You leave on your own and you go home,
And you cry and you want to die.
When you say it's gonna happen "now",
When exactly do you mean? see I've already
Waited too long and all my hope is gone
You shut your mouth
How can you say
I go about things the wrong way
I am human and I need to be loved
Just like everybody else does
"30 Minutes"
Mama, Papa
Forgive me
Out of sight
Out of mind
Out of time
To decide
Do we run?
Should I hide?
For the rest
Of my life
Can we fly?
Do I stay?
We could lose
We could fail
In the moment
It takes
To make plans
Or mistakes
30 minutes, a blink of an eye
30 minutes,to alter our lives
30 minutes,to make up my mind
30 minutes,to finally decide
30 minutes,to whisper your name
30 minutes,to shoulder the blame
30 minutes,of bliss, thirty lies
30 minutes,to finally decide
Carousels
In the sky
That we shape
With our eyes
Under shade
Silhouettes
Casting shade
Crying rain
Can we fly?
Do I stay?
We could lose
We could fail
Either way
Options change
Chances fail
Trains derail
30 minutes, a blink of an eye
30 minutes,to alter our lives
30 minutes,to make up my mind
30 minutes,to finally decide
30 minutes,to whisper your name
30 minutes,to shoulder the blame
30 minutes,of bliss, thirty lies
30 minutes,to finally decide
To decide
To decide, to decide, to decide
To decide
To decide, to decide, to decide
To decide
had a real bad dream this morning about my ex-b/f an a girl (yes a specific one but i'm not going to say which one) ... woke up gasping for air ... and for the next thirty minutes i was having trouble breathing ... but the odd thing is ... i went to bed thinking about a past b/f ... before this one ... kinda scary ... couldn't go back to sleep ... didn't want to in a way ... didn't want to wake up like that again ... ever ... ... ...
"So Yesterday"
-Hilary Duff
You can change your life - if you wanna
You can change your clothes - if you wanna
If you change your mind
Well, that's the way it goes
But I'm gonna keep your jeans
And your old black hat - cause I wanna
They look good on me
You're never gonna get them back
At least not today, not today, not today
'cause
If it's over, let it go and
Come tomorrow it will seem
So yesterday, so yesterday
I'm just a bird that's already flown away
Laugh it off let it go and
When you wake up it will seem
So yesterday, so yesterday
Haven't you heard that I'm gonna be okay
You can say you're bored - if you wanna
You can act real tough - if you wanna
You can say you're torn
But I've heard enough
Thank you... you made my mind up for me
When you started to ignore me
Do you see a single tear
It isn't gonna happen here
At least not today, not today, not today
'cause
If it's over, let it go and
Come tomorrow it will seem
So yesterday, so yesterday
I'm just a bird that's already flown away
Laugh it off let it go and
When you wake up it will seem
So yesterday, so yesterday
Haven't you heard that I'm gonna be okay
If you're over me, I'm already over you
If it's all been done, what is left to do
How can you hang up if the line is dead
If you wanna walk, I'm a step ahead
If you're moving on, I'm already gone
If the light is off then it isn't on
At least not today, not today, not today
'cause
If it's over, let it go and
Come tomorrow it will seem
So yesterday, so yesterday
I'm just a bird that's already flown away
Laugh it off let it go and
When you wake up it will seem
So yesterday, so yesterday
Haven't you heard that I'm gonna be okay
AVRIL LAVIGNE LYRICS
"Don't Tell Me"
You held my hand and walked me home I know
While you gave me that kiss it was something like this it made me go ooh ohh
You wiped my tears, got rid of all my fears, why did you have to go?
Guess it wasn't enough to take up some of my love
Guys are so hard to trust
Did I not tell you that I'm not like that girl?
The one who gives it all away
[Chorus:]
Did you think that I was gonna give it up to you, this time?
Did you think that it was somethin I was gonna do and cry?
Don't try to tell me what to do,
Dont try to tell me what to say,
Your better off that way
Don't think that your charm and the fact that your arm is now around my neck
Will get you in my pants I'll have to kick your ass and make you never forget
I'm gonna ask you to stop, thought I liked you a lot, but I'm really upset
Get out of my head get off of my bed yeah thats what I said
Did I not tell you that I'm not like that girl, the one who, throws it all away
[Chorus]
Did you think that I was gonna give it up to you, this time?
Did you think that it was somethin I was gonna do and cry?
Don't try to tell me what to do,
Dont try to tell me what to say,
Your better off that way
This guilt trip that you put me on won't, mess me up I've done no wrong
Any thoughts of you and me have gone away
[Chorus]
Did you think that I was gonna give it up to you, this time?
Did you think that it was somethin I was gonna do and cry?
Don't try to tell me what to do,
Dont try to tell me what to say,
Your better off that way
Better off that way
I'm better off alone anyway
"Losing Grip"
Are you aware of what you make me feel, baby
Right now I feel invisible to you, like I'm not real
Didn't you feel me lock my arms around you
Why'd you turn away?
Here's what I have to say I was left to cry there,
waiting outside there grinning with a lost stare
That's when I decided
[chorus]
Why should I care
Cuz you weren't there when I was scared I was so alone
You, you need to listen I'm starting to trip,
I'm losing my grip and I'm in this thing alone
Am I just some chick you place beside you to take somebody's place
when you turn around can you recognize my face you used to love me,
you used to hug me
But that wasn't the case
Everything wasn't ok I was left to cry there
waiting outside there grinning with a lost stare
That's when I decided
[chorus]
Crying out loud I'm crying out loud
Crying out loud I'm crying out loud
Open your eyes
Open up wide
Why should I care
Cuz you weren't there
when I was scared I was so alone Why should I care
Cuz you weren't there when I was scared I was so alone
Why should I care
If you don't care then I don't care were not going newhere
Why should I care cuz you weren't there when I was scared I was so alone
Why should I care If you don't care then i don't care were not going newhere
ME AND ANDREANE'S SONG! YAY! *PINKY PROMISE*
-I LOVE U MORE THAN I CAN DESCRIBE ANDREANE ... U'R LIKE A SISTER TO ME AND MORE ... MY BEST FRIEND ... THE BEST I'VE EVER HAD AND EVER WILL ... PROMISE ME THAT WE'LL STAY IN CONTACT TILL WE'RE OLD ENUFF (AN RICH ENUFF :P) TO MEET UP? PWEEZ :( LOL .... I LOVE U SO MUCH GIRL ... MY TWIN :)
-ps-ur' the beautiful one!
Sense Field
Save Yourself
Turn out the light
Just say goodnight, to yourself
May I remind you
When you find you, you're all alone is when you've got to be strong
Cause that's when they call you, in the night
He's got your picture in his mind
He's got your number on a paper at his disposal anytime
Is it really true
Could you save yourself for someone who, loves you for you
So many times we just give it away, to someone who
Someone who you
Met in bar
The back of a car
And for a moment you felt important but not in your heart
My self esteem, it's been low, go ahead and count it's been lower than low
I know the feeling of it stealing life out from under me
I want to learn, how you save yourself for someone who, loves you for you
So many times we just give it away to someone who, couldn't even remember your name
Could you save yourself for someone who, loves you for you, loves me for me
Give it away to someone who someone who will cherish your name
Cause I want to learn, can you save yourself for
Someone who will love you for you so many times we
Just give it away, someone who, couldn't even remember your name
You save yourself for someone who, loves you for you,
Loves me for me
Give it away to someone who, someone who will
Cherish your name
Cherish your name
today was the first day of work :D yay lol :P my feet have never hurt this bad :( meh ... ouch ... was on them 11-8 ... that's 9 hrs! ugh ... they hurt so bad :(
what do u do when u find out that all u've ever known w/this one person was a lie and has been a lie and continues to be A LIE ? hmm? what do ya do? good question ... i s'pose just let them get on w/their lives cuz u dont need all that ... u deserve better ... much better ...
someone asked me to prom today! yay :P he's a really awesome guy ... christian and hilarious :P hehe ... i think he is acting like it's a real hardcore date ... i was kinda just thinking as in friends ... he was tryin to show me off to his friends ... :S lil uncomfortable when i heard that but eh ... it's cute to be crushed on :P hehe ... i want to get a new dress tho! grrr ... but mom won't let me ! psh ! i got a job ... i'm savin up! gah! lol they suck :P i want a black and white dress :D ... yay ... i'm so excited about prom ... :)
"Through The Rain"
-Mariah Carey
When you get caught in the rain with no where to run
When you're distraught and in pain without anyone
When you keep crying out to be saved but nobody comes
And you feel so far away
That you just can't find your way home
You can get there alone
It's okay, what you say is
I can make it through the rain
I can stand up once again on my own
And I know that I'm strong enough to mend
And every time I feel afraid I hold tighter to my faith
And I live one more day and I make it through the rain
And if it keeps falling down don't you dare give in
You will arrive safe and sound, so keep pressing on steadfastly
And you'll find what you need to prevail
What you say is
I can make it through the rain
I can stand up once again on my own
And I know that I'm strong enough to mend
And every time I feel afraid I hold tighter to my faith
And I live one more day and I make it through the rain
And when the wind blows, as shadows grow close don't be afraid
There's nothing you can't face
And should they tell you you'll never pull through
Don't hesitate, stand tall and say
I can make it through the rain
I can stand up once again on my own
And I know that I'm strong enough to mend
And every time I feel afraid I hold tighter to my faith
And I live one more day and I make it through the rain
I can make it through the rain
And stand up once again
And I live one more day and night
I can make it through the rain
(Yes you can)
You will make it through the rain
i'm so excited about this wkend! i'm playin in a tennis tourniment ... an there's gonna be a buncha cute guys there ... including this one that i kno! ahh lol ... he's 17 i think ... a real cutie ... really blonde ... tall ... an like number one in the state! ahh yay ... tennis players r so cute ... well some of them lol ...
i also got a job! yea!
"You’ll See"
-Madonna
You think that I can’t live without your love
You’ll see,
You think I can’t go on another day.
You think I have nothing
Without you by my side,
You’ll see
Somehow, some way
You think that I can never laugh again
You’ll see,
You think that you destroyed my faith in love.
You think after all you’ve done
I’ll never find my way back home,
You’ll see
Somehow, someday
All by myself
I don’t need anyone at all
I know I’ll survive
I know I’ll stay alive,
All on my own
I don’t need anyone this time
It will be mine
No one can take it from me
You’ll see
You think that you are strong, but you are weak
You’ll see,
It takes more strength to cry, admit defeat.
I have truth on my side,
You only have deceit
You’ll see, somehow, someday
All by myself
I don’t need anyone at all
I know I’ll survive
I know I’ll stay alive,
I’ll stand on my own
I won’t need anyone this time
It will be mine
No one can take it from me
You’ll see
You’ll see, you’ll see
You’ll see, mmmm, mmmm
i've had my better days ... much better :S ...
*it only hurts when i'm breathing
*my heart only breaks when it's beating
*my dreams only die when i'm dreaming
*so i will hold my breath ... to forget ...
feeling really blah ... I HATE MY DAMN PERIOD! STUPID HORMONES! >:( GRRRR ARGHHHHHH
torn ... nothin really specific ... just torn ...
just had to keep these somewhere real kwik ...
"Movies"
-Ashanti
[Verse 1]
Looking in the mirror I can see myself standing in your
Arms holding me and kissing me and loving me, oooh
You just can't get enough of me now I'm on the phone telling
You I'm all alone so come on over I'm out the shower now,
about to oil down I can't wait till you get here.
[Chorus 2x]
I wanna be like those girls in the movies,
to have a man so in love it makes him drop to his
knees she's even on his mind while he's asleep at night
cause that's the feeling you've given me.
[Verse 2]
I'm almost ready to accept the truth I'm in love with you
and I wanna tell you I'm glad that
you're here, uh and now we're face to face in the candlelight,
I'm watching your eyes watching
mine layin here with you, feel so good, feel so good.
With your hand in mine we don't have to
worry about time,or what the future brings
we can just let it be the way you smile
At me I already see you don't wanna leave so we can just
Sit back, relax and let it move naturally.
[Chorus 4x]
______________
"The Power Of Love"
-Celine Dion
The whispers in the morning
Of lovers sleeping tight
Are rolling like thunder now
As I look in your eyes
I hold on to your body
And feel each move you make
Your voice is warm and tender
A love that I could not forsake
(first chorus)
'cause I am your lady
And you are my man
Whenever you reach for me
I'll do all that I can
Lost is how I'm feeling lying in your arms
When the world outside's too
Much to take
That all ends when I'm with you
Even though there may be times
It seems I'm far away
Never wonder where I am
'cause I am always by your side
(repeat first chorus)
(second chorus)
We're heading for something
Somewhere I've never been
Sometimes I am frightened
But I'm ready to learn
Of the power of love
The sound of your heart beating
Made it clear
Suddenly the feeling that I can't go on
Is light years away
______________
"Then You Look At Me"
-Celine Dion
Laugh and cry, live and die
Life is a dream we are dreaming
Day by day I find my way
Look for the soul and the meaning
Then you look at me
And I always see
What I have been searching for
I'm lost as can be
Then you look at me
And I am not lost anymore
People run, sun to sun,
Caught in their lives ever flowing
Once begun, life goes till it's gone
We have to go where it's going
Then you look at me
And I always see
What I have been searching for
I'm lost as can be
Then you look at me
And I am not lost anymore
And you say you see
When you look at me
The reason you love life so
Though lost I have been
I find love again
And life just keeps on running
And life just keeps on running
You look at me and life comes from you
______________
"I Want You To Need Me"
-Celine Dion
I wanna be the face you see when you close your eyes
I wanna be the touch you need every single night
I wanna be your fantasy
And be your reality
And everything between
I want you to need me
Like the air you breathe
I want you to feel me
In everything
I want you to see me
In your every dream
The way that I taste you, feel you, breathe you, need you
I want you to need me, need me
Like I need you
I wanna be the eyes that look deep into your soul
I wanna be the world to you I just want it all
I wanna be your deepest kiss
The answer to your every wish
And all you ever need
I want you to need me
Like the air you breathe
I want you to feel me
In everything
I want you to see me
In your every dream
The way that I taste you, feel you, breathe you, need you
I want you to need me, need me
'Coz I need you more than you could know
And I need you to never never let me go
And I need to be deep inside your heart
I just want to be everywhere you are
I wanna be the face you see when you close your eyes
I wanna be the touch you need every single night
I wanna be your fantasy
And be your reality
And everything between...
I want you to need me
Like the air you breathe
I want you to feel me
In everything
I want you to see me
In your every dream
'Coz baby I taste you, feel you, breathe you, need you
I want you to need me, need me
Like I need you
be gentle w/me for i can break
the light will die that i can make
if you want to hold me until the end
be sure to recieve my love w/as much as u send
i'll be here forever always to hold you
each day will be better then the last, starting anew
just be sure to be careful but never let go
because then these tears will surely show
how much i felt for you here in this place
that can never ever be replaced
... not even with this light ...
... that's burned out from our fight ...
"Deep in Thoughts of You"
Cannot focus
Like a drug
Taking over
Forever lost
In the depths
Of eternity
From one thought
Of you with me
______________
"Secrets Unfurled"
Passionate secrets
Soon revealed
Truth be known
By those who sealed
Desperate love
To hide away
From the elders
Until next May
Efforts made
Hidden below
For fear of
The relative foe
A secret love
Infatuated
Wishing time
Would be compensated
Future dreams
Of together forever
With motivation
From those who say never
Wishing time
Would cease to exist
Locations near
So no one's missed ...
______________
"Soon We Shall"
Trying to focus
Sitting here
Thinking about
May of next year
Surrounded by people
With nothing to do
Always lost
And alone without you
People are here
Yet I feel so alone
Because to you
This love cannot be shown
Wanting to hold you
And my love I could show
But we have to wait
Before we can know
I hope that you'll wait
With me you can stay
Then united we'll be
More in love than ever ... one day ...
______________
"No Matter What They Say"
Suffocating here
Drowning in my pain
Knowing that my tears
Are all shed in vain
I see all their thoughts
And the looks on the their face
Wishing I could run to you
And hide in a secret place
Away from them all
And things that they say
While I'm loveing you
They try to lead me astray
Not liking the fact
I'm in love with you
They use hateful words
And cruel things they do
They think they're helping
Only the BAD they see
They don't see our love
And how good you treat me
I wish they would see you
And accept who you are
But no matter what they say
I'll continue to love you from afar ...