o yea kids! i'm changin my name cuz this is my nickname at the restaurant i work at ... :P and i thought it sounded better too :P ;)

ok i'm pretty sure i went to the tanning bed today for the first time in a few yrs :P and my ASS is FRIED! :P ahahahahaha no joke tho :P it's hilarious!!!! big red area :P haha ... funny stuff :P i'm probably goin on saturday too tho :P heehee ... i'm stayin the nite w/courtney sat ! woo hoo we're proally gonna go guy shopping .... again :P ... as u see-we've been unsuccessful :P haha ... her brother didn't work out cuz he's a man hoar but there's more out there :P hehe ... ne ways ... i'ma go rub some vitamin e on my ass! :P

*for an ex-b/f who does kno who he is*

"Love Makes The World Go Round"
-Ashlee Simpson

Here, here i am again
And im starin at these same four walls
Alone again
And now, all the colors blend
And im growing numb and I've become
This empty page

Hold on, its tragic
Stumbling through all this static

I just wanna talk to you
And my broken heart just has no use
And I, I guess promises are better
left unsaid, yeah
Everytime you try to tell me
You say the words that im the only
But I'm the one who's crawling on the ground
When you say love makes the world go 'round

My love, look at what you've done to me
For someone who has felt so strong
It's amazing I'm completely gone

Hold on, its tragic
Stumbling through all this static

I just wanna talk to you
And my broken heart just has no use
And I, I guess promises are better
left unsaid, yeah
Everytime you try to tell me
You say the words that im the only
But I'm the one who's crawling on the ground,
When you say love makes the world go 'round

If that's the kind of love you give me
I'd rather be alone, believe me
It's not the way you 'posed to treat me
I'd rather walk away

I just wanna talk to you
And my broken heart just has no use
And I, I guess promises are better
left unsaid, yeah
Everytime you try to tell me
You say the words that im the only
But I'm the one who's crawling on the ground,
When you say love makes the world go 'round, yeah
You say love makes the world go 'round
Everytime you try to tell me
I dont care you're not the only
Dont you know I'm coming back around
Cuz I say love makes the world go 'round, yeah
Cuz I say love makes the world go 'round

*for an ex-b/f ... who doesn't kno*

"Undiscovered"
-Ashlee Simpson

Take it back, take it all back now
The things I gave, like the taste of my kiss on your lips,
I miss that now
I can't try any harder than I do
All the reasons I gave, excuses I made for you
I'm broken in two

All the things left undiscovered
Leave me empty and left to wonder
I need you
All the things left undiscovered
Leave me waiting and left to wonder
I need you
Yeah I need you

Don't walk away

Touch me now how I wanna feel
Something so real, please remind me
My love, and take me back
Cuz I'm so in love with what we were
I'm not breathing I'm suffocating without you
Do u feel it too?

All the things left undiscovered
Leave me waiting and left to wonder
I need you
All the things left undiscovered
Leave me empty and left to wonder
I need you
Yeah I need you

When I'm in the dark and all alone
Dreaming that you'll walk right through my door,
Its then I know my heart is whole
There's a million reasons why I cry
Hold my covers tight and close my eyes
Cuz I don't wana be alone

All the things left undiscovered
Leave me waiting and left to wonder
I need you
All the things left undiscovered
Leave me empty and left to wonder
I need you, I need you

Cuz I can't fake and I can't hate
But it's my heart
Thats about to break
You're all I need
I'm on my knees
Watch me bleed
Would you listen please
I give in
I breathe out
I want you, theres no doubt
I freak out, I'm left out
Without you, I'm without
I'm crossed out
I can't doubt
I cry out
I reach out
Don't walk away
Don't walk away
Don't walk away
Don't walk away

*for all the people who believe that their life is not worth living b/c i believe it is ... no matter what*

"Give It All Away"
-Ashlee Simpson

Hey you, living for tomorrow
You sell your dreams for a pocket of change
Hey you, smokin' up your sorrow,
Just pointing fingers at someone to blame
Hey you, you turn your back on your children
It's left you in that big burning bed
This life's like livin in the gutter
All this pain just makes you feel dead

You're just givin it all, givin it all away
You're just givin it all, giving it all away, hey, hey yayayay

Slow down
Just look a little closer
You might find thats its not the end
You wonder how, your life can get better
When you're alone you just tear yourself down

You're just givin it all, giving it all away,
You're just givin it all, givin it all away
You're just givin it all, giving it all away,
You're just givin it all, giving it all away, hey, hey yayayay

Try and find your better half now
Open your eyes, and find yourself

Hey girl, screamin for attention
Once you get it, you throw it away
I'm broken, I'm pickin up the pieces
I won't live in all your mistakes

I'm just givin it all, givin it all away
I'm just givin it all, giving it all away,
I'm just givin it all, giving it all away,
I'm just givin it all, giving it all away, hey, hey yayayay

tell me something, if i were to walk away - would u come after me? or would u follow me and just not stop me? or would u watch me walk away? or would u go u'r separate way?
-the true test to see if someone loves u ...

ex-boyfriends ... meh

lol

"My Boo"
-Usher feat. Alicia Keys

There's always that one person
That will always have your heart
You never see it coming
Cause you're blinded from the start
Know that you're that one for me
It's clear for everyone to see
Ooh baby ooh you'll always be my boo

I don't know bout cha'll
But I know about us and uh
It's the only way
We know how to rock
I don't know bout cha'll
But I know about us and uh
It's the only way
We know how to rock

Do you remember girl
I was the one who gave you your first kiss
Cause I remember girl
I was the one who said put your lips like this
Even before all the fame and
People screaming your name
Girl I was there when you were my baby

It started when we were younger
You were mine my boo
Now another brother's taken over
But its still in your eyes my boo
Even though we used to argue it's alright
I know we haven't seen each other
In awhile but you will always be my boo

I was in love with you when we were younger
You were mine my boo
And I see it from time to time
I still feel like my boo
And I can see it no matter
How I try to hide my boo
Even though there's another man who's in my life
You will always be my boo

Yes I remember boy
Cause after we kissed
I could only think about your lips
Yes I remember boy
The moment I knew you were the one
I could spend my life with
Even before all the fame
And people screaming your name
I was there and you were my baby

It started when we were younger
You were mine my boo
Now another brother's taken over
But its still in your eyes my boo
Even though we used to argue it's alright
I know we haven't seen each other
In awhile but you will always be my boo

I was in love with you when we were younger
You were mine my boo
And I see it from time to time
I still feel like my boo
And I can see it no matter
How I try to hide my boo
Even though there's another man who's in my life
You will always be my boo

My oh, My oh, My oh, My oh, My Boo

My oh, My oh, My oh, My oh, My Boo

It started when we were younger
You were mine my boo
Now another brother's taken over
But its still in your eyes my boo
Even though we used to argue it's alright
I know we haven't seen each other
In awhile but you will always be my boo

I don't know bout cha'll
But I know about us and uh
It's the only way
We know how to rock
I don't know bout cha'll
But I know about us and uh
It's the only way
We know how to rock

ahh i need help :P lol makin my wiki page ... i'm workin on it but i need someone to help me make banners for Rebecca's Fan Club ... if ne one can help me please let me kno! :D much love ... o yea an if ne one can help me do ne thing else on a wiki page that'd be great help ... msg me babes ! :P thanks !

much love,
rebecca

"Whiskey Lullabye"
-Lyrics by Brad Paisley
-Sung by Brad Paisley and Allison Krause

She put him out like the burning end of a midnight cigarette.
She broke his heart: He spent his whole life trying to forget.
We watched him drink his pain away, a little at a time,
But he never could get drunk enough to get her off his mind,

Until the night:
He put that bottle to his head and pulled the trigger.
And finally drank away her memory.
Life is short, but this time it was bigger,
Than the strength he had to get up off his knees.
We found him with his face down in the pillow,
With a note that said: "I'll love her till I die."
And when we buried him beneath the willow,
The angels sang a whiskey lullabye.
La la la la la la la
La la la la la la la.
La la la la la la la,
La la la la la la la.

The rumours flew but nobody knew how much she blamed herself.
For years and years, she tried to hide the whiskey on her breath.
She finally drank her pain away, a little at a time,
But she never could get drunk enough to get him off her mind.

Until the night:
She put that bottle to her head and pulled the trigger.
And finally drank away his memory.
Life is short, but this time it was bigger,
Than the strength she had to get up off her knees.
We found her with her face down in the pillow,
Clinging to his picture for dear life.
We laid her next to him beneath the willow,
While the angels sang a whiskey lullabye.
La la la la la la la
La la la la la la la.
La la la la la la la,
La la la la la la la.

La la la la la la la
La la la la la la la.

La la la la la la la,
La la la la la la la.

just a lil fyi ... me an that girl ... the one i talked about down there in the last entry ... me an her r kool now ... we're buddies ... she's a sweet girl ... an i'm not just sayin that ... me an her get along great ...

take care nancy ;)

lol ppl kill me! ahahah sry i just hafta laff .... so funny ... one wk a girl hates me b/c my ex still loves me (as i do him) an the next wk she has a new "LOVER" who she's going to spend the rest of her life with an someone she is just so happy with! ahahahahahaha lol i'm sry i just find it funny cuz it's almost bi-polar cuz one minute she's suicidal and another guy comes along an she's "the happiest" she could ever be :P hehehehehehehe sry lol i'm not trying to laff at ne one in particular i just find human nature funny ... u gotta laff at things once in a while ... put a smile on u'r face an let it loose ... take it easy! .... don't ne one think i'm makin fun of this girl either cuz i'm not ... i used to be like her ... but i just find it funny now ... i want every girl to remember tho : there will always be another one who comes along so don't wry about the last one ... a better one should surface soon ;) ... keep the faith an don't lose hope ladies :)

ps-read my song "Men Don't Change" in my profile too ;) lol funny stuff :P

Do take care!

Much Love,
Rebecca A. Perona
-AKA-
*Bapsie*

-*- couldn't sleep last nite ... didn't go to bed till past 1 an then woke up at like 6:15 this mornin ... what is the deal man ... got lots on the mind :S ... good an bad ... an lots of unsure :\ ... hmmm ... -*-



KEITH URBAN - You'll Think Of Me Lyrics

I woke up early this morning around 4am
With the moon shining bright as headlights on the interstate
I pulled the covers over my head and tried to catch some sleep
But thoughts of us kept keeping me awake
Ever since you found yourself in someone else's arms
I've been tryin' my best to get along
But that's OK
There's nothing left to say, but

Take your records, take your freedom
Take your memories I don't need'em
Take your space and take your reasons
But you'll think of me
And take your cat and leave my sweater
'Cause we have nothing left to weather
In fact I'll feel a whole lot better
But you'll think of me, you'll think of me

I went out driving trying to clear my head
I tried to sweep out all the ruins that my emotions left
I guess I'm feeling just a little tired of this
And all the baggage that seems to still exist
It seems the only blessing I have left to my name
Is not knowing what we could have been
What we should have been
So

Take your records, take your freedom
Take your memories I don't need'em
Take your space and take your reasons
But you'll think of me
And take your cat and leave my sweater
'Cause we have nothing left to weather
In fact I'll feel a whole lot better
But you'll think of me

Someday I'm gonna run across your mind
Don't worry, I'll be fine
I'm gonna be alright
While you're sleeping with your pride
Wishing I could hold you tight
I'll be over you
And on with my life

So take your records, take your freedom
Take your memories I don't need'em
And take your cat and leave my sweater
'Cause we have nothing left to weather
In fact I'll feel a whole lot better
But you'll think of me

So take your records, take your freedom
Take your memories I don't need'em
Take your space and all your reasons
But you'll think of me
And take your cat and leave my sweater
'Cause we got nothing left to weather
In fact I'll feel a whole lot better
But you'll think of me, you'll think of me, yeah

And you're gonna think of me
Oh someday baby, someday

"A Little Past Little Rock"
-Lee Anne Womack

I had to leave my life in Dallas
that town will always be you
in every crowd, on every corner,
every face I'd see you
so with nothing more than a tank of gas
I drove away without looking back
and I guess that's how I got where I am
going anywhere as fast as I can

Now I'm a little past Little Rock
further down the line
too soon to know what's up ahead
too late to change my mind
I've got to keep my heart out of this
and both hands on the wheel
I'm learning more with every mile
just how leaving feels
It's a lonely stretch of blacktop
out into the blue
don't know where I'll go
or what I'll do
I'm a little past Little Rock,
but a long way from over you

these headlights on the highway
disappear into the dark
and if I could have it my way
I'd go back to where you are
Oh, but I can't turn this thing around
and nothing short of breaking down
is gonna get me off this road I'm on
but I'm still a far cry from gone

Now I'm a little past Little Rock
further down the line
too soon to know what's up ahead
too late to change my mind
I've got to keep my heart out of this
and both hands on the wheel
I'm learning more with every mile
just how leaving feels
It's a lonely stretch of blacktop
out into the blue
don't know where I'll go
or what I'll do
I'm a little past Little Rock,
but a long way from over you

I'm a little past Little Rock
but a long way from over you



"Never Again, Again"
-Lee Ann Womack

Never again, again
Once more I'll let you back in
I know how the story ends
But I can't help myself

You'll break my heart I know
Through my tears I'll watch you go
Then just like it's always been

I'll say never again, again
Each time you leave
I say I've had enough
But I must be addicted
To your kind of love

I swear to myself
I'm gonna stand my ground
But one look at you
Breaks my defenses down

And here comes never again, again
Once more I'll let you back in
I know how the story ends
But I can't help myself

You'll break my heart I know
Through my tears I'll watch you go
Then just like it's always been
I'll say never again, again

I swear to myself
I'm gonna stand my ground
But one look at you
Breaks my defenses down

And here comes never again, again
Once more I'll let you back in
And just like it's always been
I'll say never again, again
And just like it's always been
I'll say never again, again.

ya kno what ... i'm not gonna fite w/u ... u can have him ... he obviously has chosen yal over me ... i do love him more than ne thing ... an i really thought that we could have gotten married an spent the rest of our lives together .... i still kinda think that but i kno that he can't do it ... he can't be faithful enuff .... he thinks it's ok to do these kinda things .... it's not ... so whoever out there hates me an what not ... i'm sry ... an i hope that somehow u will forgive me for w/e it is i've done to u ... an if u want a guy who's gonna cheat on u three times then so be it .... this is my warning .... i hope that u girls do not get hurt in the process like i have over an over again ... i still love him .... but i kno that i shouldn't ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... that's what hurts the most :"( ... but don't pity me ... this is not an entry for me to look for pity an to just totally self pity myself .... that's not what i'm doing ... i just don't want ne one to hafta go thru what i've already been thru ... please be careful ... :( ...

USHER LYRICS

"U Got It Bad"

Oh, no, no, no, no, no...

When you feel it in your body
You found somebody who makes you change your ways
Like hanging with your crew
Said you act like you're ready
But you don't really know
And everything in your past - you wanna let it go

I've been there, done it, fucked around
After all that - this is what I found
Nobody wants to be alone
If you're touched by the words in this song
Then baby...

U got, u got it bad
When you're on the phone
Hang up and you call right back
U got, u got it bad
If you miss a day without your friend
Your whole life's off track
You know you got it bad when you're stuck in the house
You don't wanna have fun
It's all you think about
U got it bad when you're out with someone
But you keep on thinkin' bout somebody else
U got it bad

When you say that you love 'em
And you really know
Everything that used to matter, don't matter no more
Like my money, all my cars
(You can have it all back)
Flowers, cards and candy
(I do it just cause I'm...)
Said I'm fortunate to have you girl
I want you to know
I really adore you
All my people who know what's going on
Look at your mate, help me sing my song
Tell her I'm your man, you're my girl
I'm gonna tell it to the whole wide world
Ladies say I'm your girl, you're my man
Promise to love you the best I can

See I've been there, done it, fucked around
After all that - this is what I found
Everyone of y'all are just like me
It's too bad that you can't see
That you got it bad...hey

U got, u got it bad
When you're on the phone
Hang up and you call right back
U got, u got it bad
If you miss a day without your friend
Your whole life's off track
You know you got it bad when you're stuck in the house
You don't wanna have fun
It's all you think about
U got it bad when you're out with someone
But you keep on thinkin' bout somebody else
U got it bad

breakdown

U got, u got it bad
When you're on the phone
Hang up and you call right back
U got, u got it bad
If you miss a day without your friend
Your whole life's off track
You know you got it bad when you're stuck in the house
You don't wanna have fun
It's all you think about
U got it bad when you're out with someone
But you keep on thinkin' bout somebody else
U got it bad



"Burn"

[Intro]
Girl, understand why
See it's burning me to hold onto this
I know this is something I gotta do
But that don't mean I want to
What I'm trying to say is that I-love-you I just
I feel like this is coming to an end
And its better for me to let it go now than hold on and hurt you
I gotta let it burn

[Verse 1]
It's gonna burn for me to say this
But it's comin from my heart
It's been a long time coming
But we done been fell apart
Really wanna work this out
But I don't think ya gonna change ya
I do but you don't
Think it's best we go our separate ways
Tell me why I should stay in this relationship
When I'm hurting baby, I ain't happy baby
Plus theres so many other things I gotta deal with
I think that you should let it burn

[Chorus]
When your feeling ain't the same and your body don't want to
But you know gotta let it go cuz the party ain't jumpin' like it used to
Even though this might bruise you
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

Deep down you know it's best for yourself but you
Hate the thought of her being with someone else
But you know that it's over
You know that it was through
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

[Verse 2]
Sendin' pages I ain't supposed to
Got somebody here but I want you
Cause the feelin ain't the same find myself
Callin' her your name
Ladies tell me do you understand?
Now all my fellas do you feel my pain?
It's the way I feel
I know I made a mistake
Now it's too late
I know she ain't comin back
What I gotta do now
To get my shorty back
Ooo ooo ooo ooooh
Man I don't know what I'm gonna do
Without my booo
You've been gone for too long
It's been fifty-eleven days, um-teen hours
Imma be burnin' till you return (let it burn)

[Chorus]
When your feeling ain't the same and your body don't want to
But you know gotta let it go cuz the party ain't jumpin' like it used to
Even though this might bruise you
Let it burn (let it burn, let it burn, you gon'learn)
Let it burn (gotta let it burn)
Gotta let it burn

Deep down you know it's best for yourself but you
Hate the thought of her being with someone else
But you know that it's over
you know that it was through
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

[Bridge]
I'm twisted cuz one side of me is tellin' me that I need to move on
On the other side I wanna break down and cry (ooooh)
I'm twisted cuz one side of me is tellin' me that I need to move on
On the other side I wanna break down and cry (yeah)

[Breakdown]
Ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh oooh
Ooh ooh oooh (can ya feel me burnin'?)
Ooh ooh ooh oooh ooh oooh

So many days, so many hours
I'm still burnin' till you return

[Chorus]
When your feeling ain't the same and your body don't want to
But you know gotta let it go cuz the party ain't jumpin' like it used to
Even though this might bruise you
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

Deep down you know it's best for yourself but you
Hate the thought of her being with someone else
But you know that it's over
You know that it was through
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

gah i've felt so bad the past couple nites that i've cried myself to sleep ... and last nite ... i was so upset that i slept w/my teddy bear ... :'( ...

"Tomorrow"
-Avril Lavigne

And I wanna believe you,
When you tell me that it'll be ok,
Ya I try to believe you,
But I don't

When you say that it's gonna be,
It always turns out to be a different way,
I try to believe you,
Not today, today, today, today, today...

[Chorus:]

I don't know how I'll feel,
tomorrow, tomorrow,
I don't know what to say,
tomorrow, tomorrow
Is a different day

It's always been up to you,
It's turning around,
It's up to me,
I'm gonna do what I have to do,
just don't


Gimme a little time,
Leave me alone a little while,
Maybe it's not too late,
not today, today, today, today, today...

[Chorus:]

I don't know how I'll feel,
tomorrow, tomorrow,
I don't know what to say,
tomorrow, tomorrow
Is a different day

Hey yeah yeah, hey yeah yeah, and I know I'm not ready,
Hey yeah yeah, hey yeah yeah, maybe tomorrow

Hey yeah yeah, hey yeah yeah, and I know I'm not ready,
Hey yeah yeah, hey yeah yeah, maybe tomorrow

And I wanna believe you,
When you tell me that it'll be ok,
Yeah I try to believe you,
Not today, today, today, today, today...

Tomorrow it may change [4x]

"Forgotten"
-Avril Lavigne

Ah ah ah ah
Ah ah ah ah
I'm giving up on everything
Because you messed me up
Don't know how much you
Screwed it up
You never listened
That's just too bad
Because I'm moving on
I won't forget
You were the one that was wrong
I know I need to step up and be strong
Don't patronize me
Yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah

[Chorus:]
Have you forgotten
Everything that I wanted
Do you forget it now
You never got It
Do you get it now
Yea yea yea yea yea
Yea yea yea yea yea
Ah ah ah ah
Ah ah ah ah

Gotta get away
There's no point in thinking about yesterday
It's too late now
It won't ever be the same
We're so different now
Yea yea yea yea yea

[Chorus]

I know I wanna run away
I know I wanna run away
Run away
If only I could run away
If only I could run away
Run away
I told you what i wanted I
I told you what i wanted
What I wanted
But I was forgotten
I won't be forgotten
Never Again

[Chorus (2x)]

Forgotten
Yeah yeah yeah
Forgotten
Yeah yeah yeah
Forgotten
Yeah yeah yeah
Forgotten
Yeah yeah yeah

"Together"
-Avril Lavigne

Something just isn't right
I can feel it inside
The truth isn't far behind me
You can't deny

When I turn the lights out
When I close my eyes
Reality overcomes me
I'm living a lie

When I'm alone I
Feel so much better
And when Im around you
I don't feel

[Chorus:]
Together
It doesn't feel right at all
Together
Together we've built a wall
Together
Holding hands we'll fall
Hands we'll fall

This has gone on so long
I realize that i need
Something good to rely on
Something for me

When I'm alone I
Feel so much better
And when Im around you
I don't feel

[Chorus]

My heart is broken
I'm lying here
My thoughts are choking on you my dear
On you my dear
On you my dear

When I'm alone I
Feel so much better
And when Im around you
I don't feel

[Chorus x2]

When I'm around you
When I'm around you
I don't feel together
I don't feel together
When I'm around you
When I'm around you
I don't feel together
I don't feel together