*does a little pose* damnit, my phone died until wednesday, so that sucks. i cant really call ma "friend" (not sure if we're totally friends yet >..>) and go out. BLAH ! we were supposed to yesterday but oh well. i got an email instead. thats great. *sarcasm* blah. well, im getting over that...PERSON that i like sorta.. i kinda came to terms with it, and its nothing bad. blagg. LOL. but yeah, i guess i just wanted a friend like this PERSON and i kinda thought it was more of a crush. blaagh. im stupid. lol but wheeee, boyfreiends back on monday. *does a little dance*
*does a little pose* damnit, my phone died until wednesday, so that sucks. i cant really call ma "friend" (not sure if we're totally friends yet >..>) and go out. BLAH ! we were supposed to yesterday but oh well. i got an email instead. thats great. *sarcasm* blah. well, im getting over that...PERSON that i like sorta.. i kinda came to terms with it, and its nothing bad. blagg. LOL. but yeah, i guess i just wanted a friend like this PERSON and i kinda thought it was more of a crush. blaagh. im stupid. lol
welllp, finished another picceh ^_^ it took a while to paint, and a while to figure out a background. i really hate backgrounds -_-' i think i made a friend jealous the other day >> because i showed him a pic i drew on msn and he went offline LOL. or ....maybe i just lost another friend. thats one thing that can help...promote suicide to a person! *fake thumbs up* i really cant stand having fake friends. thats terribly annoying and hurtful. sure, some ppl are just being nice and feel pity....well pity is even worse. who really wants to be pittiful? x_x
pity is for the weak. or is critisizing and bullying for the weak? weakness is some peoples only powers....
umm..okay, i havent slept since ninepm last night (when i woke up >>) and im all weird from the sun rising ...*stares out window to see dirt* ....sigh, i hate living in the basement =___-
WAAAHH i miss my kooii!! O_o how unfair. when im gone i dont get any screams of "I MISS MY KOI!!!" from hiM! thats right...think angry thoughts...XD jk.. i miss him and all that...erm....
wheee.. uhm.. im kinda happy today ^_^ colin is coming to visit (the other guy that knows who THE PERSON i like is ^_^) but yeah, hes comin down for a few days...and then im gunna hang out with a few more ppl hopefully...wo
Oh Em Gee...now three ppl know who "THE PERSON" is... (thats good for talking to about 20 some ppl today!!) for some reason I feel better about it.. but I can't fess up to anyone in the town where I live though.. If only ppl would take some kinda HINT!........A
But as me friend colin says, (and i dont take this seriously or even CONSIDER IT [dont worry koi ur MINE and im URS if ur reading this nosey boy you] its sick but colin is too o_o!) "hehe, well (x) certainly has nothing on you in the looks department. I think (x)'d jump at the chance to get with you." so hes saying that i dont look for looks XD well hes kinda right there. but then again, my boyfriend is RIGHT sexy. *giggles and blushes and is glad nobody is reading this XD*
wow. im not letting anyone hear me play guitar now >> sheeesh, i let boyfriend hear me play and hes like "well, what song did you want to play bla bla bla maybe another song would be better" in other words.. GAH! i just started the song yesterday! Oo just because hes perfect at playing the drums doesnt mean i can be perfect in a day :S............
WELP, today is me and my koi's six month anniversary thingy.. yeah no biggie for lots of ppl, but since i havent dated any other guy for longer than three months (and before THAT guy it was a month or less >>) LOL! yush, i luff my koi, tho he can be confusing sometimes and make me wonder about him but *SHHHRRRUUUGGG
HELLO EVEERYONE xD! my computer crashed. it was stupid. and we had to take it in after our vacation.. BLAH! lol
DAMNIIITTTT *freaks out like cartman* IM GUNNA HATE GRADE 12!!!!!!!!!!!!
the weather network: "it's going to be a wet one for sunday"
I'm just going to let everyone know I'm really close to the edge...and I'm sure one more hit and I'll be gone... so if I'm not online for like a month, I'm dead... it was nice meeting you all, if anything is to happen, I'll just say it now..
I feel shitty now. i was checking up on someone and got something totally different. oh well. i guess i shouldnt put my trust in anyone. what am i saying? i DONT! i shouldnt be so hurt. im not whining for comments, its good to blerb on here. I cant trust anyone anymore. never again. i try and try and just have it blown up in my face. all my friends keep things from me, so they arent really friends!! only some of em are really awesome.. but still. i cant trust my boyfriend either. hes really seeming...FAKE lately. it doesnt help he ignores things i say, nobody listens to me really. im too annoying and lookin for pity apparently. i whine too too much. im a bitch. i bad talk everyone behind their back. I want everything to go my way. I think im "all that". well if i did.. would i try to kill myself, or sit at the edge of my bed, holding the knife at my wrist, wondering WHY i shouldnt do it? well, im sorry whoever thinks this, but youre wrong. i dont know how ppl see me, its kinda hard when im the one whos talkin. I cant see how you assume i am, but really, i do care. i cant show it. i cant even show my true emotions without beinh scolded or judged. everyone goes throught that. they all have fears of having their outer layer pulled away to expose the beast they are. well sorry folks, people may assume what beast i am underneath, but not one person has it right. in other words, im going to sleep all day tomorrow due to blood loss.. jk >>
I feel lonely x.x'' ugh, now my friend lost his internet.. im gunna have to call him *dies* waah! stupid soap operas are sooo stupid! especially days of our lives. ...its SO dumb.... like all these ppl are supposed to be dead, but for some reason theyre on an island....oO..
another quote...xD....
OMG.....joke of the.. whatever event this is (xD) whats a way to get a man to do sit ups???
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geeze, cats are STUPID. i just put my evil, possessed evil retarded cat in a HUGE fish tank and she ran into the glass o_O and shes like.. six years old!! GAH! stupid cats. i wish i was a dog so i could stick my head out a car window drivin down the street..xD!
what teh crap?! this is messed! i wonder why elftown isnt working oO i wonder what would happen if i was to send a message...kiki
today was kinda weird.. okay well my mark in bio went down to 68 from 70! UGH!! i didnt wanna break that stupid grade!! AHHH!! if only i knew what a niche was...*sighs* anyways.. yeah i cried over it x.x' and then for some reason this one guy in my class forgot my name today o____O OUCH!! i knew this guy for like half a semester *falls over* GAH!
I feel...angsty kinda...blah. >>' I just feel like.... nobody really cares in school if im there or not..well except my boyfriend who came to the school even tho he had no umm final....but friendwise i really need some more. i have many but i still feel like something is missing.......
meh. i feel kinda.. bland today. i dunno...watchi