music - scarlet by strung out
mood - average?? suuuure.
blaahhhh hmm i sorta miss having a significant other... since that wasnt for like what a year and some now? ahaha yes, most the ppl i date arent significant (sorry ummm all but like two) !!
*takes break to droll over phil labonte* aaahh hes hot!!
okay, back to the other stuff *brushes off drool* i sorta miss doing things haha i miss somethings that brooks actually gave me. i want a man damnit! (or woman.. whatever... haha goodluck to me x____X ) but aahhh!!! its been long enough, this lady needs something! im always fuckin single on christmas i want that to change!!!!! lol
ok done rantin, ciaoooo
music - obscure by dir en grey!
mood - fucking confused!!
wtf is with girls!!! ok ok ok i know i was weird towards a girl before and she had no clue why i avoided her but i think my reason was more reasonable than this girl at work. she was cool etc i talked to her whatever she was nice, then i asked what sorta music she liked and she said country and i went BOOOO im a rocker and she got all weird. lol. she wont even make eye contact with me now wtf goddd i am destined never to have a female friend. fuck em! i can survive talkin to guys and guys alone lol and maybe like.....three girls. :)
other than that... the xmas party was fun!! i got so drunk hahaha i threw up and cried and talked and talked and talked and hugged and took weird pics (only three MY CAMERA KEPT DYING AND MY PARENTS DIDNT LET ME STAY OUT LATE) but really all i did was talk with tha guys. the girls were playing fuckin card games i was sittin with the guys and talkin.... captain morgan spiced rum is the shit!!!!! :D
ciaooo
music - i have some fuckin elf song by the barenaked ladies stuck in my head (ooo naked ladddiieeesss.
mood - content
well work was okay today, some girl was kinda emo and another keeps insisting i go to the work party. i wanna cuz i like some of the ppl there, but i dont like quite a few. lol. some are fuckin pushy and some are so fake it makes my teeth melt.
:) kevin if u read this (prolly not but just incase!).... ur tat kicks ass. (yes yes i had to say it again!)
music _ stone sour - bother
mood _ rtiruigdkfjdl^
hmmm well im happy i have like 88% in my psych 35 class, kick ass. :) six more books to go, 200 pages to read! im up for it, maybe in january i'll get movin, since i only have like two days off a week. money rulesssss!!!!! i cant wait to get the fuckin surplus cheque, i might get a band around my leg or some design. i duno. im likin the black stuff. :)
other than that....work party saturday! i hope its fuckin fun, i dont know. i only get along with all the guys and two girls so far.. one pissed me off hard core. now i know why she doesnt have many girl-friends..
but guys arent that fun either, they are only nice if they want something... lol. whether its to feel good about being nice or sex.
hmm end rant here //////
ciao
wellly wellly welllly work was okay, some old lady spazzed on me for asking to see ID...whats the fucking deal its store policy dont yell at me! arghhh!!! lol
other htan that im cracked up on coffee and i cant wait to get my surplus cheque! EWOOO!
hmm lets see i got a magazine today. MCR is great. die all u fuckers who think its cool to hate My Chemical ROmance! anyone who just doesnt like them for them is ok. *dances down stairs* ....hmmm what else... i got a new fish today xD one of the tetras i had died, also my shark did when i was in brooks.... i was sooo sad!! he was my first in this big ten gallon tank i have. i still have my puffer... im gunna post a pic of him i think. :D
i realized something.... in a few years i bet ANYTHING if the shit that i have with guys keeps happenin i am SOOO goin lesbo. ahaha i swear i have some of the "symptoms" anyways... like really. >_>; i duno if i can do it though, i still think guys are hot, and i would never become butch, or want some butch lady either (they are usually if not always...fat.) but gawd i love talkin to guys, they dont talk about what they do, they talk about funny things or interesting things not.. "I went to the bar lastnight and omg i was there with billy bob and we ran allover and i slept at two" they talk more about how they almost died or actually ask me about myself XD i love guys. but i duno, i can totally see me going lesbo. all u phobes, die! :)
just....love sucks, i totally give up. i will never ever love a guy again. lol, seriously. it cant happen, since im not good enough etc etc and am a bitch etc etc and what have ya.
well, im done ranting. see ya later whoever reads these! XD
ciao
hmmmmmmmm u kno, a random thought.... what would i even miss if i died, like really? :) im not emo, just *shoots self*
D:
mood_annoyed a bit
music_alexison
hmmm this one dude i told i was bi to is sending me profiles of "emo" girls....ewww they look preppy and poserish (aka half the warped tour crowd this summer)...grosssssss!
other than that i realized that in my whole life ive only been emotionally attatched to like two people outside my family (if even them....lol) its interesting... one was a girl, one was a guy. hm. i guess i wont be attatched to anyone anytime soon. ahahahaha whatever. i gotta let go. its so hard!! *gets drunk*
im excited about the christmas work party, hopefully my friend can come down as my guest :D and we'll get drunk and do kareoke!! im so gunna take some piccehs. :)
u know what i slept all day. there goes my paycheck and my upgrading ahaha i was supposed to get my void cheque today and also hand in some of the school work shit i got done. oooo well i got tomorrow i guess.
work fun, i am gunna burn a cd of my punk muzik for someone at work... go spreadin the word! :)
its only been my second day at work but i must say it again... i luv work so far XDDD i just love hearing random peoples stories they tell me, even if its just for three minutes or so. like really i talk to everyone like i know them, so they do the same. i get dirty looks until i open my mouth. :) weird huh!!! everyone KNEW i liked punk/metal music. once i said it they were like YAAAA, yaaa. :D :D :D wheeee sucess money and ummm....sex?? i might go to the christmas party too on the tenth (since i duno if i will have 40 bucks to spend to go to the hat to stand for three hours then go back home.....lol)
cheeeeerrs anyone who reads this! *high fives jason*
mood_ content!
first day of work and i talk to basically everyone! XD i think im gunna get along and work just fine there, i screw up when stupid old ladies are like OOOOOOO UR DOING A GGGRREEAAATTT JOOOOBBBBBB and everyone kept telling me how great my personality was. haha im such a fake arent i ;)
aaahhaaaaaaah omg im banned from deviantart for telling a random person one of my exes (the last one i dated... FUCKFACE DIE VIKEDAL DIE) um yes i told the random person he was impotant so now i am banned for a day. hahahah weird.
math is so hard to take at home! i soooo cant get the fucking word problems, i suck hard core at those.
work tomorrow! :D
mood_whee!
music_death by stereo - death conspiracy
wheeee i went to brooks and hung out with my bestest friend ever for about two hours. it was fun, i tried some of his sexy food and we messed around. ya it's good to see him, since i have nobody else in brooks to visit! *smites certain people who live there* but yessssss i might get to spend like two days with him if he forces his parents to take us the the Hat :) wheee finally something fun. i have nobody here lmao. the loser that did stalk me finally shut up once i told him i'd never ever have sex with him in my whole life. hahahaa :D wade is such a loser.
upgrading has officially begun! YESSSSSSS!!!!!
i could say it, but i wont;
i feel it, but i shouldnt.
THE END!
i duno what to do, i wish i wasnt such a weird person when it comes to these unresolved feelings. die heart die! eat a tater tot and choke!!!! </3 ok im fine now.
mood_ annoyed, but content
music_none atm
holy fuck my dad is being a prick. :S ok so i try the mohawk look and he hasnt talked to me for like four days. lmao, talk about being a tard. sure hes antisocial but now he wont even go in the kitchen when im there. haha.....wtf.
sooooo i start work monday! hurrah! huzzah and such! im gunna be on cashier and such, so it'll be good to finally have some experience (rather than old skool cash register in brooks).
hmmmmmmmmm im excited, i start work thursday or sometime after that, and i decided on my first tattoo!! excitedness plus! :D im gunna get a snake (or if i find a better dragon design) on the outter part of my leg, above my ankle (not sure how to explain!) im gunna get it when i get my surplus cheque, and my friend and possibly my sister are gonna get tats aswell, fun stuff! im stoked! and tomorrow i get my things for the correspondance upgrading shit. i'll need some help if there's any math nerds out there!
other than that im startin to think my love life is over hahaha. seriously the only guys interested just wanna u know, have sex or something. not many guys ive dated were different but some werent as creepy about it thats for sure. i miss normal dating!! ARGH!! why did i have to be such a bitch lol... ooooooo well. maybe i'll find this person elsewhere, i just cant get my mind off things. BLAHHHHH EMO EMO EMO! *hits head* >_<!
oooooooooooooo
ATREYU IS RECORDING ANOTHER CD YEY!!! *waits six months* that means they'll prolly be comin to canada again! im excited! but have nobody to go with! wait.. I DO! YEY!
yaa for anyone who wastes their time readin these, um thanks for caring if there's any of you (besides jason of course, who reads everyones journals NOW DONT YOU BUDDY.) if it even means u care if youre reading this. cheers imaginary internet ppl!