music - trashed lost and strungout by children of bodom
mood - kinda annoyed

wow i was happy for about three minutes there. my fucking sister, the one thats a year older than me, is a fucking bitch. i renounce my relation to her!! i even said it to her i was like "i dont know you." and that was that.

fuckkk tho omg i cant wait to leave lethbridge idont see myself meeting too many people here. ahhh im a loner maybe i'll never fit in, that is fine. whatever. ahahh im dying young anyways so i mind aswell not care that im alone now! RIGHT!!!

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*buys cyanide*

:) have a nice day.

hmmm nothing new, well i went to a birthday party for like ummmm half an hour with coworkers at ezzies - it was ok, but i was sooo out of place, so i went home. and got bitched at the next day for leaving. :) but i really just wasnt in a good mood that day (hides emo self)... hey when you're me you'll understand why i do what i do.

other than that.. a girl at work tried to open a door and hit her head really hard against it instead. haha good stuff.

D: who said being gay was gross in my poll!!! haha o well, thats just the majority for ya! booooo! (i put the answer there so i deserved it)

other than that i finally got hit on by a sxxy girl, sadly just on deviantart. o well! its a start! :3

i am not in a fucking good mood.

....

*puches wall and leaves*

omg aahh i feel like shit now for some reason. i just feel so unloved though people show me love everyday..... something is missing, damnit. and i wont find it anytime soon. i usually dont give a shit but now its just building up (thus this emo journal for anyone who wants to read it pokes jason) not that im doin it for ppl to read, just a rant. thats all.

iiiiimmm sooo loonnneeelllyyyyyyy aahhhhhhh why can't i find love arrgghhhh i always fall for the wrong person. i wish i was straight, then i'd be moderately happy (except the fact that guys just use me most the time anyways... >.>)

uuuhhhgghhh fuck i hate me right now. aahh!! *throws dart at face*

ok i feel better... or do i? nope. a little. blah! fuck everything... *gets toaster and goes to bathroom*

hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm i said the most lesbian thing ever to my dad today on the ride home. i got some dude's email from work and i was like yyeeyyy but i dont like him, and i was tellin my dad this.. then i said

"i only like guys as friends"

aahh im not a lesbian i swearrr!!

D:

aaaaaaaaaaaa this sucks, why can't i just like boys aahhh! D:

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa beccca has a crush on someone again aaaaaaaaaa but not ugly like that fucking bitch i liked in grade eleven i dont know what was with that! buuut the person is dorky like my last crush (just looks different) D: !!

hahahaah wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee my ear fucking hurtsssss its infeeeccccttteeddd....anyone wanna see!

music - IVE HAD NUFF TONITE!
mood - wheeeee!

aaahh ooohh wheeeeeeeee i had fun tonite. hoop hoop i got ur hoops bitch!!! tip over the boat and tyler too!

happyt new years whee theres a 06/06/06 this year! AAHH D:

music - image of the invisible by thrice
mood -- pleased

mmmmmm idont think im goin anywhere today iwas invited but some ppl werent so it makes me feel bad. its all girls and one dude.. comfortable it is NOT!!!

aaa i pierced my ears again, my ears have huge "flaps" near the top so they barely show, so after eight days i get big balls hhaha qwoooO!!! i also got bright blue hairdye, kick arse! and four cds. i love gettin paid. thats all though, and a shirt. the rest goes to umm.. whatever... the future! *holds flag*

music - razorblade kiss - HIM [SHUT UP U ASSES THAT CALL HIM GAY U CAN DIE! :) ]
mood - happy for once!

aha work was interesting just as i was pissy and thinkin about quitting (lunch issues ok i can NOT wait til 3 to eat AHHH low blood pressure!!) some lady comes up and kept complimenting my hair etc haha and then i went to lunch etc and she came back and one girl i work with came and told me about how someone didnt get change and apparently i forgot to give this lady change, so by remembering it was her, she gave me ten bucks XD! HOW NICE!!! ahahaha and i got so many compliments today from people it was so nice. i love it. :)

other than that... ummmmmm uhhhh PANTIES!
ciao

one quick thing, exmas was nice, work was okay today, i worked 11 hours and the fuckers didnt let me eat til 2 when i got there at seven, those bitches!! haha o well, they are all ther mostly til eight, i got home at six hahahaha. whee MONEY MONEY MONEY MONEY!!!!!!!!

o ya also, the new coheed and cambria cd is awesome. its so fuckin powerful, you know theres lots of meaning in there. they're considered "EMO" but you know what.. there is not a single scream, not a single persion with makeup or black hair. they are prog-rock, so fuck you AP for callin them emo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

whee claudio sanchez's hair is so fluffy. :D

ciao

um yes merry christmas bitches, my christmas was nice. got lotsa stuff for my mom (FOR ONCE) and ya i didnt get much but that isnt the point. im happy with it! whee sexy scarf! and my friend got me a pricey bracelet i luv him so much!! :3 he tried on my nipple rings i gave him too, wicked stuff they fit! WHEEEEEE MERRY CHRISTMAS - ONTO HELLISH BOXING DAY WORK FOR THIRTEEN HOURS!! AHHHH!H!!!!!

music - some beach boy christmas crap in the background!
mood - <3

aahhh i SO have a thing for dorks aahhh!! omg omg omg hahaha i sorta have a crush on someone at work aahh. *gets email* :3

music - throw me away by Korn
mood - excited for christmas!!

whee ya last journal til christmas or later or something (who even reads these?? *shoves jason in basement*) but aaahh i like the new korn cd. theres lots of mixing done to it, but it still has that neat korn feel we all love (if u dont, EAT A SPOON OF TAR, BOOO!!!) it was only like 15 bucks. i mean i do miss Head, he was a good guitarist... but noooo he had to leave the band when he got all christian.. that kinda sucks. id stay in for the music but FINE FINE FINE *cuts his braid things off* :)

im psycho today.

cheers!

music - umm weird christmas stuff on shaw cable channel!
mood - interested :3

haha today was a fun day at work. i had the best pizza ever!!!! it was like some monterey jack steak pizza aahh sex. but very very fattening. some girl was cracked out, another was zombified (no sleep since thursday thank god im not in colledge) and then all these customers were like "look honey that girl has blue hair!" ....hahahahahha ok grama dear, its been happenin for decades now :)

but aahh something at work made me blush and now im still red. i think im gunna be sick! aahh!!!!!!! i have like measles or soething. *shares drinks with everyone!*

hmm other than that i sooo cant wait til january when my friend comes to visit! i am gettin a tat FINALLY AAIIEIEEEEEE maybe one on my neck, i cant decide that yet. i have to get it soon though before u kno i run outta money and get a car/laptop/license/clothes/cds....etc.

ciao anyone who actually reads this!

music - umm tv???
mood - aahhh! <3

omg hahaaha so i guess the dark hair makes me look good or something....... these two guys came in at work and one forgot to gave me change and the other dude was like GIVE HER A HUUUGG and they both hugged me.. and they were super hot!! aaahhhh!!!!!!! i was so red (when they left) omggggg hahahahahahah. and like 495849 other ppl complimented my hair like they knew what it looked like before... lmao. and everyone felt my hair at work aahh >.>;;;;;;;;;;;; *runs away*

hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm other than that ummm yes whee more work! aahh i love my hair!

ciao

music - none aah my head hurttsssss more like scalp
mood - mmm ok

aaah so i did some x mas shoppin today, i got my friends something and my mom something. now for my sis and dad. wooot. ;) it was good, i was happy to get money, i didnt even get 500 (fuckin hold back a week aahhhh!! GIMME MA MONEEEHHH!!!!) buuut ya i have about 300 in the bank im gunna save for a lap top and shit.

aaahhh so i spent all the fuckin night doing my hair. first i got it cut and shit, then i bleached it, i had to do it twice, then i dyed it dark blue and added pink streaks. the pink washed out right aways so i have to do that over... but i think it looks ok. i'll post a good pic soon. :O if anyone even cares hahaha mlllaaahhhhhhh whatever!!!!

ciao

music - hmm none
mood - annoyed omgggg

haha well i had a nice chat with my friend matt on the phone he got drunk called me and we talked for like three hours woooot

haha u know what pisses me off when ppl are mean to me when they are around other people. oh ya youre cool!

o well, pay day tomorrow! i cant wait to buy my friends gifts and shit :)

ciao

music - scarlet by strung out
mood - average?? suuuure.

blaahhhh hmm i sorta miss having a significant other... since that wasnt for like what a year and some now? ahaha yes, most the ppl i date arent significant (sorry ummm all but like two) !!

*takes break to droll over phil labonte* aaahh hes hot!!

okay, back to the other stuff *brushes off drool* i sorta miss doing things haha i miss somethings that brooks actually gave me. i want a man damnit! (or woman.. whatever... haha goodluck to me x____X ) but aahhh!!! its been long enough, this lady needs something! im always fuckin single on christmas i want that to change!!!!! lol

ok done rantin, ciaoooo